Chapter 23: The loneliness that endures
In spring, although it is not as cold as winter, the weather is still very unstable.
In the morning, the sky was clear, but after the heavy rain fell at noon, the temperature dropped a lot.
Dongmei sat in the carriage, looked at Mo Xin, who was closing her eyes and recuperating, and thought: The princess has been really hard these days, and she can just take a good rest and come to church again. Seeing that her face has lost a lot of weight these days, when she returns to the palace, she still has to stew some supplements to make up for her.
After the rain, the road was a little difficult to walk, and there was mud everywhere. Qiuyun is very considerate to help everyone prepare a change of slippers and place them at the entrance place. A large shoe cabinet with slippers of different sizes, some thick and some thin.
In this way, when it snows, it is convenient to put on thick slippers to bake the fire, and it is easy to dry the wet shoes.
In rainy weather like this, it is inevitable to get your shoes dirty, so you can also change into dirty shoes and wash them by changing into thin slippers.
There were more than two dozen people sitting in the church, listening to Qiuyun's lecture.
"Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, tell God what you want. The peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. (Philippians 4:6~7)
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For by grace you have been saved by faith, and it is not of yourselves, but of God; nor by works, lest any man boast. (Ephesians 2:8~9)
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In the kitchen of the church, a small figure is busy.
The strong smell of medicine made him frown, "This medicine smells very bitter, cough cough cough cough ......"
Xiaohua is wearing a set of embroidered skirts, which looks very beautiful, but the missing right hand always makes people feel that this little girl is too pitiful.
She walked over with a glass of rock sugar water with a smile, "Xiao Feng, don't go to make that fire first, take this medicine first, and then drink rock sugar water and it won't be bitter." ”
Xiaohua looked at Xiaofeng, her younger brother is sensible and distressing. Alas, it's all because she didn't take good care of him before, making him in poor health, the temperature was hot and cold, he was a little cold, and he coughed badly at night.
She wanted to help him decoct the medicine, but he refused to say anything, so he had to come by himself. Looking at this little face that was a little dirty by firewood, Xiaohua always felt guilty in her heart.
Xiao Feng saw the look on Xiaohua's face a little displeased, and said with a smile: "Sister, don't worry, the doctor said that it's just a cold, and it will be fine after drinking three days of medicine." You see, these days we live in the church with Sister Qiuyun, my body is much better than before, you see if I have grown a lot taller. ”
"It's a lot taller."
Xiaohua listened, her expression was much better, she touched Xiaofeng's head, these days are indeed very happy days. It's just that the previous days were too bad, and this body can't be recuperated in a while, so take your time. I believe that life will get better and better in the future. God loves the world, and God loves them.
In the future, she will definitely do her best to make Xiaofeng's life better.
Xiao Feng took a sip of the medicine, his whole brow was furrowed together, and he was still very brave enough to finish the bowl of medicine.
Xiaohua handed him rock sugar water, and he drank it all like a baby.
"It's so sweet." Xiao Feng smiled and looked very cute. His eyes are full of pure beauty, the purest kindness in the world.
As a child, happiness was a simple thing. Even if it's just a candy after drinking the medicine, it's worth being happy.
When you grow up, simplicity is a happy thing. But how many things can be simple.
The world is hot and cold, and people are warm and cold. If a person drinks water, he knows whether he is warm or cold.
If you look at the problem simply, you may not be able to recover. Many times we are complicated, why are we forced to be helpless?
The past that can't be returned, the childhood that can't be returned, and the joy that can't be returned.
When I was a child, I laughed when I was happy and cried when I was sad.
When I grew up, sometimes I had to hide my laughter when I was happy, and I became unqualified to cry.
Only in the dead of night, quietly shed tears, then wash your face, and pretend that nothing happened.
Life is just constantly compromising, compromising, compromising, and in the end, the result of compromise is only to survive, but lose yourself.
Eventually, I was no longer who I was, I wasn't the person I liked, and I ended up living as the person I hated the most.
In life, who is not laughed at by others and laughed at by themselves?
How lucky would I be if I could live as the one I like the most?
It's just that luck is something that some people can't ask for in their lifetime.
There is a saying that "there is no harm without comparison", in fact, sometimes, it hurts without comparison.
When the carriage arrived at the church, Qiuyun was sweeping away some of the mud outside the door.
Mo Xin and Dongmei got out of the carriage and walked in, while the cloud guard drove the carriage aside and waited.
Qiu Yun hurriedly put down the broom in his hand and greeted him. Mo Xin was wearing a purple embroidered skirt, and her hair was simply tied up, which looked like a bright eye.
And Dongmei on the side was wearing a pink long skirt, which showed her cuteness even more.
"Miss, you're not busy with Dongmei's branch, why do you have time to come over?" Qiu Yun said as he gave Mo Xin Dongmei a change of shoes.
