Sorry, but I'm sharing something with you.

Take the note.

'Loved a teenager for 1574 days'

Laugh.

"Am I going to read it? Super embarrassing I think this"

Laugh.

'I loved a teenager for 1,574 days, of which 24 days were troublesome, and 825 days of waiting, and now there is no hope of waiting. ’

Take the note and laugh.

"Okay"

"Then divide it"

I put on my mask and I couldn't take it off again, and that's what I stumbled in junior high school. ’

Laugh.

"Wow, people are so precocious now."

Laughs, "I've written something similar before"

Shaking his head and laughing, "I'm too young, I haven't experienced life at first glance"

'I didn't eat dinner and worked overtime until I came home at one o'clock, and I was dizzy, so I hope that someone can see through my heart now, understand my feelings, and accompany me without abandoning'

Expressionless, "He's been single for too long"

"Single"

"Dogs"

Laugh.

"Written by a single dog"

I often cried for hours until my hands and feet were numb, and sometimes I felt like I didn't want to go to class, I didn't want to see my roommates, I was afraid of school, I wanted to take a break. ’

Put down the note and laugh, "I don't want to work either"

"It's just that the emotions come and go quickly, and I think it's a manifestation of adolescence."

'When you see this Weibo, I'm gone, I've survived'

He lowered his head and approached the note, his expression a little surprised, "Huh? ”

I've survived 1,584 days, and it's finally over in the early hours of this morning, thank you, I can't go on. ’

@旅行的孤独风 died by suicide on December 12, 2018, at the age of 23.

Didn't speak.

These words

It's their distress signal

"So every single one is depression"

There was a pause

"Are these words written?"

"I really can't see it

He is depressed

Looks like a normal person

Say I'm in a bad mood

I don't feel OK right now."

When the signal has been ignored

They will give up calling for help

Biting my lip, I thought time would make me better, but even after a few years, I still can't get rid of this thought. I'm sorry, I don't want anyone to forgive me. Good bye. ’

@yan482 committed suicide on December 12, 2018, at the age of 21.

'I don't need it at all, and I can't think of anything else I can do except the disappearance of environmental protection. ’

@Heytwo Erhei committed suicide on December 9, 2018, at the age of 31.

Bow your head and be speechless.

Please understand my struggles and helplessness, forgive my selfishness and cowardice, and goodbye. ’

@sienna Sena died by suicide on February 16, 2013.

I knew I would do it because I couldn't bear it and face the future with the pain and the excruciating pain. ’

Writer Zhang Chunru committed suicide on November 9, 2004, at the age of 36.

'I haven't done anything bad in my life, why?' ’

Actor Leslie Cheung committed suicide on April 1, 2003, at the age of 46.

Flip it with the note.

"I just hope that there will be more channels to tell you how we should look at this matter, how to make him better, or what we can do for the people around us, not to make them very different, in fact, this thing is very common."

"I think it's better to be yourself first, and don't criticize others at will"

"Don't comment, you can't be positive, you can't be so negative every day, because I think the last thing anyone who is in a negative state wants to hear is that you give me a positive one."

"If I find out that I have depression, I hope I can."

Purse your lips.

"Let those who love him know"

#原每个人都能被温柔以待#

My message to all of you:

Many people talk about kindness, but in fact, they are constantly hurting.

Maybe you just don't think it's a big deal.

Others will also say, don't be serious, he's straight, that's it.

Oops, don't be like this, they're all classmates, they're all whatever.

Watching you laugh at the "fake smile girl"

What are you doing?

"What a scheming"

"Obviously you sleep all day, you don't study, and your grades are better than mine, you must be secretly studying"

“......”

What is gentle is just a tool to hang on to words and make others think that you are gentle and kind.

In front of "Oh, you're okay, come on, come on, I'll help you"

"Isn't that what she is, pretentious, scheming, seducing people......"

Parents "Why are your grades so poor, we work hard to earn money to support you......"

Teacher, "You should work harder......"

Classmate, as long as you are better than her, it is your original sin.

Actually

I never thought about what to fight for, I just hoped that I wouldn't be like that, not so cynical, not like that, and not saying something behind my back.

It's easy to be nice to others, because you're very wary, but you want to be sincere.

But after paying again and again, in exchange for only sticking a knife in the back, he finally became a hedgehog.

Actually, I don't want anything

It's just that

I want to be able to live with peace of mind

nothing more

I don't discuss others, I don't provoke others, I just want to live quietly in my own world

But

How can it be

People are always very wary

If you don't communicate with people, you just don't fit in and don't like them

If you blend in with the crowd, you will also be ostracized because you have 'robbed' other people's 'predetermined' friends

Eat, if you don't wait for someone, you will be scolded

In class, if you don't wait for someone, you will be scolded

Go back to the dormitory, if you don't wait for someone, you will be scolded

But

When they scolded you, did they ever think that they never waited for you, thought about you......

"Where have you been?"

“...... Classroom homework/library/piano room/supermarket/cafeteria. ”

"You don't even call me."

When I want to teach them my specialty

"Don't be pretending here"

"You're the best, okay"

"I don't learn"

"Annoying"

"I didn't let you teach me"

They forgot who they were in the first place

maybe

Maybe you've never hit someone

Maybe you didn't do anything to harm others

But your words and deeds are cutting off others

What is my own insistence for?

Because of the disappointment of the parents

Because of the teacher's disgusted eyes

Because classmates are always suspicious

What to do?

Own laughter

Crying on their own

Own suggestions

Own apologies

own considerations

It's all contrived

It's all nothingness

Hold on

I hope to leave one day when I reach my goal

Don't live up to your departure

Tormented

Because of other people's words and deeds

Because of other people's white eyes

That's right

affectation

It's just contrived

No one else has anything to do

It's just you

Just your sentimentality

Gentle? That's right

Others are always gentle

Come on, I'll help you

It's not easy for you either

Cut, don't want to do anything, can't do anything

They're all classmates

What the

It's all about apologizing first

It's all about examining yourself first

Sorry, thanks

No matter which one you say, you can't avoid rolling your eyes

Affectation!

But others don't know

I don't know if this is a heartfelt hope to be forgiven, hoping that if I admit my mistakes, others will not say or do anything to me

......

Now let's talk about my novels

I haven't changed it because I've conceived all the plots, and because I've finished thinking about it, I don't have the feeling that I want to write it.

Then, I believe that after reading so many chapters, and after reading this one, you can probably imagine the plot behind.

In the end, some things can't be changed, even if there is a chance to do it all over again, it's just a little bit of a change......

Good for some, but forever for some......

I'll also change the text slowly, because I've been studying and studying lately, and I've been sitting for a long time, and my bones are a little strange.

If you can wait, please wait for me

If you can't wait, I won't stay

Thank you for your support