Chapter 12 Psychiatrist

After the mission statement was clear, Luo went back to his room and lay down.

He didn't pay much attention to what everyone was talking about later.

……

Law's room was surprisingly tidy, a world away from Zack's chicken coop. Probably because there are so few things in the room. A bed, a chair, a table, that's all, there are no decorative items on the walls and ceiling.

After Luo closed the door, the whole room was pitch black without turning on the light, even in the daytime, there was no light, and he couldn't see his fingers completely.

He lay on his bed, silently listening to the ticking of the clock's hands.

When the cowboy said that the location of this mission was in China, Luo's heart was somewhat ups and downs, and it could even be said that he was a little overwhelmed.

It's been more than seven years since he left the place where he was born.

Seven years, it took Luo seven years to go from a nine-year-old troubled child to a mercenary. Before that, he was still reading texts word by word in elementary school, chasing and fighting with other children on the playground after class, and carrying his schoolbag home after school......

In fact, if you assume that Luo lives a normal life like other ordinary children, graduating from elementary school and then going to middle school, and then being admitted to university......

No, he's only sixteen years old now, and he's probably still in high school......

……

In all these years, Luo never thought of going back, at least not so soon.

It is undeniable that before the age of nine, he did spend a long period of time as happy as other children, but these memories have become very blurry, and Luo can no longer recall them completely, and refuses to recall.

For seven years, only in the nightmare of the middle of the night will the picture of that time appear, and the dream will always be the year when he was nine years old.

That was probably the beginning of such a drastic change in his life.

……

A nine-year-old boy was digging in his yard with great difficulty with a shovel as tall as himself.

Although it was difficult, he did not give up.

He followed the example of an adult, stepped the shovel into the dirt, and then held the handle at the other end, turning the dirt over with his weight, repeating again and again.

He needed to dig a small pit to plant a sapling.

This is the homework assigned by the school teacher because today is Arbor Day.

The boy was sweating profusely, and his body and face were covered with mud, and he was very embarrassed.

In fact, this should have been done by the parents with the child, but unfortunately, the boy's father has been on a business trip for the past few days and has not even made a phone call home, and the mother has not yet left work, so the boy is the only one left in the family.

Under the red sunset, the boy turned over the dirt with a shovel. Sweat dripped down the tip of his nose and chin and seeped into the dirt......

When he was tired, he ran back to the house, took a bottle of soda from the refrigerator and took a few sips, took a short rest, and continued to dig.

He hopes to plant the saplings before his mother leaves work, and he looks forward to seeing the trees he planted when his father returns from a business trip.

……

Later, the pit was dug.

But his saplings never went on.

……

The hostess returned home, and in the yard she saw her son, covered in mud, sitting in the dirt, staring blankly at what she had turned out of the dirt.

The child tilted his head, his expression blank, but the tears in his eyes couldn't stop pouring out.

The setting sun behind him dyed the whole yard red, a blinding crimson.

Like blood.

Seeing this scene, the mother knelt on the ground weakly......

……

Around that time, the spiritual world of a child who had not yet grown up collapsed.

……

Law woke up.

He saw that the room was pitch black in his field of vision, not the crimson that had just appeared, and his breathing gradually subsided.

Rubbing his eyes tiredly, Luo clicked on the switch of the bedside computer.

That's the end of tonight's sleep.

Luo is strange because this dream has not appeared for a long time.

During the first two years, such specific dreams did appear frequently, but later on, the nightmares took on a very vague form.

In the dream there was no boy, no sapling, no mother, nothing. He couldn't see anything, he could only feel oppression, oppression on the verge of suffocation.

This vague dream followed Luo like a shadow for several years.

Probably because of the mention of returning home today, his nightmare returned to its original state.

……

A beam of blue light appeared in the dark room.

The sound of the computer booting up brought Law's thoughts back to reality.

Luo saw four or five message notifications pop up on the screen.

He knew whose messages they were, and after a moment, he clicked on the audio messages anyway.

A series of familiar voices reached Ro's ears.

"Why haven't you been online lately?"

"Hey, hey, if you don't reply, my psychological report won't be completed."

"Please reply if you receive it~"

"When are you free, squeak when you see the news......"

The voice of the audio file comes from a girl, and the voice is not very sweet, but it can be heard very energetic.

Interestingly, the language she speaks in the audio is Chinese.

After listening to a series of voices, Luo replied with a text message:

"Yes."

The owner of the voice message is not some artificial intelligence, nor is it from some virtual social software.

She is Law's psychiatrist.

In fact, before her, Luo also had a real-life psychiatrist, but when the doctor tried to hypnotize Luo and extract information from his mouth, he disappeared from this world.

Luo knew that he had a problem, and the people in the club basically knew about it.

It's not just that he is usually cold, in the most emotionally unstable situations, Law may lose control of his actions, such as a year ago, during a mission, if it wasn't for Crocodile and Chris to stop him, he might have slaughtered a dozen hostages who were originally the target of rescue.

If you explain it from a psychological point of view, Luo, who is ready to slaughter hostages, can be regarded as his other personality.

And if Luo himself guessed correctly, this personality is his self before the age of nine......

……

After he disposed of his former psychiatrist, Zach introduced him to a website about counseling and found him a psychiatrist on it.

