Chapter Ninety-One: Existence
Murong Yuhua once said to Gu San that there is always an essential difference between the personality and soul under the algorithm.
After that night, Gu San carried the sleeping third princess back to her room, and she leaned against her and slept quietly, waiting for a new day to come.
Murong Yuhua still woke her up as usual, talked to her, and took her hand to find good food and fun together, just like before. But still something has changed. Although Gu San couldn't say what the specific difference was, she could feel that Murong Yuhua in the body of the third princess was just a personality similar to him under the precision algorithm, she was him, and she was not him.
And the one who burned the dragon chair with her one night, revealed his heart in the flames, and told her the truth by the sea was the real Murong Yuhua. In fact, the current situation of the three princesses is actually similar to the Murong Yuhua that Gu San met in the previous two worlds, they are just containers that carry part of Murong Yuhua's memories, if they haven't talked and contacted the real him, Gu San can't tell the difference.
Can now? She just sees her more as the princess of this world, rather than the boy she wants to protect completely.
This is where the long wait begins. With the virtual world completely different from the outside timeline, Gu San didn't know how long she would have to wait here. Gu San often sits on the rooftop, watching the sunrise and sunset. The matter of the dragon chair was also thoroughly investigated in the palace, and finally punished several stewards who were in charge that night, and the matter was finally closed.
The emperor said that this matter could not be known to outsiders, but since there was a mouth on the person's body, the gossip would only spread faster, and after the winter, dozens of versions of the fire on the dragon chair had been spread, and the more mysterious it was, and it became more and more intense outside the palace.
Winter came sooner than Gu San expected.
This year's charcoal in the Qingyin Pavilion is much better than last year's, and Concubine Kang should be in labor in less than four months, during this time, most of the people in each palace are cautious when they see Concubine Kang, and they don't dare to have a little difference, for fear that one is not careful, and provokes Concubine Kang, and then something happens.
When the autumn hunt was in the past, everyone was also afraid, the emperor was furious, disposed of An Guiren, and obviously knocked on the guards, if anyone is not afraid of losing their heads, they can toss and toss, but now, if they don't take their lives as their lives, they will all be safe and divided, and they dare not exceed half a step.
Yuan Gu San thought that the queen would do something again, and the current three princesses also guessed a lot, but the strange thing is that after winter, there was no movement on the queen's side.
I don't know what the emperor did from it, or because after Concubine Kang and Concubine De got close, there was no other force in this palace that could compete with them.
There are a lot of palace maids and eunuchs in this palace, and there are naturally palace maids looking for palace maids. People, after all, are still afraid of loneliness, in the deep palace, everyone is in danger on the one hand, and everyone is lonely on the other. Originally, everyone was uprooted from their hometown, and without their parents by their side, it was inevitable that they would still want to find someone who could talk and share their worries together.
Between the subordinates, there are these things, and the people above will pass with one eye open and one eye closed, and if this is really the case between the palace concubines, then they need to be more careful.
However, Gu San has always wanted to take care of these things, she lives a very simple life every day, nothing more than eating, drinking, and sleeping, not forgetting the kung fu at hand, and from time to time looking for the guards in the palace to make two moves. The only thing in this world that makes her strange is Juri. Usually, when he saw Murong Yuhua, Zhu Li should be waiting not far away. But this time, I stayed in the palace for almost a year, and I didn't see Zhu Li's shadow.
Gu San went to ask the third princess, and the third princess held her cheeks and thought for a long time, and replied to her with eyes like little black beans, "Maybe the plot progress is not yet the time when we should meet Zhu Li." You know, we're probably not even a third of the book. This book is going to tell Zhao Yuan'er for the rest of her life, think about how old she is now. ”
"The days in this deep palace, one day passes like a year, and it will take a lifetime?" Gu San couldn't help but comment, "The person who wrote this book is also idle enough." ”
"That's because we are in the book, in fact, we really read the text, from Concubine Kang's pregnancy to the time of delivery, maybe the author just said one sentence, what 'time flies', 'months have passed', but we have to finish this day." The third princess said, looking up at her, "Are you bored?" ”
Gu San didn't answer, just sat on the chair next to him and staggered. She is now mainly with the third princess, and Zhao Yuan'er rarely goes there. After all, Concubine Kang has enough people there at the moment, and she is the "protagonist", even if everyone in the world dies, and the book has not yet reached the finale, she will not die.
