Chapter 4: Drunken Vulnerability
Sure enough, the head teacher made countless phone calls to them, but the result was still the same, no one answered.
In desperation, the head teacher also went to visit the home, but still did not wait for them.
Such a situation, although Qin Jixue expected it, still hurt in her heart; Although it was all in vain, she still had a trace of expectation.
In the end, for some reason, the uncle who had never seen each other a few times since he was a child came over to attend this parent-teacher meeting, but from beginning to end, Qin Jixue didn't have a chance to say a word to him at all, and every time he wanted to ask, he avoided by answering the phone, obviously the phone didn't ring.
The so-called uncle came in a hurry, and left in a hurry before the parent-teacher meeting was over, without saying anything, but when he first came, he glanced at Qin Jixue and said copingly, "Your mother called me here." ”
The answer, hehe...... A chill flowed through her heart!
After the parent-teacher meeting, all parents will bring their children around the teacher, racing against time to ask about their school situation, and only Qin Jixue is alone, sitting alone in her seat, watching everything in the lecture hall, and finally it is really ...... I had to walk out of the classroom in a depressed mood.
Coincidentally, at this time, Xia Zhen'er and her parents were also surrounding the teacher to ask about the entrance examination, and the moment she turned her head, she happened to see Qin Jixue walking by, so she followed out and shouted at her: "Jixue!" ”
When Qin Jixue heard the shout, she quickly adjusted her mood, covered up the traces of sadness with a smile, turned her head, and responded softly: "Zhen'er." ”
Xia Zhen'er ran to Qin Jixue with a happy face, "What about uncle and aunt, have you gone back?" ”
Qin Jixue hesitated for a second, and then continued to answer with a smile: "Well, some of them went back beforehand. At this time, a young couple came to him, and Uncle Xia touched Xia Zhen'er's head dotingly, "Little naughty ghost, where are you running around?" ”
Aunt Xia on the side looked at Qin Jixue and asked with a kind and gentle smile: "Zhen'er, this is your good friend, Jixue!" ”
Xia Zhen'er nodded proudly and responded playfully: "Yes, her name is Qin Jixue, my good friend, how is it, beautiful!?" ”
Uncle Xia pinched Xia Zhen'er's face dotingly, Xia Zhen'er also winked at him and made a grimace, Aunt Xia watched their interaction, smiling happily;
Then he said to Qin Bingxue: "The little girl is really good-looking, Uncle Xia and I often listen to Zhen'er mention you at home, Haoxue, come to the house to play when you have time, and uncle and aunt will make you something to eat." ”
Uncle and Zhen'er also seconded the proposal: "Yes, I often come to the house to play when I have time." ”
"Yes, yes, Yaxue, you haven't been to my house yet, you have time to take you to my house to play, try the dishes made by my parents, it's delicious......"
In fact, to be honest, looking at the warmth of their family, my heart is even more sad; For Qin Jixue's experience just now, it is also ironic!
She always disguised herself, still smiling and saying to them, "Well, okay, I'll go when I have time and try my uncle's and aunt's craft." ”
Before Xia Zhen'er could answer, Qin Jixue preemptively said: "That, uncle and aunt, Zhen'er, the teacher has something to do with me, so I'll leave first." ”
"Hey, okay, let's go, let's get busy!" Uncle and aunt said in unison, and Xia Zhener also smiled and nodded.
Qin Jixue shook her hand goodbye to them and turned around and left quickly.
Her hurried steps and distant back made Xia Zhen'er have an indescribable feeling, this feeling must be bad, but she can't say it, maybe it's her own delusion!
I don't know how far she walked, Qin Jixue's hurried steps slowed down, at this moment, she only felt like she was tied with a very heavy piece of lead under her feet, it was very difficult to lift her feet, and her heart seemed to be filled with a lot of things, very heavy, very heavy, so that she couldn't kick her breath.
I don't know when the eyes were red, and the tears hidden in the corners of the eyes didn't seem to be able to bear such a heavy weight, falling down one by one......
Out of control, yes...... Crashed.
