Teacher Yuan's face was not too surprised, but smiled slightly and looked at the girl in front of him with a curious expression, what exactly has this beautiful girl experienced that can make her say this different thing. Teacher Yuan didn't ask any more questions, but motioned for Gui Lun to sit down, wrote something on the paper, and looked at the list again, and Xiao Hei was called.

Xiao Hei's answer was even more strange, Xiao Hei said this sentence earnestly: "My family is in the countryside and I'm going to graduate, but I don't want to stay here, I want to go out and have a look, I like to socialize with people, I want to be a figure that everyone can afford, I may be garbage in your eyes for the rest of my life, Master Kuo, but, this time, I really, I really want to give it a try,"

Xiao Hei's speech caused a heated discussion, and it was really strange that a person like him, who was carefree in the eyes of his classmates, would say such a thing.

"What a braggart king! So rich or garbage in everyone's eyes? Isn't my king ball even as good as garbage? Could it be a piece of? You can pull it down! Wang Qiu looked at Xiao Hei with a sarcastic face, and thought that Xiao Hei must not be able to find what to say, and he just wanted to attract the attention of others.

Teacher Yuan listened carefully to everyone's answers, and wrote them down in a notebook when they met something they liked, and the students felt that it was fresh and exciting, and it was really a fun thing to peek into other people's inner world in this way.

It was my turn to answer. I have never thought about what I want to do in the future and what kind of person I want to become, let alone have nothing to say, everything is unknown to me, I only have to wait and choose. So I just said a word to Mr. Yuan lightly, my mantra: "Everything is the best arrangement!" “

"It shouldn't be like this, how can you accept your fate at such a young age?"

"I didn't accept my fate, I just felt that waiting and seeing what happened and finding a way was the only way, and I didn't have no choice. I just think that the great ideal future may be so fragile in the face of time and years. I responded

"But if you continue like this for a long time, you will invisibly give yourself a lot of self-comfort, and self-comfort is often just a temporary pass, but more will make you regret it"

"I won't regret it, because it's my choice, I have the choice"

"It's because this emotion disrupts your choices, and you only feel like you have a choice for a short time."

"Teacher, do you know what is the most helpless thing for me? My answer seemed a little agitated, and I was aware of it myself, but I just couldn't control it. All I could do was keep my face tense and try to look as natural as possible.

After a short silence, Teacher Yuan gently picked up the words: "I don't have a choice, I don't have the right to choose, I can only be forced to accept it!" This is your cowardice" As soon as Teacher Yuan's words fell, my whole body began to tremble uncontrollably, I couldn't imagine that under this smiling tone, she actually hit the nail on the head and said the pain in my heart and concealed it.

How can someone talk to themselves about this point for the first time in many years, in my opinion, everyone is happy, including themselves, because everyone has a choice, can choose, can choose different ideals and different lives, can choose how to walk, how to speak, how to make friends, instead of being forced to accept because they have no choice, what a happiness this is, but few people can find this happiness. In my opinion, most people forget to be grateful, just blindly live in their own dissatisfaction, how happy it is to have choices in life! I didn't expect Teacher Yuan to be able to talk about this, she must have understood my feelings and the indifference in front of me, but she denied my mantra, "Everything is the best arrangement"

My chest still ached. When something I've believed in for years is thrown out in denial, I can't find the words to fight back.

"What do you mean is that if I can't prove you wrong, then everything you say is right? I don't think so, don't think that you are the teacher and everything you say is right" I still couldn't control myself, and my tone became so bitter, just because I decided that Teacher Yuan only knew a little about me, and she wasn't why I still denied myself.

From beginning to end, Teacher Yuan was smiling faintly, not angry. I just crossed my name at the front of the notebook and continued to smile and said, "Okay, don't get excited, we're just discussing." If you feel that you can't get angry, we can discuss it again when we have time after class."

My mind went blank at the moment, what did I just do? How could such heartless words come to be uttered? Is this what you choose to say because you have a choice? Why does this choice seem a little unsatisfactory? Teacher Yuan actually didn't want to deny me in the slightest, he was just exchanging ideas with himself, why did I become manic so uncontrollably? Is this because of the choices you have? That's the best arrangement? I regret it so much.

