It was already past eleven o'clock when the car stopped in front of the bar run by Li Mingxuan, and a light rain began to fall in the air, and the raindrops fell sporadically on the face, seeping into the skin with the unique coolness of autumn.

Pushing open the door with a heavy metal texture, the bar is full of red lights and smoke, although Li Mingxuan's bar is not a particularly large one, it is located on a commercial street in the center of the city, and it is also the only entertainment venue on this street that is open at night and has more pomp.

The room is full of young men and women who are looking for nightlife, and in the restless atmosphere, they writhe their bodies to the ever-changing colors of lights and deafening music, and some of them can't help but raise their hands and scream, cheer, jump, throw colorful pieces of paper into the air and watch them fall one after another, it is said that throwing pieces of paper is a way to pay tribute to dead love and forget all unhappiness.

The quiet night is only here and incompatible with the outside world is still lively, through the crowd into the depths of the bar, I saw Shang Xuan sitting in a VIP seat not far from the right side of the stage, one hand on the back of the sofa and the other hand holding a cigarette pipe, cross-legged Erlang legs full of ecstasy smoking hookah, enjoying the pleasure of swallowing clouds and spitting fog, next to several long-haired beauties, all wearing heavy makeup and tight hip dresses, sometimes handing a glass full of champagne to Shang Xuan's mouth, raised his eyes and I suddenly appeared to really surprise him, Immediately put down the pipe, and glanced around, and sent away the wine princess beside him.

The princess who got the tip stuffed the money into her underwear according to the professional rules and bowed one after another, meaning to express her gratitude for being rewarded by Shang Xuan, and walked out of the VIP seat in turn, passing by me when the strong smell of perfume came to her face, I also understand that they can't help themselves, why not because of the embarrassment of life, and then under the economic pressure to choose this profession that is often coldly eyed, accompanied by a smiling face in front of people, but there is a lot of sadness behind it.

"Mao...... Mao, you...... Why did you come, didn't your family let you out? Shang Xuan stood up and said in a rambling voice, not knowing whether it was just because he was surprised or worried that I would bump into something unsightly when I suddenly came to the bar.

"I quarreled with my family, what about Li Mingxuan?" I didn't explain too much about Shang Xuan's questioning, and I only felt comforted when I saw Li Mingxuan at this time.

"Oh, that, isn't our bar going to buy new wine, and then today the wine company sent a public relations representative to the bar, and Mingxuan is in the office to negotiate a contract with someone! It should be almost over, or I'll tell him you're here and tell him to hurry up! Shang Xuan's eyes dodged, and after speaking, he was about to turn around and walk in the direction of the back office.

I stopped him, "It's so late, come to negotiate a contract?" ”

"Ah...... This one...... Ah, that's the case, it was originally scheduled to talk today, but after that, Mingxuan didn't promise to meet your parents, and I was afraid of delaying the time for the new products to be put on the shelves, so Mingxuan contacted the wine company immediately after returning from you, you also know that people who do business also like to spend the night, and it is just agreed that you can invite people to play with us, which can be regarded as enhancing the feelings when cooperating, if there is a cooperation project in the future, it will be much more convenient, why not do it for the benefit of the bar, right? "Shang Xuan was hesitant for a long time, and I didn't listen much at all.

"Okay, I'll wait for him at the door of the office, you don't have to follow!" I strode around the stage and walked towards Li Mingxuan's office.

Shang Xuan chased after him, because most of the people who bought the front seats in the bar were regulars, so he was also very polite to Shang Xuan, who always followed Li Mingxuan, every acquaintance who saw him walk over had to invite him to have a glass of wine, Shang Xuan had to take care of their face and had to socialize one by one, and when he caught up with me, he was almost close to the door of the office, Shang Xuan gasped and was a little impatient: "I said Sister Xiao, have you made enough trouble, I said that Li Mingxuan is talking about business, what are you going to do, don't make a mess?" ”

No matter how Shang Xuan yelled, I still stood at the door of Li Mingxuan's office after all, the door was not closed, I could witness Li Mingxuan's every move in the room, a woman in a backless dress in front of the desk sat on Li Mingxuan's lap with her back to the door, the woman's skin was fair, and from the back, you could think that she must have a proud figure, and at this time, Li Mingxuan wrapped her hands around the woman's slender waist, and the shoulder strap on her left shoulder fell on the crook of her arm, and the shoulder strap was elastic. Moreover, the right shoulder strap did not move at all and still stayed on the shoulder as it was, looking at their intimate appearance, it must have been taken off by the woman herself, or Li Mingxuan......

Li Mingxuan and the woman in the office are all in full view, I can't bear to look at it anymore, leaning sideways against the wall at the door, only to feel that my legs are weak and the whole person slides down the wall, but somehow I want to cry without tears, at first they didn't notice me, until Shang Xuan deliberately coughed lightly, Li Mingxuan and the woman came out of the office and saw me curled up on the side.

