176 Not Rejoicing in Things, Not Feeling Sorry for Yourself (1)
On the blue sky, the bright moon is like a silver plate-like shape, quietly spraying out an endless cold glow, this cold moonlight, but crystal warm, like the beautiful eyes of a girl who bites her lip full of tenderness, like a pool of autumn water in the windless sun, like a blue sky thousands of miles away.
In the courtyard where there was a lot of silence, there was a sudden "crackling" sound of broken celadon glass, presumably Qiu Si broke the tea cup in a hurry, I smiled lightly, stood up and joked outside the moon window: "Why did you accidentally break which of my favorite things?" Seeing that no one answered, after a while, I sighed again: "That's it, the external objects are not the most important, the person is fine." ”
There was still no response in the yard.
I think things are a little strange, although I have never treated the palace people with a sincere heart, and sometimes I will indulge more, let the play and play in the open air, but they also know the return, and always serve diligently, never so much as today, my words are nothing, and when I say them, they seem to sink into the sea without an echo.
My heart sank, I hurriedly put down the album in my hand, got up and walked to the porch, and shouted: "Qiu Si!" Winter snow! "The heart fluctuated wildly, and I took two steps forward, only to find that the ground in the courtyard was already full of palace people, I saw Qiu Si and Dong Xue at a glance, just five steps away from the flowers, next to the purple and red, the cup fragments of the amber carved peach blossom pattern case accompanied by the warm tea flowing like a small snake on the ground, and still bubbling clouds and clouds of heat in Qiu Si's hand, things must have happened in an instant, just a moment, I thought while running over and squatting, shaking Qiu Si's unconscious body, If you want to tell whether she is dead or alive, if she is dead, the assassin is ruthless as long as human life, if she is alive, everything will still have room to maneuver, "Qiu Si! Autumn thoughts! Wake up! ”
I touched Qiu Si's wrist and seemed to have a pulse, my heart calmed down a little, and suddenly as if I realized something, I immediately ran towards the temple gate, and shouted as I ran: "Someone! There are assassins! ”
Probably because it was too late in the night, and the guards had not yet patrolled here, I shouted a few times, but there was no movement, and I was about to open the heavy door of the temple, when someone came behind me like a gust of wind, knocking on my arm with one hand, and covering my mouth and nose with the other.
I couldn't breathe anymore, struggling desperately, my hands clenching the arms of the assassin behind me, a sharp whistling in my throat.
The Assassins took me captive and threw me backwards, and I was thrown to the hard ground, my elbows and hips ached, and I struggled to get up and asked, "Who are you?" Although he was dressed in black, and most of his face was covered by a triangular scarf, the beautiful eyes of Zhong Tiandi made me feel very familiar, as if I had seen them somewhere, clear and bottomless.
He slowly took off the triangular scarf and called softly, "Miao Miao." "The sound is like a breeze, and like a stream.
I was suddenly shocked, I looked at him in a daze, the moonlight was cold and clear through the window, and the moment I saw his face, I knew that I had indeed seen this person, and more than once, it was him!
Vicissitudes!
I couldn't help frowning and said, "It's you," I thought about it, and said, "Cangyang." ”
His eyes burned and he responded, "Yes, it's me." ”
I asked angrily, "What the hell are you going to do?" ”
As soon as he grabbed my hand, he was about to walk outside with me, "I'm going to take you away!" Get out of this place! ”
I pushed him away hard, "I'm not leaving!" His heart was like a big sauce vat, he was confused, angry, and helpless, and couldn't help but roar at him: "Why should I go with you!?" ”
The moment I shook off my hand, he turned his head and glared at me fiercely, and I, too, glared back unceremoniously.
"Do you know that the situation is very tense and delicate now, the king of Yunnan can't tell when he will be unable to hold his breath and send troops, I can't let you stay in the palace anymore, stay by his side!"
Cangyang's voice was very low, as if it was a command, a kind of compulsion.
