After Zhu Kuan came, Murong Yuhua was always worried. Gu San actually knew what he was thinking, but she was not a selfless guy, in the face of this situation, even if there was a certain probability that she knew the truth, she didn't want the people around her to risk this possibility.

She admits that she was selfish in the matter.

It's a pity that this "selfishness" sometimes doesn't change anything. Everyone makes their own decisions, and everyone will be responsible for their own decisions. When Gu San tried to stop Murong Yuhua, he actually knew that with his character, once he decided that this matter would inevitably bring great disasters to others in the end, even if he did it himself, the final outcome would be death, he would not hesitate.

He carries a heroism that should have died in reality a long time ago, lacking a sense of realism, just like the people in that previous world. Occasionally, Gu San would remember what he had said, but she was impatient with doubt.

Murong Yuhua didn't come to ask for her consent, after all, all the firearms and weapons were kept in her room, and no one could touch them except her. If Murong Yuhua wanted to find out what was going on, he would have to at least get a gun from her.

He tries to convince Gu San to agree to go it alone. Sometimes after eating, he would bring it up again, as if he wanted Gu San's approval, but he hit a wall again and again, making him more and more depressed.

Gu San always just shook her head, and she told him very bluntly, "If it were someone else, I would say, 'You may die', and if you were replaced by you, once you were involved in this kind of thing, you would definitely die." ”

Murong Yuhua looked helpless when he heard her words, "Why can't you trust me more?" ”

"On the contrary, Murong. Sometimes it's because I trust you so much that I know you so well. That's what you are, do you want me to watch you go to your death in vain? ”

"You're doubting my abilities."

"All I suspect is that you will never be able to defeat your inner heroic, survival instinct." Gu San looked at his taut jawline, "Unless you tell me now that you want to send you to death and will not implicate any of us, I will immediately agree to give you the gun." ”

“…… I sometimes can't tell if you're acting out of good intentions or if you're really trying to stop me selfishly out of your own sake. ”

Gu San replied, "Selfish." I don't have that much excess kindness. I don't want you to die, I don't want any of us to die to save you, and I don't want Xiao Sui'er to die with you because you are infected with the virus. ”

Murong Yuhua let out a long sigh and finally said, "Okay, I understand." ”

Conversations between them often end up like this.

On the sixth day of the new year, they were supposed to go to Fu'an County to catch the market, but when they went out, Murong Yuhua said that he had a stomachache, as if he had eaten badly. Gu San stood at the door holding Xiao Sui'er's hand, she looked at Murong Yuhua's face, and at that moment, the young man turned his face away with a little weakness.

Gu San didn't say anything more in the end, they had talked enough before what they should say, since it was useless to say more, so be it. She just nodded, picked up Xiao Sui'er and Zhu Li and walked towards the door.

Murong has never been a person who is good at lying, especially when facing her, his eyes flickering and his tone are fluttering, and everything has already been exposed. However, it was a decision he made on his own, and regardless of the final outcome, he was clearly prepared to take responsibility for it.

Xiao Sui'er took Gu San's hand, as if she felt that the atmosphere was a little wrong, she raised her face, "Aunt Gu, can't we wait for uncle?" ”

"No, you don't."

"But my uncle said he wanted to go to the market for a long time, and he said he wanted to take me to buy a small clay figurine."

"I'll buy you the clay figurines. Uncle can't go today. Gu San said, thinking about it and adding, "Xiao Sui'er, if Uncle Murong leaves, will you miss him?" ”

Xiao Sui'er frowned, "Why did Uncle Murong leave?" ”

"He has his own things to do, and he wants to save people."

"Did you go to save people?" Although Xiao Sui'er was a little disappointed, she still nodded and said, "I will miss him, but I will wait for him to come back." ”

"What if you don't come back?"

"Then I will also pray for him in front of the Bodhisattva, hoping that he can be safe all the way and save everyone he wants to save."

Gu San listened to what she said, stopped and looked back at the small courtyard in the distance, "You're right, even if he doesn't come back, we will remember to pray for him in front of the Bodhisattva." ”

Even if there is no bodhisattva in this world at all, there is no magical power that can bless the world, and you have to rely on yourself to break a way out.

Gu San will also hope that he can turn evil into good fortune this time.

