In the blink of an eye, it was the thirty-ninth year of the Southern Liang, Luo Xi died suddenly two months ago, and after 33 days of mourning throughout the country, he is now buried in the imperial mausoleum and rested, and the new emperor Luo Fu, who is only nine years old, ascended the throne. At noon that day, as soon as Cangyang came back to the mansion, he told me about it, with a slightly sad face, I didn't believe it, and only chuckled: "You must be lying to me again, Your Majesty has not been in good health for the past two years, how many times has there been such news, and in the end, haven't they all been saved in the end?" ”

Cang Yang was speechless for a while.

I smiled faintly.

Then, Cangyang sighed lightly and said to me very seriously: "This time it's true." The imperial doctors were all waiting on their side, helpless. ”

Only then did I realize that it was a little serious, and my heart tightened, "How could Your Majesty?" ”

Cangyang shook his head, "It's probably the love Gu and the clavicle needle that are doing the trick." ”

I hurriedly asked, "What do you think?" You also had a clavicle needle. ”

Cangyang looked at me with a smile and said leisurely: "Don't worry, I won't call you a widow." ”

I glanced at him.

After so many years, when I suddenly received the queen's invitation to the palace to invite me to bring Yuan Che into the palace to get together, I held the bright yellow brocade cloth lightly in my hand, and suddenly felt in my heart as if I was in a different world.

Yuan Che is the son of me and Cangyang, who has just turned five years old, Yuan, Chuye, Che, Qingye.

Cangyang hopes that Yuan Che can be a clear and clear person.

At that time, the scenery of the imperial garden was just right, the flowers were still blooming, I had not entered the palace for many years, I thought that I would never set foot in this place full of memories again, but I didn't expect that as soon as Luo Xi left, I came.

Yuan Che and Luo Fu were playing in the small pavilion not far away, looking from afar, it looked like a small Cangyang and a little Luo Xi, the queen was dressed in a gold silk inlaid phoenix dress, exuding a faint brilliance in the crystal sun, like ripples of flowing water, "Since that farewell many years ago, we have never seen each other, speaking of which, among the many concubines in this palace, I am the only one who is most optimistic about you from beginning to end, I didn't know the past between you and Your Majesty, I thought you could stay in the palace for a long time, stay by Your Majesty's side, As a right-hand man, he can always help me and share some of the burdens for me. ”

I slowly retracted my gaze and said with a smile: "The queen really thinks highly of me, I am deceived in the palace, I have seen too much in those two years, I really can't bear this kind of life." ”

The queen sighed: "You are a blessed person, and I won't tell you that your life now is exactly what I longed for the most when I was in the boudoir." ”

I looked at the queen with a smile and asked, "The queen knows that every family has a scripture that is difficult to read, but now I am not seen by others." ”

The queen smiled, "But you're enjoying it, aren't you?" ”

I smiled lightly, and after a while, I asked softly, "Is Zhuang Jieyu good?" ”

The queen lowered her eyes, "She disappeared in the Three Lives Hall two years ago. ”

I let out an "oh".

The queen said: "You don't have to be too sorry, Zhuang Jieyu and Prince Ning are like winged birds, and wings are going to fly together, one is gone, and the other will naturally not live long." ”

I nodded, "So?" ”

Before I could say anything, the queen said: "I know what you want to say, later Zhuang Jieyu gave birth to a daughter in the Three Lives Palace, Your Majesty does not want to admit it, and now, at most, I can only give the name of the county lord to the child." ”

I took a deep breath and asked, "Your Majesty in the past two years...... What's going on? ”

The queen shook her head, "I didn't want to tell you, Your Majesty made a special explanation when he came." ”

I frowned, "Explained?" ”

The queen pursed her lips and said, "That's it." ”

I hurriedly asked, "What the hell is going on?" ”

The queen said: "Your Majesty has been in poor health since he came back a few years ago, and I have also asked that Your Majesty knows where the source of his illness is, so he has always been reluctant to see you, for fear that he will live one day less." ”

I said slowly, "I don't understand. ”

The queen sighed: "I didn't understand either, so once, I asked Your Majesty in the imperial study, do you know how Your Majesty answered?" ”

I shook my head.

"Your Majesty said to me, although I can't see you all the time, but as long as he is alive, in the morning, when he opens his eyes, he will be with you under a blue sky and white clouds, night falls, through the window screen, he can enjoy a bright moon with you, and can breathe the same fresh air as you at any time, every time he sees the vicissitudes of grace in the morning, he can know that you must be living a very happy, very happy, this is enough, Your Majesty He also said that if he died a few years ago, you will definitely be sad, you will feel guilty, and the later he dies, There will be less sadness in your heart, time is a terrible thing, it can dilute a lot of feelings. ”

Unexpectedly, Luo Xi had already thought of this for me. Let's read books

It turned out that all these years of my happiness had been inflicted on his pain, and I couldn't help laughing at myself in my heart.

