My father didn't talk to me and I was used to it. Many times he just sits at the door, smokes a cigarette when he is tired, and numbly greets the passing crowd, even if I am next to him, the two of us will still be silent, and even the eyes will not make any contact, deep down I know that this feeling of indifference not only exists in my brother, but also in my father, and I have a layer of estrangement.

We sat in front of the door for a day. Actually, for me, it's good to sit quietly like this, and it avoids too many emotional swings.

After drinking a few glasses of wine with my uncle, I still didn't say anything, I felt a little groggy in my head, I didn't have time to wash up and lay down on the bed, this feeling of not wanting to be empty helped me to fall asleep quickly.

When I woke up in the middle of the night to drink water, I couldn't sleep anymore, and the widow's snoring was not ordinary, it was even louder than my father's, like a bulldozer ringing in my ears all the time.

I couldn't stand the growing irritability, so I put on my clothes and went to the door. The snoring was louder and deafening in my ears, and I couldn't control my hands and pounded slowly but forcefully.

The snoring stopped for a moment, followed by the sound of footsteps.

I controlled my emotions, and at the moment when the widow opened the door, there was not much change on her face, and she asked calmly: "Sister Liu, is there still water?" ”

She looked at me in amazement, perhaps wondering how I could have known her name, and after looking for a while in the house, she said to me, "Come in, I only seem to have wine."

I reluctantly stepped into the room, and the scent of a woman rushed into my nostrils.

"If not, forget it" just turned around to leave, but was pulled to the table by Sister Liu. This is the small wooden table I brought out when I helped her move with Wang Qiu that day, and the wooden table is not big, but it is full of wine bottles.

"It's my snoring that affects you, right?" Sister Liu asked

I smiled awkwardly and nodded honestly.

"Just sit down, I'm just a problem, I love to snore, and I've told you about it, I'm really embarrassed" Sister Liu said without looking at me, a little embarrassed.

"It's okay, I don't want to sleep now anyway," I said in a high-sounding voice, giving Sister Liu a step.

Sister Liu moved a stool and sat next to me, and pulled a piece of clothing to drape over her body.

"Why don't we have a drink?"

I looked at the bottle on the table, the loud snoring sound echoing in my head, and I hesitated for a moment before raising the bottle.

As soon as the bottle touched the widow and drank the rest of the bottle, it was the first time I drank with her, so I couldn't lose face, and I drank the bottle in one go, my stomach churned, and I took several puffs of cigarette to recover.

"Sister Liu, you're pretty good at drinking!" I took a bottle of wine handed by Sister Liu, and hurriedly put it on the table after speaking.

"Awesome? What's the use of being awesome, I can't give birth to children after drinking alcohol, do you still think it's awesome? Sister Liu smiled lightly. Her eyes were light, her tone was indifferent, and there was not a trace of ripples in her heart.

I was stunned for a while, I didn't know what to say, I just smoked silently,

"You two brothers look like each other, if I were younger, I might fall in love with your brother."

"Why did you fall in love with him?"

Sister Liu took a puff of her cigarette and looked at me.

"Actually, you and your brother are really alike, but Zhang Lei has a charm, a unique charm of a mature man, he doesn't talk much, he is diligent, he has his own principles and ideas, and his eyes always make people feel that they can see through everything, it is so deep and long-term, people can't help but feel that the years have left a cruel and deep mark on him, which makes people want to go. But he's only a few years older than you. Sometimes he will always inexplicably bring others a sense of security, you know, what women need most is security"

I think about what Sister Liu said, it has been the case for so many years, not only Sister Liu feels this way, but even when I stay with my brother, I will have this feeling, this incomparable sense of security. As long as we are with Zhang Lei, we always don't have to think about anything and don't have to worry about anything, he will arrange everything silently, and will not make everyone feel bored, he always has his own ideas and ways to play, not only that, but he will also actively correct the loopholes in our thoughts and behaviors at that time, so at that time, the three of us were Zhang Lei's followers.

"The necklace around your neck is so beautiful, can I take a look?" Sister Liu said as she picked up my necklace with her hand.

"It's not yours, is it?"

"Huh? It was given to me by my grandfather, it's beautiful," he said unhurriedly, subconsciously leaning his neck back.

"It's very beautiful, but beautiful things are always in danger, you have to take care of them" Sister Liu put her hand down and took another sip of wine.

"Set a rule in the future, if you come back to bed, tell me in advance, I'll sleep half an hour late, so that I won't be noisy with you"

"Ah...... No, I still sleep very quickly" I felt a little embarrassed, and I didn't veto, after all, as the master, I should have figured out a way, but I didn't expect Sister Liu to find a solution so quickly.

"Just listen to my sister, it's good for you like this, and my heart will go too"

I didn't talk much with Sister Liu, but I could clearly feel her charm and care, and the image of the widow I thought of before was simply a 360-degree subversion. I thought it would be an informal woman, but I didn't expect it to be so delicate.

After three rounds of drinking, the two of us talked more, and gradually got to know more about Sister Liu, when she was young, she was sold to the village, and married the strange man, I thought it would be a nightmare, but I didn't think that the man was a good person, although the two of them had no feelings, but the man never bullied Sister Liu, and they also slept in separate rooms for the first few years, and lived a respectful life. With the accumulation of time, the relationship between the two became stronger and stronger, but when the two really slept in the same bed, there was a problem, and Sister Liu was not pregnant because of her poor health because of perennial drinking. Although this has an indescribable relationship with men, the problem is ultimately herself, at that time, Sister Liu had fallen in love with him completely, and asked around about ways to conceive a child at the expense of sacrificing her body, but in exchange for endless disappointment, the man fell into the river on the way to kill his sorrows with wine, and he didn't even find a body. In this way, the sun and the sun are separated.

Fortunately, Sister Liu learned some needlework, and she could barely support herself without him, and she wanted to spend the rest of her life in peace like this, but the village chief took the opportunity to use a fake treaty to occupy the man's house and land. Sister Liu, who had nowhere to stay, was almost forced to go to the flower archway, but fortunately, when she was leaving, she found the money that the man had worked hard to save when she was packing up her things, which he had saved hard to use to raise her children, and Sister Liu relied on the money to rent a cheap house in the village to survive until now.

"And what are you going to do in the future?" I was a little chilled, looking at Sister Liu in front of me, fate was undoubtedly too cruel to this woman.

"I ...... Later? After I didn't have it, this house was not actually rented by me, but was rented to me by your father when he saw that I was looking for a way to die, and it was only the price of a bottle of wine. No one will look for me for needlework now, and my reputation has been stinky, and I can't ask for it without being scolded. While my stinky skin is not yet fully old, and I still have some spare money to live happily for a few more years, I will have fun in time, and when the wind and snow are shining, I will jump into the river, and maybe I will find my man waiting for me under the bridge after I die? You say yes, right? Sister Liu said, laughing, this laughter made my heart ache for a while, over the years Sister Liu seems to be living chic and free, but the heartache in the heart must not be known to few people, what I said today may be just the skin.