Qin Jixue couldn't control her emotions at all, she squatted down and hugged herself tightly, her head buried deep in the crook of her arm, and she had an impulsive fantasy - if only there was a hole, hide in it, and never come out again!
Qin Jixue cried silently and presumptuously......
People come and go, such a big world, it seems that Qin Jixue is more like a lonely individual, and she has never felt warmth and light in her world.
When? Where is her light, her faith? Will it appear?
Perhaps, in the eyes of onlookers, this is a very ironic story!
So what, no matter how uncomfortable you are, if you stay in the dark for a long time, you will more or less wrap yourself in a thick protective layer, and others can't get in, and you can't get out.
After crying, her mood was a little better, although she couldn't solve the problem for the time being, but the temporary tranquility was enough for Qin Jixue to recover her vitality and move towards that ideal state of life!
She knows that the only thing she cares about is the college entrance examination at the moment, and she can play steadily and win the full scholarship of Ruishi Business School, and after that, everything can be in her own hands.
She can't fall, she can't break!
Finally, after preparing for so long, they ushered in the college entrance examination, two days of taking the exam, not fast or slow, but also in tension and seriousness, time passed quietly.
Ding, ding, ding...... A string of text messages woke Qin Jixue up from her dream, she struggled to get up, and looked at the alarm clock in a daze, ten o'clock!
Yes!
Today is the end of the college entrance examination, the end of high school career, and the first day of complete liberation!
Qin Jixue shook her sleepy head, rubbed her eyes, picked up her mobile phone and looked at the message sent:
Akiyuki, did you wake up?
Tomorrow night is the graduation party, let's go to the mall to pick up a nice dress, and go to the party beautifully.
Is it good, is it good, is it good...... (a mischievous expression)
Qin Jixue tapped the letters on it and replied:
Okay, see you at one o'clock in the afternoon.
Qin Bingxue lay on the bed for a while before getting up to wash, and when she came to the wardrobe, in addition to the school uniform, it was still a school uniform, and it took a long time to find a blue and white checkered doll collar skirt in the corner and bottom, which was a gift he bought for herself when she was admitted to the key class in the first year of high school.
Qin Jixue still clearly remembers that at that time, he said a sentence: "My daughter is the best!" ”
This scene seems to have been just yesterday......
Since then, Qin Jixue still stupidly thought that as long as she won the first place in the exam and the first place in everything, she would be able to get their love, but no, no matter how hard she worked and how good she was over the years!
In the eyes of others, she is such an excellent child, and she is very envious; But in their eyes, it is like dispensable, not even as good as air.
Qin Jixue sighed deeply, comforting herself, don't think about it.
She picked up the skirt and put it on, she didn't expect it to fit after so long, just right; Tie your long hair into a high ponytail and let it hang down as it pleases.
Looking at himself in the mirror who no longer wears a school uniform, it is a little strange.
There is less childishness of the students, and there is a little freshness in the refinement, which feels like a glass of lime sparkling water in summer.
As soon as Qin Jixue came to Xintiandi Square, her mobile phone rang, it was Xia Zhen'er.
"Akiyuki, have you arrived?"
"Well, I'm here, where are you? I'm looking for you? ”
"No, I'm right behind you."
Before Qin Jixue could react, Xia Zhen'er patted her lightly behind her back, and then jumped in front of her, Qin Jixue was a little surprised, but what made her more curious was, "Zhen'er, how did you recognize me?" Xia Zhen'er shook the small puppet pendant on her backpack and said proudly: "It, the puppet pendant on your backpack!" ”
Qin Jixue looked at the small pendant of the doll, which had a different meaning to her.
In the previous part-time job of wearing a doll costume, it was also in Xintiandi Plaza;
At that time, there was an idol tour in the square, and she was working part-time as a welcome doll around here, wearing a bulky bear suit, her vision and movement were blocked, and suddenly many people rushed to her, and she was knocked down before she had time to dodge;
After a burst of stampede, she struggled to try to get up by herself, but she couldn't stand up, it was too bulky, and the place on her body was also faintly painful, so she gave up the struggle and planned to rest and try to stand up again.
