Chapter 18: Returning Home
The rain fell on the surface of the lake, raising countless small cobwebs, and the golden fish swam around in groups on the surface of the water, spitting bubbles, and went to the water's edge in groups of threes and twos, groping for something in the entanglement of tree roots.
The windshield wipers were dense and smashed on their arms, cool, even if it brought infinite pleasure and coolness to the hot summer, the students still sped up, covered their heads with books, and shouted "It's big!" as they ran. It's big! ”。
The rain is indeed getting heavier and heavier, and the water on the ground has gathered into a river, pouring into the sewers, and the leaves are quietly washed, not arrogant or impatient, and the shiny leaves have restored the good spirit of the morning.
How wonderful the rain curtain is, the sky and the earth are connected by this line, to achieve a certain kind of information communication.
Luo Luo seems to have stolen some information, and she came to the lake with an umbrella.
When the big fish heard the movement, he flicked his tail and dived into the depths, Luo Luo saw it in his eyes and thought in surprise, "This fish is really sensitive, how can it be so sensitive!" ”。 She was curious about everything, so she used to be, and even more so now.
"Wu Laiyou, how can this fish be so sensitive", she asked in a loud voice. On the current campus, it is estimated that she is alone in the rain.
"You have so many questions, even the fish are interested in them".
"I don't know, they all say that the fish are stupid, and the memory is only seven seconds, those seven seconds have passed, why haven't they come back to the water's edge again, have they forgotten that they have just been to the water's edge?"
Wu Lai ignored her and just smiled.
In fact, Luo Luo didn't really have much interest in fish, she was just empty in her heart, for some reason this melancholy feeling occupied her heart, she wanted to find someone to say a few words, saying anything was good, and saying anything could temporarily help her expel this kind of abruptness.
Maybe she's homesick.
It's been three months since I left home.
Since school, she rarely feels homesick, and almost never goes home between winter and summer vacations, she likes to stay in school, even the dormitory, just stay inside, watch dramas, eat snacks and sleep, occasionally go to the library to read books, stay all day, this kind of life makes her comfortable and peaceful, and the idle and indifferent days never seem to be boring.
But what happened a month ago turned her life completely upside down, a whole new world broke into her, unfolded without her consent, and she realized the illusion of the current world, as if everything around her was false.
It's like being in a movie, she feels like she has nowhere to lean, a sense of dazity that transcends everything surrounds her, she doesn't know what will happen in the next second, and what everything she is experiencing now means.
After sensing the people around her to draw her energy, she began to have another feeling - déjà vu!
Yes, when she goes to a strange place, she will feel that she has an impression of this place at a certain moment, a vague but certain impression, and this situation is more and more frequent, or since a certain moment, it has not been interrupted.
A conjecture came to her mind - I had experienced it all, and the timeline could be rewound or repeated!
As for what the truth is, she doesn't know, these questions are like spoons, digging into her brain little by little.
It's not a lie, her memory is getting worse and worse, and her head is sometimes like an empty jar, and her thoughts are buzzing in that empty jar.
She became more and more quiet, spending most of her time alone, staying alone by the lake and quietly watching the fish, or walking lightly on the road to campus, or watching something in a daze at Dr. Wan Qian's residence.
Except for the night, she would always be sleepy for a while, whether she slept or not, and when she woke up again, it was like a reboot of body parts, and everything returned to the freshness of the morning, and everything that happened to her before the confusion was as far away as the previous life.
If someone asked her what she had done in the morning, she could find the memories, but it would be as difficult for her to recall the dream she had last night, a vague sense of familiarity, but a hard time telling what the details were.
She felt like she was not only a purifier, but also a forgetful purifier.
Today, standing by the lake, watching the lake and the rain merge into one, she remembered the things that happened a month ago, and he still remembered the old man's words, the tender hands that did not belong to the old man, and her memory was confused, and the reversal of time and space.
She thought that the classmates and teachers around her were all fine, no one had such experiences and troubles, even if they were kept in the dark, spent or disappeared in the confusion of time and space, there were benefits, at least, there was no need to think too much about it, there was no need to experience such confusion and anxiety about the future, it would not be so insecure, and it would not be aware that it was a person in the mirror, and it would not be uneasy because of the danger around her.
When she is quiet on the outside, she is often more turbulent inside, and her thoughts rush to her.
She decided to go home.
"Luo Luo, you're still not normal lately!".
"Oh?".
"What the hell are you doing when you sleep in class every day, and then you don't sleep, you just skip class, you move out, where did you move? Why did you move out of the dormitory? ”。
Cao Fang asked me, although it was raining, there was a class today, and my roommates all went to class obediently with umbrellas and schoolbags.
I had just returned from the lake, and Cao Fang must have chosen to stay in the dormitory because he thought it was a good day to sleep on a rainy day, and skipping classes had become commonplace.
"Didn't you skip class too? Still talk about me? ”。
"I'm skipping class and I'm in the dormitory!"
"I'm skipping class and I'm still living there!".
"Alright! What drama have you watched recently, so obsessed? ”。
"I forgot the name...... Okay, Fang Fang, I'm going to go home for a few days, I'm tired of staying here."
"Go home, yes! I'm still wondering what's wrong with you."
"Don't worry! It's not that you don't know me, and when I have a problem, I sleep too much......."
"That's right!" , she was happy again, and the sound of anime sounded inside the curtains.
"You watch anime! I'll pack up and go back! ”。
"What! Won't you leave later? It's raining so hard now", she lifted the curtain and looked at me.
"It's all the same, it's cool when it rains."
Soon I packed up my things, in fact, there was nothing to pack, the basic things were all in Wan Qian's, and the school dormitory only had a bag and some clothes, I took the bag, put on my ID card wallet or something, and I was ready to go, always traveling lightly like this.
"Alright! Stay safe on the road and send me a message. Cao Fang told me a few words, and went to watch anime again.
"Okay, I'm leaving!".
Closing the door of the dormitory, my brow twisted into a twist again, and a bad feeling permeated my heart, "Maybe it's raining!" ”。 I thought to myself.
By the way, I used to grow a beard, but then I found an excuse to fool the past, only saying that I ate bubble gum, blew it open and blew it up in my mouth, and it looked similar to a long beard.
Cao Fang also accepted this statement, in fact, it may be that she also thought the same, because it was she who told me whether she had eaten bubble gum, I followed her and said that I ate it, and she asked me if I blew up the big bubbles, I said yes, she finally asked if the big bubbles finally exploded in the face, I nodded, and she found the answer for me.
In the end, I have to say, this girl is so cute! Also! Who would have imagined that a normal girl would suddenly grow a beard, this is not normal.
As for my lethargy and forgetfulness, everyone advised me to "stay up less late!" They decided that I was staying up late, not getting enough sleep, having a chaotic biological clock, and having a malfunction in my body.
Fortunately, this kind of thinking saves me a lot of unnecessary explanations. If you want to really get to the bottom of it, I can't say a word, and will anyone believe what I say! Maybe the teacher will call my home and prepare for the psychiatric hospital to accept me, and now it is undoubtedly the best situation to be calm.
"Hey! Dr. Wan Qian, I was going to go home, my things were packed, and I had an inexplicable feeling that it told me I needed to go back."
"Okay, what's the phone call".
Dr. Wan Qian agreed so plainly, I thought she would stop her. Maybe, I should have gone home!
After Dr. Wan Qian agreed, my uneasy mood was relieved a lot, so let's go!