Positive order is the first sign of change
I have a similar hobby to Aoko, she likes to listen to music and I like to read.
Dad's bookshelf had endless books to read, and Aoko and I often sat together and shared good things about each other, and gradually, she also liked books, and I also liked the type and style of music she listened to.
I remember one time Aoko's mother sent me a very beautiful red dress, and I borrowed my father's camera and left the only photo of me and Aoko in the dress, and we were smiling innocently......
We've also done a lot of fun things together. I went to catch fish in the upper reaches of the Duohu River, and Qingzi accidentally fell into the water, and I wanted to pull her, but Qingzi tricked me and pulled me out of the water; We also went to the forest of Tsukadoda (Kakuda Tsukasa is the name of the community on the outskirts of Frost Town) to hunt insects, and sometimes climbed trees, but we really had no athletic talent, and often fell off the branches before we could climb very high; Of course, there is also the summer day standing in front of the commissary and smacking the popsicle to see if there is another wooden stick; In winter, push the ice house and put all the furniture in it......
Although almost everyone has experienced this kind of thing when they are young, it is very different for me to play with Aoko, how to say, playing alone for too long is a little too lonely, so I regard Aoko as a very important person for me......
However, such time is not enough for me.
I went to the fourth grade, and Aoko went to the sixth grade.
On the way home one day, Qingzi suddenly came out with a sentence that caught me off guard.
"Now, boys really hate it......
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I stiffened and stood still, preconceived notions that '... Am I being hated? ’
After walking some distance, Aoko realized that I had stopped where I was, and she laughed unconsciously.
"Don't get me wrong, when I say boys, I mean the boys in our class."
"Kiyono-kun is a very gentle boy, and in my heart, he occupies a large place... So I don't hate Kiyono-kun."
Aoko explained with a smile, but my heart was excited.
I ran forward and grabbed Aoko's hand, which was very tight, and my palms were sweating, and perhaps my breathing was a little messy, and I said to her with a childish and serious expression that I looked into Aoko's eyes
"In my heart, Sister Natsumiya is also irreplaceable, no, exactly... said, Sister Xia Gong...... It's as important as your loved ones... It's a part of my life...... I... I... What are you talking about..."
Although I wanted to express it, I was incoherent in the end. Thinking about it now, what did I want to express at that time? probably thinks that Qingzi is very important to him, and Qingzi's sentence "I hate boys" may have provoked his sensitive nerves.
"Anyway, it's not a part that can't be separated, anyway."
At that time, when I spoke, my eyes were as clear as the water of a mountain spring?
"Although it's a bit arrogant to say this, I also think that Sister Xia Gong must be inseparable from me, right..."
Aoko didn't respond to my words right away, her gaze wandering, her expression a little stagnant.
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Why, is there silence......
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"Well... I may have said some nonsense......
"Sister Xia Gong, I'm sorry for saying something inexplicable, please forget......
I let go of Aoko's hand, and my face was calm, but my eyes were always mixed with worry.
Aoko raised her hand and landed on my head, stroking my hair indiscriminately, itching...
"I won't forget, because Kiritakawa has already said it... I'll never forget it."
"Actually, Kiyono is right..."After saying that, Aoko let go of her hand, my hair also curled up a few small corners, I shook my head vigorously, Aoko looked at me and chuckled and said, "Now I can't live without you at all..."
"How happy we are playing together, I really want to go on like this, and never grow up."
"However, it will not work in the end, we will still grow up, and many things will change, and we will also change......
Aoko had never said anything like this before, and it wasn't something I was familiar with. I'm even a little scared, the cheerful, positive and laughing Aoko never says sentimental words, although she occasionally laments what happens to the characters in the book, it doesn't affect us in real life.
This......
Just as I was about to say something further.
"There's an 'inseparable part' like this, you can figure it out if you coax a girl like this, it's really a little ghost..."
Aoko changed her words and began to tease me. This style of dialogue makes me feel that Aoko is back to the state I am familiar with.
But at that time, Qingzi's joke, I was really anxious, and hurriedly explained, "It's not to coax girls, it's the truth."
"Alright, alright, I see, it's the truth, let's go home quickly."
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In fact, what I should have known at that time was what Qingzi accidentally revealed, what she confided in, and what troubles she suffered...... It's just that I'm still too young, too ignorant, not proactive, and always dependent on others......
Let's just use this as an excuse.
Soon after that, I heard rumors in my class.
"Hey, hey, did you hear that? There was a girl in the sixth grade who was bullied."
"Yes, yes, yes, yes, like... Natsumiya Aoko or Natsumiya Shoko."
