"It didn't happen for some reason? What caused it not to happen, what I controlled or what was stopped by the ghost? ”

Seeing that I had nothing to do, Sister Li sighed and said to me: "You just saw me kill him with a gun, this picture is not wrong, in my heart I am struggling with this."

If I hadn't taken utilitarianism so seriously, I would have tried to kill you by all means.

It's so important that I'd love to keep it for myself, and if I can bring it back to the guild in my name, I'll get a super big reward.

A super big credit is created by me, and I may even become a candidate for the next president of the association, do you think it's normal for me to be tempted by such a big benefit?

But I don't know what's wrong, I can't do anything to you both.

I don't have parents, I don't know what to compare with you, but what Dad wants to see the most is that there are candidates for the next president of the association.

This is also what I have been striving for, if there is an opportunity in front of you that can fulfill your dream of dreams, will you let it go?

The picture that the Spirit Snake showed you just now is the picture of my inner containment, and it should be trying to provoke me by showing you this, so as to escape. ”

I swallowed, and I didn't want to believe what she said, but I couldn't believe it.

Everything I saw just now was so real, and the feeling of continuous blood splattering on my body was so real, if I had to choose it once, I would choose to die and not want to experience that feeling a second time.

That feeling, even once, can make your heart freeze into ice slag.

I said to Sister Li: "What is the secret in the head of this spirit snake, can you all be so crazy, can you say that you can live forever if you get this thing?"

Or can you eat and drink without worrying in this life, or you can get what you want.

Sister Li, do you know, in my heart, I don't just think of you as a sister, me! You are not the kind of relationship you imagined in my heart, I really didn't expect that one day you would actually kill me subconsciously. ”

After saying these words, the images that belonged to the two of us flashed back in my mind, and the scenes were still those familiar scenes from dreams.

She took good care of me, and I didn't simply regard her as a sister anymore, but I regarded her as a mother due to the age gap.

But today, all this made her a subconscious picture, and personally killed the last beautiful hope in my heart.

At this moment, I really understand that who can thoroughly perceive what is in the hearts of others, from beginning to end, I am alone here to be amorous.

If I could, I'd rather go alone and go alone, maybe I was deceived by them like this.

Ayu said to me: "You don't blame Sister Li for Yicheng, in fact, you can't blame her, these things involved are not as simple as you imagined." 113

You don't know how much other people have paid for this thing, and you don't know how much blood and tears she has shed for this thing?

Just like you didn't know me before, do you know how much sweat I shed to stand in your position? Do you know that I shed blood and tears? How much pain have I endured, how much anger have I suffered?

Do you know any of these? You don't know that the result of my life's struggle is just a starting point for your birth.

All roads lead to Rome, but I need to go to Rome step by step, and you were born in the Rome I wanted. ”

Ayu's words were very flat, I seemed to understand why he used to target me so much, I felt a little broken, "It turns out that Rome can still explain it like this, it turns out that I have always been, and my thinking is too one-sided."

I always impose my thinking on others, otherwise how can I be entangled in a thing that kills me in other people's subconscious, it is someone else's business, what does it matter to me? ”

I straightened my back, bent down again and picked up the knife my aunt had given me, and I cherished it on my back.

"Yifeng, I'm sorry, I don't know what you've gone through behind your back, tell me the truth.

Don't pay attention to my words, it's not that I look down on my current position, it's not that I'm showing off to you, I really don't know what kind of role I'm playing in this position.

Savior! Who is the future? All I know is that I have to fight for three meals a day, and now I still live by adding blood to the knife, and only then can I have a little money flowing into my account.

My parents have suffered so much because of one of my wrong actions, and I don't even know how much my parents have suffered now, and what they have experienced when they were brought to Iraq.

I don't know how to describe my current role, I want to give it to you, if you want to get it, even if I go to exchange blood with you, I am willing, I just want to live a very plain and ordinary life, not to say that the sunrise and sunset rest.

I want to be a good citizen, I don't want to break the law because of these things, the disciplinary laws laid down by the state, I don't want to go beyond these rules.

I also want to have a home, I also want to have a warm and warm home, I want to have a harbor where I can go back to shelter whenever I feel uncomfortable, and I can go back to a home when I encounter trouble.

It's a pity that nothing is going to get me to the home I want to be, you know?

You envy me, I don't envy others, but the reality is like this, you are envious of others, I want to get rid of my own fate, why am I so timid to accompany you on adventures again and again.

Is it really love? It's really those pompous reasons, what is love and affection? If I don't want to get rid of my current fate, even if it is 100 million in front of me, I will not have the slightest wave, I know that I have no life to spend, I died on the road, love was taken away by others, and family affection will also be buried and dissipated with time.

I don't want to die at the hands of others, I don't want to be toyed with, I just want to live the life I want.

I sincerely apologize to the two of you here, I had a little conflict just now, just because you are very important in my heart, and I don't care if I am in your heart for profit or something.

That's your business, it has nothing to do with me, maybe, I'm born so cheap. ”

Ayu didn't say much, he just smiled at me, I don't know if my words touched him, maybe I didn't suffer in his eyes, I didn't experience the sadness he once felt and smiled.