"You're a madman!"
I glared at him.
After a while, I reacted, calmed my breath, pointed at him and asked suspiciously, "Are you the person of the king of Yunnan?" ”
He replied, "Yes." ”
I took a few steps back and sneered, "I understand, you are going to take me hostage for the king of Yunnan, right?" "Don't dream!" His eyes rolled, "Your Majesty is wise, and you will never spoil the overall situation and ruin the stability of the world for me!" ”
He didn't speak, and for a moment he grabbed my wrist and tried to drag me out.
I couldn't resist it, so I could only slam on the side of the door, my fingertips were bruised and swollen, my arms were numb and trembling, and I was about to be dragged away, so I said in a hurry: "If you force me again, I will bite my tongue and kill myself, and you can only get a useless corpse!" ”
As soon as I said that, his hard palm twitched obviously, and as soon as his strength was released, I was planted heavily on the door frame in an instant, and no matter where I touched it, I rushed to the temple with an arrow step, picked up a pair of scissors with a candle on the wooden frame, and pressed it against my jaw, and threatened: "I can die for you now!" "I didn't expect the scissors to be so sharp, and as soon as I used a little force, I smelled a stream of blood on the tip of my nose, and the warm and slippery blood flowed down the handle of the scissors to the back of my hand.
He hurriedly raised his arm to stop him: "Okay, okay, I won't force you, you put down the scissors first!" ”
I took a deep breath and stared at him, "You swear!" ”
He nodded, and said, "I swear." ”
I slowly removed the scissors from my jaw and put them back on the wooden frame, my body was trembling uncontrollably, my head was slightly dizzy, but I could still support it, I raised my eyebrows and glared at him: "You hurt my Wanyi Palace, and the guards who patrol will find out later, Your Majesty will definitely kill you!" ”
He stared at me with a little forbearance, the bloodshot in his eyes crisscrossed terrifyingly, and he was silent for a while, then suddenly rushed over and grabbed my shoulder, and whispered, "Your Majesty! Your Majesty! Your Majesty! Look what you've become now! The mouth is full of 'Your Majesty'! Can you please not follow me! ”
I was also enraged, and I looked up and said, "Why can't you mention it?" Why didn't you let me mention it? Your Majesty is my pillow man! It's my husband! What are you?! ”
The bruises on his forehead suddenly burst out, "I must not let you stay with him anymore, no matter what, I must take you away today!" ”
I didn't care about it, and then smiled coldly: "I thought you were still a gentleman who swore and kept his promises, but I didn't expect you to be a villain who went back on his word!" ”
He stared at me with lowered eyes, and after a long time, his face gradually became cold and sad, and his tone revealed an indescribable sense of loss, "I never imagined that one day you would say this about me." ”
I said in a deep voice, "You are!" "I tried to make every word accusatory, to make every word the longest and sharpest needle that pierced his heart.
His eyelids flushed, and he pushed me back, "Look at what you have become now, people don't look like people, ghosts don't look like ghosts, I can't even recognize who you are!" ”
I raised my eyebrows, sneered, and replied, "Why are you accusing me?!" Who are you?! I think you are not like a person, a ghost is not like a ghost, all day long in the bright and righteous way, do some stealing and stealing, again and again, sneak into the palace to explore the truth, support the king of Yunnan to do misdeeds, there are no people in the world, but no ministers, no filial piety, no king, no way, is simply the first horseman, a hundred years of thieves! Leave a stench for 10,000 years! If you can't avoid a war, you will be upright! Two armies face off! As he spoke, he frowned tightly, "Your methods are so despicable that they are not even as good as thieves!" ”
His gaze was fixed on my face, his gaze flickering, and he repeated in a deep voice: "Thief? He smiled contemptuously again, pressed at me step by step, raised his eyebrows and shouted, "Who is the thief, do you know?!" Do you know?! ”
I am not afraid, and I said righteously: "Naturally, you are the first-class king of Yunnan." ”
He whispered again, "Wrong! He added: "The Majesty in your mouth, the Majesty admired by all the people, he is a thief, a real thief!" ”
I shouted, "You talk nonsense! ”
"Am I talking nonsense?" He let out a sullen laugh, looked at me and asked, "Aren't you strange all these years?" ”
I looked away and asked, "What's strange?" ”
He chuckled, "Why is your mind blank for what those people say to you, aren't you curious?" Aren't you curious about who you were, what happened, and how you grew up? Did the so-called father and mother around you tell you? He then sneered lightly and was silent for a long time before he said in a deep voice: "Because your memories are actually instilled in you by others." ”
I was amazed at his use of the word 'indoctrination,' and couldn't help muttering, "Indoctrination ......" and suddenly shook his head violently, "No, no, no," staring at him sharply, "My mother told me...... She told me...... When I was a kid I ......"
