After the outbreak of the epidemic, the care and support from all over the country also made our hearts no longer cold and made us feel warm.

As a bystander, I am not the most touched, but the people in the severely affected areas, especially the infected patients, are the most deeply touched.

Before the epidemic, I received a special message from a friend, in terms of our usual habit of fighting, she was actually quite unlucky, usually busy with work, and did not go home for several years, but this year I finally took a vacation and went home for reunion before the Chinese New Year, but she was directly sealed in Wuhan, and was also diagnosed as a "suspected patient".

The first reaction after receiving the news was "how does it sound funny", and then more worry.

Because there is no drug to treat the new crown, it still depends more on her own immunity, and she usually stays up late and works overtime, and she doesn't eat on time, so I'm really worried about her situation.

However, her own mentality is quite good, which reassures me, and she also told me about her mental journey, and I will tell her story below.

Qin Nuan is very uncomfortable!

It's hard to be physical, it's even more psychological!

She didn't know why she came back, in order to go home for the New Year, she encountered this incident, trapped herself at home, and made herself a suspected patient.

She remembered that when she first came back, the situation here was not so serious, her parents, her grandmother, and the second aunt and her family who came to her house to visit relatives, all thought it was okay, and they all thought that what was said outside was all false.

She remembered that she wore a mask on the first day she came back, and her family not only laughed at her for being timid, but even got together to play mahjong and eat melon seeds, and the spittle flew wildly.

As a result, she found out that her mother had gone to the vegetable market without a mask that afternoon, and when she came back, she was humming a little song all the way.

"Mom! I said that the situation is serious now, can't you listen to me go out and wear a mask, how many people are in the vegetable market, there are all the old and young in our family, why don't you know to pay attention! ”

Qin Nuan remembered what she said at the time.

The consequence of saying this is that her mother was made to cry by her, and then the rest of the family counted her down.

Qin Nuan is also very aggrieved, is it wrong for her to want everyone to pay attention?

Was she wrong to want everyone to take precautions?

She thinks she's not wrong, but everyone in the family doesn't seem to think so, everyone thinks she's wrong, and her father even took out a few posts from WeChat to show her: "See? See? People have said on the Internet that it is a rumor, why don't you know as much as an old man like me, this kid is young, and apologize to your mother in a while. ”

Qin Nuan was even more uncomfortable, could it really be her mistake?!

Is it really wrong Before I got a result, I received a notice: the city is closed!

At this time, the second aunt's family panicked.

"Why is it so good that the city is suddenly closed? Oops, how can we go home after the lockdown, can't we go back? The second aunt was complaining and packing her luggage, and Qin Nuan was watching from the side, and she was also anxious.

Her original plan was to go back to the company after fifteen, she hadn't been home for two years, and now the competition pressure is high, maybe in the ten days of her vacation, there will be someone who grabbed her project, this time she came back because she just negotiated a very promising project before the Chinese New Year, so she wanted to make herself relaxed.

The result?

It was easy and it was like that in two days.

The second aunt's family has already packed up, and they are about to leave in a hurry, and they don't know if they can go out at this time.

Qin Nuan originally planned to go back, but he still had a fluke attitude in his heart, thinking that maybe he would be fine in a few days, or he would have to wait.

But the facts tell Qin Nuan that no matter what happens, the last thing you want is luck.

The next day, Qin Nuan had a low-grade fever and a little cough, she took cold medicine for the first time, and brought an extra layer of medical mask, and after another day, the symptoms were not alleviated in the slightest, there was no runny nose, Qin Nuan felt that the situation might not be good, so she checked the nearest hospital to her home on the Internet, and then drove to the hospital alone for examination.

There was a long queue in the hall of the emergency department of the hospital, and Qin Nuan was not the only one who felt bad, she stood in the line, she couldn't see the head in front of her, and she couldn't see the tail in the back, she was stuck in the middle, listening to the people around her cough a few times from time to time, every time the cough sounded, Qin Nuan couldn't help but shiver, and always felt that the person who coughed was the patient.

She suddenly regretted it!

If you want to talk about infection, isn't a place like the hospital the most likely place to be infected, is she a brain twitch, so she will come here to see a doctor, what if she is really diagnosed?

There is no such thing as a fluke, what will she do if she is diagnosed?

Will she die?

She is not yet thirty years old, she has talked about two boyfriends, but she has not met her true destiny yet, and she is not married yet.

Her career has just started, and she is still just a little transparent in the industry, and it's not bullshit to talk about her Qin Nuan's name, so is she going to die?

Qin Nuan suddenly wanted to cry, I don't know why this happened, obviously, she just wanted to go home for the New Year on a whim.

She looked down at the number in her hand: 875.

