"I grew up studying hard for exams, and in the end it seemed like it was just to keep me away from home and away from the people I cared about, which was not the life I wanted"

This is a brand new theory that I came up with by thinking about life not long ago, my grandfather is also old, my brother has left home to join the army, my mother has been in poor health and is still lying in the health center, and the home has long been not as warm and happy as it was at the beginning. If I had to choose to leave, to leave home for the sake of my own unsurprising ideals and ambitions, it would be cruel to myself and my family, and I had already been mentally prepared. After I finished studying, I didn't go anywhere, I stayed at home. I must become the pillar of the family, the guide of the Zhang family, so that my grandfather, brother, father and mother are proud of me.

After hearing this, the father suddenly smiled and sighed: "Okay, this is your idea and your choice, I can't influence it." People always pass by very quickly in this life. Too many joys and sorrows, too much gathering and separation. You have to pay attention to the fact that a lot of things are actually coming to an end if you are not careful......"

After listening to my father's words, I inevitably felt a panic in my heart.

"People always go by too fast in this life? Too many joys and sorrows, too much reunion and separation? It's going to end if you're not careful? "It's too sad to say that, and it doesn't seem to be my father's usual style and attitude towards me.

Don't...... What does this portend?

"Just learn to be satisfied......"

My reply became a little timid, and I took a few puffs of the cigarette in my hand.

After my father finished smoking, he asked me for a cigarette and lit it and took a deep breath, and his previous addiction to smoking was not so big.

"No matter what becomes of you in the future, you are my son, do you believe in fate?"

"Life?" Too many people have asked me this stupid question, and now my father is no exception. But I'm still glad that my father rarely said warm words, although the tone was still cold.

I smiled, shook my head and said, "I don't believe it, I haven't believed it all the time, the village says that this life has two luck and three feng shui, four accumulations of yin virtue and five reading." But at the end of the day, isn't your life in your own hands? ”

The father did not answer, he quickly finished his cigarette, extinguished it in his hand and let out a long breath.

"If you want to be a normal person, don't be curious about anything, some things are not as simple as you think, don't ask if you want to be normal......"

I frowned when I heard this, so suddenly I got to the question I answered earlier? And I suddenly had a feeling in my heart that my father was not telling me what to do and how to change myself, but more like he was warning myself not to touch many things. I was about to ask, but my father spoke again.

"From now on, you are in charge of this family, no matter what happens, you must resist, and if you can't resist, you have to resist, the Zhang family has no seeds!"

"What ......"

I was taken aback and did not understand the meaning of this sentence at all, and before I could gather my thoughts, I heard a commotion outside the house, and my father had already stood up and walked straight out of the door with a determined look in his eyes......

I hurriedly followed, and when I came to the door, the house was already full of people. These people are all hunters, and there is not a single villager. They stood on both sides in an orderly manner, all armed with mountain knives and shotguns.

The father walked over without looking back, and everyone knelt on the ground, and suddenly a roar rang in their ears.

This kind of p roar is too full and strong, and I am stunned in place, but I don't dare to take a step forward, the roar continues, but the voice gradually changes tone.

I listened carefully, and suddenly I felt numb all over my body, and my feet trembled uncontrollably, this is not a so-called shouting at all, but more like a kind of sorrow, a kind of blood, a wail that is about to die!

My father had already walked into the crowd, and in the midst of everyone's shouts, he was still unmoved, his steps did not deviate for a moment, and his eyes did not deviate slightly. He never intended to look back at me, so he walked straight ahead. It was as if he had seen the place where he belonged in life, and he could not tolerate the slightest hesitation or slackness.

This was probably my last chance to see my father, and I rushed over to cut through the crowd to be in parallel with him. Even if he still doesn't say a word, even if he still won't tell me why. I have to accompany him through this difficult journey for me.

Everyone stood up and stood in front of me, I looked at these hunters in front of me and there was no fear in my eyes, this is my door, if I want to leave, no one can stop me!

Furious, I was ready to fight for my life, but I heard my father roar: "Don't move! Go home! ”

"Do I still have a home! You're gone, where are you going to let me go! Where there are relatives, there is home! I don't want to think of the clinic as my last home! Father ......"

My eyes are full of tears, I really feel so wronged, why have you been hiding it from me so much, why are you depriving me of the right to walk with you now! What the hell is all this! Here's why!

It's as if all the pressure, so the fears and questions that I dare not face are all on my shoulders, I can't stand it, I can't stand it anymore......

I began to sob, and began to kneel in place without hope, and watched the crowd go away. Finally someone looked back at me, and even though I was far away, I could still see this look of pity in the eyes of the Orion, yes...... A hunter is taking pity on me from the bottom of his heart......

