So that's the case, Shi Chuya understood what Leng Yan meant by those words.

Taking his grandmother back to Xiaoyuan was his first step in imprisoning himself.

"Got it, let's go back." Shi Chuya leaned on the back seat, her whole body was cold, it was still a sunny day, but she felt like she was in boundless darkness.

Uncle Liang didn't see her expression clearly, so he just drove the car to his home.

She also thought that the two had reconciled last night and had released their previous suspicions, but now it seems that it was all her wishful thinking.

That note turned out to tell her to stay at home and not go out, why? Are you really afraid that she will run away? Or does he simply not believe in himself?

The temperature of the air conditioner in the car was comfortable, but she pulled her clothes tightly, shivering with cold.

After arriving home, the dog was already guarding the door, jumped on Uncle Liang, and wagged his tail to seek Shi Chuya's touch.

She hugged its head and said to herself, "Dog, if you weren't chained, would you run?" ”

The dog is loyal, and perhaps if it is unchained, it will go out for a few days, but it will find the smell and find it.

If animals are like this, why should people be suspicious of each other?

The dog couldn't understand what she was saying, but could feel her sadness, whimpering twice and wagging its tail vigorously, it could have been a better way to comfort her in the animal kingdom, but its owner had taught it not to lick women.

Shi Chuya helped it smooth its hair, and said to Uncle Liang when she heard the words: "Who usually walks the dog?" ”

"It's usually me, and if I'm not at home, the security guards here will take it out and around."

"Hmm." Grandma was calling her name, and Shi Chuya walked into the house and said goodbye to the dog.

Zhao's mother made a sumptuous lunch, and she made a dish that could be eaten from all over the world to the underground, as if she couldn't finish it.

After the meal, Shi Chuya took out a notebook from her bag.

"Mother Zhao, these are some precautions sorted out by the nurse aunt who took care of grandma before, do you need it?"

Zhao's mother was a little embarrassed, she wanted to say that she had taken care of people all her life and didn't need these, but her grandmother had a special body, so she had to take the book.

"Inside are some dietary taboos and daily routines."

"Hmm."

Her mood is not high, and she is not very happy to look at.

"Grandma, I'm going to take a nap." She is upset, and upset causes headaches.

Lying on the bed with Yu Yize's breath, Shi Chuya's headache was still not relieved, and she took the book placed at the bedside, which contained the photos that Zhao Bei gave her, as well as the note that Yu Yize left for her at night.

Yu Yize's handwriting is beautiful and beautiful, she crumpled the note into a ball and threw it on the ground, covered the book on her face, and gasped for breath.

What is Yu Yize awkward? Didn't she say everything she should have said?

The more she thought about this, the more she couldn't understand, she couldn't understand that Yu Yize obviously loved her, but he did such an uncomfortable thing.

After a long time, she sat up from the bed as if she had been fated, walked barefoot on the carpet, and picked up the note she had thrown away, and the baby seemed to be flattened, but it was crumpled enough to be restored.

Tears lingered down her cheeks, Shi Chuya didn't know why she was crying at all, her heart hurt as if someone had dug out a hole alive and couldn't breathe.

The bitterness of love is really known to whoever tastes it.

Crying enough, it seemed to feel much better, Shi Chuya stuck the note back to the page and went to the bathroom.

The blackout curtains set off the room like a dark night, and without Yu Yize beside her, she didn't sleep peacefully, and she didn't know what she dreamed, and her slender hands exposed outside the quilt clung to the quilt painfully.

She dreamed.

I dreamed of nightmares that I hadn't dreamed of for a long time, the people who were chasing, the mother who ran away with Si'er, and the man with amnesia, and the 'Sidu' he called.

The dream kept changing scenes, she ran, roaring, no one could hear what she said, she was like an marginal woman who had been excluded, lonely and desperate.

Tears were rolling down the corners of her eyes again, and she hadn't woken up yet.

She saw the woman who looked exactly like her, no, she should have seen two people, and they looked exactly the same.

"Si'er, you've finally found your mother." The woman's voice was long, as if special effects had been added automatically.

Shi Chuya frowned, "Who are you?" Are you my mom? Shi Chuya asked.

has outstanding femininity and a brilliant smile, "Yes, Si'er, my mother misses you so much." ”

The injured Shi Chuya couldn't recognize the seriousness in the woman's words, she looked at the woman who was not much different from her eyebrows, threw herself into her arms and cried.

She wanted to tell her mother that she was in pain now, that she missed her mother very much, but in the blink of an eye, her mother was gone.

"Silly boy, mom is here, what are you crying about?" It was another person who spoke, and the person in front of him was a little more energetic than the woman just now.

Shi Chuya sat on the ground and looked at her blankly, "Who are you?" Why are you impersonating my mother? ”

The woman was not angry, she still said gently: "Mom hasn't seen you for a long time, it's okay if you can't remember Mom, I won't leave you in the future." ”

The headache came suddenly, Shi Chuya held her head, and kept repeating 'You are not you not', someone came over and hugged her, Shi Chuya could feel the other party's heartbeat, this was the embrace that owed her more than 20 years, and she couldn't control her crying.

