Chapter 11: Stay
1.
On Saturday night, Yi Qing was lying at her desk doing her homework, and soon Ms. Yang pushed the door in.
"Qingqing, do your homework" walked to Yi Qing's table and looked at it, "Write chemistry homework!" ”
Yi Qing had already anticipated what Ms. Yang was going to say next.
Ms. Yang could be heard sighing softly, and Yu Guang noticed that she was silently beside her bedside nearby.
After a few moments, she finally spoke: "Recently, I studied chemistry...... How does it feel? ”
Yi Qing did not hesitate and said, "Mom, I don't want to change my subject. ”
The other party sighed again and said, "I'm not trying to persuade you to change your major this time." ”
Yi Qing paused and remained silent.
"I know", Ms. Yang sighed, "you ......"
After silently looking at Yi Qing for a long time, he finally decided to speak: "Qingqing, Mom knows...... Your father's departure has dealt you a big blow. ”
"Hey," he sighed, "because of your father, you've always dreamed of becoming a doctor." ”
Yi Qing was still silent, a wave of heat surging in her mind, and her eyes gradually moistened.
"But he's dead!" With sobbing, and trying to suppress the trembling breath, "What's the use of you being a doctor now?" ”
This may be a regret, a regret that is firmly engraved in my heart and cannot be erased, and I want to do my best to make up for it.
"I'm not saying this to get you to change chemistry, but ...... I don't want you to live in that shadow all the time, it makes me feel guilty, you know? ”
After speaking, he walked to Yi Qing's side again, put his left hand on Yi Qing's shoulder, and patted it lightly twice, "In the past, let it all pass, okay?" ”
Tears slipped from her eyes one by one, from warm to cold, Yi Qing gritted her teeth, and her lips were still trembling slightly.
"I don't think your dad wants to see you like this", his mood calmed down, "People, you still have to look forward." ”
"But my dad wanted me to be a doctor."
"Then your father Huang Quanxia will definitely regret that he said such a sentence!" Ms. Yang's tone suddenly accentuated.
Parents in the world don't want their children to be happy, but children are also independent individuals, and they will go against their will for the sake of their parents.
"You think I don't know how painful it is for you to study chemistry, and it's not because you don't like chemistry at all," you don't think about chemistry at all, "You carry such a heavy burden to study, you don't take chemistry as a subject at all." ”
Ms. Yang gently buried Yi Qing's head in her arms, and Yi Qing couldn't cry at this time.
"I don't object to you studying chemistry, but you don't have to study with so much pressure, and don't feel that you are a son of man without tossing yourself half-dead, okay?"
Good words and persuasion are no longer of any use to Yi Qing, it is better to be ruthless and stimulate her more.
In the end, I don't know how long it took, when Yi Qing slowly calmed down and stopped sobbing, Ms. Yang said coldly: "Change the subject or not, you make your own decision, but there are some things you have to let go, otherwise, you are still not my daughter?" ”
Yi Qing is so sad, how can Ms. Yang not, her husband died, how can she say that she is not sad or sad, but she is just a mother, in front of Yi Qing, she must be strong enough and not be sad and depressed with her.
After Ms. Yang finished speaking, she left Yi Qing's room.
2.
Life is short for decades, cry when you want to cry, laugh when you want to laugh, and don't care about suppressing yourself.
When people are always complaining that everything is not as they wished, they never think that in fact, before the sadness has time to start, they are already about to get off at the station.
When she woke up the next day, Yi Qing found herself lying on the table and sleeping all night, not knowing when she had fallen asleep, or who had covered her with a blanket.
It's still raining outside, so I can't go out for a run today.
Yi Qing sat at the desk, flipping through her chemistry book page by page, her notes neatly lying on it, and sighed softly.
After Ms. Yang's words yesterday, Yi Qing will not be trapped in the abyss and unable to get out.
What she said makes sense, my father is no longer there, and sadness is not what he wants, so it's better to live well, don't let Ms. Yang worry, and cherish the moment.
The past is worth nostalgia, the future is worth aspiring to, and only the present can be cherished.
So, what's the point of her choosing chemistry?
I never thought about giving up chemistry, and after these two days, I suddenly wavered a little, but walking like this, I really felt like a deserter.
When I went back to school in the evening for self-study, as expected, the head teacher came to her again.
At this time, she was reading a book in the classroom, and when she went out, the class looked at her again, and this time she didn't care, and turned a blind eye.
