"I didn't expect you to have such a confidant young lady." Ji Ming, who followed behind and witnessed the whole situation, quipped.

Qin Ran didn't answer, raised his wrist and looked at his watch, "It's late, Ji Ming, go back to the dormitory, you should think about what I told you, whether to go or stay, it's up to you." ”

"Qin Ran!" Twisting her eyebrows, Ji Ming stopped her, "We probably need to talk again." ”

Qin Ran waved his hand, "It's too late today, I've seen your training arrangements, it's difficult to have a suitable time in the near future, if you must talk, come over next Wednesday night, it's still today's time." ”

After saying that, he took the lead and left.

Ji Ming was a little confused, and always felt that Qin Ran was not in a good mood, but it was not just because of himself, he was suffering from the rhythm of the unwarranted disaster......

Li Yuan looked at Ji Ming with sympathy and schadenfreude, sighed, and still reminded, "The army is not as good as the outside, and there can't be too many personal feelings, especially in the position of Instructor Qin, who bears too much pressure, you can be considerate, don't make trouble." ”

Season name: ......

What did he do, and when did he make trouble, it was obviously his daughter-in-law who was angry with himself indiscriminately, and he was also very confused!

And Qin Ran, who left, was not as light and breezy as he appeared, calm and self-controlled, stretched out his fingers and rubbed his temples lightly, with a sour feeling of astringency.

Subconsciously took out his mobile phone and dialed a number, "Come and talk!" ”

Then he breathed a long sigh of relief, but it was a pity that the depression in his heart did not diminish even a point.

I have to admit that when I suddenly heard about Xie Fei's experience, although I objectively gave my opinion, some thoughts that spread in my heart could not be escaped.

Because of some uncontrollable forces from the outside world, I had to make a choice, but none of the options I had imagined were any.

She's been there, too.

It's just luckier than Xie Fei, she has two martyr parents, an eccentric-eyed chief, and a comrade-in-arms who follows with an iron heart.

So, no matter how difficult it was, she still persevered.

When she first heard about this, out of appreciation and selfishness, she almost wanted to respond in one bite, and keeping Xie Fei was just a sentence for her.

But she still calmed down, reason overpowered emotion, Xie Fei was not her, and there was no reason to stay.

If you have to leave sooner or later, this reason may be regrettable, but it is better than the pain of staying.

The Tiger Company is not a quadripartite team, the competition is fierce, and the mobility of personnel is the first in the army.

She can't set this precedent.

First, the rules are broken, which is not conducive to future management.

The second is to harm Xie Fei, if he doesn't have the ability to stay, after this period of recuperation, he will have to leave, and the regret will be even greater.

The world is never perfect.

She began to reflect on whether it was right to agree with Ji Ming to come in, she couldn't face him with absolute objectivity and fairness, and naturally she couldn't treat him the same way as other soldiers.

This is a big no-no as an instructor.

She shouldn't have done it.

Even the future direction of this team, if Ji Ming is left to the end, how should she face it.

When responsibilities conflict with him, what should she choose?

She is Qin Ran, and the moment she decides to come back, it means that she has taken on a lot of the weight of her life.

Qin Ran is not Lu Mo, and he has no qualifications to be willful.

I don't know when it started, the light rain was pouring down, and Qin Ran stood in the rain, confused for the future for the first time.

She always thought that she knew very well what she wanted, and she could take the next step of chess very soberly and rush to the future planned for herself.

But when she met Ji Ming, the first accident of her life, and with it, more accidents.

Many things inadvertently deviated from her plan, and she thought that as long as she didn't change her original intention, she could return to the right path.

But nowadays, it seems difficult.

Take a deep breath, look up, the rain falls into the eyes, nose, mouth, a trace of coolness entangled.

Clenching his fists and facing the rain curtain, Qin Ran ran around the training ground one after another, tirelessly, his face tense, ignoring the hotness on his body, numb, and stubborn.

"Ji Ming, let's get married!"

"Ji Xiaoming, I will never leave you behind."

"Okay, I'll pack you up and take it away!"

"Whoever bullies you, I'll beat him!"

Ji Xiaoming, I just want to be nice to you! Why is this so hard?

The rain soaked the uniforms, mixed with blood, and became sticky and heavy.

His face was wet, there was rain and tears, and he couldn't tell which one was which.

"Qin Ran!"

Suddenly, with a call, Qin Ran gradually regained a little clarity, and slowly slowed down until he stopped.

It took ten minutes.

"Ye Qing." It's not like the jokes and amusements of the past, it's very indifferent, it's very serious, it's also very tired, and its voice is hoarse like a stone.

Ye Qing approached, holding an umbrella in his hand, blocking the falling raindrops, "What's going on?" Call me over in advance, the outside hasn't been dealt with yet! ”

Qin Ran closed his eyes, then opened them, brighter than the stars, "Listen to me!" Some details that you didn't know about the mission back then. ”

Ye Qing was stunned, she really wanted to hear it all along, but in fact, she didn't expect much, after all, Qin Ran was so strict, she knew it! If she doesn't want to say it, she can't hear it.

Nodding slowly, "Okay, you can say it!" I listened......"

Qin Ran turned his head to look at the world outside the umbrella, a small umbrella, isolating the peace of one side and completely separating the rain curtain from the outside.

But not without touching, this rain does not exist.

The same goes for the scars of the past.

Even if many years have passed, no matter how shallow the scar is, it is still there.

"You didn't directly participate in the mission back then, so some things are not so clear, we were ordered to exterminate the mirage, we originally thought it was a little game of playing house, but after cornering the enemy, my bullet hit a completely innocent outsider, Yan Fei."

"Yan Fei's death completely angered Aaron, and he fought with us to the death, and there was no chance of winning, in order to avoid greater losses, Duoduo proposed to retreat in different directions in groups to maintain vitality."

"After we left in groups, I led the team in the direction of the road where we came, and the car was still there, but I was overwhelmed, and a big oil truck was crashed on the road, and there was an explosion."

"In my ears, in front of my eyes, the firelight roared, it was Duoduo who pushed me out, and then I knew that there was an inner ghost among us, and that inner ghost was Duoduo."

"But seeing them turn to ashes, it doesn't matter so much whether they are ghosts or not. At that time, I was thinking, if I can't even give full trust to my comrades-in-arms who entrust life and death, what is the point of living, and I am the one who wishes to die. ”

"But I didn't die, I was captured by Aaron before I had time to grieve."

"Those years are the last time I want to think back but I can't escape the nightmare, I was injected with high-concentration drugs, completely caught up in desire, and my six relatives didn't recognize me."

"That was the most murderous I ever had, every day, my hands were covered with blood, blood stains that could not be washed, it was difficult to sleep every night, and I was awake when I closed my eyes."

"I almost thought my whole life was ruined."

"Every scene of others being tortured to death was replayed before my eyes, telling me that those were my sins."

"I watched them die! It's me who can't do anything about it! It was I who indulged in lust and gave them up! ”

"O beautiful woman! You say, how can Qin Ran be Qin Ran? ”

The past is gone, and the experience you have cannot be erased.

People go to tea and cool, and things are not people.

How can she get back to the original Qin Ran, who is more arrogant than Qingsong, arrogant and wanton to follow the rising sun.

Those who are confused and displaced, there is never a way back......

Neither did she Qin Ran.

A road goes to the dark, there is no salvation, no sunshine can be found.

But she didn't want to continue like this.

She has something she has to cherish and doesn't want to lose.

"Kiyomi, can you help me?"

"Well, I'll help you, it's okay, it's okay......"

(To be continued)

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