"You know what? There is a kind of creature in this world, it lives in the gap between realms, whether it is an illusion or a human world, it will not affect it, it is almost not affected by any realm, it is the freest creature, but it is always sleeping and wandering unconsciously, and it is constantly absorbing the power around it when it wanders, if she awakens, there is basically no power to compete with it. ”

Wu Manman told me a ghost story like a story, and I listened curiously, but I also had a question:

"In this world, where there are principles, there must be exceptions." I was speaking lines that seemed to be philosophical, but I didn't really understand what I was talking about, I was always sleepy, I was always confused about what was going on around me, I didn't know why the night changed to day, and I didn't know how the day turned into night again.

It's night again, it's a bazaar again, and it's Wu Manman again. As if time had not changed at all, the first time she saw Wu Manman, she pulled away Wu Yingying, who was staring at me curiously, obviously I was also sleepy at that time.

Later, it always felt like it was dark again, and Wu Manman always pulled me to run.

I shook my head, a little messy, obviously I didn't drink, why is this happening, I looked up at Wu Manman, and Wu Manman was also looking at me.

"By the way, Shu He said that he saw me holding a wind chime before, and I heard her describe it as very similar to you, but I don't have any impression, I can't take your wind chime when I was drinking, and then I can't get it." A wave of guilt swept over me.

Wu Manman shook his head and replied with a slight smile: "Don't worry, the wind chimes are here, okay." But she didn't show the wind chimes.

"That's good, I don't know why, I always feel like I've forgotten a lot of things when I see you." I confess that Wu Manman gives people a sense of trustworthiness.

"Maybe it's because of my twin spells, we always evoke some strange thoughts." Wu Manman explained.

"Twin Spells?" I asked, confused.

The bazaar was noisy, but the voices were muffled, and the lights were floating and distorting.

"The world is originally empty, it is the seven emotions and six desires that fill these flowers and tricks, red, red, green and green, and the game world is always what everyone yearns for in time, but more of it is just a big dream built by oneself to cover up one's pain and loss."

Wu Manman's words were twisted and turned, and I heard it a little ignorantly, but I was still a little touched: "Since it is a spell, it is a kind of bondage and a kind of imprisonment for the person who is spelled, is it like this?" ”

Wu Manman smiled faintly, a little bitter: "The twin spell contains the drunken life decision, the dream breaking technique, and the drunken dream breaking ensemble will touch the reincarnation array, the real twin mantra." If you just inflict drunken death, you will just keep the person who is cursed in the illusion mirror of your own demons, and you will always be obsessed with the splendor of the void in the world, or you will continue to fall into the endless abyss of heartbreak. ”

I could hear it intently, the noise around me seemed to be muted, and only Wu Manman's voice could be heard in my ears.

The flickering lights and the wandering visitors seemed to have turned into the illusion of a mirage.

"And if the drunken dream break ensemble touches the reincarnation array, the twin spells may be a relief for the person who is spelled, he will be emptied of greed, hatred, infatuation, love and resentment, but if the person who is cursed is a hollow person, the spell caster will be devoured, and the effect will be doubled on himself." Wu Manman explained clearly.

"Hollow people? Is it someone who has been emptied in the first place? I asked.

Wu Manman nodded.

I combed through Wu Manman's words: "According to this, the twin spells will make people become hollow people, and if you cast a spell on the hollow people, will the spell fall on the person who casts the spell?" ”

"But it's not just the twin spells that can empty a person, like the creature I just mentioned, it's inherently hollow."

Wu Manman brought the topic to the supernatural creatures at the beginning again.

I couldn't think of anything for a moment, just a chaotic mix of ideas of hollow solidity or something.

"Leave my sister, I see a beautiful bracelet for sale over there, let's go together." A soothing voice rang out.

Just now I was originally out with Shu Yongshu and the two of them, on the way I met Wu Manman in the sugar water stall, I sat down and chatted with Wu Manman, Shu He was attracted by the lights over there, so Shu Yong accompanied Shu He to watch the lights, and temporarily left me and Manman, who knew that Manman told me a supernatural story.

Of course, the world they live in is a supernatural world itself, Wu Manman just told me what happened, but in my opinion, it is still a supernatural story, something hollow and solid, for me unreal.

It was the smiling face with the fireworks in the world that made me feel real, but just now I had a feeling that this world is false, is this the power of Wu Manman's shaking consciousness?

At this time, Wu Manman just smiled faintly: "I still have an appointment here, and I will talk about it next time." ”

I nodded, and we all said goodbye to each other.

After Shu He saw Wu Manman walking away, he came over and talked to me: "Last time, the girl was carried back and covered in blood, and then you also fainted, which scared me to death." ”

Shu He chattered as he pulled me up to go shopping. Shu Yong followed quietly, as if he was just an entourage, his face was dark, and he was always expressionless, not because he was bored.

I wanted to ask Shu Yong if he was bored, but Shu He kept pulling me to talk.

She looked forward to it, and when she saw the stall selling small lanterns, she broke free of my hand and ran to see it.

Shu Yong just stayed where he was and looked at Shu He, who was jumping around, as if he was the last indulgence, and I clearly saw him sigh lightly.

