Chapter 281: It's not your fault
A faint smile appeared on Gu Li's pale cheeks, and then he asked softly, "He, have you ever been back?" ”
When she asked this sentence, she kept her eyes down, nervous and panicked, afraid to hear the answer, but she was looking forward to hearing the answer.
Wu Bai knew that she was asking Yan Qing, so he replied: "No, Gongzi has never come back since he went to Lanling at that time. ”
Not only did he never come back, but he never even gave orders. There has been no news about him all these years.
But Wu Bai was loyal to Yan Qing, and since he didn't order him to leave here, then he wouldn't leave.
The disappointment came to Gu Li's heart, it turned out that Yan Qing, like her, had never come back in the past three years.
So, where exactly is he now?
Gu Li didn't speak anymore and turned around to leave.
Wu Bai stopped her again.
"Where is Miss Gu going?"
Gu Li was silent, where are you going? She didn't know either. But since Yan Qing is not here, there is no need for her to stay.
She wants to go to him, even to the ends of the earth.
Wu Bai said again: "No matter where Miss Gu is going, it's getting late now, so it's better to go early tomorrow morning." ”
Gu Li was silent for a moment, and finally agreed.
It was getting dark soon, and it was really inconvenient to hurry, not to mention, it was still a rush without purpose and direction.
Stepping into this courtyard again, Gu Lijue felt like a world away.
Everything in front of you is a familiar scene, but it has long been different.
After spending the night here, Gu Li left early the next morning.
But she did not leave Changning immediately, but went to the mountains outside the city. I heard that the golden branch was buried there.
When Jin Zhi died to save her, she came back and left with a dead heart. The reason why I didn't come to see her was that at that time, in addition to grief, there was also fear.
She was afraid to come and see her, and she didn't know what to say to her.
The two of them have been dependent on each other for so many years, and they have already become each other's closest people, but they didn't expect that she would die because of her.
At this time, everything withered, and the mountain was also a desolate scene. Among the weeds, there was a path winding, Gu Li followed this path, and when she came to the end, she saw a lonely grave.
The weeds in front of the grave were cleaned up, and the grave head was neatly trimmed.
Gu Li stood in front of the grave, looking at the words on the tombstone, and her heart was indescribably sour.
"The tomb of my beloved wife Xu Jinzhi."
This monument should have been erected by Shen Yao.
Gu Li sat on the cold ground in front of the grave and lit the incense candles he brought.
"It's been so long to see you, are you okay?" She looked at the lonely grave, her low voice swaying by the mountain wind.
There were too many words in her heart, too much sadness and self-blame, but at this moment in front of the grave of the golden branch, she didn't know how to say it, so she could only look down and watch the candle burn quietly.
Today's wind was strong, and the candle was blown out by the wind several times, and each time, Gu Li took the trouble to relight it.
It wasn't until the candle burned out that she got up and planned to leave.
However, when I turned around, I found that there was a person walking on this winding path.
When he got closer, Gu Li recognized that it was Shen Yao.
Shen Yao looked surprised, obviously he didn't expect to see her here.
But soon, the look of surprise on his face dissipated, replaced by a light smile.
"You're here." He seemed to say a pleasantry.
"Hmm", Gu Li responded, not daring to meet his gaze, afraid to see loneliness and sadness, as well as resentment in his eyes.
Back then, Jin Zhi and him were in love, and they had already talked about marriage, and they would soon get married. However, who would have thought that an ordinary afternoon would leave them forever.
Shen Yao put a bouquet of plum blossoms in front of the grave of the golden branch, stood there, was silent for a moment, and suddenly said: "You and her didn't go back late that day, so Steward Wu led people to look around, and finally only found her. She had shed a lot of blood and could not be saved. ”
Gu Li's empty eyes were clouded, and the scene of that day seemed to appear in front of him.
As she was taken away, the golden branch lay in a pool of blood, still looking at her with worried eyes.
Jin Zhi finally couldn't wait for the person who saved her, and in the howling cold mountain wind, with all her thoughts, she reluctantly left this world.
"I'm sorry." Gu Li said in a choked voice.
If it weren't for her, Jin Zhi wouldn't have died, and Shen Yao wouldn't have been alone.
He can erect a monument for the golden branch, can often come to see her, and can step on a path to here, which shows that he is deeply affectionate.
Shen Yao smiled lightly and replied, "No need to say I'm sorry, I don't blame you for this." ”
If you want to blame, you can only blame this tragic fate, which made people created.
In the year when Jin Zhi died, Shen Yao went to Jinbang High School. He kept his promise to wait for someone, but that person would never come back.
To this day, he is still alone.
The mountain wind was blowing, and his thin robe was hunting.
Shen Yao suddenly looked at Gu Li and said calmly, "Thank you for taking care of her all these years, she has always been grateful to you." ”
This sentence made Gu Li unable to bear it anymore, and tears poured out.
She left Changning, and she didn't know where she was going.
If Yan Qingzhen returned to the world, he should go to her. But after such a long time, he has never been to Changning, and that is probably because he can't get out.
Therefore, Gu Li planned to go to him. Even if she goes to the ends of the earth, she has to find him.
From Changning all the way to the south, she went to Cloud City first. The small courtyard where she and Yan Qing lived temporarily is still there, but the courtyard has long been deserted and has been uninhabited for many years.
After staying in Cloud City for two days, Gu Li continued to go south and headed for Jian'an.
In the early afternoon, she entered the city gate of Jian'an.
Jian'an is the capital, not to mention prosperous.
At that time, Xiao Wen did not follow Yan Qing's suggestion to move the capital to Yuncheng, and still made Jian'an the capital. However, later the state of Qi was completely annexed, and the world was unified, and there was no external threat.
Gu Li didn't stay in the city for long, and after a brief lunch, he left the city.
Following that familiar road, she came to the bamboo house where she lived with Yan Qing back then.
At this time in winter, the mountain scenery is bleak, and the bamboo house has lost its chic elegance in the past, revealing a sense of loneliness and sorrow.
Gu Li pushed open the door and walked in.
The furnishings inside have not changed, they are still the same as they were back then, and even the piano on the piano table is still there. It's just that there is a thick layer of dust in the house, as if telling the loneliness of the past few years.
Gu Li fetched water from the stream, cleaned the inside and outside of the house, wiped Yan Qing's piano clean, and wiped every string very carefully.