I don't know how many people are in front, it is estimated that it will take more than an hour when it is her turn, the people behind her coughed a few times, Qin Nuan immediately left the team, and chose a corner away from the crowd to stand, one stand is an hour and a half.

Feeling that it was almost her time, Qin Nuan walked into the hall of the emergency department, and heard the doctor in the emergency department tirelessly say to the people who came to see the doctor over and over again: "There is no way to diagnose it now, there is no reagent box, and these symptoms alone cannot be completely diagnosed." ”

"If I can't be diagnosed, it means I'm not."

"Suspicious, your current situation is a suspected case, and you have to test it with a test kit to confirm the diagnosis."

Qin Nuan stood beside her, she had heard these words more than a dozen times, the doctor was tightly wrapped all over his body, only two eyes were exposed, what did she see in those eyes?

Helpless? Anxious? Panicky?

None of these, only blandness.

Also, the profession of a doctor is to snatch people's lives from the hands of death, and he sees too much life and death every day, so what is helpless in the face of the current situation, what is the use of being anxious, and panic will only lead to unnecessary riots.

It was these faint eyes that made Qin Nuan calm down all of a sudden, as if she was still spinning in circles just now and suddenly saw a direction that was being guided, and she was no longer wandering around without a purpose like a headless fly.

Qin Nuan handed over the number in his hand, and listened to what the doctor said to him again, it was exactly the same, word for word.

"I know." Qin Nuan took out his mobile phone and began to record: "I just want to know, in the process from suspicion to diagnosis, what else can I do besides waiting?" ”

The doctor looked at her more, and he looked at hundreds of people in front of him, each of them emphasizing to him whether it was or not, and this was the first person to take the initiative to ask her how to do it.

"Self-isolate first, don't touch people, be sure to wear a medical mask, wash your hands frequently, disinfect with alcohol, there are some drugs that will have an auxiliary effect, you can eat first, if the body temperature is abnormal, you must find a way to cool down......"

Qin Nuan kept nodding, the last time she listened so carefully was in the preliminary exam before the college entrance examination, the teacher talked about how to get a higher score on the same basis, Qin Nuan listened very seriously.

After coming out of the hospital, she drove to four or five pharmacies, but she didn't buy anything, the masks and alcohol were sold out, and even the medicine cabinet was more than half empty, and the rest was for aphrodisiac.

She sat in the car with a double flash, looking through the crack in the window at the empty street outside, very worried.

At this time, she suddenly understood why her ex-boyfriend, who had broken up, loved smoking so much, knowing that she didn't like it, and always made the house full of smoke.

At this time, Qin Nuan suddenly wanted to smoke a cigarette to relieve his worries.

Relying on his own can't buy anything, Qin Nuan flipped through the mobile phone address book over and over again, and finally settled on a name.

Fangtong.

This kid...... I think his mother works in the hospital, right?

It should be no problem to take some medicine or something.

Qin Nuan dialed the phone without hesitation, and Fang Tong came up and asked, "Are you looking for me for a mask?" ”

It seems that she is not the first person to call for "help".

"In addition to masks, there is also alcohol, and there are also medicines......" Qin Nuan said a few names, hesitated for two seconds, and said, "Fang Tong, I may be infected." ”

"Where are you now?"

"On the street, at the door of Huimin Pharmacy."

"Why are you suspicious, you're still out wandering? Hurry up and isolate Lao Tzu at home, and put it at your door tomorrow morning! Hung up! ”

Qin Nuan casually threw the mobile phone on the co-pilot, and his head slammed into the steering wheel again and again.

What to do?

Will she die?

I heard that many people infected with this pneumonia have not been saved, and it has not been a few days from the diagnosis to death, but she doesn't want to die yet, she hasn't lived enough, she still has a good time, and she still has a lot of things waiting for her to do.

There are a lot fewer people on the streets than usual, and everyone who is outside has already put on masks, which shows that everyone is starting to pay attention to it at this time.

Qin Nuan went home in the night, opened the door with the key, and did not hear laughter and laughter as usual, the footsteps of her entering the door were very abrupt when the house was quiet, her father was not watching TV in the living room, and her mother was not busy in the kitchen, even the lights were turned off.

"Coming back?" Mom's voice came, and it sounded a little muffled.

Qin Nuan casually turned on the switch in the living room and found that her mother was wearing two layers of medical masks, not only that, but her father was also wearing a mask and was standing at the door of the other bedroom to watch her.

"Warm, are you still uncomfortable, do you still have a fever? Do you have a bad cough? Do you have chest tightness? Dad opened his mouth to say a series of greetings, and he couldn't see his expression with a mask, but the tightness and concern in his eyes couldn't hide it.

Qin Nuan's heart was hot, and she looked at her mother again, and said, "The current medical resources are particularly tight, and it is enough to bring one mask, Mom, it is a waste for you to bring two." ”

She can't buy masks when she goes to big pharmacies, which shows how tight the supply is.