"It seems that I was injured by a few girls from other classes in the senior class, and now they are all in the hospital."
"And, there's ......."
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When I heard these rumors that Qingzi was about Qingzi, a thunderbolt suddenly appeared in the cloudless sky in my mind - I stood up suddenly, and the table was not stable, and I fell to the ground with a bang, and the book fell to the ground.
At that time, I rushed out of the classroom without thinking about it. Because the brain didn't have time to think, the body was ahead of the thinking, and the passing desk was slammed horizontally, and he rushed out of the classroom in a panic.
I've always thought of myself as not an impulsive person...... However, this is a false self-perception.
The group of talkers silently focused their eyes on Kirikawa-san, watching him rush out of the classroom all the way.
"It's like, that summer palace senior and Kiyono-san's house live very close."
"yes, they seem to come home together every time they get out of school......
"That nervous look... It's not easy..."
"Could it be a sibling relationship... Oh... It's a childhood sweetheart's sister and brother love..."
"Haha... Who knows..."
"You won't be envious... Haha."
"No kidding......
"Haha......"
"It's too early......
"yes...... Haha."
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How so, what happened? Aoko......
I rushed up to the fourth floor of the classroom, and Aoko's classroom was the second-to-last room in the corridor, the third class of the sixth grade!
"Wow~Bang"
I opened the door of their classroom hard, and the seniors and seniors in the classroom looked in my direction and stopped what they were doing. Although their gaze made me uncomfortable, I didn't have time to pay attention to their gaze, and my gaze swept across the classroom, and she was not there!
"Excuse me, seniors, is Natsumiya-senpai in school now?"
Before I knew it, my face was flushed
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They showed all kinds of expressions, all kinds of eyes...... There is everything, the air is like stuffed with cotton, greasy, is this the atmosphere......
At first, some people whispered, and some ignored it, but the voice did get louder and louder.
"Who is this..."
"What's going on with this junior grade......
"Recklessness makes people angry..."
"It's class, kid, let's go back quickly."
"Looking for the summer palace...? She's not—"
"Sigh~"
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It's all this nonsense, there is everything, it just doesn't answer my question.
Those high-minded attitudes, those playful tones...... I don't know why the inexplicable fire burns because of the withered grass in my heart......
Slightly open the mouth and close it again, open the mouth slightly and close it again......
"Please answer my questions seriously!"
Finally I seemed to roar out a sentence that was out of my control, and my mind went blank......
Quiet –
Really, I've always considered myself not to be an impulsive person...... However, this is indeed a false self-perception.
As soon as the words came out, I immediately realized that it was rude to not control my emotions just now.
Kirikawa, Kirikawa, what are you doing... It's looking for Aoko... I'm not here to quarrel......
Seeing the stunned expressions of those seniors, for a moment, their eyes flashed with displeasure.
In a moment of silence, a handsome boy with glasses and glasses who was sitting in a corner came up to me and said to me
"Go to the rooftop, I'll talk to you"
After speaking, he immediately faced the people in the class and bowed slightly
"I'm sorry, I have something to talk about with this guy, please continue."
Leaned out of the classroom, but with a clattering sound of the door closing. I was relieved.
Although I didn't know him, I thought he must know something, so I silently went to the rooftop with this bespectacled senior.
On the rooftop
He looked at me with a scrutinizing look in his eyes, and he was the first to ask
"Who are you Aoko?"
...... Who is Aoko? I don't know how long I thought about it, because it was a very simple question, but it seemed to recall the whole time with Aoko, looking for or analyzing the relationship between me and Aoko, and then came up with an unremarkable answer.
「… I am... She's a younger brother..."
"Brother... I've never heard of her having a brother," he said, looking puzzled
"This... I live very close to Sister Aoko.,And we've played together since childhood.,It's just a neighbor."
"Oh...... Well, what's your name?"
"Kiyono Kirikawa, 4th grade"
"Oh... I see, then ......" his questioning tone was not stopped.
This person...... What else did he want to ask? I'm a little impatient. Besides, it's not clear who he is and what special relationship he has with Aoko......? The more I thought about it, the more distraught I became, and finally I interrupted him.
"If you call me here just to ask these trivial questions, then I don't think there's any need to waste your precious time."
His expression was stunned, and he said in a sighing tone, "Ah... He doesn't speak in a tone that looks like a fourth-grade guy."
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"The matter with Aoko-san, it should have something to do with me, she was injured and went to the hospital."
...... Hospital, injured?
"Hurt? What happened?"