As soon as he was halfway through his words, he interrupted, "After decades of life, how can she cover it in just a few words?" "If I'm not mistaken, your so-called mother should never have told you anything about you from childhood to adulthood, she doesn't know what you really like, let alone your secret thoughts, what she knows is just superficial." ”
I bit my lip, "I'm in the palace, my mother just didn't have a chance to tell me." ”
He said contemptuously: "Is there no chance, or is there no way to talk about it?" ”
I stared at him in annoyance and asked in a strong voice, "Is it difficult, you know?" ”
He looked straight at me with affectionate eyes, "Of course I do. ”
I was really stunned by his words, my heart was very messy, and even my voice trembled a little, "Then you say." ”
He shook his head and said in a dumb voice: "Not only do I know, but it can be said that everyone knows who you are, only you yourself are stupidly kept in the dark and don't know anything." ”
I don't know, "What do you mean?" ”
He said to me slowly: "What happened back then, why did you become like this, the princess knows, Jinyue knows, the queen mother knows, Rong Ruo knows, the imperial doctor also knows, as for who you are and your identity, no one knows it, even Qiu Si and Dong Xue know." ”
Although my face seemed calm, my heart was already turbulent, "Since you already knew everything, why didn't you say it the first time you met, didn't you say it the second time, but at this time you came to tell me?" ”
He lowered his eyes, and said gloomily: "I naturally have my selfishness, he doesn't want to remind you to get you, and I don't want to remind you to ......"
"For what?"
"So that you don't hate me."
I looked up and asked, "So, you don't care now, so you said it?" ”
He shook his head, "Now," smiled helplessly, looked at me and whispered, "Now that I don't talk about this situation, don't you hate me?" ”
I whispered, "Have you ever thought about it, maybe I don't want to know at all?" ”
He chuckled, "No, you must want to know, want to figure out, there is no one in this world who doesn't want to know who he really is, and there is no one who doesn't want to know everything he has experienced in the past, not to mention, you are such a multi-minded person." ”
I bowed my head, "Look at your face, listen to your tone, my previous experience must be very sad." ”
He whispered: "Whether it's sad or broken, it's all part of you, I just can't get used to seeing you living like a muddle and a walking corpse, and I can't stand your hatred and rejection of me so much," paused, "If you remember everything and still choose like this, I will fulfill you." ”
After that, it was extremely quiet all around, and it seemed that even the sound of breathing could be heard clearly, and suddenly I heard the footsteps of a guard patrol outside the temple gate, from far and near, I shook my mind slightly, and when I looked again, he had flown out of the moon window, and disappeared, leaving me alone in the same place and lost my soul.
I'm not misty, so who am I?
What have I been through before to get to where I am now?
What does that person named Cangyang have to do with me?
If everyone knew who I really was, it would be terrifying.
I quietly walked to the porch, leaned against the door frame and quietly looked at the mess, quietly looking at Qiu Si and Dong Xue, they are the people I trust the most!
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