On the contrary, it was the third princess who should have encountered an accident not long after the beginning, which made Gu San even more worried. Who knows if someone else will pop up in this virtual world? Whether the so-called "real murderer" caught out is true or false, everyone actually knows it in their hearts, and one day the enemy will be unhappy when he sees Concubine Kang again, and it is estimated that it will stumble again.
The third princess put down the brush in her hand and sat up straight, "If you are bored, let's go find something fun to do." ”
Gu San subconsciously touched her own fire fold, to be honest, what she has always carried in her bones is the admiration and obsession for destruction. Even though life is comfortable now, sometimes there is always some strange restlessness burning in her heart, which makes her want to do something inexplicably.
I'm afraid this is the sequelae of living a violent life for too long, just like some veterans, even if they have returned to a peaceful life, but even if this comfort surrounds her for a long time, it makes her feel more comfortable, but occasionally she closes her eyes and still dreams of that bloody scene.
Every killing machine that leaves the battlefield is actually a time bomb. Gu San knew very well in her heart that she was a survivor left behind by the blood of the war, and her only mission was to bring peace to those who deserved it. Her only destiny is the battlefield, fighting to the death.
In fact, during this time, when Gu San was alone, she also thought about why she chose to return to the reality of shit without hesitation.
Murong Yuhua gave her a choice at that time, this dream could last forever, and she could live freely in a world without zombies. Sleep peacefully, wake up comfortably, don't worry about the death of your friends, don't worry about running out of food, they have to start foraging for food, trying to survive. However, whenever Gu San tried to think in the direction of "stay here, stay in a comfortable place and just die until you die", she instinctively felt disgusted.
She'd rather go back to that battlefield than be a war machine again. At one point, she thought reality would bring her only nightmares. She woke up at every moment of sleep, but now she realized a little.
War forged her.
Killing was in her blood, and the daily life that had grown up since her childhood had not made her lose her fighting spirit, but had made her more and more accustomed to it, and the peace that had befallen her was for her only a brief respite between the next war and the last. If she is allowed to rest like this for a long time, she may gradually lose her original belief and motivation to survive.
Man lives for his own existence.
Although Gu San lived comfortably here, although she felt everything she had never been able to feel before, she didn't feel that she "existed" in this virtual world.
Whether it is in the first world, in that reality, she is incompatible with everyone, or in the Republic of China world, choosing to destroy all the enemies in front of her, or in this deep palace - she has never been able to integrate into it, she just watched coldly, just silently watching how everything is developing and changing. She had no way to understand what these people were thinking, and the only thing she could do was to help the people she had befriended when they needed it.
However, the more complicated way of dealing with it, the more constructive comments, she simply couldn't say. She's a determined warrior, there's no doubt about that, but what about outside of the profession of "warrior"?
Gu San tried to ask herself, what else would she have besides the job of killing?
Maybe that's why she wants to get back to reality.
Here, she can only be a bystander on vacation forever, occasionally making small decisions that change the direction of things a little, but no matter how the world works and how it changes, nothing has anything to do with her. She doesn't matter here, and there's little she can do here.
She just doesn't exist here.
But back in her real world, even if it was a mess, even if life there was a nightmare for the people here, Gu San knew what she could do. She knows what she is doing and can find the position she should be in right away. She is insignificant, for some people, just an anonymous person.
But it didn't matter, she knew at that moment that she was a small cog in the great defensive machine, and through her little cog, more or less they could push something.
She exists.
She is a true warrior.
That's her choice, and she has to return to reality. It's just her reality.
In addition, no matter what kind of life she had, it was nothing more than false and meaningless to her, and in her mind, it was just another series of stories.