It's like losing my soul all day, I've been restless, my mind is full of Mr. Yuan's speech, think about the problem from another angle, if I were Mr. Yuan, what kind of mood would I have at that time, and a good lesson that should have been given to everyone was destroyed because of myself. I waited in the playground and the dance activity extension ended. Hurried over.

"I'm sorry, Mr. Yuan, I'm ......" suddenly stood in front of Mr. Yuan, not daring to look directly.

"What's wrong? Why apologize? Teacher Yuan stopped and asked.

"I shouldn't have communicated with you today, you're gentle with me and I'm not, it's not fair and shouldn't be"

"You didn't make a mistake, why apologize? We're just communicating, and it's the difference that gets the most out of it, isn't it? "My words made Teacher Yuan a little puzzled, where did so many fairness and those narrow rules come out.

"I just...... I just "I know that Mr. Yuan will not understand my mood at the moment, I have always had my own principles for different things, just like I have a scale in my heart, I have been trying to keep him balanced, different things will be measured on this scale, to measure the fairness I need, it has always been external factors that make this scale crooked and out of balance, and this time it is because I have made this scale crooked, so I want to apologize and try my best to continue to keep him balanced." In fact, everyone will have an invisible scale in their hearts, which is used to measure everything in life, but many people ignore it.

"It's okay, the teacher is not angry, I have to go back to change clothes and take a shower, you can rest early" Teacher Yuan politely rejected the apology I wanted to express next, smiled and turned to leave.

Looking at the back of Teacher Yuan's departure, I felt very stuffy, but the weather was hot but I began to feel a little cold. When I walked to the playground, I recklessly lit a cigarette and began to burn my own life, my mind still spinning the phrase "Everything is the best arrangement?"

Seeing the running Guilun, her eyes were firm, and her steps were relaxed, lap after lap. I came again to the place where we used to sit and rest. Sure enough, the couple was still sitting there, but they were a little far away today, the boy was silently smoking a cigarette on the side, and the girl was bowing her head and not saying a word, they seemed to be arguing. While I was praying for their speedy reconciliation, Katsura ran over.

"Aren't you going to run? Why didn't I see you acting," with brisk steps, Gui Lun ran around me for two more laps.

"Let's go on a run for a while, maybe I'll run with you tomorrow" My mood was slightly relieved after the appearance of Guilun, and I finally squeezed out a smile.

"Haha, that's really my blessing, I don't know how many girls can envy it" Gui Lun smiled and panted, and sat on the ground.

"You just love to think a lot a day, you people who study well, you always think more than others think, it's troublesome"

"It's better to have an idea than a blank mind......" I pulled out another cigarette with an innocent look.

"Forget it, I can't control you, give me a cigarette"

This sentence was like a bolt from the blue, and I wondered if there was something wrong with my ears, until Guilun repeated the words again.

"And smoke? Give me one."

"You want to smoke?" Looking at her real eyes, I still couldn't believe it, I had always thought that this was actually just a joke that Gui Lun was talking about to tease me.

"Isn't it only men who can smoke, but women can't smoke?" Guilun said, reaching out and grabbing one from my cigarette case, and by the way, also took my lighter.

Skillful smoking posture, after a deep breath, the smoke passes through the lungs and then comes out of the nose, the coherent movements and the appearance of raising the hand, just like a smoker who has been smoking for many years, everything seems so natural. This is definitely not the smell that people who don't smoke can exude, I suspect that Guilun may have smoked longer than me, and I seem to have seen the appearance of my aunt in her, because this cigarette Guilun inadvertently has a more mature temperament.

"What else is there in Guilun that I don't know?" I couldn't help but ask in my heart, facing such a classmate was enough to make the stupid me look dazed.

After a few puffs, Guilun noticed my subtle expression and asked, "What?" Could it be that my smoking posture is too ugly? Guilun finished speaking, so he was ugly.

"No, no, I'm just ......" I hurriedly shook my head and began to stutter again.

"Just unexpected, right? Surprise or surprise? After Guilun finished speaking, a playful smile hung on his cheeks again, and his cute and innocent face returned.

"There are some unexpected surprises...... "I smiled awkwardly as I lowered my head to smoke. There was another silence.