830. The urge to cry
This is not Ye Jingjing's hypocrisy, but just now she thought about the days when she fell in love with a scumbag before, and suddenly figured out one thing.
Because she has been hurt by a scumbag too many times, she must be opposed, Ye Jingjing has been suspicious by him, and she doesn't dare to accept the kindness of others casually, which is why she has always warned herself to be sober and keep a distance from Emperor Qianling.
However, the Emperor Qianling was like a flame trying to burn a glacier, launching gentle charges against her again and again, each time opening a crack in the closed door of her heart.
What's more, in fact, people who have been injured are also very eager to be cared for and warmed by gentle feelings, just to see if the injured person has the courage to accept it again.
So after thinking about it, Ye Jingjing still made a difficult decision.
It's just that she hopes that Emperor Qianling can separate her current self from her past self, and only in this way can Ye Jingjing feel that her closed heart can be opened and let the sunlight in.
Ye Jingjing held the dim sum and went to give it to Qi Wushuang and Zhaoyu to eat, and Emperor Qianling was waiting for her in the house.
After a while, Ye Jingjing came back, but she stood on the door frame and didn't go in.
Emperor Qianling looked strange, "Jing'er, what's wrong with you?" ”
Ye Jingjing looked at him, and suddenly felt that the drum was beating in her heart, and the speed was very fast.
This inexplicable nervousness is very similar to the state of mind when I auditioned for the first time, it is really strange, just a simple word to Emperor Qianling, why do you feel this way?
Although thinking like this, Ye Jingjing herself also knew very well that it was because the simple sentence was not simple, so she was so nervous.
"I ...... I have something to say to you. ”
Ye Jingjing opened her mouth, and suddenly found that she seemed to be trembling, and even her voice trembled a little.
Emperor Qianling naturally also discovered her abnormality, and was a little worried, "Could it be that something happened to them Wushuang?" ”
Ye Jingjing shook her head, lowered her head and took a few deep breaths, stabilized her mind, and finally made up her mind and said, "Emperor Qianling, you said that this time you came out with me as a lover, not the emperor, the purpose is to make me fall in love with you again, right?" ”
Emperor Qianling was stunned for a moment, although he didn't understand why she said this, but he still agreed, "That's right." ”
"In that case, I also make a request."
Ye Jingjing seemed to be calm and calm, but in fact, her heart had been beating non-stop for a long time, and even the thought of "forget it" came up.
Fortunately, she held herself down in time and didn't give up halfway, otherwise she would have been confused and unable to speak today.
finally mustered up the courage, if she missed this opportunity, Ye Jingjing was afraid that she would never dare to express her heart again.
"What are the requirements you are talking about?" Emperor Qianling asked cautiously.
Ye Jingjing settled down and said, "I hope ...... You're also sincere, fall in love with me all over again. I know you haven't lost your memory, so you still have feelings for me, but I'm different.
"Frankly speaking, I just have a crush on you now, and I don't know if I really love you, I prefer that the relationship between the two of us is equal and fair, and both of us will treat each other as a new existence, and also take this opportunity to examine our feelings.
"I'm not rejecting you, it's just that I think it's a little unfair to you that my brain is blank like I have now, and maybe it would be better if I started over...... Do you understand what I mean? ”
In the end, even Ye Jingjing herself was a little incoherent.
She hopes that Di Qianling can really fall in love with herself, not because she has a memory filter from the past.
Ye Jingjing firmly believes that if a person can accept every side of himself and love all his strengths and weaknesses, then he truly loves himself.
This point of view seems ridiculous, but for the current Ye Jingjing, it is the only insistence in her emotional world.
If he is sure that Emperor Qianling likes Ye Jingjing wholeheartedly, and is not so gentle because of the good memories of the past, then maybe he can let go of all his guards and get back together with him......
This is the fundamental reason why Ye Jingjing is obsessed with this, she has been hurt in the end, so even if she takes a brave step, she is afraid of being abandoned, and she must find various reasons for herself to rest assured.
Seeing that Emperor Qianling didn't speak for a long time, Ye Jingjing smiled bitterly in his heart: Sure enough, he must be unhappy when he heard such an impertinent request.
However, to her surprise, Di Qianling actually smiled a little shyly, "Well, okay." ”
"Huh?"
This time, it was Ye Jingjing's turn to be stunned.
She looked at the Emperor's Tomb, still not at ease, and asked, "Really?" ”
"What are you lying about?"
"Then why did you hesitate before?"
"Actually, you've said that before." Emperor Qianling said with a smile. "At that time, you said that you and I were the emperor, and you were just a concubine after all, with different identities, which was unfair. Now, our identities have been somewhat replaced, and it is still a little emotional for a while. ”
Ye Jingjing also understood why he smiled shyly just now, it seemed that it was his words that made Emperor Qianling feel emotional.
Emperor Qianling patted his head, "Okay, since you said so, then I won't mention the past." Listen to you, from now on, everything goes back to zero and starts again. ”
“…… Am I being too vexatious? Ye Jingjing asked uneasily. willfully let you give up the memories of the past, and you must accompany me to start over......"
Emperor Qianling chuckled, stepped forward and took Ye Jingjing into his arms, and said affectionately, "In front of me, although you are willful, even if it is unreasonable, I will accept it with a smile." ”
Ye Jingjing suddenly felt the urge to cry.
You must know that in the past, scumbags would only dislike her for not being sensible enough, but now Emperor Qianling allows her to be coquettish.
For a moment, Ye Jingjing really wanted to give herself all to this man.
However, it was when this love was at its deepest that the door was suddenly opened, and a maid walked in with a cup, "Your Majesty, my lord ordered me to invite you to dinner!" ”
The two were startled, and Ye Jingjing subconsciously separated from Emperor Qianling.
Because of this, she noticed that the maid's expression of surprise, the moment she saw her, suddenly turned cold.
This made Ye Jingjing feel very strange, she should not have provoked her when she first arrived.
"The concubine is also there." The maid's voice was clearly not as enthusiastic as it had just been. "Let's go to dinner with us."
This differential treatment made Ye Jingjing couldn't help touching her face, feeling very strange: she is so unpopular, could it be that the notoriety of the original owner has spread all over the country?