The autumn sun is very comfortable with the cool autumn wind, the golden leaves fall on the ground and accumulate a thick layer, stepping on the soft, and the sound of fine fragments, I like the autumn season very much, I found a place to get the sun and sat down, watching the golden sun slowly fall, the sky gradually dyed a layer of blue.

"Miss Cheng, you've been sitting here for half an hour, if I don't see you sitting here, how long are you going to sit here? Why not go home? His voice was always warm, and he spoke slowly enough to make every word clear. He gently rubbed Cheng Wangshu's hair with his hand, and then slowly sat down beside Cheng Wangshu.

"How do you know I'm sitting here? Aren't you studying on your own? "Because she has finished school, Cheng Wangshu's hair itself is very long, and it hurts to tie the ponytail on her scalp every day, so she usually spreads her hair after school, and such black hair looks good when the wind blows up.

"It's been an hour since school ended, and the playground is empty, so you can see people sitting here at a glance."

"How can you be sure it's me? In case it's some other girl. ”

"Just try your luck, if not, you should come out and take a breath. What's wrong with you, and what's wrong with it? In fact, he would watch her back as she came home at this time every day.

"It's nothing, I just don't want to go home, my home is like a hotel, and the people at home are too strange and awkward." Cheng Wangshu wrapped his hand around the hair that was blown up by the wind, the smell of her very clean shampoo surrounded Song Ran's side, his heart was tickled, and he slapped her hand several times and took it back when she didn't notice it.

"Isn't that your grandmother? Why have I only met a few times? He sighed, shook his hands, and said.

"I don't know the specifics, I just know that as soon as my dad was born, she left my dad and divorced, and she hasn't come to see me for so many years, and she didn't recognize me the last time I met her at the school gate." The corners of Cheng Wangshu's mouth showed a slight sneer.

"That's all about the previous generation, and it has nothing to do with you."

"But I just don't like her, and I can't get close, and her attitude towards me is not familiar with a grandmother's doting and closeness to her grandchildren, which is more like a kind of guilt and compensation. He also gave me 100 yuan this morning, saying that it was pocket money. ”

"If you don't want to be close, then don't force yourself, just live your life normally, and don't treat these things as a burden." His voice is still faintly gentle, and the tone in which he speaks to Cheng Wangshu is always gentle and gentle, with occasional doting and intimacy.

"Let's go, I'll take you home." He picked up Cheng Wangshu's schoolbag and stood up.

"Ah, wait a minute...... My leg is numb, it hurts! The tingling sensation in his calf made Cheng Wangshu's expression deformed.

"Can you be a little more stupid?" Although it was a complaint, the tone was full of spoiling.

"Come on, I'll carry you back."

"No need, let me slow down, it should be fine, you don't have to send me back, I can go back by myself."

"What if you're running away from home?"

"I'm not a kid anymore, I don't do such childish things. Go back and study. ”

"I don't feel at ease if you go back alone, even if you go back to study, you won't feel at ease, your home is not far away, and it won't take much time for me to send you back and come back." As he spoke, he took Cheng Wangshu's wrist and walked in the direction of home.

Cheng Wangshu let Song Ran take her wrist and walk, she looked up at the big boy, and felt a little happy in her heart, this domineering probably belongs to her alone.

"Grandma, I'm back?"

"Why did you come back so late? I'm going to pick you up from school tomorrow! ”

"Don't go, I'm already in high school, and today's class cleaning, plus I'm not very good at homework, so my classmates gave me a lecture, so I'm a little late."

"Your parents just called."

"When did they say they would be back?"

"I said that I would stay in Harbin for a week, and I didn't take the report."

"Aang, okay, I'll call them later."

It's also embarrassing for this old man, dinner is carefully prepared, fried meat with eggplant, fried meat with beans, are all dishes that Cheng Wangshu loves to eat, in order not to make this old man too sad, Cheng Wangshu also worked hard to eat a lot.

After dinner, Cheng Wangshu was about to wash his hair, and his grandmother came over and asked cautiously, "I'll wash it for you." ”

"No, I can do it myself." She didn't insist too much and quietly went back to the living room.

Cheng Wangshu was holding his hair while talking to his parents on the phone. In the end, I couldn't bear to see the old man's disappointed appearance, and I still agreed to help her clip her hair.

"Mom, grandma said you two will not be back in a week, how is my dad's illness?"

"Well, your father and I may need another week to go back, it's nothing, you listen to grandma at home, eat well, and study hard."

"Well, I know, the phone bill is quite expensive, let's not talk about it first, let's go study."

"Well, I'll dry my hair and go."

"Didn't you wash your hair at night, it's easy to get a headache."

"I'll blow it dry, don't say anything, hang up, bye-bye."

Grandma's technique was very rusty, and the splint burned her scalp, which was not particularly serious, so I took the splint from her hand.

"Wangshu, when you lived with your grandfather before, did you get along like this?"

"Pretty much."

"Will he comb your hair for you?"

