At noon, some of the people I knew before, the girls held each other's arms, the boys went to eat with their necks around their necks and waists, and the rest of the people who were not familiar with each other went to the cafeteria, I didn't know anyone and didn't want to go to the cafeteria, I wasn't very hungry, so I simply sorted out the morning's notes on the seat, of course, I was not the only one in the classroom, but also the temporary table mate sitting next to me.

"Why don't you go to dinner?" I asked him.

"I don't want to eat, and I don't feel how delicious it will be, and it looks quite expensive, if I'm really hungry, I'll buy a bread to eat between classes, if I'm not hungry, I should save money, go home at night to eat, and when I have saved enough money, I can buy my mother a new pair of shoes." Then Ai Wenxue took out a crumpled five-yuan note from the pencil case in front of him, which was a worn-out yuan.

"You only have five yuan at noon every day?"

"Hmm." He pushed his glasses and put the five yuan away, looking at his five yuan, I subconsciously reached into my jacket pocket and grabbed the ten yuan that my mother had stuffed into me in the morning.

"Oh, you can't be hungry, you can eat when you're hungry, although you can't eat anything good, you can also go eat an instant noodle."

"My mother heard from others that students who are now in junior high school have pocket money every day, and if they don't, they will be looked down upon by others, but my family is not so rich, and my mother secretly gives me five yuan a day in order not to embarrass me too much, and this five yuan is still what she picks up waste in exchange." Ai Wenxue's voice began to tremble as she spoke, and from the first time I saw him, I felt that he was very cleanly dressed, and he did not have any sloppy style, and he did not look like a child who lived on his mother's scraps.

"And what about your dad, doesn't he have a job, he doesn't care about you?" The question that came out of my mouth at one moment, and the next second after he finished answering, I regretted it.

"My dad is a perennial alcoholic, I heard that my mother was a big family daughter with a head and face, there is a tavern in my mother's name, once my dad took a group of fox friends and dog friends happened to pass by my mother's tavern, and went in to drink, a few people saw my mother looks good-looking and got upset, they drank too much and took advantage of the strength of the wine a few people to give my mother ......"

"It seems that in the society at that time, the defiled girl has no face to go home, my mother was afraid of being kicked out, so she didn't say a word, and then married my dad because she found out that she had me, and she couldn't hide it for a long time, and she didn't dare to go to the hospital, so she had to talk about her own affairs at home, I thought the family would sympathize with her, don't care too much, at least the family has a place to live."

"But who thought that after the uncles in the family knew about it, they who wanted to occupy more property finally had a chance, and they all went to my grandfather to make irresponsible remarks, saying that my mother's indiscretions would ruin the face of the family, and finally my grandfather was hospitalized for vomiting blood in anger, and for the sake of the so-called face, he broke off the relationship with my mother and no longer interacted, and after all, it was his own daughter, and finally decided not to let my mother completely leave the house, but just keep the previous tavern in her name."

"My mother who has nowhere to go can only live in the tavern every day, my dad goes to the tavern more and more often, my dad has always had a lot of thoughts about her, every time she goes, she wants to rub oil, my mom thought about it and desperately agreed to my dad, my dad only has a dirty house, full of wine bottles and cigarette butts, and now my mom has also accepted her fate, no wedding just got a marriage certificate."

"Later, I told my dad that she had me, not only did my dad not admit that I was his, but when he got drunk, he would often drag my mother's hair from one end of the house to the other, his face was hideous like a devil, if my mother resisted and broke free, she would be slapped and burned with cigarette butts after she was caught, and after I was born, I drank even harder, and when I went crazy, I beat me and my mother, once my dad wanted to beat me with a wine bottle, and my mother was beaten like a flower in order to protect me, and she shed a lot of blood." Ai Wenxue said as she showed a frightened expression on her face, and hugged her body with her arms, trembling all over, as if she was in the scene.

"Some of the things about your mother that she told you personally?" I didn't know what to say, and I didn't know how to comfort me, so I asked another stupid question, I was really elm head.

"Well, it was when I came home from school in the fifth grade, and my father went out to drink again, and I saw that my mother was wiping a new wound with iodine, and the corners of her mouth were blue and purple, and her hair was messy, so I knew that she had been beaten again." Ai Wenxue looked at me, her eyes bloodshot.