When Qin Jixue was recovering and trying to stand up, a person stretched out his hand to her, she looked out through the bear's eyes, the visual range was limited, and she couldn't see clearly, and the person's face was mostly blocked by masks and caps.
She stood up with the strength of the other party, and was about to thank him, but faintly heard someone next to her: "Leng Shao, it's almost time, we should go." ”
Are you saying it to him? Really.
The man nodded, turned and left.
"Wait...... Wait a minute! Qin Jixue hurriedly took off the bear's head and shouted to him.
They stopped, but he didn't look back;
Qin Jixue didn't care about it so much, she just ...... I wanted to say what I had to say, "Just now, thank you." ”
He still didn't speak, he didn't look back, but he stretched out his hand to the man next to him; Immediately after, there was a little doll in his hand, and only then did he turn and walk towards her, and stopped in front of her;
Because of the height difference, Qin Jixue raised her head and looked at the only eyes on his face, which were very cold and sharp, and just looking at each other for a few seconds made her shiver involuntarily.
When Qin Jixue was about to withdraw his gaze, he suddenly grabbed her wrist, she instinctively trembled, although it was still quite thick through the bear suit, but the temperature in his palm was cold enough to pass through the bear suit and reach her skin.
Qin Jixue wondered in her heart: Oh my God, there are actually colder people in this world than her!
While she was stunned, she had this little doll in her hand, and he had already let go of her and turned away.
Qin Jixue looked at the puppet in her hand, a little familiar, as if she had seen it somewhere?
Yes, posters, posters on stage.
He!? It turns out that he is the idol of today's tour meeting, Qi Leng! Sure enough, the person is as cold as his name, but just now his behavior ...... His heart is not as cold as it looks!
"Akiyuki...... What are you thinking? So fascinating? Xia Zhen'er shook Qin Jixue;
Qin Jixue came back to her senses, looked at the puppet pendant again, the corners of her mouth secretly rose, and said with a smile: "Zhen'er, do you know who it is?" ”
Asked by her, Xia Zhen'er took a closer look, and asked with a surprised face: "This, isn't this the most popular idol Qi Leng at the moment?" Is it? Is it? Bingxue, is this Qi cold, cold less? ”
Although Xia Zhener doesn't chase stars, the news in the entertainment industry will still gossip, after all, they are all young girls!
"Want to know? If I don't tell you, I won't tell you. Qin Jixue looked at Xia Zhen'er's face full of surprise, and suddenly wanted to be playful; The next second, she ran away.
Xia Zhen'er hurriedly caught up, "Okay, Yixue, don't let me catch you, Yixue, stop, don't run." ”
You chased after me, until they stopped panting in front of a shop window, and they were stunned. A shiny black and silver slanted shoulder half-sleeved gauze skirt, simple and pure, elegant and generous; A one-shoulder gauze skirt of the same color, sexy and atmospheric, no fireworks.
It's so good-looking!
Xia Zhen'er pulled Qin Jixue into the store and said to the waiter, "Hello, can you show us those two skirts?" ”
"Okay, wait a minute." The waiter responded politely.
Xia Zhen'er took the one-shoulder style and tried it in front of the mirror, and said, "Yixue, let's try it, it looks quite suitable for us." ”
At the same time, Qin Jixue also tried to compare the style with slanted shoulders on her body, and nodded, "Well, let's go." ”
Xia Zhener was the first to come out, standing in front of the mirror with a stinky beauty, the fitted skirt perfectly set off her delicate figure, and the scattered black long straight added points to her sexiness.
After a while, Qin Jixue also came out of the fitting room, her skin was already very white, the shiny black and silver lined her skin even whiter, and the high ponytail that was tied up showed her temperament even more, like a fairy in the mist, she could see but couldn't touch it.
Both of them were fascinated by the self in the mirror, you look at me, I look at you, admiring each other.
"Hey, wait, Akiyuki, there's a pattern on your left shoulder, is this a birthmark?" Xia Zhen'er saw the pattern on Qin Jixue's left shoulder, so she asked curiously.