"Cloud Guard, you can come in and sit down too." Qiuyun said very enthusiastically.
"No need."
"Well, no matter what he is, he's like that, he likes to be alone. Dongmei, you pour him a cup of hot tea and send it over. “
Mo Xin thought to himself: This cloud guardian is good, but it's a little too quiet. If such a person is put together with that Ruyu, I don't know if he will be killed by this talker who draws his sword?
Thinking that Mo Xin's eyebrows and eyes were full of smiles, Qiu Yun saw that the affairs of the branch were done very well, so the princess was very happy.
"Yes Miss."
"I've been busy with the affairs of the Huijincheng branch these days, so I didn't come over. The store opened, and business was good. That's when I had time to come and have a look. I think you've had a good day, and you look more temperamental than before. “
"Temperamental?" Qiu Yun looked at Mo Xin with some puzzlement.
Mo Xin explained with a smile: "Temperament means good-looking. "It used to be said that men who work are the most attractive, but in fact, women are the same.
There is something to do, find your own value, and you can be as dazzling as a diamond.
Qiu Yun smiled: "I see that Miss also has a lot of temperament, but she is a little thin, I guess she is busy and has no rest, right?" ”
Mo Xin nodded, "It's good to stay up all night for the things of the inn and rest for a few days." I'm here today to tell you about the church. In winter, when it snows heavily, there is no place to go with the snow piled up, and when it rains, it is not convenient to enter the village by mud road.
I thought about paying for these brothers and sisters in the village to open two drainage channels on either side of this church. In this way, rain and snow can be discharged into the river outside through the drain. Then I bought some pebbles and came back and put stones on the way into the village to the church. “
Qiuyun was very happy when he heard this.
"That makes it much easier for them to come here and meet. It's still thoughtful and thoughtful. ”
"You pay according to the wages outside, and when you work, you eat in the church, and the food is better for them."
As he spoke, Mo Xin took out a large bag of silver taels and put them on the table. She knows that it is not easy for people in this poor village to find a job, and the salary is not high. In this way, they also have a sum of money, which is also good.
"Miss, this money is too much, I can't use it so much." Qiu Yun knew Mo Xin's kindness, but she knew that the young lady was not treated well in the palace, and it was not easy for her to earn this money. I still have to save a few more money for her future days.
Mo Xin naturally knew that Qiu Yun was worried about her, and explained: "The business of the food building is very good, and the Zhaocai Building here in Huijin City will also be able to have a good reception in a few days." Money-wise, you don't have to worry. ”
"Then thank you, Miss." Qiu Yun thought to herself: She will save the rest of the money, and the young lady will return it to her when she needs to.
"What about Xiaohua and Xiaofeng?" Mo Xin asked with concern, usually these two children knew that she was coming, and they all rushed over. I haven't seen them today, so I wonder if I'm sick, right?
"These two children were too weak before, although they have improved a lot after this period of conditioning. But compared to ordinary children, it is still a little weaker. These days, the weather is hot and cold, first Xiaohua was sick and feverish, and then Xiaofeng suffered from wind chill again, coughing a lot at night and occasionally coughing a few times during the day. Xiaohua boiled medicine with him in the kitchen. These two children are more sensible than the other, and whoever is with them in the future will be a blessing. ”
Mo Xin listened, thinking of Xiaohua, and felt a little uncomfortable in his heart. What a good girl, one less hand, this is also a problem when she grows up to find an in-law.
People with good conditions have high vision, and their parents must be reluctant to find a daughter-in-law like her. If the conditions are not good, the parents may not accept what they see.
Be sure to find a good man who loves her and is willing to take care of her.
This girl is too kind, if her husband is good and her in-laws are not good, she will have to suffer a lot.
Fortunately, she is not very old now, and when she grows up, let her do some business, and when the time comes, she will open a shop, and it will not be a problem to support her and Xiaofeng.
If you have the financial income, your status in your in-laws' family will be higher in the future.
In these years, no matter what, as a woman, you have to rely on yourself to live a better life.
Because luck, not everyone has it. Always plan for a rainy day, and don't plan for the unknown future.
The things in this world are often not reliable when they are good-looking, and they are also unreliable for people.
In modern times, monogamous marriages do not guarantee happiness. What's more, in this ancient world, under the system of polygamy, if Xiaohua has no financial income in the future, I am afraid that there will be no good life after marriage.
Fortunately, she is still young, the time is still long, and the road is long, everything is possible for her.
Unlike myself, I am not very old next year, but my heart has become very old and old. Sometimes even rest is a luxury.
It's not that I want too much, but I'm too scared, afraid that I'll lose even what little I have.
Sometimes the so-called strength is just the loneliness of holding on.