Last time, I talked about jumping off a building.

(a)

Chang Xia looked out the window, there were few pedestrians in the building room in the distance, the sky was rolling with white clouds, and the grass under the window was fine and slight.

"Let's jump together!" Xia's eyes were scattered and tempted Wu Min, his life was full of dreams, but he was always stuck here, and there was always a rope around his neck that could not be untied, and the rope was tightened by others at any time.

A light feather, a falling petal, a pair of butterfly wings that want to fly, jump down, fly away from the window, and leave here forever. No more tiresome endless bickering, no more breathless suppression.

The man on the opposite floor poked his head out of the window.

Chang Xia threw down the bag in his hand first, the bag fell, and he fell to the ground with a heavy falling sound, and after a few heel fights, he fell to the ground.

Chang Xia was scared, not flying in mythology, but cruel death in reality. A wave of abhorrence, this is death. In the ward, summer often witnessed death, the breath could no longer penetrate the nostrils of the deceased, and the chest stiffened like a plank.

Chang Xia often looked at the body that had lost consciousness without moving, especially its lips, its dead white lips would never open again, and it could no longer laugh. You can't turn back time, and to die is to die forever. It was about to return to the furnace, turning into a wisp of smoke and leaving a pile of residue.

The audience was gloomy and speechless, and the family members gathered around the bed and wept. This is death, not Du Liniang's death in "The Peony Pavilion", because she still has a soul, but once Chang Xia jumps......

At this critical moment, there was a quick, angry knock on the door outside, accompanied by the angry roar of an elderly man: "What are you doing? ”

Chang Xia suddenly woke up from the sick excitement just now, and rushed to the fence like a sleepy beast that had woken up: "Uncle, auntie, help me open the door, he won't let me go to a friend's party." ”

"This kid, what's the matter, Chang Xia is going to go to why are you locking up people." The aunt angrily pushed the door outside, and Xia answered the door inside.

"Open the door, you brute, how can there be such a thing, do you want me to break your leg with an axe." The uncle scolded angrily and continued to knock on the door.

After the door opened, Xia and the man with a stubborn head and a face full of tears appeared. "Seed! Shame on me every day! The gray-haired uncle stamped his foot, refused to stay in the house for a minute, and went downstairs with his aunt.

This body is full of shame and pain. Still echoing her cry just now, she threw things down from the high eighth-floor window, screaming: "Let's jump off the building, let's run off the building." "Life is full of dreams, but it's stranded here.

The downstairs neighbors poked their heads out of the windows, but none of them pretended not to see. Wu Min stood in the room with a pale face, his lips trembling.

After Wu Min's father opened the door, she went downstairs lightly.

Walking through the hospital, passing by the emergency room of the hospital, I happened to see a dead young woman lying on the emergency bed, covered with white sheets, and a girl who looked like her next to her covered her frighteningly wide eyes with her hands.

After stroking the palm, her eyes were still terribly open, and she looked at the world unwillingly with the despair of being dead.

The young girl cried and threw herself into the arms of an elderly woman next to her. A group of people were talking and sighing. It seems that a husband and wife committed suicide because of a quarrel and turned on the gas.

Chang Xia stood there in a trance, "Am I going to do this too?" I'm just over twenty years old."

At the age of twenty-one, she almost disappeared from this world.

quarreled like this for several years, from her 19 years old to 25 years old.

(b)

But how many sins Chang Xia has done at such an age to strangle many innocent lives that have not been formed.

Years later, countless nights she still woke up in nightmares, in which countless little hands pounced on her; Or she was tied up by a hideous-looking madman, surrounded by a thick black fog; Or she falls endlessly into the invisible abyss with thick black lumps.

She woke up from her dream in a panic, hugged Hyun tightly, and pressed her throat to scream and moan hoarsely.

Bai Xian sank into his hazy sleep, unconsciously and habitually patted Chang Xia's back with his hand, and made a hypnotic sound of "oh oh" in his mouth like coaxing a child to sleep.

After a while, he went back to sleep. Her head was pressed against Bai Xian's chest, and with the help of his breathing in the muddy and the sound of his heart, she slowly returned to the Yang Realm.

Even if Chang Natsu knew at that time that she would be slowly cut and roasted on the fire of hell, if she was given another choice. Gritting her teeth, she would still say: That's it.

The last quarrel. After returning to the single house. The next morning, Chang Xia suddenly covered her mouth and bent over to the pool, a wave of nausea rushed up, she grabbed one arm on the head of the tap, and buried her whole head in the pool. It took her a long time to ease up.

Who's chanting the spell? She obviously took the contraceptive pill, but why, but she was pregnant again, is the contraceptive pill fake? No way. The birth control pill was prescribed by her from the hospital.

Hearing footsteps behind her, she raised her head, her eyes filled with tears. She looked at Wu Min, and Wu Min also looked at her, "Oh my God! Wu Min muttered.

He didn't see any joy on the surface.

He is an only son, and his family has been urging him to get married. "You can't give our family a last day, hurry up and have a child. It would be nice to have a child. Father said.

Mother is also sighing again and again: "When will you two quarrel like this?" Those who fell in love later than you are all married. ”

"What's the solution? She had already been prescribed contraceptive pills from the hospital. Wu Min was a little irritable.

"Is it a little white pill?" Mother asked. "Yes." Wu Min replied.

"Tomorrow I'll go find Dr. Wang from our clinic." Mother said.

The next day, his mother secretly handed him a bottle of white pills that looked similar and said, "Pour these pills into her bottle and don't let her find out." Alas, what a wicked worker. What's the solution. A woman is relieved to have a child. I didn't feel at ease and accepted my fate. ”

It seems that the pills given by the mother are really effective, not contraception, but the child.

"Do you want this kid or not? It came out of place. Am I going to let this little unformed thing decide my fate? No, I'm not reconciled. ”

I remember when I was a child, when I came home from school, there were sounds of arguing and talking in the small kitchen behind the house. She poked her head out and saw her father standing stiffly in the middle of the kitchen like a red-crowned rooster.

And the mother added firewood to the stove under the stove, how thin the mother was, she almost shrank into the stove, only the red light of the stove reflected the mother's thin shoulders.

Broken eggs flowed from his father's feet, and the overturned pumps were brutally pressed against the broken eggshells. It must have been my father who drank too much wine and scolded my mother for a reason.

It is estimated that the mother only retorted a few words lightly, and the father pulled out the drawer from the cabinet like Hei Li Kui wielding two plate axes, and overturned the drawer full of eggs to the ground.

Chang Xia shrank behind the door in fear. My mother had forgotten to cry many years ago, and had only a dull and silent face, mechanically adding firewood to the stove.

"Is he going to be like when I was a child, listening to my parents' endless quarrels, hiding under the covers and shivering with fear? From the moment he opened his eyes, he saw the ugliness of this world. “

"Even if I strangled ten children with my own hands, I would not want one child to be born among us."

(c)

"It's just a foreign substance that he planted into me, and this creature has nothing to do with me. I'm willing to destroy it. and not let him control my life in the future. ”

"What's left in my body, it's an earthworm, it's a broken nail, I'm going to take it off."

"The souls of two people never met, but the biomolecules did. ”

"From the moment it was born, it was filled with resentment. This little creature became a chain that would be around my neck and tie me to his feet all day long. ”