"No one in the family is willing to do anything, I do everything! I have to wait for all of you, cook and take care of the whole house, and take care of Ah Jing, I will do everything, I don't have a day of freedom, I don't have a day of freedom, I don't even have time to get sick, I can't do anything without me......"

Chen Shengdi suddenly cried and shouted hysterically, her words were very messy, and she was complaining about something.

These words seem to be old words, and some of the words casually mentioned with Lin Qianfei are heavy, which can be seen to be Chen Shengdi's daily complaints, and I don't know how many times I have said them.

Probably this is part of the real situation of this poor family, all the housework is pressed on Chen Shengdi, which has already pressed her nerves.

At the same time, Lin Guowei's face became darker, and in a blink of an eye, he seemed to be much older, sitting on the chair dejectedly, very confused.

Seeing the changes in the husband and wife, Gu Jun, Wang Ke, Cao Yicong and others all knew in their hearts that they were directly related to Lin Jing's disappearance.

Gu Jun's heart suddenly tightened, a bad prediction was gradually proved to be true, and a tragic incident gradually surfaced. He didn't even want to think about the truth, but some gray imaginary images were churning in his heart, so that he couldn't tell whether it was an imagination or an illusion......

Take it to the mountains and forests to abandon it...... Push off the cliff...... Buried in a pit dug with a hoe......

He took a deep breath and said, "Aunt Chen, please calm down and explain everything to us clearly." ”

"Make it clear, we'll deal with it." Wang Ke added a voice, and also added more pressure to the two of them, with the majesty of long-term interrogation on his face, "If it is not clear, Lin Qianfei and Lin Longxuan may need to cooperate with our investigation for a period of time, which will definitely affect their studies." ”

"We really don't know how Ah Jing disappeared!" Lin Guowei suddenly said urgently, both nervous and scared, and a little angry, "It has nothing to do with Fei Fei and Long Xuan, they don't know anything, if you want to arrest us, if you want to shoot us, shoot us!" ”

The middle-aged man shouted loudly, resentful, and with nowhere to vent, he slapped the coffee table, and the bang sounded in the old and messy living room.

If it was another villager, he might be startled by Lin Guowei, but Gu Jun and the others didn't move, and they didn't say anything, just watched.

Chen Shengdi gradually didn't know whether to calm down or lower, muttered words, but did not make any words that could be heard clearly, and her red tears flashed with a complicated look, as if she was looking at the old three-good student awards on the opposite wall.

"It's me......" she suddenly whispered, "It's my mouth, it's all my fault...... I shouldn't have said that to him...... It's all my ......."

Gu Jun frowned slightly, and glanced at Wang Ke, things seemed to be different from what they expected.

While Lin Guowei became stiff and woody and didn't say a word, Chen Shengdi told some unknown situations back then.

Three days before Lin Jing's disappearance, Chen Shengdi scolded this son because Lin Jing was playing other children's basketball with his foot on the basketball court in front of the village, and he had an argument with others, and was pushed and shoved, almost fighting, and then a parent came to complain.

Lin Jing said that he was just standing there, trying to kick the ball back that had fallen, and if he had a hand, he would catch it with his hand and throw it back.

But the other few children just insisted that he was stirring up trouble, his feet were dirty, and he was a monster......

Chen Shengdi didn't stand on her son's side, she scolded Lin Jing in front of the parent, and when the parent left, she was still very angry, and continued to count Lin Jing: "What do you watch on the basketball court all day, you can't play, quarrel with others, cause trouble, you will cause trouble, waiting for you is annoying enough, and you will cause trouble!" ”

In fact, in the past, in normal times, Chen Shengdi often complained and scolded her eldest son like this, she didn't understand, she was also very bitter in her heart, she thought it was like this...... It's okay.

"Ah Jing is also my son, and I raised him, it's not his fault that he doesn't have hands, I know best how difficult it is for him, how can I really blame him......"

At this time, Chen Shengdi, who recalled, choked up, but on that day, she also scolded a few viciously, she had never scolded so much before, and she actually regretted it after scolding at that time, but she was reluctant to admit her mistake, and she regretted it now.

I said...... You should have been persuaded to throw you away when you were just born, and you wouldn't have dragged yourself down for the rest of your life like now......"

Hearing this, Gu Jun's heart couldn't help sinking, and his breathing became heavier, as if he could feel Lin Jing's pain at that moment.

But he knew that he might never, ever really understand that feeling, even though his family of origin was not very good.

Chen Shengdi continued to talk that three days later, in the evening, when she returned home on a tricycle carrying two children and a few bunches of bananas, Ah Jing was gone. She said that she didn't lie about this part, and Lin Guowei didn't lie either, that he was indeed out of town that afternoon, and when he came back, he joined to find Ah Jing.

I searched for a few days, but I couldn't find it...... They didn't insist on looking for it any longer.

But they are very sure that Ah Jing ran away from home on his own, and should be alive for some time to come.

It may be rumored that the handless beggar child that someone in the neighboring village saw on the streets of Dongzhou city was him......

For this reason, the couple had been to the downtown area of Dongzhou, went to the rumored street, and looked at the begging people on the street from afar.

It's just that they didn't see their son's figure, and they didn't go up to ask carefully, maybe his son wasn't there, maybe they didn't touch him. Once they went there, they no longer had any action to find Lin Jing, just as if this son was no longer alive, when there was no such person......

They got a kind of relief, the family became less difficult, and Qianfei and Long Xuan's life was better.

But for so many years, the two of them, how could they have really let go of this missing handsless eldest son in their hearts......

After listening to this set of rhetoric, Gu Jun, Wang Ke and others ignored it for the time being, watched Lin Guowei smoke a cheap cigarette indifferently, watched Chen Shengdi get up, and walked to the master room connected to the living room, Gu Jun and Cao Yicong followed and watched, only to see Chen Shengdi take something out of an old-fashioned wedding suitcase on the wardrobe next to the bed.

"This piece of paper was left by Ah Jing...... When I got home that day, the paper was on the coffee table......"

Chen Shengdi looked dazed, holding a small crumpled piece of white paper in her hand.

Gu Jun took the old piece of paper, and saw that there was a line of blue ballpoint pen writing on the paper, the handwriting was skewed and difficult, but he tried his best to control the strokes.

It was Lin Jing's writing, but I don't know how it was written.

[I'm gone, don't look for me, when I'm alive enough, I'll kill myself]