Mrs. Tan and Honeysuckle saw that it was very late, Tan Yin hadn't come back yet, and was about to go out to look for it, but Tan Yin changed her clothes and came back.

Seeing the two of them, Tan Yin moved her lips slightly to Mrs. Tan, bypassed the two of them and went back to her room, swimming past them like a half-dead fish with slightly open lips.

Honeysuckle immediately followed, but he didn't expect Tan Yin to close the door as soon as he entered the room.

Honeysuckle ate a closed door, turned his head to look at Mrs. Tan at a loss, Mrs. Tan shook her head, sighed deeply and turned back.

Mrs. Tan was worried all night, early in the morning of the second day, but Tan Yin got up early, like no one else, Mrs. Tan asked her daughter what happened yesterday, why she changed her clothes, and Tan Yin asked someone for a set of clothes by falling into the water, Mrs. Tan saw that she was nothing special, and her heart slowly relaxed.

After two more days, Tan Yin stayed in the room and didn't go out, Mrs. Tan slowly felt that something was wrong, in the past, every two or three days, Tan Yin had to go over to talk to Mother Li and give her a massage, what happened recently.

On the fourth day, Li Zheng hurried over.

……

When Li Zheng walked into her room, the sunlight shone in from the side, and Tan Yin's face was half-bright and half-ambiguous, looking at him coldly.

Li Zheng saw that her face was expressionless, and he didn't know how to make her angry. Recently, I have been busy outside, and I don't have time to ask my mother how she and Ah Yin are getting along, and I came back very late yesterday, only to know that Tan Yin has not been here for several days, and she has not slept well all night.

"Ayin, my mother said that you haven't been there for the past two days, but you are not feeling well?"

"Nothing!" Tan Yin said lightly.

This expression didn't look like nothing, Li Zheng was anxious, "But what did my mother say......"

Tan Yin stared at Li Zheng for a while, he came in a hurry, sweating profusely, just like countless appointments in the past, he had already shed the youth of his hometown town, and became more and more like a Jinshi in Beijing, and he would be an official of Dazhao in the future.

Why didn't he find out for so long, he was getting farther and farther away from him, only he was still in place.

Li Zheng saw Tan Yin staring at him and didn't speak, and said unnaturally: "Ah Yin, what's wrong with you!" ”

Li Zheng knew that if she was really angry, she just didn't want to speak, this time it was even more serious than last time, she was really angry.

Li Zheng stepped forward and held her shoulders with both hands, "Ayin, don't be like this, I'm afraid!" ”

Tan Yin laughed out loud, "What are you afraid of?" I should be scared that I have been deceived by you again and again. ”

Li Zheng was incredulous, "What did you say?" ”

"I went to your house a few days ago and heard what your mother said to Miss Wang."

When Li Zheng heard this, his face changed greatly, "What did you hear?" ”

Tan Yin chuckled, lowered her head, looked back at him and said, "Li Zheng, you look at my eyes, to this day, do you continue to lie to me!" ”

"Ayin, I have a lot of things I haven't said to you, but I don't mean to deceive you, I just don't know how to tell you. You know my mother's thoughts, she wants me to marry Miss Everybody, but my mother is my mother, I am me, don't you understand my heart? Li Zheng said eagerly.

"I used to think I understood." Tan Yin laughed at herself.

"If you hear what they say, you will sentence me to death, and you will let me die clearly."

Li Zheng's chest was so excited that he fell together, his eyes were on fire, his face was blue, and he was no longer as serious as usual.

"Say what? Let me think. Miss Wang wants me to be like Empress E, so that you can enjoy the blessings of all people. Oh, by the way, her father still has to work around for you, I have to congratulate Li Jinshi on being able to climb such a good family affair. ”

Li Zheng took a step forward, "Ayin, I don't know what you heard, but I never had this kind of thought, and I just wanted to marry you from beginning to end." ”

"I don't deny that Miss Wang is interested in me, but I haven't said it for fear that you will misunderstand. Of course I hoped that her father would help me, but I never made a deal about my marriage, and even if her father was willing to help me, it was because he saw that I was a good material to help him in the future. ”

Tan Yin laughed and said, "Is that my misunderstanding wrong!" ”

"Ayin, don't laugh like that, I can't stand it."