Pattern? Qin Jixue was also very puzzled, turned around, looked at her left shoulder from the mirror, and could vaguely see that the complexion of a place was obviously much whiter than the surrounding complexion, and the pattern was like a half-blooming flower.
This is the first time I've seen it, and she doesn't know where it came from, so she shook her head, "I don't know, I just knew!" ”
But what's amazing is that when I see it, I seem to be inexplicably relieved, maybe, this can tell who I am, right?!
Seeing Qin Jixue's worried look again, Xia Zhen'er jokingly eased the atmosphere, leaned close to her ear, and whispered: "You say, will you be the leader of a gang!" If it's true, when the time comes, walk the rivers and lakes to eat and drink spicy, don't forget to cover me! ”
Xia Zhen'er lightly bumped Qin Jixue with her arm, and showed a sly expression.
Qin Jixue laughed "fluttering", and popped chestnuts on Xia Zhen'er's forehead, "Wake up, what do you want?!" Daydreaming so early. ”
She touched her forehead and grimaced at Qin Jixue, and then continued to stink herself in the mirror, fiddling with her skirt unsatisfactorily.
"Bingxue, I think the skirt suits us well, or else, it's them, what do you think?"
"Well, that's them!" Qin Jixue walked beside her, put one hand on her shoulder, nodded towards the mirror and said.
"Okay, let's replace it!" As soon as she finished speaking, Xia Zhen'er pushed Qin Jixue into the changing room.
When Qin Jixue changed her skirt and came out, Xia Zhen'er had already changed it, and stood in front of the door of the changing room with two bags and waited;
"Let's go, let's go pick a pair of shoes." Xia Zhen'er pulled Qin Jixue and walked towards the gate, but Qin Jixue stopped and said seriously: "No, Zhen'er, let's AA, the price of the skirt is not cheap......
Without waiting for Qin Jixue to finish speaking, Xia Zhen'er dragged her out of the store and said, "Oh, don't be so polite between us, what about the skirt, it's my graduation gift for you, okay?" ”
Seeing that Qin Jixue didn't speak, Xia Zhen'er smiled helplessly and said, "In that case, you give me a pair of shoes, so that it will be smoothed out, is it okay?" ”
Qin Jixue was still thinking about it, "Oh, don't think about it, it's just decided, let's go and pick a pair of shoes that definitely match the skirt." ”
After walking around, the shoes did not fit properly, and the two of them were already exhausted and sat on chairs in the corridor to rest.
Qin Jixue went to a nearby coffee shop to buy two cups of caramel macchiato, and when she went back, because of an inadvertent lookback, she saw two pairs of high heels in front of the window, the color was dark and matte black gray, and the height was about 7cm, which was just right for them; The style is very special, like a sister custom.
One pair is a pair of pearl buttons, which is very suitable for Xia Zhener's dress; The other pair is straight to the ankle and is suitable for matching her dress.
After some care, Qin Jixue walked into the store and packed two pairs of shoes, although she spent the money she saved from working part-time in the first semester of her junior year of high school, but it was worth it!
"Wow, it's so beautiful, why didn't we see it just now?" Xia Zhener picked up the shoes and couldn't wait to try them on, looking left and right beautifully.
"Beautiful! A graduation gift for you! ”
Xia Zhen'er is angry and funny, she still remembers the skirt, or she knows her character best, "Then I'm welcome, thank you." ”
"Thank you too."
It was almost six o'clock before the two of them went home satisfied.
Bite...... Qin Jixue's mobile phone came with a string of messages;
My goddess of the snow, are you ready?
The little one is waiting at your doorstep
(snickering emoji)
Well, I'll go down now.
When Qin Jixue was about to put her mobile phone into her backpack, she looked at her dress, as if this backpack didn't match her skirt well, but apart from it, she didn't have a second bag.
She thought about it, and dismantled the little doll and strung it on a key and hung it on her phone, which was just the right size.