After walking out of the classroom, standing next to the head teacher, Yi Qing faced the classroom and looked at Xu Yaofeng through the dusty and blurry window.
He seemed to be talking to Lu Fan, his face was expressionless, and Lu Fan next to him was smiling.
Yi Qing couldn't help but wonder, would he be sad if she left this class?
Then turn to the classroom with your back to the classroom.
"Yi Qing, how are you thinking about it?" Every time the head teacher came to Yi Qing, he had a heavy expression on his face.
However, this time, Yi Qing's expression was very relaxed, and it was not as down as before.
"Teacher, I've decided, don't go, no matter how bad the test is in the future, you don't have to persuade me again!" Yi Qing said these words without waves, and had a very chic smile on her face.
The head teacher was stunned when he heard this, and his mouth was open for half a day without speaking. Yi Qing couldn't help but want to laugh when she saw it, "Also, when the time comes, Xiao Yang will come to you again, help me talk to her, let her rest assured!" ”
"Good ......", the head teacher lifted his glasses, a little irrepressible excitement, "The teacher is so moved, come on, I see you!" ”
After careful consideration, Yi Qing still decided to stay, this time it was not for her father, but she was still unwilling, why couldn't she conquer chemistry?
She doesn't want to back down when she encounters difficulties, she is not a tendon, and she also knows that this decision will affect her future, but she just wants a way to go dark.
Not long after returning to the classroom, Lu Fan ran over to her, "Yi Qing, do you need me to help you move things then?" ”
"What?"
"You're not going to change your subject?"
"Don't change it!" Yi Qing smiled at him, "What, you're disappointed?" ”
"When...... Of course not, I just want your chemistry book. The other party rubbed his head embarrassedly, "Your chemistry book notes are particularly detailed." ”
"Then it seems that your hopes have been disappointed."
Lu Fan's disappointed left, and Yi Qing's attention also walked back with him.
I wanted to turn around to look at someone, but I was afraid of colliding with his eyes, and after struggling for a while, I still forgot it, she didn't have time to think about him yet.
Next, conquer chemistry.
3.
It was sunny on Wednesday, and when the national flag was raised in the playground and the field was over, Zhang Yijing came, "Yi Qing, why don't you come to the second class?" ”
"Are you disappointed?"
"Of course, I've been struggling with how I'm going to discuss it with my table for the past two days!" As he spoke, he took Yi Qing's hand, "When you come, we'll be at the same table!" "Smile flatteringly.
"Hey, I'm sorry." Yi Qing is in a very good mood these days, and finds that there is not so much pressure to study chemistry, in fact, it is quite interesting, so it will be a joke when talking to Zhang Yijing.
"You won't be reluctant to allow Yaofeng, right?" Zhang Yijing threw a slanted smile and smiled.
Yi Qing didn't want to talk about him anymore and avoided this topic, "Zhang Yijing, are you embarrassed to say that I am inconsistent?" ”
"Huh? What's wrong with me? ”
Zhang Yijing's face is as her name suggests, she looks like a particularly quiet girl, her facial features are quite marked, giving people a feeling of elegance and ladyship, as long as she doesn't speak, these two people can be said to be "monsters".
"No, compliment you on your beauty." Yi Qing glanced at her amusedly.
I saw that this guy was playing tricks, and hurriedly covered his face, looking shy, "I hate it." ”
Speechless, "Sister, we're walking too slowly, and we're about to go to class." ”
Zhang Yijing, who was addicted to herself, suddenly woke up, "What, then let's go!" ”
After speaking, he pulled Yi Qing and rushed upstairs.
As soon as I went upstairs, I saw Xu Yaofeng in the corridor at the top of the stairs.
Xu Yaofeng happened to look at it too, his face was expressionless, his eyes were facing each other, Yi Qing was also expressionless, and the two of them left quietly from each other's field of vision, Yi Qing didn't dare to look at him directly, and bowed his head slightly.
To say that Yi Qing stayed in the chemistry class, it was indeed a little guessed by Zhang Yijing, but she was definitely not a person who was carried away by her children's private affairs.
Never give up when encountering difficulties, do your best, even if the final result is still not satisfactory, there is nothing to regret, youth, always have to be frivolous.
Whether it was Xu Yaofeng's sentence downstairs in the dormitory that day, "Change if you want, don't suppress yourself", or Yi Yang's "I will protect you", or Ms. Yang's words that endured heartache, all gave Yi Qing the courage to persevere.
Those who have flowers do not need gods.