"Say me again, why don't you talk about your dad, your dad also wears two layers of masks, why don't you talk about him." Her mother rolled her eyes, turned her head and pointed at her father and began to mumble: "You old Qin, you just looked at your daughter and said me, you didn't help, what's the matter, do you have an opinion on me?" Ah, you say, do you have an opinion about me? ”

"Hey, how dare I have an opinion on you, the head of our family, the sky is the eldest and you are the second, our daughter is the third, I am the last, you still hold the economic power of our family, I dare not dislike you." Qin Nuan's father came over and wanted to pat her on the shoulder, but was dodged by Qin Nuan.

"Dad, I'm a suspected patient now, you better stay away from me, don't go back and infect the two of you again."

Qin Nuan's mother's eyes turned red when she heard this, why did she suddenly become like this? She really thought it was a rumor before, but it was clearly said on the Internet that it was fake, but suddenly this fake became true.

Qin Nuan's mother couldn't figure it out, and she didn't have the heart to think about it, she was worried about her daughter now, and she finally came back for the New Year, and she encountered this incident, how could she think about it.

"Nuan, tell your mother quickly, did you go to the hospital, what did the doctor say?"

"It's okay, the doctor said, let me self-isolate at home first." Qin Nuan didn't want her parents to worry, so she smiled and said: "I asked carefully, although this disease is very contagious, but as long as you take protective measures, it is not so scary, Dad, Mom, you two will stay at home during this time, don't go anywhere, buy vegetables or something, I will order more online when I go back, let's not go out first, ah." ”

"By the way, you guys stay away from me during this time, don't we have that alcohol at home, you hurry up and disinfect it for a while, disinfect the place where I stayed, in this living room, as well as the kitchen, toilet or something, I won't go out of the room, eat or something, you put me at the door."

Qin Nuan's bedroom has a separate bathroom, so if you want to isolate, you don't have to go out to the toilet, and your parents can at least be safer.

Of course, in order to be safer, her father and her mother also slept in separate rooms, and the family strictly followed what the doctor said, first quarantined for half a month to make sure there was no problem.

Qin Nuan already has a fever and cough, I don't know what will happen to her after half of it, now I can only take one step at a time.

really responded to that sentence, life and death are fate.

Early the next morning, Fang Tong came to look for her, didn't come in, didn't even come up to the unit building, and called her downstairs.

"I won't enter the door, and I don't know if you're now, you will infect me again, there is disinfectant alcohol here, there are some anti-inflammatory medicines, and masks, whether it is useful or not, you eat it first and see, this disinfectant alcohol is sprayed, not for you to drink, don't look back, you will be sent to the hospital for gastric lavage."

Fang Tong's words were still so annoying, but listening to these words at this time, Qin Nuan only felt warm in his heart, and asked him what he was going to do, Fang Tong only said that there was danger everywhere now, and there was a shortage of manpower everywhere, so they formed a civil volunteer, and whoever needed help would help.

Qin Nuan thought, if I get better, I will definitely participate in this volunteer.

After a few more days, the situation in the city became even more serious, there was a shortage of people and things, and the city that had been lively was now empty, and nothing could be heard, no, one voice could be heard: crying.

Panic pervades the sky over the city, death may come at any time, Qin Nuan thought negatively, this is the scene of hell on earth.

She reads the information on the Internet, the whole country is preventing the epidemic, but the current hard-hit area is only here, and you can see a post asking for help by clicking on a webpage at will, which is really full of wails, and the words convey helplessness.

She didn't know what to do, and she couldn't only do anything, it seemed that the only thing she could do now was to wait for death.

She is not the only one who is negative, everyone here is very negative, everyone is like her, waiting here for the coming of death, the lucky ones will be missed, and they will regain their health, but what about the bad ones?

Qin Nuan didn't know if he would be the lucky part or the bad one.

In the midst of her loveless self-depression, hope seeped in through the dense dark clouds, and support medical teams from all over the country came here one after another, allowing them to see light and hope again.

In order to be able to receive more patients, Leishenshan Hospital was built as quickly as possible, workers came to support spontaneously, and there was no time to rest, qualified factories resumed work urgently, working overtime to manufacture masks and protective clothing, and compatriots overseas were also doing their best to search for medical supplies, transport them here, and those who delivered food and meals......

What is even more unexpected is that the national leaders actually came here to cheer them up and encourage them, Qin Nuan's heart once again rose with a desire for life, they were not abandoned, everyone remembered them, and the country remembered them!

They are not given up, everyone is trying, what reason do they have to give up on themselves!

The virus is terrible, the epidemic is terrible, but Qin Nuan believes that as long as they are united, as long as they have faith in their hearts, as long as they don't give up, they will definitely win.

They're sure to win!