In the distance, Xia Zhen'er saw Qin Jixue coming down, so she came out of the back seat, walked up to her, stretched out her hand like a gentleman, and deliberately lowered her voice and said, "My goddess Jixue, let's go." ”
With such a good atmosphere, Qin Jixue also cooperated with this scene, like the TV series, put her hand on her hand elegantly, and responded sweetly with a disguised voice: "This handsome gentleman, let's go." The next second, the two looked at each other and laughed, Xia Zhen'er said while laughing: "Okay, Yixue, the play is good." I see that you have been infected by me, and you will actually cooperate with me in acting, haha......"
Qin Jixue looked at her, smiled a little shyly, and saw that she was knocking on her forehead, Xia Zhen'er immediately got serious, and hurriedly said, "Okay, okay, don't make trouble, let's get in the car, it's almost too late!" ”
The moment the door of the KTV private room was opened, the friends who were playing inside immediately quieted down, and they all looked at Xia Zhener and Qin Jixue who walked in without blinking.
A sexy and tender goddess fan, a cold and elegant fairy fan.
Sure enough, everyone is a beauty killer hidden under the school uniform.
The most conspicuous thing in the crowd is the squad leader of the two squads, wearing a shirt and black pants is the squad leader of the first squad, Tang Weisi; The other wearing white T shorts was the second shift leader, Qiao Yuning.
It is worthy of being recognized as a class grass in the key science class, and under such a casual dress, the appearance soars without limits.
The classmates in the two classes were also relatively familiar, and soon, the two blended into the excitement, of course, it was Xia Zhen'er who was bringing rhythm to Qin Jixue.
She took Qin Jixue's hand to the table and picked up two bottles of beer, picked up one bottle and handed it to her, and picked up one bottle herself, "Why are you stunned, drink!" After saying to Qin Jixue, Fan Erte said boldly: "Come, let's all clink glasses together, happy graduation!" ”
Happy Graduation!
Among these people, some of them have been struggling with their classmates for a year, and some have been struggling with their classmates for three years, and their affection for a long or short time is completely released at this moment.
Singing songs, playing games, small talking......
Here, Xia Zhen'er and Qin Jixue joined the truth or dare game initiated by the two squad leaders.
"Come, turn the bottle up......"
"Qin Bingxue, Qin Bingxue, Qin Bingxue......" is very unfortunate, the beginning of the game is Qin Bingxue.
"Blaze Xue, do you choose truth or dare?" Not only Qiao Yuning asked expectantly, but the onlookers were also looking forward to it.
"Tell the truth!"
"Okay, I ask, is there anyone you like here?" Qiao Yuning's question caused everyone to shout wildly.
"Nope!"
At this moment, the only person who can answer so directly without blushing and heartbeat is Qin Jixue herself. There is no need to doubt that Qin Jixue has been studying for the past three years, and she has never thought about it at all.
But someone heard the answer and was a little lost.
"Well, I thought we cold beauties had some gossip! That...... Let's start the next round! The atmosphere was a little awkward, and Qiao Yuning started the next round of the game.
The wine bottle turned round and round, and the next second the mouth of the bottle was facing Tang Weisi.
"Squad leader, squad leader, squad leader......" everyone shouted again.
Qiao Yuning: "Ace, truth or dare?" ”
Tang Weisi glanced at Qin Jixue, who was drinking, "Big adventure!" ”
"......Oooo
Qiao Yuning picked up a cardboard of great adventure on the table, washed it and handed it to Tang Weisi, who pulled out one with a slight tremor in his fingertips.
Hug the third person on your left for a minute!
One, two, three, Qin Jixue, everyone's gossip hearts have been burning, "hug, hug, hug ......"
Qin Jixue looked at Xia Zhen'er with some panic, Xia Zhen'er gave her an encouraging look, and gently pushed her towards Tang Weisi.
"Is that okay? If...... I can also punish drinking! Tang Weisi asked her opinion very gentlemanly.
Well, you don't have to take it too seriously. Qin Jixue didn't say no, maybe she was a little drunk at the moment!
Countdown one minute, let's go!
Tang Weisi gently hugged Qin Jixue, she felt the hot gaze of their onlookers, and her body couldn't help but tremble.
"It's okay, if you're afraid, just close your eyes."
