Zhu Shan felt that the topic was very heavy, and wanted to ease the atmosphere, and said: "Writing a suicide note is an excuse, you shouldn't want to write a letter to your boyfriend, right?"

"I don't have a boyfriend yet."

"No, you're so young and beautiful that you don't have a boyfriend?"

Aunt Huang watched from the sidelines, quite disapproving. Because this nurse Xiao is mediocre, it really has nothing to do with beauty, and it is no wonder that this fat doctor like Xiaoshan would say this, after all, people are seriously ill patients, who knows if they can still live, just say a few nice words of relief.

Nurse Xiao smiled, shook her head and said, "Don't talk about this, you give me paper and pen, I really want to write something, not necessarily a suicide note." ”

Hearing her say this, Zhu Shan also had an excuse and said: "That's okay, write some other poetry and prose, there is a saying called 'not only what is in front of you, but also poetry in the distance.'" ’”

As he spoke, he quickly brought a pen and paper to Nurse Xiao, and helped her shake the bed up so that she could recline.

Nurse Xiao took a non-invasive ventilator, breathed hard, put the paper on her bent knees, and began to write one stroke at a time.

Aunt Huang watched from the sidelines, and she found that Nurse Xiao was writing and shedding tears, wiping them from time to time. reminded Aunt Huang of her daughter, and couldn't help but say: "Girl, don't write about those uncomfortable things, it's already uncomfortable, so give yourself more encouragement at this time." If you write something that will only imply in your heart that you can't do it, then you will really not be able to, and then you can only really persevere if you desperately tell yourself that you are okay. ”

The nurse blinked her teary eyes, smiled reluctantly at Aunt Huang, and nodded: "Thank you, Auntie, I didn't write a suicide note, I wrote a diary." I want to write down these experiences of my hospitalization, maybe it will be a nostalgia when I get better in the future, and I can even post it on the Internet for everyone to see. ”

"Well, that's a good idea! You can encourage yourself. By the way, then don't forget to write down what I said in your diary, don't forget to mention Auntie's name, my surname is Huang, you just say that Aunt Huang is enough, we are neighbors in the hospital bed, hehe. ”

This Aunt Huang was familiar with herself, and she talked to the nurse vigorously, trying to distract her and make her happy. She didn't believe that the nurse was writing a diary, and she usually didn't write a diary while crying, and it was more likely that she would cry when she wrote a suicide note.

………………

Dai Yunyang persisted for twelve hours before changing the guard.

He felt like he was going to collapse. This is not comparable to the twelve hours on normal duty, this is the twelve hours of wearing secondary protection without eating or drinking, and it has reached the physiological limit.

The first to go out is to go to the toilet, the second is to draft water and lunches, and the third is to run to the bed.

The most devastating thing is that the shifts are not fixed, sometimes during the day, sometimes in the middle of the night, which makes his life extremely chaotic. In the past, I slept during the day, but now I slept at night.

After work that day, Dai Yunyang changed into an isolation gown and left the hospital, he insisted on not eating the boxed lunch at the nurse's station, only drank a whole bottle of mineral water, and then left the hospital.

He was tired of the box lunch, and wanted to eat a fragrant hot rolled noodles at the snack bar at the entrance of the hospital, a specialty of Wuhan, and he had been hungry for this bite for a long time.

Dai Yunyang ordered noodles at a small noodle restaurant. The phone rang while I was waiting for the meeting. When I saw that it was my mother calling, I was a little puzzled, why did my mother call me in the middle of the night? Could it be that something is going on over there?

Quickly connected, and his mother's calm voice came from the other side of the phone: "Yunyang, are you off work?"

Hearing this calm voice, Dai Yunyang's heart relaxed, if there was any accident, his mother would never speak like this. Hurriedly said: "Yes, how do you know that I am off work?" My classes are not punctual. ”

"I went to the duty room of your hospital, and they said to help me check, and I told them that I had something important to tell you, so they checked your duty schedule for me, and said when you got off work. I just found out you had just gotten off work. By the way, I listen to the news and feel that the epidemic in Wuhan is very serious, you don't care, right?"

"It doesn't matter, I don't feel anything wrong here, everyone is normal, what should I do."

"Don't lie to Mom. If it is not serious, will the National Health Commission send a team of experts in succession? Will the news be in full swing? Mom isn't old and confused. ”

"It's a little nervous, but it's okay, we're doctors, so we're used to it."

"Which part are you responsible for? Is it still an emergency department? In the evening, patients are also treated. ”

"Yes, Mom, don't worry, I'm honestly staying in the clinic to see a doctor now, and I go home to sleep after seeing a doctor, and it's nothing, and I never go out usually."

At this moment, the fat man Zhu Shan also got off work at the same time, and it happened that he also wanted to come out to eat a bowl of noodles. When he saw Dai Yunyang, he said in a loud voice: "Doctor Dai, you are also here, alas, the intensive isolation ward is really not a person, we manage 15 beds, and the patients have died three in a row, and now this little nurse is afraid that she can't keep it." I'm really worried if I'm going to be the next one to them? I've been coughing a lot lately, and the nucleic acid test is negative, and the CT scan of the lungs is okay, but why do I always feel chest pain and difficulty breathing. ”

"If I am recruited, you have to tell the people in the courtyard and posthumously recognize me as a martyr. The doctors and nurses in our intensive care unit, I think they should all be credited and rewarded after the success of the anti-epidemic, but we are fighting with our lives......! ”

Dai Yunyang didn't expect him to come up with such a string, it was too late to cover his mobile phone, and Dai Yunyang's mother on the other side of the mobile phone heard it really well. said urgently: "Yunyang, you are in the intensive isolation ward!" How did you get there? That's the most dangerous place. Didn't you say you were in an outpatient setting? How are you lying to Mom?"

Only then did Zhu Shan understand that Dai Yunyang was calling his family, but he hadn't told his family that he was in the dangerous intensive isolation ward, and the voice from the other end of the phone let Zhu Shan know that he had stabbed the basket. He stuck out his tongue in fear, pointed outside and said, "I won't eat, I'll go back to sleep." ”

As he spoke, he disappeared into the night.

Dai Yunyang hurriedly explained to his mother: "I'm fine, don't think about it, our colleague is talking nonsense, I am in the emergency clinic." ”

"Don't lie to Mom, Mom can find out where you are with a phone call? How do you get to the intensive care unit? You are the only son in our family, if you have three longs and two shorts, who will I count on with your father for the rest of our lives? ”