Sister Liu lit a cigarette and her face was a little gloomy: "It's nothing, men are like this, but I'm not a good bird, it's self-inflicted to be looked down upon, recently I heard that there seems to be a way to conceive a child in the village has nothing to do with men"

Speaking of this, Sister Liu's expression changed again. There was a glimmer of hope in her eyes. I've always felt weird, something must be strange about this.

"Nothing to do with men?"

I still can't understand what this is all about. Is there such a thing in the world that violates common sense, and you can have children by yourself?

couldn't help but ask Sister Liu: "What's the way?" ”

Sister Liu rubbed her eyes and yawned and told me: "This is the way to listen to the old people in the village, you may get pregnant if you sleep in the coffin, this method has always been very smart, and many people in the village know it."

This is bullshit! Can you get pregnant by sleeping in a coffin? It turns out that the coffin is not only useful for holding the dead, but also has this effect? It's just nonsense.

Sister Liu had already expected my reaction, she saw my disdain and mockery on her face, handed me a cigarette and motioned for me not to interrupt, and began to explain slowly.

"It's not as simple as you think, there are often hunting men in the village who die inexplicably, and many of those who die are bachelors, most of them are unmarried or even virgins. The old men told me that on the night of their first seven souls after their death, all they had to do was put a coffin next to their grave and go in and lie down for the night, and the souls would think that you were the wife of their marriage and would have intercourse with them, and they might be able to get pregnant."

I saw that Sister Liu was talking seriously, not like a joke, and my heart was full of doubts. How could she believe such a ridiculous thing. This is also too weird, people die like lights go out, even if there are still dead souls, how can it be possible to make a big living person pregnant? How can you proceed without even a body? This kind of thing can't happen and can't exist, Sister Liu must have been fooled by those old things.

I was just about to refute Sister Liu and persuade her not to be obsessed, but a fresh thought popped up in my mind.

If, just if, this thing is really a blind cat crashing into a dead mouse? So what will be the child born to Sister Liu? Is it a Yaksha imp? Or are they reincarnated? This guess shouldn't be a good result. But at least I'm sure it's not a normal baby. It's all fantasy.

Sister Liu was still comforting herself, her eyes were full of affection and said to me: "Many of those children don't have fathers, I asked them, they have never seen their fathers, I think it may be because there are women in the village who do this, so there are these poor children."

I kept shaking my head and still didn't want to believe it, it was more incredible than hell alive. Just imagine, a woman who has just given birth to a child does not know whose child it is, or is conceived at the grave. If this child grows up and asks about Sister Liu, how will you explain it to him? Tell him that his father is long dead? Or a child born from a fool's errand?

I want to convey my firm thoughts to Sister Liu for a while, but I don't know how to say it, is it based on reason or slowly comforting? Just as she hesitated, Sister Liu spoke again.

"Maybe if I had a child, I wouldn't be thinking about it all day, and my life would have been hopeful. Think of my dead lover, if he hadn't died......"

Speaking of this, Sister Liu cried, and I knew that she had started. She began to fall into memories and keep remembering the past, and her eyes began to become misty. Alas, sighing, constantly wiping away tears. I could only calm down and silently accompany Sister Liu to drink two more bottles.

Sister Liu leaned against the head of the bed and squinted her eyes, and the snoring gradually sounded, I wiped the tears from the corners of her eyes for her, covered her with the quilt, and closed the door.

I went back to the house and lay on the bed tossing and turning and couldn't sleep, thinking not only about this strange story and the result of this absurd thing, if this thing was true, it would indeed have a different outcome for people like Sister Liu. It is no longer possible for her to fall in love with another man, to be a woman again. If she has a child of her own, she doesn't care who the man is. Life in the future will not be as depraved as it is now......

That night I had a dream, a nightmare full of fear.

Sister Liu had a big belly in front of me, the doctors and nurses in the health center were all in the basement to deliver her, I helped Sister Liu to the side of the bed and lay down, she stared at me with a very ambiguous look, we didn't speak, we all stood quietly next to Sister Liu and smoked. Suddenly, Sister Liu's stomach puffed up a small bag, and the contents of her stomach seemed to be about to come out, but I had an inexplicable extra kitchen knife in my hand. Sister Liu screamed miserably, and a cry came to herald the birth of a new life.

I didn't let go of the kitchen knife in my hand, but took the baby from the doctor like a father of a child. I took it in my arms and looked at it for a while, and my feet trembled all over the room. I threw him out.

This is still a child, this is clearly a little ghost with fangs and a blue face! He was still biting the umbilical cord in his mouth, mixed with blood and gobbling it into his stomach......

At six o'clock I opened my eyes and escaped the nightmare. I rubbed my eyes and smoked a cigarette without sleeping, today must be an extraordinary day for me, I chose to keep all the stories told by Sister Liu last night in my heart and not recall. He turned out all his clothes and trousers, and was ready to carefully select them.

I wanted to let Sister Liu show me a plan to match, but I was afraid that she would not be able to answer my questions, in the end, I still only relied on my own feelings, I don't know how long I picked and how many combinations, I feel that I usually don't have many clothes, why did I inexplicably pile up half a bed so much today. I didn't even let go of my socks, I found them all and put them on the soles of my feet to compare the color and style. After a long time of tossing and turning, I finally chose a white short-sleeved and off-white pants. It's not pretty, but at least it gives it a clean and decent feeling, and I just wanted to go out and walk around to pass the time, but I started to hesitate a little.

Will it be hot to attend in such a costumed presence early in the morning? But when I think about it, don't I usually wear it like this? It's really in response to the old saying "poor bones are dry and complaining......"

My heart was inexplicably a little more flustered, excited and hopeful, but also hesitant and uneasy. Even holding a hundred fast in my pocket didn't make me feel at ease. There is always a fear of being overlooked and something will go wrong. I brushed my hair back and forth several times in front of the mirror, and this sense of ritual was really unprecedented, even during the Chinese New Year.

The sun was shining, and I had already packed everything. The inexplicable emotions in my heart filled my whole body, and I felt that I was a little fluttery when I walked. It was still early, and I didn't know what I was supposed to do or where to go, so I could only wander around the village with my head down......

Before I knew it, I walked to the resettlement area, and I looked up at where my aunt was, and I usually go in and sit down when I come here, and talk to my aunt about the recent changes. But since the last time, I always feel that my feelings for my aunt are like a stone blocked in my heart, stuck there, I can't go up or down. My aunt made me feel so strange and uncomfortable last time. I don't even know how to communicate with her now, my aunt doesn't seem to be as simple and pitiful as I thought, her quiet changes always make Zhang Xiao unguessable, but she is getting along with Sister Liu more and more naturally.

I walked up a small road and made a detour to the entrance of the health center. I didn't meet the group of children, and naturally I didn't meet Xiaoyulu, and when I walked to the door of my mother's ward, I was still separated by the cold wooden door. Looking at my mother lying inside, I couldn't take a step forward, and my heart was sad and full of thoughts......

The nurses passing by didn't come to me to comfort me with kindness like they did last time. I was glad to be ignored by them, and I stood in the doorway for a long time, and then sat down on the chair next to me. This is the closest place to the mother.

Familiar footsteps sounded, and I looked up to see my father, who had just come out of the doctor's room, still expressionless. My father seems to be a little older, and I dare not think about the days that my father has spent these days, which must have been full of torture for him.

My father watched me stand for a moment and then stepped aside. I silently kept my distance behind my father and walked to the door, and we both looked at the mountains in the distance and couldn't help but light cigarettes.