The impulse and ignorance of the moment caused me to step into the quagmire and fall into the abyss, and my once peaceful and prosperous life became indebted.

Since the beginning of the nightmare journey, the relatives around me have been abused, my brother's difficulties, Zhang Lin's bad temper has repeatedly become the reason for me to borrow money, and now I feel guilty every time I think about it.

During this period of solving the problem, I truly realized the cruelty and helplessness of society. Before the Spring Festival in 2020, my brother took me to the provincial capital to report the online loan, but the result disappointed me.

After we were pushed around and finally found the right place, before I could finish my business, the officer on duty interrupted me and told me that there was no way for them.

What's even more ridiculous is that when I reported to me that Yixin called and threatened my children, they actually said: "If you borrow money and don't pay it back, isn't it normal for them to look for your family." "I was really speechless when I heard what they said, and I even doubted that I was going to the police station.

。。。。。 At that time, if I hadn't thought of the professionalism of law enforcers, I would have secretly recorded these words to ask for an explanation.

During that time, I may have had a problem with my brain, the disappointment of the trip to the provincial city, and I even had other fantasies.

Later, I sorted out the materials of the three loan sharks and took the initiative to report the case to the police station, which delayed me too much, but I still only got ridicule.

Because they happened to be investigating Zhang Lei's case, they accepted it, and the other two have not been asked so far.

Originally, I still wanted to continue to handle the case, but after the epidemic stabilized, I gave up after knowing the outcome of Zhang Lei's case.

I don't know if it's legal or not? Since Zhang Lei is guilty, but I can't get a penny? I really don't understand what that means to the victims.

In mid-June, the case finally got news, and it turned out that my family and I couldn't be happy, my millions of losses were characterized as 40,000, and the illegal website is still running, I think there are too many people who have been deceived at this moment like I used to.

But they told me that they couldn't check my questions, and that they could only have clues in the future. I really don't understand if the flow they went to the Alipay background to verify is fake?

Or is it all fiction as reported in the media? It's true: the case is fictitious, and if there is any similarity, it is purely a coincidence! All the good wishes of the past have been shattered one by one in these months.

As everything was brought under control by the pandemic, it was overwhelming. Although the constant ringing of mobile phone rings and messages can no longer make me mess up, they are still annoying, and there seems to be no other way than to endure it.

During the day, I kept looking for things to do, avoiding thinking about them, and at night I could only endure endless torture, day after day, every second of the year.

I feel like a two-faced person with a split personality, laughing and crying in front of people. Countless times I have asked myself where to go?

There have been countless times without answers, and this mother-in-law and mother-in-law personality may be the fundamental problem for me to embark on the road of no return, and it is extremely difficult for me to do simple things in others.

Hoping to please everyone, it turns out to be all disappointed and spurned. Months have passed, and I have never known what to do with my own affairs.

Go? I'm really anxious, so I might as well give up! No matter how hard it is, it's happier than now.

Since I was wrong before, I should always have an attitude, what is it now? Waiting to die? Or wait for a miracle?

There should be an answer to the question of where to go.