He lifted up his eyes, and saw that I was looking at him.

So I simply asked, "Why sigh?" ”

"Is there one? Didn't pay attention. "He's not salty, he's not bland.

"I saw it."

"Seeing is not believing."

"If Shu He can stay by your side and grow up, he must always be so happy."

"I see what you mean."

"So far away, are you willing to let her marry alone?"

Shu Yong didn't say anything, and just looked at Shu He with a smile on his face.

"In this world, if you are as weak as dust, most of them are involuntary and do not backfire." Shu Yong's voice was faint, as if he was a small speck of dust floating in the universe.

What Shu Yong said is the truth, whether it is in the supernatural world or in the modern world that I have forgotten, and the laws of science are even more grandiose as natural selection.

If there were no institutions or things like reason or justice, the world would end much faster.

But the maintenance of stability on the surface is destined to be sacrificed to more unfortunate individuals.

I had almost been sent to the altar as a sacrifice, but now I watched Shu and himself walk to the altar and sacrifice myself.

But I can't do anything, I'm not a teenage riot teenager, I can walk away with anything, and one of the things that adults learn is that everyone has his baggage and position, and no one else can help him in any way.

All sorts of strange thoughts weaved together, and I was a little irritated for a moment, apparently because I couldn't find a reason to convince myself of reassurance.

"Doesn't it mean that outsiders see things more clearly? Why are you in a mess instead? Shu Yong said to me.

I frowned and didn't know what to say.

"At least Shu and yourself can learn to be happy in time, will this make you feel more comforted?" Shu Yong comforted me.

"But after her...", I said intermittently, but I didn't really know what I was going to say.

"Nobody knows what's going to happen, she doesn't know, and you certainly don't know. Or have you already given her a life? ”

As soon as Shu Yong mentioned this, I remembered the previous word measurement, the thin character of the thin life, and I haven't explained it to Shu He yet.

I hurriedly shook my head: "No, how can such a thing be approved?" ”

Shu Yong didn't care about my strange expression, but continued: "Our lives have been approved a long time ago, from birth. ”

Shu Yong's words surprised me.

"I can see through that at a glance, unless...."

"Unless?"

"Unless I have the power."

The two of us were quiet afterwards.

I looked into his eyes, and his gaze seemed to have gone beyond Shuhe, over the bazaar, over the long streets, and disappeared into the void, as if staring at some prey.

The bazaar is still noisy, the smiles of visitors are more and more warm under the lights, and the harmony in the middle is very comfortable, as if it has always been the ordinary people living here, the bright smile, the curved corners of the mouth seem to say to the world, I am carefree, my heart is clear and bright, nothing can make me trouble.

After such a strange thought rose, I looked at the smiling crowd on the street, such a sincere smile, but maybe it was just an illusion, bright and joyful, warm and pleasant, itself was an illusion, an alternative drunken dream of death, but after a big dream, the abyss of heartbreak will come endlessly.

In that moment, I seemed to know what Wu Manman's twists and turns were saying.

She's telling the story of the world, she's telling everyone's story.

Perhaps, including me.

When I wake up, is there an endless abyss waiting for me? As I stared, something from below shouted at me, "Hey, what's up?" Is it?

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Do a survey, when was the last time you cried?

I came first, just yesterday.

I'm reading a story where the ghost in the story is similar to me, and it is said that he is also a wandering ghost, and many of us in the group of wandering ghosts and ghosts want to find a belonging.

In addition to being claimed by posterity, there is another one, which is to pass an exam and prove that you are qualified to be a normal ghost.

That's right, you heard it right, this is also something that can be examined, who made us a big country for the exam.

I looked at the story, and the ghosts in it described the efforts they had made, as if it were my heart's voice, and they were actually tried to cheer up by other ghosts like this, and then they tried to prepare, and they were discriminated against in the process of preparation, and then they were defeated at war with the world or something, very daily life.

But it sounds as if you've lived another time, isn't it good to use the word "live"? But we actually look like we are alive, we can walk, run, eat and sleep.

At the end, I knew that the story was about to go to the passing of the exam, but when he described the examination room, no, even a little earlier, when he was thinking about the past and recalling many, many unbearable times, looking back at many of his own ways of not working hard, I cried, that kind of irrepressible crying, not some pear blossom with rain Jiaojiao looking at the tears of other people's poor audience.

It's as if I was him, and I got to that point, and I should have cried, as simple as that.

Because in fact, I also passed this exam, but at this moment, I am voluntarily or involuntarily staying in this empty campus, I have a report card in my hand, with a pass notice written on it, and in the attachment is a map and key, but I have not opened it yet.

I don't know why I'm doing this? Do you feel that even if you go out, you have lost the courage to continue to "live"?

Or do I actually understand that whether it is a wandering ghost or a normal ghost, life is meaningless and boring, and even if I can get out, what will change?

I've done a lot of speculation, a lot of self-analysis, but I'm still wandering here.

Are there any peers? How do you do that? Want to get out of here?

18 July 2020

I can't believe that I've been wandering for more than half a year, and it is said that the outside world is also turbulent, and the news and old news are again depicting horrific stories, which makes me feel more and more powerless, and even more afraid to get out of here.