In the past few days, I have been constantly irritable, confused, and feel that my original ideas have become empty talk. If it goes on like this, will I be decadent, youth is short, is my youth going to waste like this, and at the same time I feel that I am very helpless, and I often torment myself with a feeling of powerlessness.

Gradually, I found that I was a person who had no longevity, and I thought that I could do it well when I saw anything, and when I tried it myself, I was stillborn!

Sometimes I really admire my optimistic personality, try everything, think about everything, but I can't do anything, I can't do it well, maybe I am a complete giant of words, a dwarf of action.

It's very helpless, and I once told myself that it's good to focus on one thing, but in the end, after five years of mediocrity, how much has my ability improved?

I have made a summary of myself before, basically nothing has changed, I don't know if this is a good thing or a bad thing, there are a lot of things I actually knew early on, see before work, I have this awareness in my heart, society is not everywhere is sunny, there are always shadows, there are always damp places that do not see the sun all year round.

Compared with when I graduated, I still love fantasies, I can do this, I can do that, but I tried a lot, and in the end I found that I didn't have anything at all.

My life seems to be starting from the same place, carrying a bag, full of confidence, I think that after working hard for a long time, I found that I have returned to the starting point, the early efforts seem to be unrealistic, or the results of my own efforts in the market may be the ugliest, the most unnutritious, not to mention being bought, it is estimated that I am ashamed to give it away.

Needless to say, I was disappointed, and within a few days, Lotte didn't need the comfort of others at all, so I recovered, and then I continued to look for the next goal with confidence and continue to struggle.

That's how Lotte has come over in the past few years, not to mention his career plan, what stage he is in, just from his own point of view, it seems that his first task should be to find his true interest and hobby

I don't know what I like, what I am suitable for, planning my career, designing my future, it seems to be empty talk.

I think I should really calm down, think about where my real fun is, when the excitement will explode.