Tan Yin burst into tears, "It's me who can't stand it!" Kept in the dark like a fool and lied again and again. ”

"Your mother has been here for twenty days, and you said she didn't come. The brocade in her room was given by an adult, you said. The young lady of the Wang family has such a close past with her, and she has such a deep plot, don't you know at all? ”

Li Zheng panicked, and grabbed Tan Yin's shoulders with both hands, "Ayin, my mother is my mother, I am me." My mother is interested in Miss Wang, and she shouldn't have thoughts, but it was all her own idea, and I never agreed. ”

Tan Yin took a step back, got rid of his hands, looked at Li Zheng's eyes and said, "Li Zheng, I've been thinking a lot about it these days. In the past, I was too naïve, and I always thought that as long as I worked hard, your mother would see my good one day, and I was ready for a long time, as long as it was for you, I would do anything. ”

"But when I heard your mother scolding my mother for being a vixen, I woke up completely, I actually let my mother suffer this insult for my own marriage, she and my father actually suspected in their hearts that there would be today, but for my ......" said and said, tears could not be stopped.

"But for me, I didn't say a word, and came all the way to Beijing to plan for me. Do you know? My mother sold a few shops where she was married, and wanted to buy a small courtyard in Shangjing for me to dowry, and wanted us to have a place to stay here. ”

"She didn't care about being laughed at and despised by your mother, so she went to visit your mother first, so that she could agree to this marriage, I don't know how many tears she shed behind her back."

Li Zheng was flustered for a while, and Tan Yin's eyes were indifferent, calm, and full of realization after crying.

"I can't deceive myself anymore, in fact, I have a premonition, but I keep telling myself that it's okay, as long as I continue to work hard, there will be good results."

I like people for so many years! I once thought that I wanted to grow old with him, but I never thought that my life would be without him.

"Ayin, why are you saying such hurtful words, you are cutting my heart with a knife." Li Zheng's face was like ashes.

Tan Yin wiped her tears and continued: "I'm such a stupid girl, I used to be praised by others for my intelligence, and I was still complacent. You are now a Jinshi, and your future is limitless, and I am just a village girl, and I have always regarded you as the scholar who studied at Qingsong Academy. ”

"We were originally on a boat on a small river, but you changed to a big boat and drove into the river, the scenery on both sides of the river is infinite, and I continue to stay in this small boat, I am carving a boat and asking for a sword."

Li Zheng hurriedly said: "What are you talking about?" Ayin, I love you! ”

Tan Yin continued: "I have been in Beijing for so long, every time I meet you, you come and go in a hurry, and you never tell me when you encounter something. ”

"You're afraid that I'll be angry, and you think you can handle it, I just need to wait for you to marry me. In fact, your mother is right, I have no help for your future, and even the marriage has to rely on your mediation, so let alone talk about other things in the future. ”

Li Zheng looked at her and said as if she was talking about other people's affairs, "Ayin, my mother treated my wife and you like this, I am very ashamed and sad in my heart. But my heart has never changed, if you give me another chance, I will definitely be able to convince my mother. ”

Tan Yin shook her head, "My father once said that the suffering of women in the world is that they can't see clearly, they are confused, trapped in love, and driven by the tigers and wolves who don't know how to cherish them. ”

"The second is that although I can see clearly, it is difficult to give up, and I am lucky, always thinking that the tiger and wolf will be kind and correct, often let go again and again, retreat and retreat, and finally there is no way back."

She looked at Li Zheng and said slowly: "When the interruption continues, but the chaos is unbearable, although I am a stupid girl, I am not obsessed in the end." ”

Li Zheng looked at her and froze, tears flowed down, crying and laughing: "Ayin, are you going to break off with me!" ”

Seeing Li Zheng like this, Tan Yin's heart was like a knife, she closed her eyes, forcibly suppressed the soreness and pain that came out of her heart, and the pain was so painful that she couldn't breathe, and took out the rose silver hairpin that had been broken in two, "Rucheng, so be it!" ”

"Ayin, you, are you going to give up the relationship between the two of us for so many years!" Li Zheng saw the silver hairpin that had been broken, and his whole body trembled.

"Ru Cheng, why force it, to this day, you actually know in your heart that we are impossible."

Li Zheng was hit hard by this sentence, he didn't say a word, turned around, and staggered towards the door, as if he was about to fall down accidentally, Tan Yin involuntarily stretched out his hand, but finally put it down.

Tan Yin looked at Li Zheng's distant figure, as if a piece of meat in her heart had been stripped away, and she was also left behind along with the green years in the past.

Once a teenager didn't know the taste of sorrow, he was worried about giving new words; once had no colorful phoenix wings, and his heart was clear; once the belt gradually widened, and he never regretted it, and he made people haggard for Yi; Once Yingying smiled and peach blossoms were drunk, an inch of lovesickness and an inch of love.

Now it's all gone.