Gu Jinjin's Chapter

It was a huge dark vortex, stirring in a dream, and it gave birth to a rainbow of light like dust, which was a shattered rainbow, spreading. I'm floating, looking down, and nightmares can be so beautiful.

I remember crying, fighting, arguing, and finally falling silent, so I floated, but I still remembered, I remembered my past, the people I met, the ones I loved, the ones I hated, the ones I wanted to hold on to but eventually let go, I remembered, the film rolled.

The stirring black swirls of color were the curtain of the stage, and my story played out in front of the curtain, intermittent but clear, and I heard someone singing: "White as white is inexplicably destroyed, and it is not the one who gets it." White as white sugar is mistakenly thrown into the red world, and it passes in waste. ”

"What you can't get is always in turmoil, and what is favored has nothing to fear" I muttered, the whole person began to get angry, scene after scene of begging and not being able to get it was repeated, I gasped, my whole body tensed, I wanted to stop all this, but the anger and sadness became more and more intense, I knelt on the ground and cried, saying nonsense "Please, please let me go!" I was so sad that I couldn't stand it anymore. ”

"It's impossible to stop, don't you understand?"

"It's just going to go on, don't you understand?"

"Where can you run away, I am fate, don't you understand?"

There were constant strange sounds rushing into my brain.

I hugged myself and twitched.

I don't know why I always have dreams like this, and I can't remember how many times I've woken up crying and screaming! When I woke up, I was soaking wet, and then there was always an inexplicable cold wind, and I was cold and sat alone in an empty bed. After a long time, I calmed my mind, and then I lay down again, my eyes were open, and then I didn't know how to fall asleep. When I woke up, I was exhausted.

What is my dream, my destiny? But I'm not a theist. It's just that whether it is in a dream or in reality, I feel that my road ahead is boundless, I hesitate, hesitate, and grieve. I didn't know where I wanted to go, I didn't know where I was going, I wanted someone to lead me, but for so long, I was alone. My body temperature melted into room temperature, turning into cold. I looked blankly ahead, my eyes suddenly blurred, my throat choked, and the cold touch went from the corners of my eyes to my cheeks to my lips, and I licked the salty taste. "Why?" I muttered, then chuckled.

I don't want to be pessimistic, but I unconsciously fall on the verge of disillusionment.