They turned around and walked slowly out of the village, walking along the country road in the direction of the market, where many villagers from different villages were carrying donkeys and baskets, apparently also going to the market to do some business. The crowd gradually grew, and the noise in the distance became louder and louder, although the sun was scorching, and the people who were shining in the sun couldn't open their eyes, but the big guys all looked very energetic.

Xiao Sui'er held a sugar gourd in her hand, and when she arrived at the market, she was almost fascinated by these new things, and she saw a goldfish seller, squatting on the edge of the porcelain basin with other children, watching the little goldfish swim around with their tails. The goldfish seller was an elderly lady with a kind smile, and seeing that these children did not buy it and were not angry, it was up to them.

Zhu Li followed Gu San's side, he actually listened to their conversation from beginning to end, but he never had a chance to speak, and now Xiao Sui'er was squatting on the ground, he was finally able to ask the words that were holding back in his heart, "Sister Gu, is Mr. really gone?" ”

"Otherwise, do you think he really has a stomachache today?"

“…… We're going to let him go? ”

"I didn't stop you. If you want to go, you can come with him. ”

"Don't you think you're cold-blooded? In fact, he is also thinking about others, hoping to help those patients. ”

"I never give myself a reason, it's obvious that I'm just a cold-blooded and selfish person. I have already made it clear to Murong Yuhua what to say before, and I have always opposed him going back to Qingping County to investigate this matter for Zhu Kuan. ”

"But you can't just leave the missing patients alone, can you?"

"You are looking at this issue from Murong's point of view, because you are all good people. Even if you have killed someone, and you have been a subordinate to the person surnamed Li, in your bones you agree with all of Murong's practices. Gu San answered Zhu Li's question while looking at Xiao Sui'er, "But in my opinion, this is just another use by Zhu Kuan and high-level people." They don't want to take risks, and they don't want to waste their manpower investigating this. After all, that group of patients was originally abandoned by them for profit, and they didn't care if they died or where they went. ”

"They are exploiters. You should pay the price for what you have done, and you should investigate and put an end to it. ”

Gu San glanced at him, Zhu Li's tone sometimes sounded inexplicably similar to Murong Yuhua's, and she sneered contemptuously, "You also said that they are exploiters. Only when the exploiters see the truly obvious losses will they be compelled to admit their mistakes. ”

Zhu Li looked a little depressed, most of the time he was really expressionless and didn't like to talk, but as far as Murong Yuhua's choice was concerned, it was difficult for him to stay here and wait optimistically for him to come back.

"Sir could really die." He said.

"I know."

"Even so, you firmly chose to let him face it himself?"

"Yes. Because I gave him a choice, I have my own position. I told him what the consequences would be, but he didn't listen. That being the case, he has chosen the path I oppose, and I will not stop it any longer. In the same way, I will not help him. Wouldn't what I had done before seem ridiculous? ”

Gu San had already made his position clear, Zhu Li knew her temper, and it was useless to say anything more, Zhu Li suddenly raised his head, "I'm going to help him." ”

"You just said he might be going to die."

"Yes. But because of that, I can't stay here. Sister Gu, I know why you have stopped him again and again, not just because of danger, not just because you want him to live. You just don't want him to bring the contagion back, infect others, and make things worse. "But I know that my husband is only doing this to keep things from getting worse, and if no one investigates, then it will always be a mystery where these patients go, and it is not clear who else will be infected by this." That being the case, when a real catastrophe strikes, all of us will be caught off guard and cause even greater damage. ”

So fundamentally, Murong Yuhua and Gu San's starting point is the same, so that more people can survive and ensure that the disaster will not spread. It's just that Gu San chose not to touch it, he could be far enough away, and it was a big deal for the soldiers to make a choice from the position of blocking the water and covering the earth, while Murong Yuhua made a choice from the perspective of investigating in advance to make a foolproof strategy.

No one knows where the patients have gone, and no one can guarantee whether they have turned into zombies or not. No one knows when these people will come and where they will go next if the zombie tide does break out. Until the investigation is clear, any speculation will end up being nothing more than empty words.

Gu San looked at Zhu Li's resolute expression, she knew that just like she had no way to stop Murong Yuhua, she couldn't stop this big boy right now. In the end, she just nodded and said, "Then you should be safe." ”

It's like a parting.

However, when she turned back after saying this, she suddenly pounced forward and pulled Xiao Sui'er into her arms - the old lady who had just looked at the child's kind smile suddenly had clear eyes, reached out to grab the nearest child, and directly bit his throat.