"Teacher, I don't understand the internal combustion engine you talked about......"

When it came to class next Monday, Li Tieguo had accumulated a week's questions, but no one answered, and finally he was forced to have no choice, so in the early morning class, when the teacher talked about the internal combustion engine again, he stood up and asked, and it was okay not to ask, when he asked, the students sitting below in the teacher seemed to be not very happy,

But no one said anything, and the teacher calmly asked Li Tieguo where he didn't understand, and Li Tieguo asked one by one, and the teacher standing in front of him said everything briefly about Li Tieguo's questions, but before Li Tieguo finished asking, the students sitting below stood up,

"This classmate, if you continue to ask like this, we other students will simply go back to the dormitory!"

It's no one else who stood up, it's the female classmate who questioned Li Tieguo when she came to school last time, she still has two pigtails today, and now she, because of her good studies, outstanding family, and good relationship with her classmates, so the student union recommended and added the classmates to vote collectively, and finally she was elected as the class president, and this will make her stand up and take the lead in condemning Li Tieguo, I don't know if it's because of disgust or the class leader's sense of responsibility,

And Li Tieguo was speechless and embarrassed when she said this, because he did occupy the class time, but the teacher left after class, and there were not many university teachers in the future, and then he had to prepare for classes and do research, and he was very busy every day.

And after the teacher standing in front of him listened to the words of this female classmate, although he was a little annoying in his heart, he felt that his words were a little tricky, and it was normal to help the classmates with a thin foundation, but what she said was reasonable, and it was indeed such a reason, because of one person and delaying the progress of the whole class, it was really not appropriate,

"Yes, I'm sorry..."

Li Tieguo stood in place and paused for a few seconds, then nodded to the female classmate, said sorry and sat down, at this time Li Tieguo had a feeling in his heart, he didn't want to continue studying, he didn't understand anything, but no one could ask, he felt that this place was not the same as the school he imagined, the people here seemed to be full of rejection towards him, he wanted to go home, but before he came, he said that he wanted to go back after studying, and now he goes home, what is the difference between being a deserter?

After class, Li Tieguo sat alone in the class, still not taking the initiative to contact anyone, and the other students in the class seemed to know each other and became friends.

Time passed slowly, Li Tieguo's life still did not change, running exercises in the morning, attending classes during the day, sleeping at night, reading books alone in his spare time, and no intersection with other people, gradually, he felt like air, no matter in any corner of the school, it was the same,

He gradually felt that campus life was boring, boring, and meaningless, he felt that reading had become a burden for him, he racked his brains to understand, to think, but he couldn't learn very well, he even felt that driving a train was really useful, and learning didn't matter.

After waiting for more than a month, Li Tieguo and his classmates in this school have almost completely become two passers-by, other students have to participate in discussions and newspapers at the end of the day, and sometimes go to participate in activities organized by the student union, and there are reading clubs on weekends, and life is colorful, while Li Tieguo is two points and one line, the line segment is the most recently, holding a few books in his hand every day, from getting up early to read it in the dark, to finally going back to bed and throwing it away, regardless of it, his emotions and passion seem to have sunk and faded.

"Li Tieguo, there is your letter at the school gate!"

On a weekend morning a month later, Li Tieguo lay in the dormitory by himself, and he didn't want to get up to read, he couldn't read, but it was better to mix it up, but something unexpected happened to him, the dormitory officer knocked on the door of his dormitory, and then Li Tieguo just opened the door, the dormitory officer casually said a word to him, and then turned around and went to another room,

As soon as Li Tieguo heard that there was his own letter, he was immediately stunned, and a few seconds later he asked the dormitory manager, are you sure it was his letter? The dormitory manager said that your name is not Li Tieguo, it's yours,

So Li Tieguo saw that the dormitory said this, so he put on his clothes and pants and ran outside, on the way Li Tieguo was very suspicious, but he was also a little very excited, because he had a fantasy in his heart, that is, could this letter be written by that person?

When Li Tieguo glanced at the sender, his face suddenly showed joy and excitement, and he didn't immediately tear it open, but held it in front of him, and hurriedly ran back to the dormitory.

Comrade Li Tieguo: Hello

I read the two letters you wrote to me before, I don't think you need to apologize to me, you haven't done anything wrong, I heard that you went to study abroad, I'm happy for you, I haven't participated in higher education, but I want to come to college life must be very exciting, I wish you success in your studies!

Sender: Xu Fangling

A piece of manuscript paper that is not big or small, but only half of it has not been written, the words are like gold, the content is very simple, Li Tieguo read it in more than ten seconds, and then he sat on the bed, holding the manuscript paper, and his mood was very complicated, because he didn't know what the content of this reply letter wanted to express, the paper meaning, as if nothing was said, just a simple blessing,

But Li Tieguo also felt a trace of warmth and care at this moment, but he... I want Xu Fangling to write a little more, even if it's just to talk about the recent situation, but in fact, their relationship doesn't seem to be the latest situation

After sitting for a while, Li Tieguo's heart was happy and low, he didn't know what his current emotions were, contradictions, doubts, speculations, excitement, inferiority, impulsiveness, all kinds of mentality filled Li Tieguo's body, he... I really want to ask Wu Laosan, but Wu Laosan is far away in his hometown, he wants to ask his roommate Su Tongzhi, but he is not too embarrassed, he...