"No, because my long hair was only grown after my grandfather died. My mother didn't let me keep my long hair, so I took care of it myself. When mentioning his grandfather, Cheng Wangshu's expression was still a lot softer.

"And what kind of person is your grandfather?"

"He, his hair is very white, and he is very interesting, when he was young, he often took me everywhere to play, he was also very strict with me, he had to read books every day, read a lot of books, and would give me good food, he never lost his temper with me, when I was a child, once I ran far away to play, he couldn't find me, he called my parents, and when I came back, my grandfather was so angry, but he was reluctant to beat me, but he was gone...... "Cheng Wangshu can hold back and not cry about anything, But when I mentioned my grandfather, I couldn't stop my tears, but I didn't want my grandmother to see her tears, so I lowered my head and went back to the room.

Probably because she mentioned her grandfather yesterday, Grandma Cheng felt that she might have made her unhappy, so Grandma Cheng didn't dare to talk to Cheng Wangshu from the morning, so she quietly accompanied her to breakfast, and said to her before leaving: "Wangshu, grandma hasn't taken care of your father and you all these years, so I want to take care of you." ”

"Don't say that, I'm not angry, I'm just not happy."

Cheng Wangshu picked up his schoolbag and went downstairs, and the slender shadow reflected on the ground was Song Ran!

"Why are you here?" Cheng Wangshu was surprised why he was here.

"I thought about it, even though the school hours are different, we can still go to school together." His shadow in the morning sun stands as tall as his people.

"But what if I leave school early?"

"How can you little lazy worm not stay in bed, and almost every day you step on the bell of morning self-study into the classroom."

"Let's go, Miss Cheng, you still have 11 minutes." As he spoke, he pulled Cheng Wangshu towards his bicycle.

"If I don't pick you up today, you'll be late." It was also the first time I sat on the back of his bike. The last time I rode on the back seat of a bicycle was a few years ago, when my grandfather was still alive.

The leaves of the trees in late autumn are all golden, the morning sun is also golden, he is also golden, sitting in the back seat of him, I can smell the leaves in the air, I can hear the chirping of autumn cicadas, looking at the students on the road wearing sky blue school uniforms, they all have a secret of their own, or a piece of clothing, or a pen, and my secret is a sun, the only sun that warms me.

Since that day, Cheng Wangshu and her grandmother have gradually talked less, she seems to be afraid of touching things that Cheng Wangshu doesn't want to talk about, and Cheng Wangshu really has nothing to talk about this unfamiliar grandmother, and the two of them have been "silent" with each other for two weeks.

Finally got her parents back, Cheng Wangshu thought that she would have a meal together at home before leaving, but she didn't expect her to make a dinner for the family and put the key at home, and left before her parents arrived home.

"Mom, how about seeing a doctor this time?"

"It's okay, I'll buy the medicine first and come back to eat."

The mother's appearance didn't seem to want to say more, and Cheng Wangshu didn't want to ask anymore, but in fact, he didn't dare to ask, so he went back to the room.

Over the years, Cheng Wangshu has always had the same dream, in which she always runs in a maze, and there is always a woman in a long white dress chasing her behind her......

The days always fly by, the autumn leaves fall in a blink of an eye, the frost and snow in Qinghe have accumulated a thin layer, Song Ran still goes downstairs to Cheng Wangshu's house every day to wait for her to go to school together, Cheng Wangshu prefers to say that he made a special trip to pick him up to class.

Father's illness is still not improving, and the temper tortured by the illness is getting worse and worse, she often can't laugh in front of him, when she laughs, her father will feel that she is gloating, she can't cry, when she cries, her father will feel that she is crying and losing her face, Cheng Wangshu is more and more reluctant to go home.

Cheng Wangshu's personality is also becoming more and more eccentric, because he doesn't want to look too embarrassed, so he often stares at the sky and laughs wildly.

After a long time, Song Ran also saw that the problem was coming, and often asked with concern, is something wrong? I don't know why looking at his concerned eyes, Cheng Wangshu just couldn't tell him about her grievances, just stared at the distance and left a few tears, then wiped away the tears and said with a smile It's nothing, I just don't want to go home.

He can always easily see Cheng Wangshu's fragility and stubbornness, every time he wants to give this girl comfort, he is rejected by this girl, she is so strong that people feel distressed, looking at her tears, his heart seems to be blocked.

"There are many things that cannot be solved by escaping, you have to learn to face them." He could only comfort her with the most sensible words.

"You don't understand, you're not me, you don't know what my life is like, so you can easily say it." Cheng Wangshu's tone suddenly became excited.

I don't know if it was his comfort that pierced Cheng Wangshu's hard-working strength and became angry, or because he didn't want Song Ran to see her imperfections, in short, she lost her temper and threw him in the cold wind and ran home.

Cheng Wangshu didn't look back at his face that day, so she didn't know that his expression was so distressed, and she didn't know how much this boy wanted to give her a hug.