My husband, Guan Beili, is the feared commander of Jinguancheng.

He didn't like children very much.

Less than two years after I got married, I had two abortions.

In the second year of the Republic of China, I had it again.

When the rain hits the plantain, the bead curtain is rolled up and the cool breeze is blowing.

Guan Beili stepped on the silver spur boots and walked in with long legs. The blue-gray military uniform made his tall body even more majestic and upright.

I took his gloves and brimmed hat with a smile, and saw that his plump and handsome face was stained with haze, and his eyes pierced me sharply, "Wen Meng, are you pregnant?" ”

"Nope." I flatly deny it.

I know very well that it is difficult to deceive a clumsy lie. But the previous two babies hurt my vitality, and the doctor said that if I fell again, I was afraid that I would fall into the root of the disease, and I would have no heirs for life. I was lucky enough to hope that I could hide it for a while, and maybe the matter of having a child would turn around with him.

"Two months pregnant." He raised his chin slightly, his eyes skimmed to my abdomen, and his voice was cold: "Planning to give birth secretly?" ”

Guan Beili pierced my mind with a sharp shot.

I was at a loss for words, and I didn't even realize the tea that I had poured into his bowl from the pot.

"The rules can't be broken." He grabbed my hand and pressed it into my lower abdomen, and the lack of force in the touch made me feel terrified.

"This species, don't stay!"

An incomprehensible order, without the slightest conjugal affection.

"If you don't want me to give birth, why don't you let me drink the soup for a while?" I barely squeezed out a smile at him with a blood-colored face, "In the past two years, I have suffered the pain of losing my son again and again. Ah Li, how ruthless are you to strangle your own blood again and again? ”

"Bearing the honor of your sister and Mrs. Commander, you still have to put on a disgusting look of pain." Guan Beili tasted the tea with an indifferent expression, and said bluntly: "The money-losing thing that was sent to the door on the initiative is not worthy of giving birth to me at all." ”

His words broke my heart and broke my tears.

Guan Beili was gentle to my sister and fell in love at first sight.

My sister ran away from marriage for no reason, and I got into a sedan chair with him and entered the cave room without interest. In just one night, I became the envy of the commander's wife in the entire Jinguan City. At the same time, it has also become the enemy of Guanbei's hatred.

I will never forget the loss of being pregnant for the first time. I congratulated him on becoming a father, but in exchange for an abortion pill. The second time, despite my pleading, I still couldn't save the child.

The third time, he dragged me to a foreign hospital for surgery.

The blood-red cross logo on the pale and cold building fell into my eyes, and I had a kind of fear that my soul would not possess my body, and that fear turned into a poisonous snake in my heart, and jumped all the way to my stomach and bit me hard, and the pain made my whole body tremble.

As if hearing the baby's cry, for a moment I raised my hand without hesitation and pulled out the hairpin against my neck, staring at Guan Beili resolutely. "It is better to live than to lose a child. It is better for me to go down and accompany him. ”

My hand holding the hairpin trembled, and before I could puncture the throat, Guan Beili's face suddenly turned cold, and the hairpin was broken with my hand. As soon as he spoke, he said in a cold voice that suppressed his anger: "Don't want to threaten me with one corpse and two lives." You want to make a fool of yourself in the hospital, and I'm not interested in accompanying you. ”

"If you lose your temper today, I have the right to treat you as a coquettish to me, and I am not to blame for the past." He leaned my body against the wall, his rough fingers wiping my tears, "If you've had enough, I'll go for surgery." ”