Gu Xiyun has always felt that he is quite lucky.

In junior high school, I didn't put much effort into being the first in the class; The high school entrance examination played normally and entered a key high school, although the high school was just a gangster, but the results were average, but it was not good. Even if she failed the college entrance examination and entered an ordinary university, she was okay with her consciousness.

She's always been a go-to person, so she's easy to satisfy.

And that's probably a good thing. But if you haven't seen the prosperity of the world, how do you know that what you want is limited to this? Without desire, where is motivation, and where is victory? Especially, in a dwarfed situation.

Everything may have originated from Gu Xiyun's experience as a waiter in a five-star hotel.

In fact, everything is pretty much the same, setting the table, serving the food, refilling the drinks for the guests, and washing the dishes after the guests leave the table. Coincidentally, the guests were Gu Xiyun's high school classmates, some of whom entered key universities in the college entrance examination at that time.

At that time, night had fallen, neon lights were dazzling over the city, huge crystal chandeliers hung above the hotel lobby, gilt halos were low-key and luxurious, looking crystal and dazzling, and brightly dressed men and women calmly shuttled through it. And she is just an inconspicuous little waitress.

Among those people, there are Qi Xiaomeng, the flower of the top student class of the year, the study committee members who worked hard to brush the questions when they were studying, and the representatives of the English class who frantically participated in the English competition······ Also, the squad leader of the beautiful Jiyue, Su Yu.

They congratulate each other, talk and laugh, what are they talking about? Wall Street finance, unannounced political strategy of the country, participation in a major scientific research······ Gu Xiyun didn't know anything about this. Obviously, five years ago they were sitting in the same classroom, wearing the same cheap uniforms. Today, Gu Xiyun is still cheap, and they stand at the top of society through their own efforts and studies.

The deep inferiority complex continued to spread in her heart, spreading to all her limbs.

She vaguely heard that Su Yu and Qi Xiaomeng were getting engaged, and the people at the table congratulated and toasted. Yes, the boy is handsome and excellent, the girl is beautiful and hard-working, how to look at it, how to match, talented and beautiful, and a good couple. Gu Xiyun has been sealing the secret in his heart for many years, and he no longer has the face to say it.

Yes, she liked Su Yu back then. However, she at least knew that she was self-aware and did not seek humiliation to confess. She wants face, she wants dignity, she knows that she is as humble as dust, both in the past and in the present. The best way to do this is to never mention it. Let all undeserved emotions stop at the lips and teeth and hide the years, as a big dream that can be hoped for.

Gu Xiyun often felt that if Su Yu knew that she liked him, she would definitely feel extremely disgusting. After all, she is so humble and insignificant, and she feels disgusting because she has no ability or education. That's it, I continue my bleak life, and he continues his Yangguan Avenue.

But God, he always doesn't like to let things go according to his heart, he likes to watch others be busy and chaotic, make the situation more and more chaotic, like a mess, and then stand by and watch.

It was the representative of the Chinese class that discovered her first: "Huh? Are you Gu Xiyun? "That's a delicate and kind girl, without any malice, just because I haven't seen my classmates for many years, greetings: Eh, are you so-and-so? However, it can't withstand the deliberate use of some well-intentioned people.

Shen Chuchu, the propaganda committee member of the year, spoke immediately, and his voice was not big or small, and everyone in the box could hear it: "Eh, is it Xiaoyun?" I remember when I was in the dormitory with you, you said that you wanted to go to Beijing University, how are you doing now? I really miss it when I think about high school, and I still remember the love letter you secretly wrote to Su Yu in the dormitory······" Before the words fell, she hurriedly covered her mouth and her innocent eyes widened.

Shen Chuchu and Gu Xiyun are roommates, and the relationship is average, but it is not to the point of targeting each other. Unfortunately, someone later confessed to Gu Xiyun, and that person happened to be what Shen Chuchu liked at that time. Even after so many years, the two of them may no longer remember what that person looked like, but this beam is finished.

In many cases, the malice from others is often groundless and inexplicable, but it can stab people with chills like the north wind of the cold winter moon. At this moment, Gu Xiyun felt this biting chill very clearly. Beijing University, the best institution of higher learning in the country, is a sacred place that countless high school students who are studying hard in the cold window dream of, and she is no exception. However, it is limited to thinking about it.

She doesn't have the perseverance of others, nor does she have the courage to make a desperate move, she doesn't have the idea of desperately striving for the top, so naturally she is not worthy of such a good place, and she is not worthy of an excellent person like Su Yu. To put it bluntly, she brought it all upon herself. She deserved it.

Even if Gu Xiyun felt this malice, she couldn't refute it with confidence, after all, what Shen Chuchu said was the truth. Thinking about it now, it's really unbelievable that she would have such an unrealistic dream back then. She tugged at the corners of her mouth and lowered her eyes:

"Back then······ You remember wrong. Even if there is such a thing, I am too stupid to know the height of the sky. After speaking, she hurried to get the food, not wanting to return to the golden box at all.

Finally caught up at dinner, she silently washed the dishes, her hands were palpable rough. Naturally, the hotel's inferior dish soap will not be much better, even if you rub on hand cream, it will not help. When I got back to the cramped rental house, it was already ten o'clock in the evening. The lights of thousands of homes are still bright. It's a pity that there is no lamp that belongs to Gu Xiyun.

Mother called, and the old voice couldn't hide the tiredness: "Xiaoyun, is the person you went on on a blind date last time dissatisfied?" A monthly salary of 6,000 is already the best condition that can be found. You ······ If you have such an education, if you don't marry while you're young, no one will marry you when you're old······" There was a little anxiety in his tone, he was so helpless because he really thought about his daughter.

Gu Xiyun thought of the man from last time, thin and small, dressed a little casually and sloppily, and there was black dirt between his fingernails that was difficult to look at. She said in a dry voice: "Mom, isn't it enough for me to make money alone to support you?" Do you have to marry someone I don't like? ”

"Don't I know your salary? How much is left after paying the rent and deducting living expenses? Do you have to save for decades to buy a house? Do you want to never have a place of your own for the rest of your life? Mom and Dad are not good, and they can't afford to save for your dowry······" The mother blamed herself deeply. As everyone knows, every sentence is like a sharp knife, deeply rooted in the softest piece of flesh in Gu Xiyun's heart.

Yes. It's because she doesn't work hard, she doesn't cherish the opportunity to study back then, she doesn't have the ability to pick herself up, and she doesn't have the ability to support her parents. Everything was done by herself.

What kind of you've done, you deserve it. Gu Xiyun scolded himself fiercely in his heart. Later, her mother said something in bits and pieces, and she couldn't remember it clearly, so she hung up the phone in a daze and looked up at the bustling city outside.

The lights shone all day and night, and none of them illuminated her. However, she had the opportunity to create a lamp of her own. It doesn't need to be dazzling, but it's warm enough to belong to Gu Xiyun's lamp.

Regret came over her, and she had never hated her incompetence as much as she did now. Gu Xiyun grabbed the cheap clothes on his body hard, buried his head deep in his arms, his shoulders trembled with crying, and the light-colored clothes deepened with the tears and then melted into the boundless night.

There is a cause and there must be an effect, and what you have done will be rewarded. All the encounters in life are caused by every move in the past. There is never a rootless outcome. Gu Xiyun will eventually repay the slackness and laziness of the year.

She is repaying, painful and regretful, but there is no regret medicine in the world. She is deeply aware of what a rotten person she is.

But if it is······ Can everything be done all over again? Heaven is ruthless but also merciful. If so, what if there is a chance to do it all over again?