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"What the hell is going on? "I shouted with some excitement
"Do you need to know that well?" He asked a little strangely
Do I need to know that clearly? Is it necessary? Why did this make me feel like I was on fire, I stared at him and said in a sonorous tone, "Yes!"
The senior looked at me and frowned
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「… Well, I'll tell you something..."
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"My name is Zuo Qiwu, your sister is also Qingzi-san, she is the girl I have had a crush on for three years, and I have been deeply attracted to her since the day she transferred to this elementary school..."
He changed his frown and showed an affectionate look.
I don't know why, a feeling of discomfort from my stomach to my chest came up, and my fists clenched unconsciously. His brows furrowed unconsciously
"I don't want to hear these ......."
He's ready to ignore me, "Listen to me."
"I have been classmates with Qingzi for three years, and I care about her every move, she is gentle, helpful, has excellent grades, and is not like ordinary girls who are huddled together every day, smiling and polite to her classmates, this kind of light-like charm makes my inner restlessness more and more intense."
"Restless?"
"Maybe you're young, but it's supposed to be called puberty......
"I wrote love letters to Aoko-san, and confessed seven times, but all of them were rejected... Alas... It's so ruthless, and to be honest, I'm devastated..."
I blushed when I heard this, which is too ......
"It should be these things that have become the fuse, there are a few bad girls in the class next door, how to say... One of them must have a crush on me... After being rejected by Aoko-san, those bad girls came to me to ask about Aoko-san, and nothing happened at the time, so I didn't pay much attention to it, but I didn't expect such a thing as bullying to happen......
School Bullying ...... Said for a long time
I sneered at this guy named Zuoqigo and said in a mocking tone
"I think, I should understand what you mean, in short, a bad girl who has a crush on you feels unhappy or jealous for your repeated failures in pursuing Qingzi, and then takes revenge and hurts Sister Qingzi, and you, a guy who looks elegant and elegant, know that something is wrong with the situation, but you don't even ask, let the situation develop, and now that something happens, you say that you didn't expect it to happen!"
"You are a cowardly person who shirks responsibility, what qualifications do you have to pursue Sister Qingzi, even if she rejects you thousands of times, it is not too much, you are just acting on the surface, in exchange for a seemingly bitter appearance, you have done nothing for Sister Qingzi, and you blindly vent your emotions, but indirectly hurt Sister Qingzi! It's disgusting to be a person like you!"
He didn't expect me to say so much, and his tone was full of anger and disgust, and he didn't react for a moment, and he froze.
In a moment, Zuoqi's face began to twist slightly, and his fists were clenched, and he was lectured by a guy who was two years younger than him?
"Hey...! Watch your tone! Lower grades!"
Zuoqi just kicked me in the stomach, and I sat on my knees, my eyes wide open, looking at the ground, my head buzzing, and my face sweating......
Annoyed and angry, Zuo Qiwu said in a strange way
"You speak...... It's infuriating... Don't you know what convergence is, what do little kids know? Crying nose clown, do you know what a clown is? It's the kind of monkey that makes fun of people, and I don't think you realize you're a monkey too!"
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I don't know if it's infected, but the tone of my voice has become yin and yang, "Haha... Scold... Scold... Nietzsche said...... 'When people are gazing into the abyss, the abyss is staring at you'."
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Zuoqiwu grinned crookedly, and his expressions of confusion and mockery melted into his words, "... What do you want to say? What do you want to say about you... Abyss? Don't laugh at the dead!"
I didn't pay attention to his rebuttal and continued
"Today... I'll change it to another sentence and give it to you."
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"In the eyes of the clown, there is only the clown, you are looking at him, he is looking at you"
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Zuo Qiwu's expression froze, the corners of his mouth were crooked, and his eyes looked like he was looking at a fool......
"Huh..."
"Hehe..."
"Neuropathy... Is your brain not normal?"
「… This guy has a bad brain, and if he is infected, he will be in trouble...", he made an excuse to leave.
Sure enough, after saying that, he turned around and immediately turned around and walked back......
I hurriedly shouted to him
"Hey! Tell me the name of that bad girl!"
Zuoqi stopped, looked back at me strangely, and pouted
"I advise you to give up looking for those people......
"Please tell me!"
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"Yamamachi no incense"
I stood up and staggered past Zuoqi.
「…...」
Zuo Qi was embarrassed, hesitated, and still said
「… This matter is also related to me... You... I can do it myself..."
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When I returned to the classroom, I lost my mind about the afternoon and afternoon classes. My mind is full of thoughts about Qingzi, and I pray in my heart that Qingzi will be fine......