Chapter 1157: Tired
Okay, since you don't let go, then prove that you are a little explainer, right? Then you tell me. What the hell are you hiding from me? "Lin Qing, I think I'm already very good at talking like this, and I also feel that I'm worthy of their relationship by doing this.
After Lin Qingrou finished speaking, there was still a hint of hope in her eyes, she still believed that Du Zeming would tell him everything, or that Du Zeming would be able to understand the reason why he reacted like this at such a time, and she was still full of hope for their relationship.
But once there is hope, there is inevitably disappointment, and the two are almost complementary and inseparable. Lin Qingrou hopes that Du Zeming can understand herself, and she also hopes that he can fulfill himself. She has even begun to feel a little tired in this relationship.
Lin Qingrou is really sad now, but why not Du Zeming? He really wants to protect Lin Qingrou, he wants to give her a warm and kind inner world, he doesn't want the ugliness and evil of this world to hurt Lin Qingrou, and he doesn't want to see Lin Qingrou learn to calculate others one day.
But how does Du Zeming explain this situation now? He had no way to explain it, no way to justify himself. Jian had already made up his mind to hide it from Lin Qingrou from the beginning, there must have been his considerations and reasons in this, how could he break everything so easily.
"Qingrou, I want you to trust me. I swear. I'll never do anything to be sorry for you, but ......"
"No, but, don't you know? Don't you know what I really care about? Lin Qingrou really feels that she is very tired now, and she really feels that she doesn't want to continue to persevere. She felt that she had to suffocate, and she couldn't help it, and tears had begun to flicker in her eyes.
Both of them actually have their own persistence, they are actually very painful now, maybe because they have experienced too much, so this relationship is too heavy, so they never dare to touch those sensitive topics easily, you are doing your best to avoid all the factors that make their relationship worse.
It is precisely because of this that they are missing one of the most important elements in this relationship, which is honesty and communication.
It's often because they don't know each other's true feelings, and both of them feel that they know each other very well and that they both know the relationship very well. But in fact, this is not the case, everyone has their own unique ideas in their hearts, and it does not mean that two people will definitely understand each other completely after getting along for a long time.
It's pride, and they don't want to admit it. They are unwilling to admit that this relationship is fragile, and they are unwilling to admit that they are helpless. Suppressing my emotions for a long time, suppressing the truest thoughts in my heart, will really push a person to the edge of the cliff, once I don't pay attention to it, I have an abyss.
"I ......"
"Now, are you willing to tell me what you're hiding from me?" Lin Qingrou interrupted what Du Zeming was about to say again, because she was starting to be afraid, he knew that he was soft-hearted, and he knew that he couldn't resist Du Zeming's attack at all, so before Du Zeming could say those explanations, he had completely interrupted what he wanted to say.
It's not that Lin Qingrou doesn't want to listen to Du Zeming's defense, she just doesn't want those defenses to affect her inner judgment at this moment, now she just wants to ask one thing clearly, that is, the purpose of Du Zeming's coming here, and what Du Zeming has been planning to hide from her.
Lin Qingrou endured it for so long, and finally couldn't help but explode today, when the emotions accumulated to a certain height, once they erupted, they would definitely hurt the people standing beside her.
So Du Zeming was really hurt at this moment, he looked at Lin Qingrou's defensive eyes, looking at Lin Qingrou's appearance that he no longer believed him, even if it was difficult to say something in between, he felt that his heart was even about to stop beating, and he felt that his senses could no longer feel anything around him.
After a long time, he looked into Lin Qingrou's eyes and slowly said word by word, "You don't trust me as much as you used to, do you?" This is what Du Zeming cares about the most, Lin Qingrou's trust is very loving, it is the premise of everything he does, and it is the original reason for everything he does.
But now it all seemed to be gone, and in that moment he found that everything he had insisted on had changed. It's like you're sailing in the middle of a sea and suddenly you lose your direction, not because your compass is out of order, but because you don't have the direction you want.