Qin Jixue did so, closed her eyes, and prayed in her heart that time would pass quickly, but Tang Weisi hoped that time could pass slowly, and it was best to stop at this moment, because, for the past three years, he had been hiding a girl, her name was Qin Jixue.
He didn't dare to confess to her, afraid that once the paper was broken, even his classmates wouldn't be able to do it.
Therefore, he kept this intention in his heart until just now, after she answered that there was no one he liked, he decided that he must tell her tonight!
"Pyrosnow." Tang Weisi whispered in her ear, the volume was only enough for two people to hear, "I like you, can you be my girlfriend?" ”
Qin Jixue opened her eyes in surprise, and the thoughts in her head were chaotic, but fortunately, her sanity was only temporarily lost.
She understands her current situation, she is not qualified to accept a relationship, she doesn't even know who she is, and she is afraid that one day she will be forced to accept abandonment again!
So, she seemed ruthless to refuse, "I'm sorry! ”
Tang Weisi's heart was suddenly cold to zero, but the hands holding her were tighter than just now.
"It's time!"
Qiao Yuning's words were just right, Qin Jixue broke away from Tang Weisi's arms and sat back next to Xia Zhen'er to drink, Xia Zhen'er thought that she was borrowing wine to block her shame, so she didn't stop it.
Tang Weisi's emotions were well controlled, and he continued to participate in the rest of the game as if nothing had happened.
But at some point, he quietly sat on the sofa in the far corner and drank alcohol.
Halfway through, Qin Jixue also quit the game on the pretext of going to the bathroom, hiding on the balcony by herself, looking into the distance with a blurred vision, tonight, she drank a little too much.
No matter how dark the sky is, there will always be a few stars to light it up.
But in her world, where is the light that gives her hope!? What about faith, what about faith that keeps her alive? Why haven't you come yet!?
Troubled by her thoughts, she casually picked up the beer on the table, one or two...... I don't know how many bottles, and the drunkenness is getting stronger and stronger!
Xia Zhen'er found that something was wrong with her, so she came to her side, saw the wine bottles all over the ground, and just wanted to take them, but the next second she was blocked by her hand, and said as if she was not drunk: "I still want to drink, don't stop me, I'm rare to be happy tonight, rare to be presumptuous, just let me get drunk!" When you're drunk, you don't have to think about anything. How nice, don't think about anything. ”
This Moyang, Xia Zhen'er was a little distressed, and comforted: "Yixue, you can't drink anymore, you're drunk." ”
"No, I'm not drunk, Zhen'er, let me drink tonight, I want to be drunk, I want to be drunk......"
Qin Jixue slowly leaned her head on Xia Zhen'er's shoulder, and the grievance that she had endured for too long collapsed, and she sobbed: "Zhen'er, do you know? I envy you so much, I really envy you, you have parents who love you very much, you have a very happy and warm home! I want to have it too, but why is the world so unfair, why am I not there, why? ”
Xia Zhen'er wiped away the tears on her face even more distressed, and after listening to Qin Jixue's words, she understood the things that had been buried in her heart, "Jixue, you are drunk, don't talk nonsense, you will be happy, you will definitely be!" ”
I don't know if Qin Jixue heard it, and said while sobbing, "Do you know? Zhen'er, I'm actually an orphan, I'm adopted, but I'm not happy at all in this family, really...... I'm really not happy at all. ”
Slowly the voice became quieter and smaller, she closed her eyes, tired, her heart ached, and tears flowed non-stop......
Now, Xia Zhen'er finally understood what it meant to see her back when she left in the corridor at the parent-teacher conference!
She doesn't like to talk, she doesn't like to socialize, she always gives people a cold feeling, and she carries everything by herself...... Like a hedgehog, if you hurt others, you can't heal yourself!
It turns out that this is how it turned out......
Xia Zhen'er wiped away her tears and sighed, except for feeling distressed, she didn't know what she could do for her, but one thing was certain: she would always be by her side!
She looked at Qin Jixue, who was falling asleep on her shoulder, and her eyes were full of incomparably firm determination!