The night poured down layer by layer, and in the moonlight, there were occasionally one or two cat calls outside, but it was quieter and deeper.

After serving Luo Xi to wash, I loosened my hair bun in front of the dressing table as usual, except for the hairpin ring. Luo Xi saw that I didn't speak anymore, but just slept next to him, he frowned in surprise and asked me, "Miao Miao, what's wrong with you today?" ”

I slowly opened the eyes I had just closed, and asked softly, "Your Majesty, isn't this good?" ”

Luo Xi groaned slightly, "Okay, but I'm a little scared. ”

I laughed softly, "Your Majesty is the lord of the country, what are you afraid of?" ”

Luo Xi hugged me tightly in his arms, looked down at me and said, "I can't say clearly, I just think that Miao Miao has stopped mentioning the vicissitudes of life recently, but I feel that you are hinting at me all the time." ”

I stared straight into his eyes and poked my fingers into his chest, "That's what Your Majesty is doing in your heart, in fact, Your Majesty really wants to end it quickly." ”

He sighed lowly and said with shame: "Speaking of which, for you and Cangyang, I did a little unauthentic before. ”

I pillowed on his arm and said: "Coming to this point, no one expected it at the time, because Your Majesty is Your Majesty, and it is true that Your Majesty is my pillow person, no longer talking about other things, since the days are going to be passed after all, you have to live well, before I couldn't accept the reality for a while, and I didn't know what Your Majesty did for me, and I didn't know a lot of inside information, I really feel ashamed of Your Majesty." ”

I looked at his eyes, three points touched, seven points soft, and said: "I also admit my feelings for the great monk, so when he is in danger, I really can't watch him fall into the abyss and not pull him, I can't do it," paused, "If the great monk is gone, because I am gone, Your Majesty, do you think Miao Miao can spend this life in peace?" ”

With that, I buried my face in Luo Xi's arms and stopped talking.

Luo Xi touched my forehead in a circle, and called softly, "Miao Miao." ”

I responded lightly.

But Luo Xi, I have never been able to forget that you locked me in a dark room for three days, and what you came out to face was your decision to repent.

I have never been able to forget the cruelty you forced me to do that night.

I have never been able to forget that you hurt the people around me one by one, and then brought the bloody reality to me to show me and shock me.

I know.

Once the fire of your jealousy burns, then everything will be uncontrollable, you are the emperor of the world, when the wind is swept away, I am like a flat boat when the sea is roaring, powerless to turn the tide.

A long time ago, I couldn't imagine how sad the eldest lady would be when she was in chaos, because at that moment I thought I would laugh when this moment came, and even when I dreamed of this moment, I would laugh. But the reality is, I don't. I still remember lying on the ground crying so darkly, all the once dark past suddenly became vivid, and a voice from nowhere kept telling me: There will never be a big lady who can tear and wrestle with me on the ground again, and despise and spit on each other.

Of course, there will not be a fool like Prince Ning, who has been using the surface of disappointment with him as his armor for more than ten years, but just to make a living, just to show the innate filial piety of his son.

Who would have thought? He is a prince and a prince!

And Prince Ning probably won't be able to meet a woman like my eldest sister who would be willing to sacrifice herself for him.

Even if she is not beautiful enough, not breathtaking enough, not enough to read poetry and books, not enough to be a good wife and mother.

All these things are sealed in my heart, as if they were a long time ago.

Yes, for a long, long time.

It turns out that we are all so old.

I am also extremely sure that the great monk is the person I want to protect, and for him I can deceive Luo Xi until the last moment.

But if this continues, it will make me feel more and more guilty about Luo Xi, I clearly know that this is my contradiction, an irreconcilable contradiction, everyone understands, when a person's guilt towards another person accumulates to a certain extent, it will become distressed, and I can't help but want to be kind to him, a little better, until I can't tell whether it is distress or love.

If I hadn't deliberately said this today, I would have stopped struggling and making noise recently, and I had learned to accept it as much as possible, I'm afraid that the needle prick in your heart would still be secretly poking and prodding, and that flame would not burn and rest, I was afraid, I was really afraid. Between the closest people around me, using such a scheming, every step, every word, I have to weigh carefully, it is really not what I want, but what else can I do now?

Even if you can't afford it, you have to keep going.

I almost forgot, in addition to Luo Xi, there is also a queen mother who makes me embattled, fortunately, I met an aunt Jinyue - in front of people, everyone thinks that she is the most loyal person to the queen mother, and therefore people are afraid of her.

But my instincts tell me that there seems to be some hidden secret behind her.

Fortunately, it's okay, no matter what, Luo Xi, you still love me, so you will be more tolerant of me.

There was a silent sigh in his heart, looking up at Luo Xi's face falling asleep, so tired and haggard, but even so, his body could always reveal the kind of noble temperament that a child who was strictly raised in a royal atmosphere would naturally carry.

Speaking of which, he is not very old, why is his mind so heavy, dressed in a moon-white necklace with a fine pattern of fine patterns, a large piece of dark plum pattern on it, between the eyebrows is ripe, but does not look old, calm with arrogance and determination, hiding restlessness and restlessness, closed eyes, a bundle of extremely long eyelashes, as if constituting two bottomless abysses, so that people can't see clearly, and can't guess.

I shook my head, closed my eyes, rested on his arm, and fell into a deep sleep.

Wake up Luo Xi has left, after dressing up, I see that the flowers and trees in the courtyard are all taken care of, lush, especially the rhododendron, blooming red and gorgeous, full of branches and leaves are green, red and green like a beautiful picture, I can't help but think of this sentence: "Why do you need to see the spring breeze in the famous garden, all the way the mountain flowers live up to the nong." The Jinjiang River is like a brocade every day, and the clear stream reflects the red mountains. ”

When I looked closer, I found that countless flower bones had been soaked in honey and gradually swollen, just like slowly opening up the fragrant lips smeared with dandan, and they looked like the sweet smile that only a baby who had just woken up. The red cuckoo seemed to be a raging flame, reflecting this small piece of the world, and I gently stroked my abdomen.

For a while, Qiu Sile ran over and said: "Second Miss doesn't know, these flowers and plants are all ordered by His Majesty to be pruned when he got up this morning, and said that the cuckoos on the curtain hook yesterday looked good, and sent someone to move a lot while the second miss was asleep." ”

I turned my face and smiled, "Really? ”

Qiu Si didn't look particularly happy when he saw me, but wondered: "Didn't the second young lady already know?" ”

I nodded and said, "After Your Majesty left this morning, when I fell asleep, I heard the sound of the courtyard, and when I got up, I saw these again, and if I didn't think about it again, I would really be beaten." ”