It's been a month since Tang Yaxi said goodbye, and I miss her very much. For the past month, I've messaged her every morning to say good morning and good night every night. I was looking forward to the day when she would reply to me, but after all this time, nothing has been heard from me.

I live with my memories every day as a way to dispel the pain in my heart. I didn't have a good time during this time, not only because Tang Yaxi left me, but also because I was expelled from school. Yes, young people will eventually pay for the consequences of their impulsive actions. After the kind aunt next door called the police that day, the police found my school. After learning about my situation, the school leaders gave me instructions to withdraw from the school. After all, the effects of early love, beating the doorman and leaving the school without permission were too bad, and they also caused a lot of trouble to the police station, causing huge damage to the reputation of the school. In order to make an example of the slaughter, I became the chicken, yes, the victim.

The "heroic" deeds about me were widely circulated in our school, and for a time they became the most typical negative teaching materials in our school, and they also became the talk of a group of middle school students after dinner. They interpreted the story of me and Tang Yaxi into various versions, and the content was quite unbearable, and when it came to me, I really wanted to destroy those who chewed the root of their tongues. At that time, I hated these people very much, if it weren't for me and my master risking our lives to prevent the birth of the Shura demons, I am afraid that these people would not even have the qualifications to open their mouths now, and they would have been swallowed by the Shura demons a long time ago. But what can I do, after all, people are terrible, I can only choose to hide at home and hide from the turmoil.

The double blow of my studies and relationships made me feel more and more depressed, and I locked myself at home every day. Except for eating and going to the toilet, I don't go out of the house. When my parents saw me like this, they were very upset. Especially my mother, from a very young age, she wanted me to be admitted to a good university, have a stable job in the future, and not run around for a living every day like them. Now that I have been expelled from school, although I can find another way to change schools, it depends on my current state and how I can take this year's college entrance examination. Now that there are less than three months left before the college entrance examination, can I still pass the exam?

Because I shut myself up in my house all day, I couldn't see the sun, and my skin was as fair as tofu, and there was not much blood. And I haven't eaten much in the past month, and I've lost my weight and skinny. My mom had a bunch of fire bubbles at the corner of her mouth because of me. My dad lost a lot of hair, and he was almost bald. The family was choked by this sudden change, how can we break the current deadlock?

One night I got up to go to the bathroom, and as I passed by my dad's room, I overheard their conversation.

"Damn, it's not a way for Xiao Yan to go on like this, otherwise let's take him to see a psychiatrist? He can't listen to what we say now, so it's better to find an expert to see, maybe it will work, what do you think? ”

"Alas, his father, I can't make up my mind, you said that you want others to know, and you can't think that Xiaoyan is mentally ill? How will the child live after this! ”

"It's useless to think about that now, I think this kid is stunned now, and I need to find a doctor quickly. If this continues, the child will become a waste, and he can't delay any longer.

"Then how can we tell him, and we can't say that I will go directly to a psychiatrist, I'm afraid that this kid will have resistance in his heart." My mom asked worriedly.

"Hey! Tomorrow I will say take him out for a walk, and then just drag him to the hospital. ”

"What if he doesn't want to? This kid is also older now, let's make the decision in private, isn't it inappropriate, or discuss it with him? ”

"What are you discussing, you see that he is like now, what can he listen to, do you want me to say..."

Without listening to the rest of the words, I quietly went back to my bedroom. I don't want to see a psychiatrist, so what if I do? Heart disease still needs heart medicine, if Tang Yaxi can return to my side, I will be well in less than a day. But the problem is that she doesn't know where to go now, and even if the gods descend to earth, they can't cure my heart disease. Alas! I can understand the hard work of my parents, but what can I do, emotional matters have been inexplicable since ancient times. There is a good saying, "Ask what the world is like, and teach people to promise life and death." "I also want to change my current situation, but I can't help myself.

Tomorrow I didn't want to see a psychiatrist or embarrass my parents, so after some thought, I chose to run away from home. I want to go out and stay for a few days, maybe I can let go of my attachments for a while.

I lightly packed up my belongings, brought a few clothes, and took out the New Year's money secretly hidden in the cracks of the desk, and I was ready to run away from home.

On the shoe cabinet at the door, I wrote a message to my parents, telling them not to worry, I just went out by myself for a few days, and I would come back by myself in a few days. Don't think about looking for me, you can't find it anyway, don't worry, don't get angry, children and grandchildren have their own children and grandchildren. Besides, you can rest assured of my skills, and when you encounter bad guys, you may not be able to bully whom.

Using the key on the shoe cabinet to press the message, I gently opened the door and quietly left. Maybe I haven't been out for a long time, I think the air outside is very fresh, and I feel very comfortable breathing, and the depression in my heart is a little gone.

Out of the neighborhood, I wandered aimlessly along the streets, and the stars in the sky twinkled and twinkled, as if to ask me, why are you alone? I don't know why I think that, I don't know where I'm going, so I just keep going. In the morning, I involuntarily walked to the park where I kissed Tang Yaxi for the first time.

The sky was bright, there were not many people in the park, only a group of old men were exercising in the morning, yelling at the air, I don't know if they were practicing qi. But one thing I can be sure of is that they are very disturbing to the people, and as soon as they go down, the lights of several houses suddenly flicker and then go out, and I don't know how many people are scolding their mothers.

