2. Heartbeat

Chen Xingyun looked at the deserted home, shrunk into the quilt again, and prayed in his heart that Su Yanjiu would come quickly, so that the home would not be so deserted.

I don't know how long it took, there was finally a knock on the door, Chen Xingyun got up quickly, and after confirming that it was Su Yanjiu before opening the door again, he couldn't hide his excitement and opened the door.

"Can't wait any longer?" Su Yanjiu said with a big smile on his face.

Chen Xingyun is thin-skinned, so he won't admit that he really can't wait.

"No, less narcissistic."

Su Yanjiu smiled without saying a word, and walked to the kitchen familiarly.

"Stinky Jiu, is it okay to ask you a question?"

"Ask."

"Don't you feel lonely when you're alone?"

"No, it's good to be alone, free and comfortable."

Su Yanjiu's eyes were full of indifference when she said this, Chen Xingyun knew that she really didn't care, and she really didn't know when she would be like Su Yanjiu.

"Could it be that you will be lonely?" Su Yanjiu smiled cheaply, but quickly restrained her smile, took out her mobile phone, and grabbed Chen Xingyun and hugged her shoulder.

Chen Xingyun was very reluctant to leave, but she didn't have the strength to do so.

Chen Xingyun was stunned with a click, but Su Yanjiu didn't seem to see it, and said to herself: "Now, the picture has been sent to you, it can be set as a wallpaper, just like I am by your side." ”

Chen Xingyun opened her phone in a daze and saw the picture.

In the picture, Chen Xingyun wanted to stay away from Su Yanjiu with disgust on his face, but Su Yanjiu looked at the camera with a smile, as if he was looking at Chen Xingyun now.

Chen Xingyun's heart warmed, and he wanted to set it as a wallpaper, but he didn't expect Su Yanjiu to turn his head over at this time: "How about it, my photography skills are not bad." ”

"Hey, you don't really plan to set it as a wallpaper, I'm just kidding."

"Then what are you taking pictures for?"

"Doesn't that mean we don't have anything to remember?" Su Yanjiu regained the cheap smile she had before, and teased: "What, my sister's beauty makes your heart move, so do you want to watch it all the time?" He pretended to be very helpless again, "No way, my sister is too beautiful." ”

Chen Xingyun was speechless, and turned her head and didn't want to talk to her anymore.

"Eh, why are you still shy?"

Chen Xingyun rolled her eyes, "Do you want to be so narcissistic." ”

"What's wrong with narcissism." Su Yanjiu talked serious nonsense, "You said that you don't even love yourself, who else do you want to love?" ”

Without waiting for Chen Xingyun to answer, Su Yanjiu added, "Except for me." ”

Chen Xingyun was completely speechless, so he had to change the topic: "What about beef jerky." ”

"It's still hot."

Watching Chen Xingyun put a piece of beef jerky in his mouth, Su Yanjiu couldn't wait to ask, "How does it taste?" ”

"It's delicious."

"Hahahaha, it's delicious, and I also have credit for it."

Chen Xingyun smiled unkindly: "Just you? What credit can you have, is it for helping to taste? ”

"Eh, my little apricot is really clever, you know this." Su Yanjiu sneered.

Chen Xingyun raised his head with a proud face: "Of course, I don't know you yet." ”

Su Yanjiu smiled and said nothing, this beef jerky was made by her, but it didn't matter, the important thing was that Chen Xingyun liked it.

No matter what Chen Xingyun said, Su Yanjiu would say that she was right, as long as Chen Xingyun was happy.

Because today is a special day.

"Happy birthday, little apricot."

When Su Yanjiu held the gift in front of Chen Xingyun, Chen Xingyun looked surprised: "How do you know that today is my birthday?" ”

Su Yanjiu looked stinky: "How could I not know your birthday, take a look and like it?" ”

There was Chen Xingyun's favorite cherry cake, and he couldn't wait to pick out a piece and put it in his mouth, looking satisfied.

"It's really someone who knows me, stinky Jiuye."

Su Yanjiu looked at Chen Xingyun with puffed cheeks, like a little hamster, and suddenly felt a little cute.

I couldn't help but put my hand on her head.

Chen Xingyun was suddenly unhappy: "What are you doing, it won't grow tall if you touch your head." ”

"It's okay, if you can't get married, I'll support you."

"Who wants you to raise?" Chen Xingyun exploded, Chen Xingyun smiled helplessly, and continued to touch her head, "Then you can always raise me." Chen Xingyun pushed her hand away in disgust and snorted: "It's pretty much the same." ”

"Look, it's only noon, is there a place you want to go? Take you for the Father. ”

"Where do you want to go?" Chen Xingyun pondered, "I don't seem to have much to go to. ”

"I know you're going to say that, I've already inquired, there's a playground in City G, and I haven't been to it yet, how about it, do you want to go?"

"Go." Chen Xingyun thinks this is a good idea, to be honest, she hasn't been to an amusement park yet, she has only seen it on TV, and inexplicably feels that place is particularly romantic.

"But ......"

"What's wrong?"

"Can you find your way?"

