I finally arrived, and I broke through the crowd and rushed inside. Red-eyed, I thought I missed it.

Wang Qiu's footsteps were not steady and he ran too fast, so he flew in directly and fell heavily to the ground, causing the crowd to laugh.

Zhang Lie quickly stepped forward, stretched out his right hand to carry Wang Qiu's neck, and pushed him to the chair behind him. Xiong Zi ran in breathlessly, greeted Zhang Lie intermittently and sat aside silently, while Xiao Hei stopped at the door, at this moment he knew that he was an outsider and had to be measured in his heart.

I sat next to Zhang Lei, smoking cigarettes with him one after another, just now on the way to run, I thought about a thousand words to say, but now looking at Zhang Lei's numb expression, I don't know how to open my mouth and can't say a word.

"Let's disperse, let's disperse...... It's nothing to look at, my nephew is just enlisting in the army, let's see off everyone when the car comes, and I'll have to charge for standing here again......" Wang Qiu's father spoke, picked up the basin and splashed it.

The crowd scolded and scattered a little, most of the students left were students in the same class, they didn't know what the purpose of running with them was, many people didn't know my brother's name, let alone seen me, Xiao Hei ran to buy melon seeds, peanuts and some snacks, swept the ground and motioned for everyone to sit down and chat to pass the time, wait for a while, and then see off Zhang Lei together.

There was still no word in the house, my father went back to the room, the door was closed, and from time to time there would be a classmate who glanced in with curious eyes, and went around the room and then retracted with disappointment.

"Are you going to leave right away?" I finished the cigarette in my hand and finally said the first sentence.

"That's right! Only...... Going."

"Cousin, why are you in such a hurry, I haven't had time to arrange it for you, it's too rushed, right?" Wang Qiu's speed of speaking was like raindrops, not giving Zhang Lei a chance to breathe.

"Do you need us to do anything?" Xiongzi asked

Zhang Lei looked at everyone, and his eyes returned to calm. He raised his head and said, "It's nothing, it's just too fast, and it's too late to do anything in a hurry."

"How could it be too late? I'm almost ready to cook, and I'm done with a sweet and sour carp," the uncle was complacent, and walked in unhurriedly with a spatula, and he had already started to prepare as soon as he heard the news.

"Dad, you're really scheming!" Wang Qiu praised his father and felt a burst of pride.

"Let's go out and take a look, I'm afraid I'll forget what the village looks like" Zhang Lei finished speaking, got up and walked out of the door.

The classmates stood up together, they looked at this handsome man, his eyes were slightly red, his face was quiet, and his messy hair moved with the wind, until I walked out with him, everyone couldn't help but sigh again, I and Zhang Lei are so similar, the nose, lips and even the forehead are almost identical, but I don't have Zhang Lei's sultry eyes and mature and steady breath.

I followed behind Zhang Lei, Xiong Zi and Wang Qiu walked side by side, just like when I was a child, I went out to explore the formation. Zhang Lei didn't speak, and I could see that he was trembling slightly.

He looked at the grass and trees around him, the more he looked at it, the more strange it became, it all felt like a novelty, Zhang Lei tried to recall the road and trees he worked in the field every day, these things left him at this moment, he couldn't remember where he walked to the field from and where he went back home. It's as if memories are disintegrating step by step as enlistment approaches. Until the end, I can't even remember my own name.

Suddenly, I walked to a place, and more people here had formed a circle to surround the small four-story building in front of me.

Zhang Lei heard the voice of the beggar, and a few hours ago his mouth was full of himself.

The beggar stood out in the crowd, wrapping his shabby shirt around a heel of wooden strips, waving it and shouting to the rooftop: "Don't jump, please don't jump!" ”

I saw a woman standing at the top of the balcony, her hands held flat, and the slightest mistake would have caused her to fall from the towering bricks.

From everyone's discussions, Wang Qiu roughly knows what is going on, some say that his man goes out to mess with other women and doesn't come home all day and doesn't love her, and some say that the child in her belly died, and the man is dying, anyway, it's all kinds of miserable, Wang Qiu doesn't know which one is true, it's not easy to define it, and he can only be sure that this woman must be sad.

"Please, don't jump, you have to think about your family, for your relatives and friends! They can't live without you," the beggar cried and danced the sticks.

"Why are you so excited when you say this is called Hanako, does it have a leg with that woman, maybe the child in the belly is called Hanako, right?"

"Yo, it's really possible for you to say this, then this beggar is hiding too deeply, he is really powerful!"

I was disgusted by the people around me, how could the human heart be so dark, that they were not even as good as beggars, but they were still living freely. Zhang Lei clenched his fists beside me, still silent.

The beggar kept persuading the woman like crazy, jumping and jumping like a madman on the big stage.

I wanted to rush upstairs to do my part, but the door and other entrances on the first floor were locked, and the people who had called for the village chief could not open them for a while.