Du Zeming was very heartbroken, really heartbroken, so painful that he couldn't breathe, so painful that he couldn't think rationally, at this time, he only knew that he blindly looked at Lin Qingrou's eyes, looked at her eyes that didn't have to trust herself, and lost the light at that time little by little.
He really didn't know how to describe this feeling, he didn't know how to describe himself, he didn't know how to describe Lin Qingrou.
Lin Qingrou still didn't speak, maybe because she didn't know what to say, the reactions she did just now were indeed excessive, but it was indeed her truest emotional performance at that time. She had no way to defend it, because it was the truth, and there was no way to defend it.
Moving her mouth, she seemed to want to say something, but there was no sound, Lin Qingrou didn't know what to say at this time, he could see the injury in Du Zeming's eyes, and he knew why he was injured, but she couldn't do anything.
Du Zeming didn't wait for the answer he wanted, or even for this answer, whether it was positive or negative, Lin Qingrou hadn't said a word since then, and the expression on her face was also unpredictable, this was the first time Du Zeming discovered that he had times when he couldn't see through a person.
This feeling made him even more panicked, not because he couldn't see through this fact, but because the person he couldn't see through was Lin Qingrou, the person he loved on the tip of his heart, and this person he didn't give his life to ensure that she was safe.
"Is it really? Answer me! Du Zeming asked again, this time his attitude was much stronger than just now, and the strength in his hand was also a little heavier, even making Lin Qingrou begin to feel the pain in his shoulder, and his brows wrinkled at this moment.
Now the pain in his shoulder, so Lin Qingrou subconsciously struggled, this is out of the protective instinct in human beings, but this kind of action is not like this in Du Zeming's opinion, he thinks that this is because Lin Qingrou is resisting himself, and then the anger in his heart suddenly rises.
"What? Is this question hard to answer? Weren't you still being upright just now? Didn't you just question me? Why is this question so difficult to answer now? Du Zeming's voice instantly became louder, and his eyes showed a little fierceness.
When people are emotional, it is always difficult to control their tyrants, and they always want to hurt everything around them, whether it is people or objects, they want to destroy them as much as they can, but they vent.
In fact, Du Zeming was in such a state, so he couldn't control the force in his hand even more, and because of this, it really hurt Lin Qingrou, and even cold sweat began to appear on her face, and she stretched out her hand to help herself break free again.
But the result was still the same, Du Zeming had no intention of letting go at all, so the force on his hand was further aggravated, and Lin Qingrou's pain deepened to a point where it was impossible to ignore at all.
But at this moment, the two people are holding a breath in their hearts, and they are unwilling to bow their heads first, and they are not willing to give in first. Don't look at Nian Lin Qingrou, he looks like a soft and soft person, but when he starts to insist on one thing, he becomes very stubborn.
Lin Qingrou, who was in a state of anger, couldn't care so much, she didn't know what the consequences would be after she said something? I just know how to vent my emotions and say everything I want to say at this moment, "So what? I just don't believe you anymore, but don't you know who caused all this? ”
Lin Qingrou didn't want Du Zeming to hide herself everywhere, she didn't want to wait for the fool who only knew how to hide under his wings, and she didn't want to be told by others that she was just an existence attached to Du Zeming. She is a person, an independent person, someone who does not want to be completely dependent on others.
But Du Zeming didn't understand this, he didn't understand Lin Qingrou's thoughts at all, and he didn't realize the seriousness of the current quarrel at all, so he still kept a cold face and didn't make any response. Everyone has emotions, let alone in today's situation, so it is not surprising that Du Zeming would have such a reaction.
Lin Qingrou knew that she was about to hold back her tears, but she didn't want to shed tears in front of this kind of at such a time, so she could only compromise and speak, "I'm really tired, I need to be alone and quiet, please let go of your hand, I don't think it's suitable for us to stay together now, even if it's for our direct feelings, let go, okay?" ”
Du Zeming was silent for a while, and just when Lin Qingrou felt that it was impossible for him to let go, Du Zeming began to slowly let go of the force in his hand, and Lin Qingrou was finally liberated from his body, but before she could take the step of leaving, she was stopped by Du Zeming again, "It's me who should go." ”