"Mao, why didn't you call in advance when you came? I'm going to pick you up, it's so worrying to be so late. Li Mingxuan calmly acted as if nothing had happened, stepped forward to help me up, and even deliberately showed a very concerned attitude and asked me why my face was so ugly, whether I had a quarrel with my family and other questions, and touched my forehead casually: "Fortunately, I don't have a fever, or it will make me feel distressed." Li Mingxuan's tone is still as gentle as when he confessed to me, but now it is different from the past, now this gentleness makes me scared, makes me sad, he who said that he would treat me sincerely! That's him! The audience, who let me play the role of this main play, "appreciated" the ambiguous process that had nothing to do with me.

Looking up at Li Mingxuan and the women around him, the real talent and female appearance, the inferiority complex instantly rushed to his heart, and he looked like an outsider standing in front of them.

"It's you, it's been a long time, and you haven't changed at all." The woman in front of me had a delicate face, and even though she had only painted light makeup, she was still not inferior to any beautiful girl she had ever seen in a bar.

We looked at each other for a long time, except for imagining her charming figure when she was alone with Li Mingxuan in the office just now, we didn't extract any memory about her from the impression, so we asked: "Do we know each other?" ”

"No wonder you don't recognize me, we haven't seen each other since graduating from junior high school, and I had plastic surgery during that time."

"Junior high school?"

"Yes, do you remember your mysterious friend in junior high school? The one who often walks in the playground together at noon is me, meet again today, get to know me again, my name is Shao Yiya. After saying that, she shook hands with me, and her every movement was generous and decent and unpretentious, "Mao Mao is your name, I just heard Ming Xuan call you that, let's go have a few drinks, first of all, to celebrate the official establishment of a cooperative relationship with Ming Xuan from today, and secondly, for the reunion of the two of us." ”

"Forget it, you guys go, I'm a little tired and want to go and rest first." Not accepting Shao Yiya's invitation may be my last stubbornness in front of Li Mingxuan, but out of politeness, I reluctantly squeezed out a smile on my solemn face, and then left quickly, Li Mingxuan didn't keep me, and I didn't want to take the initiative to explain anything.

I dragged my tired body to find a lounge at random, there are no windows around, and when I close the door, I can't see my fingers, coupled with the good sound insulation effect, it has become a small confined space, away from the noise, and I hope to precipitate the pain of a single person alone, but the reality is always competing with my heart, the more I want to comfort myself to be calm, the more what happened today is like a movie clip looping in my head, every detail seems to be vivid, and I burst into tears in an instant, only then did I find that I overestimated my own ability to bear, In fact, his psychological defense line is more fragile than an ant, and he didn't want to cry without tears before, but he didn't want to make himself look too humble and pretend to be strong.

Maybe from the beginning, this relationship chose the wrong heroine, bumped into me by mistake, and the level difference between him laid a fragile emotional foundation, destined that he will not always belong to me alone, all say that the IQ of girls in love is almost zero, and now I feel that this sentence is beyond reproach, if it is not the case, how can I be deeply involved in it because of his tenderness for only more than a month, and I can't get out for a while, resulting in the idea that I will be wrong, naively thinking that as long as the facts are revealed one day, Li Mingxuan doesn't belong to me at all, so I want to be dumb for the time being about Shao Yiya and Li Mingxuan, even if it's only for a second, I will leave an extra second of warmth before this relationship completely collapses, how can I never laugh bitterly at myself? How ridiculous it is to laugh at yourself at this time.

At this time, I even liked the darkness in front of me, whether I was paralyzed and I could feel better, and then I heard that alcohol is a good partner with the word paralysis, since wine can eliminate sorrow, I must not care about the sadness after drinking, so I never drank I began to grope in the dark in the room in order to facilitate the contact with the walkie-talkie equipped with the front desk, thinking that there was a walkie-talkie in the room or Li Mingxuan told me when he first took me to the bar to play. After getting the walkie-talkie, I asked the front desk for ten bottles of beer and asked to send it to this lounge, the efficiency of the bar staff has always been fast, it didn't take long for the waiter to send all the beer, I adapted to the dark room, I was shaken by the light coming in from outside the house at the moment the waiter pushed the door in, he saw that the room was dark and asked if he wanted to help me turn on the light, as soon as the voice fell, I refused without thinking, I let him open all the wine, and when he left, he closed the door according to the request, and the surroundings were shrouded in darkness again.

Lifting the wine bottle, the bottle mouth touched the lips with a slightly cool texture of glass, the wine did not enter, thinking of the recent headache, there is a medicine in the jacket pocket to resist pain at any time, it is said that this medicine with wine will increase the strength of alcohol, in order to try the rumored feeling of deep paralysis, completely reckless to eat half a bottle of medicine and drink two bottles of wine, because of the urgency of drinking some stomach bloating, slow down for a moment just about to dry the third bottle when began to dizzy, keep nausea, pick up the trash can next to it but can't spit it out, just think that their alcohol is not good, until the headache is unbearable and weak, and part of the body gradually loses consciousness, but I don't know that it is "curiosity kills the cat", that statement is not good at all, but deepens the pain, and it has not yet reached the point where the heart can not be revived, at least until Li Mingxuan personally admits the relationship with Shao Yiya, otherwise even if it is a sure thing, I still think he will change his mind, so I lay on the bed tremblingly picked up the mobile phone to turn on the lighting function, played music, and forced not to close my eyes, Consciousness and vision gradually turn to blur uncontrollably, and sometimes there are hallucinations of physical distraction.

Only then did I understand that wine is not delicious.