"Jump, don't pretend there, I'm going home to cook!" It was actually a woman's voice, coming from a corner of the crowd, and it was harsh and sharp, like a sharp knife piercing people's hearts.

The crowd fryed like this, and the crowd seemed to have been acquiesced, and they laughed at the stupid actions of the woman on the roof, and the words in their mouths were bitter as if they were comparing, to see whose words were more ugly and different to attract the attention of others. In their eyes, this woman would never jump off. She's just posturing.

The scorching sun overhead had tired them, and standing dull and boring had wasted their time.

I can't understand how you can be so vicious and pretentious? I've never seen such a disgusting crowd of stinking corpses, airborne by the virus that penetrated everyone's skin.

The beggar's voice was too weak, and the woman shouted hoarsely, "Fake! You stupid vermin! It's all fake! When he was done, he turned and took a few steps back.

The crowd began to sigh, and my heart calmed down a little, maybe the women wanted to open up. But at this moment, the woman suddenly exerted force on the soles of her feet, turned around and rushed to the edge of the balcony and immediately jumped hard, like a flower in the dawn, and then bloomed and died immediately.

Her body had just smashed in front of the beggar, and I was startled and walked away with the crowd.

The beggar stood still, looking at the woman's corpse, motionless, and suddenly fell to his knees, hugged his head and wept.

Zhang Lei couldn't stand it anymore, and punched the man who had a heckle just now, couldn't hold back the anger in his heart, and scolded the crowd

"Fuck you!"

"A beggar is saving people, what kind of hatred do you have! If you don't shout at her to jump, she won't jump! Why don't you jump! Now you're satisfied! ”

I was shocked and moved by Zhang Lei's anger, at least Zhang Lei showed it and vented his dissatisfaction in his heart, instead of being trapped by indifference and cowardice like himself and Wang Qiu Xiongzi and suppressing his anger in my heart. In fact, what is the difference between himself and these villagers? Everyone is responsible for the death of women. It's never a big deal to watch the excitement, and I don't know how many people have lost their lives because of it.

The beggar still knelt down beside the woman in pain, and he was the only one crying bitterly in front of the woman, the woman was not completely dead, the blood in her mouth overflowed, she couldn't speak, she smiled and moved her hand slightly, and there was a small piece of paper between her fingers, and when the beggar took it, the village chief's people were ready, and rushed over with gloves and tools. The collector finally came. All they could do was declare the woman dead on the spot.

Looking at the backs of these people, I suddenly understood why my brother had to leave this village.......

The village chief's people shouted and cursed to disperse the crowd, and a series of things about disposing of the women's bodies naturally fell on their heads, while the village chief stood in the distance and lit a cigarette, looking at the scenery in the distance, as the village chief, would he be uncomfortable?

The beggar had cried enough, and this was the first time he had shed tears for a strange woman, an unrelated woman, perhaps a woman who had spoken ill of her in the past. The beggar wiped away his tears and walked in front of Zhang Lei and handed Zhang Lei the piece of paper,

"Can you read it to me? I can't read."

Zhang Lei took the piece of paper, looked down at it and read it out: "I want to live"

The beggar didn't speak again, Zhang Lei looked at his flat expression and didn't say a word, the phrase "I want to live" may be too difficult for some people.

"Oh, you're going to enlist in the army, don't delay, go back, I'll wash my hands and come over to help, go quickly, don't delay" The beggar's expression changed too quickly, from the sadness and sorrow just now to the current plain and anxious and even a little reluctant, the change in expression was seamless on his face, I couldn't help but admire this guy a little. What the hell has happened to make him so skillful in controlling his emotions, compared to what he just thought, these are just two people.

Xiao Hei sat and chatted with everyone at the door, his uncle was busy cooking fish in the kitchen, his father took out the aged wine and locked himself in the room, the widow sat at the door smoking, and when my aunt saw that we were back, she secretly told Wang Qiu that we should divide these classmates, and the food at home was not enough for everyone to eat.

"Mom, what are you talking about? They didn't come to eat, they came to see off my cousin, why do you want to do so much? ”

"You kid......" Aunt was speechless in a hurry, Xiao Hei could understand the meaning of Wang Qiu's mother's words, it was nothing more than a sophisticated approach to human feelings, and this kind of worry would only germinate at this age.

The faint white wine is mixed with the aroma of fish, which is the unique cooking of his uncle, Zhang Lei picked up a small piece and put it in his mouth. Pursed his mouth and ate very carefully, his taste buds evoked memories, at that time, what he was most looking forward to during the Chinese New Year was his uncle's fish, and he was about to forget this taste for many years. I almost forgot that my uncle was actually an excellent chef.

"Uncle, play less cards in the future, go home more, open a restaurant and fulfill your dream" Zhang Lei smiled at his uncle and handed over a cigarette.

"Forget it, I am determined to be the village chief now, and lead the whole village to make a fortune in the future"

Wang Qiu felt a little embarrassed when he listened to his father's words, could it be drunk, this kind of thing is also said, just ask you not to drink and play cards every day, it is a blessing, and lead the whole village to get rich, it is really bragging, regardless of the occasion, do not play drafts.