Su Yanjiu is a big road idiot, no one believes him when he says it, he has lived in this city for many years, and almost every time he goes out, he has to get lost for at least half an hour to find his way.

Su Yanjiu patted his chest very confidently: "Don't worry, this time I have investigated the entire route in detail, and it is absolutely impossible to get lost." ”

“…… Should I trust you? ”

"Of course, you have to believe in the Father."

Chen Xingyun rolled his eyes, believe that you have a ghost.

"Let's go, let's go, if you delay for a while, there will be more people in the afternoon."

Although he was very skeptical about Su Yanjiu's knowledge, he couldn't live up to Su Yanjiu's preparations.

On the way, Su Yanjiu said to Chen Xingyun earnestly: "Oh, let me tell you, recognizing the road is actually very easy to recognize." ”

"I'm sure you're still lost."

"What's wrong with getting lost? Once born and twice cooked, won't you find the way after you get lost a few times, anyway, G City is so big, where can you get lost in the road? ”

"You've been here for a few years, don't you know how many circuits you've lost, and you're embarrassed to say that once you're born and twice cooked."

"Isn't it true that I don't usually go out much?"

Chen Xingyun was just about to speak, when she suddenly felt that the restaurant in front of her was a little familiar, and she was looking at Su Yanjiu, she looked at Chen Xingyun and blinked her eyes with a little weakness: "What do you see me doing, there is something on my face?" ”

"Are you lost?"

Su Yanjiu smiled dryly: "Hahahaha, how is it possible, I am well prepared to go out this time." ”

Chen Xingyun continued to follow her suspiciously.

An hour later

"Stinky Jiu, why hasn't it arrived yet?"

"Believe me, it's coming, I have this hunch."

Chen Xingyun followed Su Yanjiu for another half an hour, and the hot sun made Chen Xingyun's mouth dry.

Grabbing Su Yanjiu's clothes, he asked angrily: "Stinky Jiu, tell me the truth, are you lost?" ”

Su Yanjiu's eyes dodged: "Maybe, maybe, probably, estimated...... Well, there's a little bit of no direction. ”

Chen Xingyun sighed: "You stand here, I'll ask someone." ”

"Okay."

I just watched Chen Xingyun find a very reliable person on the street, said a few words, and walked over angrily.

"Dead stinky Jiu, you idiot."

"What's wrong?"

"Dare to ask me what's wrong, such a big amusement park, I said you can't find it, you have been taking me around the playground in circles."

"Is that so, hahahaha, I said how do I think there is a mouth that looks like the gate of an amusement park."

Chen Xingyun was so angry that she was about to scold, feeling that she had been spared by her side for so long, she had already seen the door.

"I really doubt that you didn't want to bring me here, and deliberately took me around in circles."

Su Yanjiu was a little weak-hearted, and swore that he would never get lost, but in the end he was still lost for such a long time, "How can it be, it's not early, let's hurry up." ”

Although Chen Xingyun was angry, he still kept up with Su Yanjiu.

In this way, the two of them looked around curiously like children who had never seen the world, and walked into the amusement park with the lively crowd.

They were very curious about everything, and because they had limited money, they picked a few that they wanted to play the most.

And agreed that when I grow up, I will come here to play together.

Eventually, the cool breeze picked up, and it was about half an hour before it was completely dark.

They sat on a bench, eating ice cream and resting.

"It doesn't matter if you don't come home at this time, I remember that your mother seems to be very strict with you."

"I don't want to go home." Su Yanjiu looked at the red sun that was about to set on the edge of the city, and his smile gradually became a little bitter, "I am used to it since I was a child, I belong to freedom, life is also, and death is also." ”

Chen Xingyun listened to it with little understanding, and always felt that these words didn't seem to come out of Su Yanjiu's mouth.

Su Yanjiu glanced at it and saw the doubts in her eyes, she understood that Chen Xingyun would not understand her, no matter when.

It's ridiculous to say, Chen Xingyun is looking forward to Su Yanjiu, but Su Yanjiu doesn't care, and is even a little annoyed.

Su Yanjiu looked forward to Chen Xingyun, but Chen Xingyun didn't like it, and even disgusted it.

"Xiao Jiu, what's wrong with you all of a sudden, I feel a little sentimental......"

Su Yanjiu smiled, with a hint of mockery in his eyes:

"You really don't know anything about me."

My heart is like a little bird that can fly freely in the air.

When you are tired, you rest.

When he is hungry, he eats.

When you are sleepy, you go to sleep.

Nothing can change me, not even God.

But I'm not a bird after all, from the moment my parents picked me up.

The wings in my heart are broken.

I couldn't fly anymore, and I was even shackled by something called "home" and restricted from movement by something called "family".

Every day, I can only watch the outside world through the iron fence like a prison.

I don't know if it's because I shouldn't have the kind of freedom I want to have, or if it's because I'm not a bird.

Or, something else......

I don't know, I don't know anything, I don't even know if I'm going to live now.

I just think I'm so tired, so tired, if I can sleep like this all the time...... Isn't it...... Not bad too?