You are too far away from me, too far apart, too far away from the world you inhabit
The warmth of the skin blended with each other, the soft and elastic touch of the shoulders and neck, Ying Long hugged me from behind, and I was relieved in my arms, it was a calm but deep but turbulent feeling.
"I feel that you are cold, and I want to rely on you like this all the time"
"I think you're hot"
"As long as I stay by your side, the burning impatience in my heart disappears, and it seems that I won't hurt others easily, my father always strengthens my attribute of hurting others, but never asks me what I want"
"And what do you want?"
I closed my eyes and buried deep in Ying Long's chest, "I want to be so relieved and calm, really, I really want to stay by your side all the time"
"I've always been here" Ying Long stroked my forehead, his cold palm stretching the flush on my face, but another flame ignited in my body.
I turned around and looked at Ying Long, I gently approached his face, "I said, I thought"
"Huh?"
I hugged Shang Yinglong, my mouth blowing gently in his ear, "I want to bite your ear", and then my teeth gently touched his thin ear, and I seemed to feel his body trembling. I stepped back and watched his ears turn red.
"Well, why bite my ear." He rubbed his hands on his ears, and there seemed to be a lingering breath of mine on them.
"Well, this, anyway, you remember, when I say I'm going to bite your ear in the future, you'll know that I miss you."
"Sounds completely illogical," Ying Long shook his head helplessly.
I slipped into his arms again, "Then do you want logic, or do you want me?" ”
"Well, I really can't help you." Ying Long pinched my face, "Then I'll pinch your face too." ”
"It's all swollen," I muttered angrily.
"Then my ears are bitten red by you!" He retorted
"You can't see it again, where do you know it's red"
"I feel hot."
"It's obvious that you feel very hot, and it's not me who bites red."
"You do make me feel hot."
-.......................... When I woke up, it was all gone, because it was just my dream, but it was so real.
I couldn't sleep anymore, so I put on my trench coat and stepped out onto the balcony, where mist and fine raindrops lingered, and the faint and faint streetlights lit up and the square-shaped "convenience store" not far away.
It looks shiny and warm.
Ding-ding-dong, ding-dong, the sound of a bell when you push open the door.
"Welcome!" A girl's voice sounded, and I looked over to the counter, and she was smiling, and the mist of oden lingered around her, as if she had been there all along, waiting for people passing by.
I approached her and she seemed a little surprised when she saw me.
"Is there coffee?"
"If you need coffee, you can brew it freshly here, but you need to wait twenty minutes, can you?"
I nodded.
"Do you need an American or a latte?" Medium or Large? ”
"American, a medium cup is fine, thank you!"
"Okay, it's fifteen dollars here." After she became proficient in operating the cash register, the electronic display also appeared in time for '15.00', and I opened the QR code to meet her scanner.
She subconsciously withdrew the scanning gun, but her hand quickly stopped, and her brows furrowed, "I'm sorry, I didn't find the network problem here." "Her gun was aimed at my QR code again, and it still didn't work.
"Payment method on the cash register interface, select Other, and then scan." I was probably aware of the reason and explained to her, "This is the APP payment code of your chain store." ”
She was stunned for a moment, but after operating the cash register, she scanned my QR code again and successfully deducted the fee, she was a little incredulous.
I picked up the ticket and sat down at the table in front of the floor-to-ceiling glass window.
"The boy was taken to the hospital and was fine, and his family was contacted." Without waiting for her to ask me, I brought it up.
"That's good, I thought you didn't recognize me."
"The boy committed suicide."
"What?"
"The boy said it while he was unconscious in the ambulance, saying 'I want to die'"
The girl standing at the counter was silent and seemed overwhelmed.
"But then he said, 'I don't want to die, please help me?' ”
Suddenly, the space was quiet, the sound of boiling coffee was exceptionally clear, the rain outside began to heavily, and a yellow heavy rain warning was issued shortly before the evening.
The beep ----- a long voice, the girl skillfully operated the coffee machine, and the mellow smell of coffee filled the air, and I was even more energetic.
The Christmas-style coffee cup was placed on my table, and the girl put down two packets of candy and a small box of creamer in turn, "If this is not enough, you can continue to add sugar." She pushed her black-rimmed glasses, which had some mist on them, reflecting the blur of a rainy night.
"No need, I'm used to drinking like this, thank you." I politely raised the corners of my mouth.
The girl put away the sugar and milk in turn, and her little hands were full. As if she wanted to say something, she walked back and returned to the counter. She seemed a little distracted, only to see that she took a deep breath, as if to calm something. She leaned against the counter where the coffee machine was kept, the steam of coffee filled her, and she looked at the glass door, wondering if it was the bell on the door.
I covered the coffee cup with my hands, the rough touch was slightly warm, a certain quality similar to the feeling given to me by his palm, open the lid of the coffee cup, the mellow aroma of coffee hit, between the vapors, the clear American liquid shimmered outside the rain scene, I stirred with the stirring stick, swirled, swirling, as if I saw him soaring in the sky.
I've been thinking about him a lot lately, and I've even dreamed about it, not a nightmare, but just thinking about what would happen now if we had been together then?
Would you be on such a rainy night, snuggling up on the sofa and watching the TV news with a yellow weather warning?
Sighing that the rainy season of spring is here again, reminiscing about the time when I made the earth scorch, recalling the time when he swept the sky storm, rejoicing in how lucky we were, despite the different types of personalities, to be able to be together, and then laughing and discussing what to have breakfast in the morning.
I'm Kui, a name that doesn't look like a girl, Ying Long, do you remember that name?
When it rains, I always feel like you're running around here, and sometimes I wonder if this is evidence that you're running towards me.