After thinking about it over and over again, Li Tieguo finally sat on the bed and made up his mind, he wanted to reply to Xu Fangling, the content no longer mentioned the past and the past, he wanted to talk to Xu Fangling about his recent affairs, he was a little too depressed, he wanted to find someone to talk about his heart, whether Xu Fangling liked to watch it or not, hated it or not, whether she forgave it politely or truthfully, Li Tieguo didn't think about it anymore, he just said something from his heart,

Comrade Xu Fangling: Hello

I am very happy after receiving your reply, this is the first time I have received a reply from an outsider, thank you, you mentioned college life in the letter, college life is indeed wonderful, but my college life is very bad, I can't keep up with the knowledge points taught by the school teachers, the teachers have other things to do after class, I don't have time to ask. The classmates in the school seem to have some opinions about me, I felt it when I first came, but I don't understand why they have opinions about me, I haven't had any conflicts with them, but many classmates just don't like me very much, fortunately I have a roommate who is willing to communicate with me, but he is usually too busy, and he doesn't meet during the day and don't be together, so there is not much communication. There are newspapers and reading clubs in the school, and there are many extracurricular and intramural activities, which I am very interested in, but I can't seem to fit in with them, I don't know why, I always feel that I am not in the same group as them, do you think this is my problem? Or is it a problem with other students at school?

Many times, I have the idea of leaving here, but the trust and expectations of the organization have strengthened my belief, no matter how bad it is, I will continue to learn, because I am not here to fight for myself, but for the common ideal of our communism!

Sincerely! Salute and say hello to your family!

Sender: Li Tieguo

Li Tieguo sat on the small table and brushed up on a hard work, and in less than half an hour, hundreds of letters were written, and what he wrote was his true inner thoughts, and the emotions he wanted to express to Xu Fangling, otherwise he wouldn't have been able to write so fast.

And after Li Tieguo wrote it, he took the letter and read it a few times, and felt that there was nothing wrong with what he wrote, so he quickly ran out, and when he arrived at the school gate, he asked the uncle at the door where the post office was, and the uncle at the door said that if he sent a letter, he could give it to him directly, the school was a little, and the people at the post office would come to collect it, and then Li Tieguo heard this, and suddenly felt a little happy, and quickly handed over the letter in his hand, and at this moment Li Tieguo finally experienced the benefits of the university, and the letter can be sent in the school to save the run,

After Li Tieguo sent the letter, he returned to the dormitory, and his life in the next few days still did not change at all, it was still the same as before, dull and tasteless, except for hard study and hard resistance, Li Tieguo could not find any meaning in college life, he felt like a stranger in this school, he felt like a machine, lifeless, and the longer it passed, the more difficult it became, and the people and things around him were fresh and unfamiliar,

And after waiting for half a month, Xu Fangling's reply arrived again, which Li Tieguo had already looked forward to, so as soon as the letter arrived, he ran to the dormitory with the letter in his hand, and then quickly opened it as soon as he entered the door.

Comrade Li Tieguo: Hello

After receiving your letter before, I read it, thank you very much for your willingness to share your life situation with me, for those things written in your letter, I personally think it should be your problem, it can't be the problem of the whole class, you should find the root of the problem from yourself, I think it may be some of your radical words, or impersonal, so that the classmates feel that you are too rigid, no interest at all, not speculative, unwilling to communicate with you too much.

From: Xu Fangling

After receiving Xu Fangling's letter, Li Tieguo was originally full of excitement, but when he opened the letter and read it, his face gradually sank a little, and he still didn't have half a sentence, but he didn't even have a normal word, almost all of them were criticizing him, or just educating him, and even some words could be regarded as criticism, and this made Li Tieguo a little unhappy, he was about the same age as Xu Fangling, why did she criticize Li Tieguo? Moreover, Li Tieguo did nothing wrong, and Xu Fangling's words in the letter were mostly guessed and estimated, and at this moment, Li Tieguo even had Xu Fangling deliberately saying that he had a bad feeling.

In fact, when Xu Fangling wrote this letter, she did bring some personal emotions in it, for the words that Li Tieguo said to her before, she has always been haunted by it, remembered it in her heart, and said that she didn't care about it, but who can understate it if she is wronged? What's more, she hasn't done anything wrong, it's completely Li Tieguo's self-righteous words about her, and as for why her wording in the letter is so sharp, part of the reason is also because of the last few sentences written by Li Tieguo, I don't know why, as soon as Xu Fangling saw Li Tieguo talking about what principles and common ideals, she was speechless, and even a little annoying, feeling that Li Tieguo was hypocritical, she did not deny the common ideals of communism, and also recognized that Li Tieguo was indeed an excellent Communist Party member and a good worker loyal to the party. But she just doesn't want to hear Li Tieguo mention these things all the time, maybe this is the difference between men and women,

And where does Li Tieguo know Xu Fangling's thoughts, in his opinion, the party's cause is a glorious and great cause, and it is a great honor for him to participate in it, so of course he likes to say this, and Xu Fangling is also a party member, so they have a common cause.

