Zhang Youyi received a call from Zhang's mother that day, and Zhang Youyi has not received a call from Zhang's mother since she left last time.

Chi Hanyu saw that Zhang Youyi's face was obviously not very good, so he asked Zhang Youyi, "What's wrong?" ”

Zhang Youyi sighed and said to Chi Hanyu, Zhang Youyi was obviously in a very unhappy mood, and Chi Hanyu didn't continue to ask, just silently waited for Zhang Youyi's anger to disappear, and then asked Zhang Youyi what happened?

Zhang Youyi sighed and said to Chi Hanyu a little tiredly, "I never thought that I could live in peace with my mother, sometimes I feel that the two of us are so similar that we quarrel as soon as we meet." ”

Zhang Youyi let go, this kind of Zhang Youyi makes Chi Hanyu very strange, she has never seen Zhang Youyi, she has been like this, she is so sad to see her, but she can't help much.

Zhang Youyi sighed and said to Chi Hanyu, "You know what? I never wanted my mother to have a bowl of water, but I wanted to have it even if it was relatively fair. ”

"But ......" Zhang Youyi didn't continue, and smiled bitterly at Chi Hanyu, who looked at Zhang Youyi and pulled out a wry smile, and couldn't help but feel a little distressed.

Chi Hanyu hugged Zhang Youyi and said to him, "It's okay, what's the matter with me?" If you can't come forward to solve it, I can help you. ”

Zhang Youyi couldn't help but nod when she heard Chi Hanyu's words, Chi Hanyu quietly hugged Zhang Youyi like this, and after a long time, Zhang Youyi said to Chi Hanyu, "Do you know why my mother called?" ”

Chi Hanyu shook her head, and Zhang Youyi said to Chi Hanyu, "Yang Tiantian, she is pregnant, my mother means to let me go back for the New Year, and I, the aunt, will also give some benefits, right?" ”

Chi Hanyu instantly understood what Zhang Youyi meant, Chi Hanyu thought about it and said to Zhang Youyi, "It's not all about money, since money can solve it, it's not a thing." ”

Zhang Youyi raised her eyebrows and looked at Chi Hanyu, and said to Chi Hanyu, "Indeed, the things that can be solved with money in this world are not called things. ”

"Aren't you curious why my mom did this?" Zhang Youyi looked at Chi Hanyu with a smile, and Chi Hanyu suddenly understood the chill in Zhang Youyi's eyes.

Zhang Youyi's cold expression made Chi Hanyu stunned, Zhang Youyi said to Chi Hanyu, "Yang Tiantian must have given my mother eye medicine, the last time I went home, where Yang Tiantian was splashing and rolling, it was nothing more than that there was not much money, and Zhang Lixuan still worked overtime every day." ”

"Now, the idea has hit me, Yang Tiantian, this woman, well, it's really an eyesore."

When Chi Hanyu heard Zhang Youyi's words, he couldn't help but squint his eyes, looked at Zhang Youyi with a smile, and said to Zhang Youyi, "You used to be quite generous, how could you pair Zhang Lixuan and Yang Tiantian like this." ”

Zhang Youyi looked at Chi Hanyu and said to her, "You probably don't know one thing, that is, three years ago, the reason why I came out at night was because of Zhang Lixuan. ”

Chi Hanyu didn't know that Zhang Lixuan was playing such a role in this matter, Zhang Youyi looked at Chi Hanyu and said, "One day three years ago, that day I happened to have an argument with Zhang Lixuan because of a bad mood over a trivial matter. ”

"Zhang Lixuan hit me at that time, can you imagine? A 16-year-old boy is actually the same as a person in a feudal society. ”

"At that time, after I was beaten by Zhang Lixuan, I thought that my parents would call the shots for me, but it turned out to be very sad, and it felt very bad."

"So that night, I couldn't stand the accusations of my parents and rushed out of the door, but I was so unlucky, I met Chi Yinyu and killed someone."

When Chi Hanyu heard all this, he couldn't help frowning, hugged Zhang Youyi with some distress, and said to Zhang Youyi, "It's okay, it's all over, don't be afraid." ”

Zhang Youyi heard Chi Hanyu's clumsy comfort and pulled out a wry smile to Chi Hanyu, and Chi Hanyu saw Zhang Youyi's smiling expression, and her heart was stabbed.

Zhang Youyi's expression was cold, with sadness in her eyes, Chi Hanyu couldn't help but feel a little distressed when she saw Zhang Youyi's expression, but she didn't know how to comfort her.

Chi Hanyu patted Zhang Youyi's back awkwardly and right, Zhang Youyi looked at Chi Hanyu like this, and couldn't help but smile and said to Chi Hanyu, "Do you see this scar on my hand?" ”

Zhang Youyi raised her hand and asked Chi Hanyu to see that there was a scar under her ring finger on her hand, and Zhang Youyi said to Chi Hanyu, "This was left by me when I was in junior high school, and I can't remember what it was because of that time." ”

"But at that time, I felt the partiality in my mother's bones, and sensitivity was a common problem for girls at that time, so I noticed my mother's partiality at the first time."