This is a kind of online psychological counseling, where qualified experts from all over the world are located, and patients and doctors communicate online. It turns out that communication under the medium of the Internet has made it easier for some patients to accept.

For Luo, at least he is not averse to talking to his psychiatrist now, instead of giving her a shuttle of bullets as soon as he finds that the other party has a problem.

……

As soon as Luo's reply was sent, an audio call request popped up on the screen.

“……”

Luo thought about it, but still hit the answer button.

"Dear little Luo Luo~ Why have you disappeared for so long."

As soon as the call was connected, the girl's playful voice was heard.

"Normal."

Luo is still the same, and he doesn't even make jokes.

His conversations with the psychiatrist are in Chinese.

Although there is a little accent, it does not affect normal communication.

When they first came into contact with the psychiatrist, they both spoke in a foreign language, but as they got to know better, they learned that they were from the same country.

So after that, all voice and text communication was replaced with Chinese, and Luo lost the Chinese that he hadn't used for five or six years, and picked it up little by little.

"Okay."

"You really don't understand the amorous feelings."

"What have you been up to lately?"

"Mission." Luo said lightly.

"Okay, okay, I know the mission can't be told to me."

"Let me guess, you're having nightmares again, aren't you?"

"Hmm." Luo raised an eyebrow, "How do you know?" ”

"It's half past two in the afternoon on my side, so the time on your side should be around three in the morning, if I'm not mistaken, you should have just woken up from your dream."

"That's right."

"The nightmare must be very uncomfortable, go get a glass of water first." The girl's tone became much softer.

"I'm fine." Luo didn't go to drink water, he said, "Just now, I had that dream before. ”

"Before? You mean, you dreamed of the day you were nine years old......"

"Yes."

“……”

The girl's side was silent for a while, and Luo didn't know what she was thinking, so he waited silently for her response.

"Luo."

Finally, the girl asked a question in a very serious tone.

"You're still Luo, aren't you?"

“……”

Luo frowned, and then figured out what the girl meant.

She was suspicious that it was another personality of Law who was talking to her now.

"Hmm......" Luo thought for a moment and said lightly: "You had a ...... with one of your female students"

"Okay, okay! Stop, stop, I know you're Luo! Why are you so annoying!? The girl quickly interrupted him.

"You told me ...... yourself"

"Stop! That's the end of the topic! ”

"Okay."

"Humph!"

“……”

The atmosphere was a little weird, one end of the communication was so angry that his face was probably red, while the other end was sitting calmly on the bed.

"I'm really convinced, I'm in the café now, you know I just lifted the cup!"

"Oh."

The sound of a girl taking a deep breath came from the computer.

"Let's go back to your dreams."

The girl finally managed to calm herself down.

"Is that thing you dreaming about from your own point of view, or from the perspective of a bystander?"

"Spectators." Luo thought for a moment and said.

"Are you sure?"

"Yes."

"Well, yourself, how did you feel when you woke up? Oh no, I should say, what are your emotions in your dreams? ”

"It's the same as before." Luo replied calmly.

"Pain, fear?" The girl asked.

"Yes."

Luo reached out and touched the corner of his eye, and found that there was indeed a trace of tears.

"Have you encountered anything lately that has caused a big mood swing? Happy and sad are counted. ”

"Nothing." Luo thought for a while and said, "I've had some trouble at work, and ......"

"What else?"

"I'm probably going back to China in the near future."

"Huh?" The girl seemed a little surprised.

"How?"

"No, nothing ......"

"I'm not looking for you." Law bluntly shattered the psychiatrist's delusion.

"Can't you have a little fun?"

"What do you mean by flirtatiousness?"

"Forget it, don't talk about it." The girl was helpless, knowing that her patient's Chinese vocabulary level was no higher than that of a junior high school student.

"I think the sudden appearance of this dream of yours is related to your next trip back to China, but don't worry about anything, it just suddenly aroused your subconscious resistance, you don't want to come back, right?"

"Yes."

"So you have to come back because of work?"

"Yes."

"Luo."

"What?"

"I hope you can adjust your mentality, since you are returning to China for work, then concentrate on your work, remember what I asked you to do? That sketchbook, can you take it with you, draw some things you encounter on the way, and show me your hair back? The girl said slowly.

Law looked at the sketchbook on the table, which the girl had long ago suggested he had bought to draw something at his leisure and send her the picture. Because Luo refuses to have a holographic video conversation with her, but she doesn't want to judge Luo's situation by words alone, so there is such an agreement.

Although the girl's tone was soothing, Law sensed some worry.

He knew what she was worried about.

Because Law had told the girl that the last time another personality took over, he had killed someone.

However, the girl never asked Luo why he was still free to live after killing someone, but on the contrary, she cared more about him as a patient, and perhaps in her eyes, Luo was just a sixteen-year-old teenager who suffered from double personality problems.

It's a pity that the girl doesn't know that no matter which of Luo's personalities is dominant, he kills.

"Okay."

Luo replied very flatly.

……

This conversation didn't last long, because she told Law to get a good night's sleep.

Luo didn't refuse, in fact, he originally planned to go out to breathe, but after closing the computer and lying down again, he fell into a deep sleep very peacefully, and this time he didn't dream.

I slept until dawn.