The woman disappeared again, and Shi Chuya shouted loudly, 'Mom, where are you, Mom?' But she heard no one answer her but her own voice.

She was left alone, she was tired, she curled up to resist the boundless darkness, but the people of this world did not want to let her go at all, and they were chasing, and the road ahead was a towering cliff.

"Don't come here, I'll jump if you come again!" Shi Chuya was forced to the edge of the cliff, and those people didn't intend to let her go at all.

"Jump, if you don't jump again, don't blame us for being polite!" The chasing men were all heckling, and it seemed that everything would be fine if she jumped down.

Dust to dust, dust to dust.

Shi Chuya's heart was so dead that she opened her arms and chose to jump off the cliff.

Like the mother in her dreams, but all her life.

Shi Chuya opened her eyes suddenly, her eyes were blank, her body was cold, she opened her mouth and muttered, "Mom......"

After a long time, the alarm clock she set rang, and her thoughts were pulled back to reality, it turned out that she had only slept for an hour, but the person in the dream had already lived several lives.

She was drenched in sweat all over her body, her throat was still a little dry, and she laughed at herself and missed her mother when she was so old, but she laughed and laughed and cried, because she had never seen her mother.

She changed the sheets and quilt covers, went to the shower and took a shower, her eyes were still a little swollen, and she had to find a way to reduce the swelling, otherwise her grandmother would have seen it.

She slipped into her study and found that the book she had placed on the table a few months ago was still there as it was, her professional book, which she hadn't touched since she graduated.

It's almost the New Year, what are she and Yu Yize doing today last year?

Shi Chuya opened the long-lost professional book, took a piece of paper for drawing, and wanted to calm down and indulge in other things, but she drew for ten minutes, and she couldn't draw a circular diagram.

Sure enough, absent-mindedness is not good.

She forced herself to spend an afternoon in her study, barely drawing a cup.

Yu Yize returned home from work on time to have dinner with her, the two did not speak at the table, after the meal he went to the study to deal with official business, Shi Chuya sent her fruit twice, and he refused to speak.

Shi Chuya was even more discouraged, so she simply stopped bothering him, went to her study, drew another cup, and finally fell asleep unconsciously.

Yu Yize didn't see her in the bedroom after handling official duties, and saw that the light in the study was on and saw her falling asleep on her stomach through the hidden door, so he had no choice but to carry the person back to the bedroom lightly, then wash, and hug her to sleep.

Such days have been repeated for a week, Shi Chuya does not have any work, her mobile phone can not do anything other than call Yu Yize, she lives like a caged bird and a canary.

During this period, Yu Yize rarely talked to her, and when he went home on time, he would work overtime in the study until late at night.

On this day, Yu Yize had a social appointment, so he sent her a message in advance saying that she would go home later, and Shi Chuya replied 'good'.

When Yu Yize opened the bedroom door drunk, he didn't see Shi Chuya's figure, he slammed the door angrily, and then looked for it one room after another.

He misses her, even though he knows that she can't go anywhere at home, he still misses her, without her in the bathroom and in the study, where did she go?

Shi Chuya woke up from when he got home, she controlled her desire to take care of him, and forced herself to sleep on the bed, but when she heard the sound of stumbling, she felt like there were thorns on the bed, and she had to get up.

"Ze." Shi Chuya opened the door of the second bedroom and looked at the drunk man with a lot of emotion.

He frowned, his face full of pain, she didn't know if it was because of his stomach or for her.

Yu Yize's heart settled down the moment he saw her, and he hugged the person into his arms as soon as he stretched out his long hand, "Where have you been?" I've been looking for you for a long time. ”

Shi Chuya wants to say where else can she go? But she couldn't bear to bully a drunk man, "I'm at home, and I accidentally fell asleep just now." ”

"You lied to me, I looked for it, you weren't in the bedroom." Yu Yize's strength was so great that she couldn't breathe.

"Ze, I'm in pain." Shi Chuya's voice was uncomfortable.

Yu Yize seemed to be stimulated, and immediately let go of a little, and stretched out his hand to stroke her hair.

"Chu Ya ......" Yu Yize was very uncomfortable, hugged her and didn't let go, "Don't leave me." ”

The warm breath sprayed on her neck, and the familiar smell carried a bit of alcohol, Shi Chuya felt that she was also drunk, otherwise how could she forget to push it away when he kissed it?

Before completely sinking, Shi Chuya used the remaining reason to tell herself that she could not be soft-hearted next time and could not be tempted by him.

But what will happen next time, how will she know? What's more, she loves this man, this cold and gentle man.

She woke up at dawn and slept a lot at home these days, except for eating, painting, or sleeping.

She was finally able to see him when she woke up, his stubble came out, it hurt and itched her, she also had dark circles, and she lost a lot of weight, she was distressed and scolded him for deserving it.

When Yu Yize woke up, it was already dawn, his head hurt after a hangover, and there was no familiar figure around him, so scared that he bounced up from the bed, everything last night was his dream?

Fortunately, the note on the bedside table proves that everything last night was true.

"Ze, I was there last night, and now that I'm out to walk the dog, I wonder if I can still live a normal life?"