"Patriarchy, this phenomenon is very common and common, but I have always comforted myself and told myself that our family is equal to men and women, and Zhang Lixuan and I are equal."

"But the reality kept hitting me, and at that time I had a tendency to masochism, and at that time I still remember that my heart hurt and I didn't know what to do, so I hit the glass with a fist."

"My hand hurt so much that day, but my heart didn't hurt that much, you know? In fact, all I have been asking for is the word "equality".

Zhang Youyi's tears slipped down unconsciously, Chi Hanyu wiped Zhang Youyi's tears, and Zhang Youyi looked up at Chi Hanyu.

The grievances immediately spread to her heart, and Zhang Youyi continued to say to Chi Hanyu, "At that time, I hated myself very much for being a girl, so I cut my hair short and began to wear neutral clothes. ”

"You know what? For a few years, I would have short hair and wear neutral black clothes, and I didn't even have any other colors in my closet, most of them were black. ”

"At that time, I started a career of self-harm, and many people wondered, why do I have such a serious mental illness when I am an ordinary and ordinary person?"

Zhang Youyi looked at Chi Hanyu and said to Chi Hanyu, "Have you ever been curious?" Ji Hanyu smiled and nodded to Zhang Youyi.

Chi Hanyu sighed silently in his heart, "Actually, he doesn't like to know the secrets of other people's hearts, so even if he knows that Zhang Youyi has a very serious mental illness, he has never been curious, and he has never asked." ”

Because Ji Hanyu knows that for everyone, there are unspeakable, scars, and no one wants to uncover Sabah, and no one even wants to mention the pain of the past.

Zhang Youyi hugged Chi Hanyu, and after a long time, she raised her head to look at Chi Hanyu, "Do you know? When I grabbed the door frame, I used to think so, and for so many years, I was the only one who was silently moved, willing to grow, and willing to do what I could. ”

"For so many years, I have never thought that it has always been me who has silently moved myself, but in fact, I have never been so important."

Zhang Youyi sighed, Daniel Zhang saw this sadness in his eyes in turn, and Chi Hanyu quietly hugged Zhang Youyi like this, and said to him, "From now on, you will no longer be silently moved by yourself, silently growing up because you still have me by your side." ”

Zhang Youyi's tears flowed again, Zhang Youyi is the person who hates others to say that she is unhappy, so all Zhang Youyi said to others in the past was that she lived a happy life at home.

Zhang Youyi was only escaping, never daring to face this fact, until one ordinary afternoon, Zhang Youyi and Zhang's mother chatted together.

At that time, she inadvertently talked about pregnancy, and Zhang Youyi said to Zhang's mother at that time, "I read a letter written by a mother to her daughter, and the mother said to her daughter that I was sad when I was pregnant and learned that I was pregnant with a girl. ”

"Because I never thought that my daughter would have to endure all this pain like me, and be a mother like me."

"Bearing the pain of sharing", Zhang Youyi said to Zhang's mother, when I saw this sentence, I was particularly moved, and Zhang's mother said to Zhang Youyi disdainfully, "What is there to be moved? When I entered the delivery room and found out that I had given birth to a daughter, I cried on the spot. ”

"I feel very unwilling, and I feel that there is something missing without a son."

What did Zhang's mother say afterward? Zhang Youyi didn't know, but at that moment, Zhang Youyi's heart was tasteless.

At that moment, Zhang Youyi knew that what she wanted to whitewash was not this fact? I've been aware of it for a long time, haven't I?

Zhang Youyi has always been a very thoughtful person, and Zhang Youyi has never been a good person, when she heard Zhang's mother's words, Zhang Youyi felt like a knife cutting her heart.

When Chi Hanyu heard Zhang Youyi's words, he couldn't help but feel a little distressed, hugged Zhang Youyi and said to him, "Actually, I don't like children very much, and you don't like children either, so we don't need to have children." ”

Zhang Youyi looked at Chi Hanyu with a smile and said to Chi Hanyu, "Actually, meeting you is the luckiest thing in my life, because I met you, and I will no longer be lonely in my life." ”

"In a sense, from the moment I met you, I, you, seemed to have become family, and our encounter was like a plan from God."

"Too lucky, isn't it?" Zhang Youyi said as she spoke, tears couldn't help but fall, Chi Hanyu hugged Zhang Youyou and said to him, "It is also my luck to meet you." ”

Zhang Youyi was in a very bad mood tonight, and Chi Hanyu could almost see why Zhang Youyi was depressed back then? Such a situation.

Such depression, but no one speaks or listens, trying to whitewash what they think is happiness, silently deceiving themselves.

Who is probably going to be unhappy, right? For a moment, Chi Hanyu felt sorry for Zhang Youyi, and Chi Hanyu hugged Zhang Youyi.

kissed Zhang Youyi on the head and said gently, "Good night, my baby." ”