At the time of SARS, I was 11 years old and had just started junior high school in my hometown.

Our hometown was far away from the epidemic area, and at that time, the transportation was far less than it is now, and the communication equipment was not as diverse as it is now, and the speed of information transmission was much slower.

At that time, the Internet was not available to every family, most people did not have computers at home, and the classmates at school did not have their own mobile phones, and their parents were still using PHS, and Nokia was still a well-known brand.

At that time, I was still ignorant, I just remember suddenly opening my eyes one morning and hearing people around me talking about something called "SARS", I don't know what "SARS" is, I only know that everyone is talking very lively, as if everyone has their own exclusive source.

That was the first time I faced the epidemic, there was no panic, no fear, just felt fresh, I felt fun, and the loss of life was just a number for me.

I remember that for about a month, the temperature had to be taken every day in school, and the thermometer at that time was still mercury, and it was sandwiched in the armpit for five minutes, which was far less convenient and trouble-free than the current infrared thermometer.

It should be measured three or four times a day, once before entering the classroom, once at noon, and once at the end of school.

Throwing the thermometer is not an easy thing, the first time I knew that the thermometer was so fragile was at that time, I don't know what the epidemic area is like, but the price of our small county has risen very quickly, because of the young age, I don't need to worry about eating, drinking, and Lazar, the only thing I have to worry about is the thermometer.

From one dollar a piece, in just one month, it rose to fifteen yuan a piece, and I heard that it rose to twenty-five yuan later, and at that time my breakfast was only two yuan a piece.

Why do you remember it so clearly?

Because I had a crippled hand, I smashed five thermometers in the class, so I spent seventy-five dollars to make up five thermometers.

During the SARS period, what impressed me the most was the 75 yuan.

Seventeen years later, at the age of twenty-eight, I experienced another epidemic.

This time I felt deeply, panic, fear, nervousness, emotion, and pride, these five senses are the most real feelings I have felt throughout the whole epidemic process.

Seventeen years, not just a number, seventeen years, the land we have stepped on has changed too much, the train is no longer green, there is no need to go back to the hometown in the crowded carriage or sit or stand for dozens of hours, the network is in various places, computers are the daily necessities that every household has.

Mobile phones have been upgraded from keyboards to touch screens, household appliances have developed from manual to intelligent, mobile networks have changed from 2G to 5G, you no longer need to go to the mall to buy things, you no longer need to bring a wallet to pay, as long as you need it, your mobile phone can help you get it all.

I started reading novels in my second year of junior high school, and at that time, this kind of scene only appeared in the text of the novel, only in my fantasy world, but now, seventeen years later, it has all become a reality.

Communication information is developed, no matter where you are, you can see things all over the world on the Internet, so everyone knows about it at the beginning of the epidemic.

This time is different from 17 years ago, I am no longer a child, I have a clearer understanding of the horror of the epidemic, watching the number that represents "urgent danger" is rising, every day is rising, I see people in many epidemic areas on the Internet wailing, I know that life is so fragile, more fragile than the thermometers I smashed back then.

But at the same time, life is also strong, because we have love and hope in our hearts, because we have a guiding light above our heads that has never been extinguished, because the stars are hanging high, guiding us to the clearest direction.

Because we are united, we have the strength, the power to overcome all darkness.

There is an old saying that only when danger really strikes will people know how small they are and how strong their country is.

At this moment, I deeply understand this sentence, and in this epidemic, I have seen the insignificance of human beings, and I have also realized the strength of the party and the country.

I'm an ordinary member of the people, and when danger comes, my first reaction is confusion, and I wonder, what if I am unfortunately infected?

What about my family, my children, the people around me?

Am I going to die? Is it painful to die before? Is it cremated immediately after death?

Will I have time to write some suicide notes?

When this thought comes to my mind, all my reactions are negative, all my thoughts revolve around myself, I don't feel selfish, I just feel that human nature is like this.

But in fact, I didn't have the opportunity to think like this at all, because after the outbreak of the epidemic, the Party Central Committee quickly issued an order, the whole country is united, strict investigation, emergency protection, travel must go through layers of checkpoints, entry and exit must be registered and temperature taken, epidemic prevention slogans are repeated over and over again, and the staff is on duty 24 hours a day.

But I didn't feel troublesome at all, but I was very relieved.

The "sky blue" can be seen everywhere on the streets, and all kinds of policies to benefit the people reached the place as soon as possible, as well as a group of angels dressed in white, at this time, they turned into warriors, with their flesh as armor, and at the critical moment when we were all closely guarded against, it was incumbent on them to rush to the severely affected area, and snatch one life after another from the hands of death with their hands, so that those lives became fresh again from gray.

The number of confirmed infections continues to rise, but it can be clearly seen that the number of rises every day is a little lower than the previous day, which is just a number in our eyes, but behind these numbers are the sweat and efforts of countless people.

Are they Superman?

No! Like us, they are ordinary people of flesh and blood, they will hurt, they will be tired, they will bleed, they will die, they also have their own families, they have parents, wives and children.

Won't they be afraid?

No! They will be afraid, it's just that they won't allow themselves to be afraid.

Arm in arm, they built a strong wall to keep danger out and bring us hope and peace.

I was touched by them, I was proud of them, and at the same time, I felt even more deeply that it was so good to be born in such a land!

It's really good, because this land has not only raised those angels and warriors, but also raised a large group of such people with lofty ideals, playing various identities in all walks of life.

An epidemic has made me see a lot, and it also made me know that superheroes are all around us, and they also have a unified pronoun: retrograde!

The following is the story of these retrogrades, small, but warm, igniting hope in the dead silence.

(The names in the article are pseudonyms, but they tell the story that I saw through the eyes of a small citizen.) ）