I came to a corner of the park, still that place, still that bench, but now there is no Tang Yaxi by my side. I sat down and stroked with my hand where Tang Yaxi had sat at the beginning, as if she was still there, still there with me. I could even feel her warmth, but it was all just my delusion.

"Yaxi, where the hell are you! Can you see me, even if it's just one side, so that I can feel at ease! I screamed at the sky, but there was no response.

"No matter what, my heart for you will never change, Yaxi, I will definitely find you." I gritted my teeth, and made up my mind.

After sitting in the chair for a long time, the morning breeze swept up a little coolness, which made me sober up a little. Perhaps, I should go to the places we've been before, maybe she'll be there?

I stood up and followed the route I remembered, heading to the places we had been, stopping at each place to remember. Finally, at noon, I came to the spicy fragrant pot shop, which is the shop that Tang Yaxi and I often go to.

"Yikes! Xiao Yan is here? Why are you alone today, Xiaoya? You haven't been here for a while, and my sister misses you! ”

"Sister, she had something to do today, she didn't come, I wanted to eat spicy fragrant pot, so I came secretly."

"Okay, what do you eat, choose yourself, you're welcome. Sister went to the kitchen first, I don't know what's going on today, there are a lot of people. ”

"Well, okay, sister, you can get busy first, I'm still sitting in the old place."

I walked to the table where Tang Yaxi and Tang Yaxi had come to eat spicy fragrant pot for the first time, pulled out a stool and sat down. I stared blankly at the opposite position, as if Tang Yaxi was right in front of me, and I still remember the way she ate that night. I couldn't help but look a little stupid, just as I reached out to stroke Tang Yaxi's hair, a voice pulled me back from my fantasy, "Xiaoyan, what's wrong, why don't you stay here for half a day, it's okay?" Seeing that I was stunned, the proprietress came over and asked.

"It's okay, sister, I'm just thinking about something to eat. You see I've been hungry and thin lately, I'll eat more later. ”

"Really, don't you say I haven't paid too much attention, you see you're almost skinny. It's also strange sister, I'm too busy today to pay attention. You wait, sister will pick some meat dishes for you, sister is in for a treat! ”

"Thank you, sister, do you have any wine? Bring me two bottles. ”

"Okay, what do you drink, go get it yourself, it's in the freezer at the bar, it's room temperature on one side and cold on the other. Drink whatever you want. The proprietress turned and walked to the back kitchen.

I walked over to the counter and returned to my seat with three cold beers. I opened it all, didn't wait for the food to come up, and drank it directly from the bottle. The beer was cold and ran down my throat to my stomach, and the chill made me burp. Originally, my alcohol consumption was not very good, I don't know what's wrong, this time I didn't feel anything under the bottle, and my brain was still so clear. Then I drank another bottle, and then another, and three bottles of beer.

"Yaxi, look, I can drink too, where are you? If I drink a few more bottles, will you show up, Yaxi, where are you! Tears poured down my cheeks, and before I could wipe them, I fell on the table, like a blooming splash.

"Huh? Xiaoyan, what are you doing here, how can you drink like this? The proprietress came over with a spicy pot and was a little worried when she saw me drinking three bottles of beer on an empty stomach.

"It's okay, sister, it's okay, I suddenly found that the wine is very delicious." I turned my head to look at the proprietress and said with a smile, but the expression was more ugly than crying.

The proprietress hurriedly put the vegetable pot in her hand on the table, sat on the stool next to me, wiped her hands with her apron, and said, "Xiaoyan, what's wrong with you, is something wrong with you and Xiaoya?" If you have something to tell your sister, my sister is from here, and she may be able to help you. ”

"Sister, don't ask, I don't want to say. Can you have some drinks with me? ”

"That's not good, if you don't tell me what's going on, don't even think about drinking this wine."

"Sister, I really don't want to say it, I'm uncomfortable, don't ask me, just let me drink some wine."

When the proprietress heard that I was relieved that I was drinking here, she had to accompany me and ask me everything she could, but I didn't say anything to her. Actually, I know she's doing it for my good, but I really don't want to talk about it to anyone else. Some things are good if you know them, so why shout about them everywhere. It's like a story I once read: "There was a monkey in the forest, and one day it was injured and it was very painful." The elephant met it and asked what was wrong with it. He opened the wound and confided in the elephant. The elephant felt very pitiful and comforted him. The monkey felt so good to be comforted, so every time it met someone, it told him about its experience, and kept turning out the wounds on its body, and everyone sympathized with it very much and comforted it. The monkey felt very satisfied, but in the end, it died of an infection from the wound. ”

There may be many misfortunes in life, but there is no need to publicize them everywhere, except for letting people see your weakness, it has no real effect.

When the proprietress saw that I really didn't want to say anything, she took out three more bottles of beer from the refrigerator and told me that I was not allowed to drink them after drinking them. I nodded in agreement.

After a few words of comfort to me, the proprietress went to greet the other customers in the store. I ate and drank in my seat until I had wiped out everything. I didn't say hello to the proprietress either, put a hundred dollars on the table, and turned to leave.