Chapter 42: Guilt

After waking up, I entered Ji Shan's dream again alone.

When I came in this time, it was already evening, and I came to the family home again to wait, until after nightfall, I saw Ji Shan leading the mother and daughter into the family home.

"Uncle Ji." I stepped forward and stopped in front of Ji Shan, his eyes were still cloudy, and he said numbly: "You are blocking my way." ”

"Uncle Ji, you have to wake up, this is a dream, this is not reality!" I say for sure.

Ji Shan didn't pay attention to me at all, but the little girl next to me pushed me and said, "You go quickly, don't stop us from going home." ”

I took two steps back, and they took two steps forward, but I still stopped in front of them, raised my hand and pushed Ji Shan, he took two steps back, stabilized his body, and looked up at me again, his eyes had regained clarity, and he roared dissatisfiedly: "Who are you!" What the hell do you want to do! ”

I was stunned for a moment, and felt extremely strange that Ji Shan could actually control whether he was awake or not, that is, he was not passively trying to get lost in a dream, but actively wanted to stay here.

"I'm Han ...... The feng shui master found by Ji Qiu, I want to take you out of this dream, this is illusory, you can't sleep all the time, you have to wake up, you have to face reality! ”

"Bullshit!" Ji Shan yelled, looked at me and said angrily: "This is my dream, it's up to me to decide, if you don't leave, don't blame me for not letting you go!" ”

I frowned solemnly, indeed, this is someone else's dream, and the owner of the dream is like a god in his own dream, and they can be lawless by their own will.

Watching them walk past me and gradually move away, I turned back again and said, "Ji Qiu is still waiting for you outside, she is very sad, you have not woken up, she is very worried about you." ”

This sentence seemed to be useful, but Ji Shan just paused, continued to walk forward, and disappeared into the building.

I didn't give up, squatted on the steps of the rockery and continued to wait, anyway, the time in this dream passed quickly, and I was not afraid of wasting it.

As the lights of a house upstairs turned on, I looked up and found Ji Shan standing on the balcony looking down at me, and when I saw him, he turned around and went into the house.

After a while, Ji Shan walked out of the building alone and stood in front of me, he was still awake, patted me on the shoulder and said, "Master, since Xiaoqiu asked you to come, you can go out, and tell her when you go out, just say that I want to make up for them in my dream." ”

"Huh?" I looked at him suspiciously.

Seeing that I didn't understand, Ji Shan let out a sigh and talked about the past.

It turned out that Ji Shan didn't say goodbye back then, but Han Susu was young and thought so, Ji Shan and Han Susu's mother divorced peacefully.

The reason why he chose to divorce was that after the collapse of the machinery factory, Ji Shan lost money in business and owed a lot of foreign debts, in order not to let their mother and daughter be affected, he would have this choice, and later he rose again through Yu Xiaoxia's family background, there was no turning back, he could only marry Yu Xiaoxia and have children, and when he met Han Susu again, it was too late.

"I know, Xiaoqiu hates me and even changed her name, but she is my daughter, and I have always wanted to make up for her, but she didn't give me a chance, and I feel uncomfortable." Ji Shan beat his chest, tears were in his eyes, and it could be seen that he was really guilty about Han Susu's mother and daughter.

"Uncle Ji, since this is the case, you should be better to Sister Han outside, instead of hiding in a dream, what can you make up for in a dream? Ji Qiu when he was a child? The faceless wife? These are all your memory formations, which are ethereal, and the people who really exist in reality, whether it is Sister Han, Aunt Yu or Ji Zhun, they are all worried about you, if you don't wake up for a day, they won't smile for a day. ”

Taking a deep breath, I continued, "You're just satisfying your own selfish desires!" ”

"Satisfy my own selfish desires......" Ji Shan was stunned and muttered these words, he suddenly closed his eyes, and two tears flowed out.

"Sister Han, she didn't change her name, although her name is Han Susu now, but I have seen her ID card, it is still Ji Qiu, the past has passed, people should not live in the past, but look towards the future, say something realistic, don't you do the project? The contracts have been signed, and if the construction period cannot be completed, Uncle Ji, are you going to repeat the mistakes of the past? I was sorry for Sister Han's mother and daughter last time, are you going to be sorry for Aunt Yu's mother and son this time? ”

My words had a role, Ji Shan's expression became serious, and he whispered: "Engineering, I want to give up, there are zombies there." ”

"Give up something, we're here to help you solve these things, just give us a little time." Speaking of which, I did my best, and it was up to him to decide whether he stayed away from leaving the dream, and I waved my goodbye and withdrew from his dream again.

After opening my eyes, I straightened up from the hospital bed, and Han Susu immediately approached me and asked, "Zhou Chen, what's the situation?" ”

I glanced at Yu Xiaoxia, who was wiping Ji Shan's face, got up and pulled Han Susu out of the ward, and told her everything I had done in my dream.

Han Susu has always thought that her father is hard-hearted, and she and her mother will not have any guilt at all, after learning that Ji Shan is actually because of guilt, he willingly fell into a dream, Han Susu sat on the chair, tears rolling in his eyes.

In fact, Han Susu didn't hate Ji Shan, but thought that Ji Shan was hard-hearted and didn't have any guilt, but now she was wrong, very completely wrong, Ji Shan is not only not hard-hearted, but has always lived in guilt, but as a man, he has no way to show it.

"Cry if you want to." I took out a pack of tissues from my backpack and handed it to Han Susu, she finally couldn't help it, Douda's tears fell, she sat in front of me and kept sobbing, wow, threw herself on my shoulder, and said vaguely: "Zhou Chen, thank you for telling me this." ”

Women need a shoulder and support at such a time, but Han Susu's movements startled me and made me embarrassed, so close, I could smell her body fragrance, and the most important thing was that I didn't know how to put my hands, just sat straight on the chair.

"It's public, why are you doing this?"

I was hesitating whether to hug Han Susu when a discordant voice suddenly came, I hurriedly turned around, and Xiao Xun and Huo Zhengxiong appeared!

I instantly felt that my face was hot and hot, and Han Susu also let go of me, lowered his head and wiped his tears, and said, "Mr. Huo, Xiao Xun,." ”