There are not many dishes, you sit and eat well, and tell your brother if you have anything to say before you leave, but you have to hurry! Uncle finished speaking, looked at us, and closed the door.

I looked at the cigarettes and alcohol on the table and swore in my heart that I must vomit all the thousands of words in my heart at this last dinner table today.

"I ......" Before Zhang Lei could say the first sentence, the beggar rushed in, sweating profusely and panting: "The car...... Picked up your car and arrived at ......"

The glass I raised shattered to the ground, my thoughts were broken, and time was running out! Zhang Lei is really leaving......

The roar of the cars was getting closer and closer, and everyone poked their heads out to look at the old bridge at the head of the village, which had been in disrepair for many years, and the bridge shook slightly, as if it was about to be crushed by a huge truck. It has been many years since the village has been to the green pickup truck, I have not been to the old bridge for a long time, I heard that after the landslide, the road in front of the old bridge collapsed, and there is a danger of flying rocks at any time, and it is not a good choice to go out of the village recently.

Zhang Lei stood at the door, his fingers holding a cigarette and shaking constantly. Finally, he was about to embark on his journey.

The green pickup truck was empty, there was nothing behind the compartment, and it was not as I imagined that there would be many people who were as far away as Zhang Lei to accompany them. Only two men came out of the first car, well-proportioned and dark-skinned. The military uniform he wore was shabby, and he was greeted with a smell of coal.

Zhang Lei unconsciously moved forward, knowing what to say, he was not prepared at all.

Suddenly my father rushed out of the back room. took a black bag, and when he saw the two of them, he greeted them. I've never seen my father look like this, his smile is full of sadness, and his eyes are almost narrowed, and they are full of tears. The reddened eyes made the wrinkles on his forehead magnify, as if he had suddenly aged ten years. I looked at my father and felt very uncomfortable, and I thought that he was still as cold and ruthless as before......

"Leaders, it's been hard all the way, and there's nothing to entertain in a hurry, take it, take it," said the father, and hurriedly handed over the black bag in his hand.

The man at the front didn't say a word, and decisively pushed his father away with his hand, and his father's trembling hand could not withstand a little strength, and the bag was pushed to the ground, and the gold and silver ornaments and even the mother's dowry were all exposed in front of everyone.

"Take it back, we won't take sides," he said categorically, and he stopped looking at his father.

The villagers looked at the joke, the classmates were indignant, and the grandmother in the distance shook her head sadly.

"That's the most important mirror for my mother!" Zhang Lei squatted down to pick it up and carefully handed it to his father.

"There's no need for this, I'm just going to fulfill my ideals and not to die" Zhang Lei red-eyed, he couldn't imagine that his father, who was cold on weekdays, was still planning for his own path in the end.

"To go or not to go?" The other man was a little impatient and questioned Zhang Lei.

His father's whispered prayer pale in the face of weakness, and he even knelt down, less like a farewell than a send-off.

I had less and less time left, and I kept rehearsing in my mind how to speak to my brother and what to say to him in those last few minutes

"Zhang Lonely......" Zhang Lei turned his head and this sentence broke all my thoughts just now, my mind was blank, and I walked over.

"You take this mobile phone, you can use it in the future, and I don't have anything to give you......" When Zhang Lei touched the mobile phone, his finger just touched the ring that his grandmother gave him after making it.

"And this ring, it's very important to me, it was given to me by a special person, I'm sorry I don't have anything to give you anymore, brother, ......" After saying the word brother, Zhang Lei quickly turned around and walked in front of the two.

"Dad, Mom, my son is not filial and gone!" Zhang Lei didn't reply with a crying voice, and stepped into the car.

My tears slid down, and I still don't have the courage to shout the word brother in front of Zhang Lei.

The uncle walked out with a basket of fish, looked at the gradually moving vehicle and lost his soul: "This kid, don't say take some fish away, it's really ......" wiped his tears Uncle shook his head and went back to the house.

The father sat down on the ground and he began to cry quietly, and the strong man wept in front of the children. Zhang Lie fell into a deep self-blame, this kind of self-blame is what he has been trying to escape on weekdays, and the floodgates finally can't be closed at this moment. He didn't even give his son a hug, and he didn't even say a word to Zhang Lei about his hard work.

I squatted on the wall without saying a word, my mind was blank, and I silently put the ring that my brother gave me in my hand, feeling that there was still my brother's residual warmth, and looked along the distant car.

My eyes lit up and I started to tremble, and after three seconds, I rushed out like crazy.

"Come back!"

The cry resounded through the sky, and everyone stood up and looked at me. I ran madly to chase the car. The moment I put the ring on, I could see clearly that there was a woman sitting in the last row of the second car, a woman covered in blood. I could see that the woman was her! The woman who jumped off the building just now and died......