Half an hour later, Li Tieguo calmed down his emotions, although he felt a little uncomfortable, but he wanted to reply to Xu Fangling, even if she continued to criticize herself, Li Tieguo still wanted to exchange letters with her, he didn't know why he became like this, it may be because he was too lonely, or it may be that he didn't want to cut off contact with Xu Fangling from the beginning, in short, no matter what, Li Tieguo still sat at the small desk and wrote, but this time he wrote very slowly and very little.

Comrade Xu Fangling: Hello

Thank you for your reply, after reading your analysis, I seem to have found my own problems, I am determined to correct them, I hope you can teach me some methods, give me more suggestions, I will actively study and think, and strive to better complete the study tasks assigned by the organization, and strive for the common cause of communism!

Sender: Li Tieguo

Li Tieguo didn't know what to write again, so he didn't write more, in his opinion, as long as Xu Fangling could reply to her again, he would already be very satisfied, as for the suggestions, he tried his best to correct them,

And after the letter went out, it was less than half a month, and the reply came again, Li Tieguo took it back to the dormitory after receiving it, and he was still very excited, it seemed that he had been waiting for this reply for half a month, and the content of the letter was still very sharp.

Comrade Li Tieguo: Hello

After reading your letter, I think you still have too much ideological baggage, my previous reply to you is not to ask you questions, but I hope you can take the initiative to meet the university life, your personality and temper may be the reason why you can not integrate into the university collective, to give you a suggestion, you should take the initiative to participate in school activities, take the initiative to communicate with others, instead of waiting for others to invite you, you are a member of the school, not a guest of the school, the school student union has no responsibility to take the initiative to find you, and students have no responsibility to cater to you, It's about fitting in with the school, not thinking about why the school isn't what you think it is.

I heard you say that you are very interested in the school's reading club, you can go to try it this week, no one can deprive you of the right to participate in activities, but no one has the obligation to take you, no one in the school is your master, you are no longer an apprentice, I hope you can become active, become brave, full of passion and confidence in university life, as for academic things I don't know, or you can consider your own well, and finally I wish you can successfully complete the study tasks assigned by the organization, and strive for the common cause of communism!

Li Fangling has a lot more content in her heart this time than before, but there are a few words in Li Tieguo's heart that is very blocked, and even piercing his heart, and he has become brave? Xu Fangling's letter seemed to feel that Li Tieguo was not brave enough, Li Tieguo asked himself, he felt that even if he was not a heroic soldier, he was fearless in the face of the enemy, at least he did not flinch, and this is not worthy of the word bravery?

Many times the ideas and insights between people are indeed different, Li Tieguo's understanding of bravery is completely different from what Li Fangling said in his heart, for Li Tieguo, he doesn't feel that he takes the initiative to communicate with others at all, takes the initiative to participate in activities, is brave, he feels that only in the face of danger, will the word brave be involved, and Xu Fangling feels that for Li Tieguo, being able to break his own character flaws and get out of himself is a kind of bravery.

But no matter how uncomfortable Xu Fangling's words made Li Tieguo comfortable, he still picked up the pen, even if he didn't agree with Xu Fangling's statement, he still had to reply, and he was also looking forward to Xu Fangling's next reply.

Comrade Xu Fangling: Hello

I have made a deep understanding of what you mentioned in my heart this time, and I have realized my own problems, and I will definitely participate in this week's reading club, and I will also write down the content and report to you.

But for the fact that you mentioned that I am not brave enough, I think it still needs to be thought about and understood, and I personally think that I am brave enough!

Sender: Li Tieguo

In this letter, Li Tieguo assured Xu Fangling that he would go to the reading club, a large part of the reason was that he felt that what Xu Fangling said in his heart was indeed very reasonable, but there was also a small part of the reason, because of the word bravery, in Li Tieguo's opinion, it was just a reading club, could it be that he didn't go because he was afraid? Joke!

A few days later, after the reply from Monday, Li Tieguo has been paying attention to the things of the reading club, and soon waited until Friday, Li Tieguo heard a few roommates in the dormitory said that there will be a reading club after class tonight, and then Li Tieguo asked Su Tongzhi in private, Su Tongzhi is still very good to Li Tieguo, so he told him the specific place and time, and what to do when he participated, in fact, it is very simple, that is, it is led by the seniors, everyone reads, discusses, thinks, And then discuss and discuss some of the current things about the railway, express their opinions, and speak freely,

And after Li Tieguo waited for class, because Su Tongzhi and the other two roommates went together, so he could only clean up by himself, and went by himself, about half past four in the evening, Li Tieguo stood downstairs in the only school building, and after a while, he saw that many people were going inside one after another, and many of them were his classmates, so Li Tieguo knew that the reading club was about to start, and then he also raised his legs and walked in, but at the moment he entered, he seemed to feel a little nervous,