I said lightly: "Your Majesty, he is so stupid!" ”

"Yes, Your Majesty is stupid, you know, Your Majesty has done even more stupid things. You probably won't believe it. ”

"What's the matter?"

"Your Majesty's love Gu is not emotional, the clavicle needle is better not to be angry, he clearly knows that he will be emotional when he hears the news about you, he clearly knows that he will be unconsciously moved when he sees Cangyang, but he still insists on reading your news every day, or insists on keeping Cangyang in the court, just to be closer to you, some time ago, His Majesty couldn't get up at all, lying on the bed and still holding the booklet, which was all about you one by one, while coughing up blood, while looking over, holding in his arms, like a baby, His Majesty later told me to bring the booklet with him in the coffin, but I didn't do that," said the queen, and the queen glanced back, and the palace maid handed the booklet over, and the queen took it, stroked it with her fingertips, and pushed it in front of me, "You see?" ”

I took it, a blue-gray plain leather booklet, it looks very old, and when I open it, every page has a crispy and crispy sound, it should have been read by Luo Xi over and over again, and my eyes have only skimmed a few pages, and I feel that my eyes have blurred.

In the spring and summer of the thirty-second year, Miao Miao got married. I remember that the moonlight was fine that night.

In the autumn and winter of the thirty-second year, Miao Miao was pregnant. Although the autumn leaves outside the window are yellow, I should be happy.

In the spring of thirty-three years, his face was full of red light, and he seemed to be in a good mood. Miao Miao is about good.

In the early summer of thirty-three, Yuan Che was born. Yuan Che, good name. Brilliant handwriting.

In the spring of thirty-four years, a family of three traveled together, and did not show up in the court for three days.

In the winter of thirty-four years, Miao Miao had a fever.

Thirty-five years of spring ......

Spring ...... of the Thirty-sixth Year

……

"Your Majesty, why bother?"

The queen said: "Although Your Majesty offended you when you were young, but in fact, his thoughts about you are not less than half of the vicissitudes, I tell you not to ask you anything, but to think that you should also know Your Majesty's affection for you, don't misunderstand him anymore, he finally missed your life, but he doesn't want you to spend your life to pay for it." ”

I said lightly: "I always thought that Your Majesty had figured it out. ”

The queen shook her head.

After a moment of silence, Yuan Che trotted over and crashed into my arms, raised his innocent eyes, and looked at me with a smile on his face, which was really cute.

Luo Fu was very calm on the side, like a little adult, "Ziqing, are you ashamed, you still have to find your mother when you are so old!" ”

The queen smiled and raised her hand to touch Luo Fu's forehead, and Luo Fu frowned on his back.

This frowning brow is very similar to Luo Xi back then.

I also laughed, "By the way, I just said that Zhuang Jieyu gave birth to a daughter?" ”

The queen nodded, "Yes, Yizhi is very good, she has been a beauty since she was a child, and His Majesty treated her well when she was alive, but she has never recognized her, so just two days after Luo Fu ascended the throne, I took the opportunity to honor Yizhi as the lord of Xilan County." It can be regarded as an explanation to Zhuang Jieyu. ”

I thought for a while and said, "No matter how you say it, it's not Your Majesty's blood and bones, and you can't say anything about staying in the palace all the time, why don't you let me take her away?" ”

The queen frowned and asked, "Are you really willing?" ”

I laughed, "Why not?" ”

The queen nodded with a smile, "That's fine, after all, the palace is not as pleasant and leisurely as the mansion life." ”

I said: "Yes, I don't want such a nobody embryo to grow up in this big dye vat in the palace since childhood, Zhuang Jieyu and I have had a good time before, and it is also appropriate to take more care of her daughter." And no matter what happens to adults, children are always innocent. ”

The queen looked at me and said, "It's good that you can think so." ”

I said: "I still remember that His Majesty also told me a long time ago that his temperament was developed because he grew up in the palace since he was a child, and he was in a difficult situation at that time, and his life was not satisfactory, and he had been experiencing deceit and deceit, taking advantage of each other, and I could see that he was not happy at all. ”

The queen sighed lightly: "If you have a choice, who wants to stay here?" As she spoke, her eyes quietly fell on Luo Fu, who was blinking on one side, "Your Majesty went early, only our orphans and widows are left in the palace, and I don't know what to do, let's take one step at a time!" Luo Fu is young, and I don't know much about the court, so I still hope that you can help me more. ”

I chuckled, "Don't worry, the queen mother, whether it's Cangyang, Jianning, or Lord Rong, she won't care." ”

The queen nodded, "In this way, I can sleep peacefully today." ”