"I asked my mother if it still hurts, she saw me come back and hugged me, crying and saying that it doesn't hurt, my mother doesn't hurt, and then she wants to get up and cook for me, I asked my mother why my father still married him like this, my mother didn't want to say, but I pestered him to the bottom of the matter, my mother yelled at me angrily and told me to shut up and not ask, I cried aggrievedly, this is the first time my mother yelled at me, seeing that my mother shed tears, my mother was distressed, and picked me up again, apologized to me, and said that I was also considered to have grown up and some things could not be hidden, So he told me about the notes that gave me an address on it, saying that if she was beaten to death by my dad one day, she would let me go to my grandfather if she was helpless, and after hearing everything, I couldn't help my mother avenge it, but I ended up being a hairy boy who was helpless, how to deal with my dad. ”

He was still shivering astringently just now, but now he has become gritting his teeth again, feeling that if he is given a sharp knife now, he will rush out.

"You might be tempted to ask why my mom didn't leave my dad, right?" He calmed down a bit and then said.

"I haven't thought of those questions yet, I just want to ask if we didn't know each other before, you told me that you are not afraid that I am a bad boy to pass it on to you?" I just wanted to lighten the mood.

"What are you afraid of, it seems that you shouldn't be that kind of person, besides, my family's bad things are rumored by many people in the neighborhood, and I'm not afraid that one more person will know." Ai Wenxue looked much more relaxed.

"Then you can go on, I'm done with my question."

"Say what?"

"Didn't you want me to know why your mother didn't leave your father?"

"Oh, about this, isn't there only one tavern after my mother broke off relations with the family, and later married my father, although I no longer correspond, but I don't know why the uncles still refuse to let go of my mother, always try their best to go to the tavern to make trouble, so that my mother can hand over the management rights of the tavern, my mother has been making trouble if she doesn't hand them over, and once I saw it, I couldn't get angry and went up and bit one of my uncles, after my uncle shook me off, I saw two rows of deep bruised tooth marks on his arms, Casually scolded the little rabbit cub, my mother was afraid that I would suffer a loss and dragged me to my side, I felt a lot more comfortable, and it was considered revenge on them, and then the uncle who was bitten said to my mother to take your little wild seed to me and wait for me to turn around and leave without looking back, after a long time I haven't seen them, my mother is also fed up with the uncles' unreasonable trouble, so I simply sold the store, and I didn't have to make a living at home and was beaten by my father, but I had nowhere to go, I thought about cutting myself off, but I couldn't rest assured, Mom said she had already resigned herself to her fate. Ai Wenxue continued.

"What about the money from the store?"

"My mom hasn't told my dad that she sold the store, afraid that he would ask for money to go out and squander, and then my dad asked about the store, my mom only said that the store was taken away by my uncle, and my dad also knew that he couldn't mess with my uncle and them, so he could only scold my mom for being useless, and the matter was over, because the store was selling urgently, and I didn't receive a too satisfactory price, but those were enough to pay me for junior high school to high school tuition, so I deposited it in the bank and hid the passbook, except for my mom herself, only I knew the password, and said that if I was killed one day during school, Looking for my grandfather to no avail, you can also take the money to continue studying, and the rest rely on picking up waste for money, and give me the money in exchange, but I am not even willing to buy a new pair of shoes. My mother also studied literature, but fate was unfair, so she always told me that I couldn't let others look down on me, and no one could be bitter if I suffered, and hoped that I would study hard and one day be out of the woods, so she also gave me the name Ai Wenxue. As we spoke, the lunch break was almost over, and the students walked into the classroom one after another, and we didn't talk again.

After that, we asked each other a few more questions in handwriting, I asked him if he had ever thought about going to his grandfather as his mother said, and he only told me that he had thought about it before he had seen his uncles bully his mother, but then he ......"

Maybe he didn't want to continue talking about it, so he changed the subject and asked me about the origin of my name, and he read the reply I wrote, covered his mouth and smiled, and the depression when he told me the story of his family just now also disappeared, maybe everything about my name was so ridiculous, there was no reason not to laugh.

Before the class bell rang, we tore up the paper we had written and threw it in the trash.

After listening to Ai Wenxue's story, I felt incredible, I never thought that the boy in front of me, from the first time I saw him, and then knew his name, I always thought that he would be born in a learned family, and also thought that his parents would be what kind of people, writers? Literary and artistic workers? Or even if there is no fame, at least it should be a person from the upper class who is full of poetry and books, full of scriptures, but I didn't expect that there is such a gap in reality, and then think about my parents, although they are not particularly educated, and even my name is weird, but maybe for Ai Wenxue, I am also lucky in terms of family, not to mention those families who drive a car to school every day.

We also said that we could talk to each other whether we were at the same table or not, which meant that I made a new friend on the first day of school, a boy, and a boy with a story, but other than that, I met a very poor person.

The first class in the afternoon of the first semester was a self-study class, according to the arrangement of the class teacher, our class had to introduce itself and change seats, in order to let us try to know each other's names when we sat together after the seats, so we decided to stand up in turn according to the current seats to make a simple self-introduction.