Chapter 244: The heart is like ashes

This night, Xiao Ying didn't know how she lived.

Her whole person seemed to be stunned, stunned, and stupid. I only vaguely remember that she rushed into Yin Jiuming's bedroom.

See, see...... Eyes full of blood.

That's a lot of blood. Almost the whole couch was stained red.

Yin Jiuming was lying in blood stains. His face was as pale as a corpse.

A moment ago, he nodded again and again, vowing that he would never lie to her again.

He broke his promise, and when he admitted it, he immediately broke his promise.

He ...... "Girl, my subordinates did their best to ......" what? At that moment, Xiao Ying almost collapsed to the ground. She instinctively rushed forward, she wanted to touch Yin Jiuming. But she didn't dare.

She was afraid that if she used her strength, Yin Jiuming would really leave her.

Where is she going to find him? Past and present lives...... Life cycle, where is she going to find him.

He fell asleep so unconsciously, she couldn't hear the words of Feng Yi and the house doctor beside her, she just wanted to look at him, and kept looking at him.

Xiao Ying didn't know when she fainted, maybe it was after watching Yin Jiuming for an hour, maybe it was an instant.

All she knew was that one night, she was almost stuck in a nightmare. The dream was full of blood...... The blood, red like a flower, bloomed in front of her eyes.

She was terrified, she knew she was trapped in a dream, but she couldn't get out anyway. Eventually, she despaired, and she spread out her arms and let the overwhelming blood consume her.

When I opened my eyes, I just felt that my eyes were sour. Lilac pounced almost instantly.

"Girl, girl, you're awake. You're finally awake. ”

Xiao Ying was stunned, her brain was still stiff at this time, she didn't dare to think about it, it seemed that as long as she didn't think about it, those things she didn't want to see wouldn't happen. But reality would never allow her to back down.

Seeing Xiao Ying so ignorant, Lilac finally choked up.

"Girl, you can't have an accident, Childe is already ......"

It was quiet outside, and there was obviously no sound, but Xiao Ying seemed to hear the forbearance of Feng Yi and the others.

She thought she was going to break down, she thought she was going crazy, but she didn't. She freshened up in silence, and then went to Yin Jiuming's small courtyard with a calm face.

The small courtyard was already plain, and the blood in Xiao Ying's dream was gone, replaced by a gray and gray eye. As soon as the wind stepped forward, he fell to his knees with a thud. "Girl, subordinate...... Subordinates are useless. "A big man, he couldn't cry as he spoke.

"Get up. Whether he's there or not...... I just thought he was just going on a long journey and he would come back. Definitely. ”

Feng Yi was just choking back, but after listening to Xiao Ying's words, suddenly, he hit the ground with his head, and although he tried to swallow the sound into his stomach, there was still a mournful cry overflowing.

I don't know if I'm crying Yin Jiuming or crying Xiao Ying.

Xiao Ying is actually numb all over, and what she says and does is almost supported by instinct.

When she looked up, the guards were weeping, and the palace doctor was ashen.

It seemed that everyone was telling her that Yin Jiuming had gone.

Xiao Ying instantly felt that her two legs were like being drilled, and she couldn't lift them or take a step.

“…… I stopped looking at him, and he didn't want me to see him as he is. You, so that you can settle him. I'll do what he's not done. Xiao Ying turned around and almost fled.

Qin Shi's letter was delivered. Ten full pages.

It's full of fly's heads. Qin Shi can be selected as an Oiran, for its own reason. The handwriting is very beautiful, a hundred times stronger than Xiao Ying's own, her handwriting ...... Yin Jiuming said that it is slightly more beautiful than spider crawling.

He also said that when he had time in the future, he would teach her to write by hand.

Famous teachers make high apprentices, and she will definitely be able to write a beautiful handful in the future.

The words are still there, but the people ...... Xiao Ying asked herself not to think about him and put her attention on the paper.

However, why the handwriting is blurred, no matter how she reads, she can't read clearly. When I wiped it with my hand, my hands were wet with tears.

She had sworn only yesterday that she would never cry again, but only one night later, she broke her promise. Yin Jiuming also broke his promise, he promised her that he would not hide it from her in the future. Will tell her everything.

But he abandoned her.

For a moment, Xiao Ying felt that her heart was like ashes, and she had nothing to love.

She obviously doesn't have a willful temperament, but she wants to simply hang a white silk on the beam of the house, which can be regarded as a relief.

When she came here, she was nowhere to go and no one to rely on. Before Yin Jiuming, she could still comfort herself that it was better to die than to live. But all of a sudden, Yin Jiuming was gone...... She felt her heart break.

It crumbled into slag and fell to the ground, never to be picked up again.

But she couldn't. The Qin family's tragedy has not yet been solved, and Chen Liu is still watching from the sidelines...... Feng Yi seemed to know that Xiao Ying was too injured and didn't show up for a whole day. Lilac carefully accompanied Xiao Ying, and it seemed that Xiao Ying had suddenly become a porcelain doll. Xiao Ying thought it was funny, she was sad, she was desperate, but she knew better that if she went with Yin Jiuming at this time, it would really disappoint Yin Jiuming.

So she eats hard and tries to look normal. It seems that as long as this is the case, Yin Jiuming will not leave her.

Deceive oneself as well as others.

But apart from self-deception, she didn't know what else she could do, no matter how long Qin Shi's letter was, there would be a time to read it.

Xiao Ying couldn't hear the movement outside, and she didn't know how Feng Yi arranged it.

Lilac came in several times and seemed to have something to say, but she saw that Xiao Ying had been reading the letter, and finally she didn't speak, only quietly prepared warm tea and snacks for Xiao Ying. But escaping never solved the problem, and eventually, she had to face it.

It was dark, and the day passed. This day was too slow and long, Xiao Ying never knew that it was like this to live like a year.

The wind that had disappeared for a day finally appeared.

"Girl, the order of Chen County is here."

Chen Liu appeared at this time, and his intention was naturally self-evident. The post station has Chen Liu's eyes and ears, and Xiao Ying is not surprised at all.

But is Chen Liubian so urgent?

Can't you wait? Wait until...... Xiao Ying smiled bitterly, she could never be calm. "If the girl doesn't want to go to see Chen County's order, her subordinates will send him away."

The wind saw the time of the day, and Xiao Ying seemed to have changed as a person.

With a gloomy expression and an indifferent expression, the whole person seemed to "die" overnight. She is like a flower, still budding in the morning, but before it blooms, it has withered.

Xiao Ying shook her head.

"No, I'll go see him."

"Girl, don't force yourself, if the son knows, he will be sad."

Xiao Ying was stunned, and then the depths of her eyes suddenly darkened.

Will he be sad? If he is sad and distressed, will he be able to wake up?

For a moment, Xiao Ying wanted to go desperately...... Go and make him sad.

Whether it's self-harm or injury, she can't be at peace even if she wants him to die. Let him not worry, let him enter the Yama Palace, and he will not be able to turn a blind eye.