I slapped myself and slapped myself! Spread his legs, threw off the restraints, and finally rushed over.

I don't know why my father is leaving, and I don't know why I want to chase this time, is this just life and death? Didn't he often disappear and often not return home in the past? Is this just one or two times? I ran like crazy and didn't forget to comfort myself desperately, but I knew better than anyone else that my father might never come back.

The phrase "From now on, you will be in charge of the family" is full of imprints in my mind......

I had already rushed desperately in front of the people, and before I had time to shout and open the crowd, I was smashed by the Orion in front of me with the handle of the gun, this is the Orion who had mercy on me just now, but at this time, his eyes had already been unloaded with compassion and mercy in exchange for all ferocity and viciousness.

Blood spurted out of his nostrils, and I watched as he lost his center of gravity and fell backwards......

Before I lost consciousness, I felt like I was being caught, this person seemed to be my father, but I just looked at him and fainted.

A beam of sunlight was shining on my face, and I only felt warm in my hands and fragrant in my nose. When I opened my eyes, I saw that my hands were interlocked with Sister Liu's fingers, and the deafening snoring sound of her sleep echoed in her ears, and Sister Liu slept very sweetly.

I was stunned for two seconds and jumped up and ignored Sister Liu, rushed upstairs The door of my father's room had been locked, I touched the bridge of my nose that was faintly painful, all the things of last night came to mind, and a burst of unstoppable nervousness and panic swept over, this is not a dream......

Sitting in his chair and smoking desperately, he wondered what was going on, why his father was taken away by those mountain people, and why they knelt down and wailed at him. Is it really to pay for my life? Is it really the life of the father in exchange for the life of the old man?

I know that this idea will not exist, even if my father is a small person, I don't need to surface such a heavy price because of me, I will only think about it more and more uneasy, and the more sad I come to my father's door, I knocked lightly on the door, desperately hoping that the cold and merciless voice from the door will let me leave, but in response to myself is always endless silence, this time my father really did not disappear inexplicably and suddenly returned.

I looked at the strange lock in front of the door and was disheartened, the lock actually did not lock the door, but it was just a decoration in front of the door, I wanted to take it away and throw it away but found that I couldn't reach out, this lock was not locked on the door but locked in my heart.

Sister Liu ruffled her hair and walked over, he looked at me and smiled slightly: "Believe me, the old club will come back, he knows all those hunters"

I turned my head to look at Sister Liu expressionlessly, and I wanted to scold her with the word "roll". She didn't seem to care at all, and she still acted like nothing had happened, and my impression of her suddenly became a little disgusting. Why do you comfort me so lightly, have you ever felt the same way? This is not your relative, your father, you certainly won't be in a hurry!

I responded indifferently to Sister Liu, she still didn't care and smiled at me: "It's okay, maybe I'll be back tonight"

I didn't want to pay attention to Sister Liu, I came to my uncle's house next door, my uncle was making breakfast at this time, and when he saw me coming, he didn't pay much attention to me, just said hello to me, and continued to be busy with the delicacies in his hand.

I lit a cigarette and wanted to hand it to my uncle, but I thought about it and asked bluntly: "Uncle, what happened last night?"

My uncle turned his head to look at me or looked down at the noodles in the pot: "What's the matter, what happened to you and Wang Qiu's rabbit cub last night?" ”

I looked at the bloodshot redness in my uncle's eyes, he must have gone to play cards all night last night and only came back now. I looked at my uncle's tired figure and suddenly felt that he was so useless, and that his existence suddenly became meaningless. Anyway, my mother's younger brother and my father have known each other for many years, and their blood has long been thicker than water, but you have no feelings for this, I seem to instantly understand what my father used to say to me: "None of the relatives in the family will be reliable, you can only rely on your own ......"

I left with a blank face, and walked to the door with nowhere to go but to smoke silently, as if my mood today was a little extreme, I am not usually like this, even if I am perfunctory about the kindness of others, I will not be so angry......

After much hesitation, I still came to the basement to find Wang Qiu, regardless of his sleepiness, I first forced him to smoke a few cigarettes quickly to cheer up, and then without hesitation, I told him all the events of last night, I felt that my tone was still extreme, but I felt extraordinarily smooth, except for a few of them, I could not find anyone to pour out the bitterness in my heart.

After saying it in one breath, I looked at Wang Qiu's stunned face and suddenly perked, it turns out that I need friendship and friends so much, if I don't have them, what kind of bitter and sad life will be, and my father, there has been no one around him, and even family affection seems strange to him. So how has he spent all these years adapting?