78 I'm sorry
When Yun Shan decided to leave, she had thought that if Mo Zhuoyi could really let go, it would be good, she was a sharp weapon against him, and her departure was no better for him, he had no weakness, and no one could hurt him. But if he still won't let go......
She lowered her head, her long curled eyelashes obscuring her black and white eyes.
Yun Shan returns to the small village, where she began to try to like him. If he can find her, if he can learn to be honest and afraid of losing, then...... The future isn't that bad, is it?
The colorful illustration on the book shows Kuafu chasing the sun. He's going to be thirsty, he's going to be tired, he's going to die.
At that time, the children asked her, didn't Father Kua know that he couldn't catch the sun? The sun is so hot, why does he keep chasing it? Yun Shan couldn't answer.
There is only one circumstance in which man will desperately chase after the beautiful and dangerous existence, and his love has surpassed everything. Therefore, I am not afraid of pain, I am not afraid of suffering, and I am not afraid of death.
There is another reason why Yun Shan came back, Deng Ya was buried in this small village. And today is Deng Ya's death day.
The setting sun hangs in the western sky, and the afterglow paves a golden road.
After her grandmother took her away from the village, she never let her come back to worship her mother, even if Yun Shan followed her grandmother to worship when she was a child, her grandmother's expression was very complicated. At that time, Yun Shan thought that her grandmother was heartbroken and her mother died early, but now that she thinks about it, it doesn't seem to be so simple.
Yun Shan held a bouquet of flowers and brought incense wax paper money in a basket. She walked halfway up the mountain, stopped, thought about it, called Aunt Cheng, and told Aunt Cheng that she came to worship her mother. Because she lives alone and there are too many uncertainties around her, Yun Shan pays attention to safety.
There are still several families living not far from the place where Deng Ya was buried, and the village is not particular about building houses, often there is a private house not far away.
Yun Shan came to Deng Ya's grave and found that the grave had been carefully trimmed, she originally thought that if she didn't come back for a few years, the grass on Deng Ya's grave would be very high, but she didn't expect that not only was there no weeds, but flowers were also planted around it, and it was elegantly arranged.
Yun Shan frowned slightly, who would be so good to her mother?
She set up the offerings, and spoke to the masked Deng Ya for the first time, "Mom, I'm back to see you, I heard my grandmother say that you are a very good girl, it's a pity that I don't have you in my memory, I've been thinking, if everyone doesn't like me, why did they let me come to this world...... I was told that it was my father and grandmother who were using me, but were they really my relatives? What did I do wrong, why should I be treated like this? ”
The remnant sun is like blood, revealing a bit of sadness. The surrounding woods were quiet, and Yun Shan's heartbeat suddenly jumped a little fast for some reason.
A black shadow fell beside her, and Yun Shan turned her head sharply. The man didn't seem to expect Yun Shan to notice, and his eyes suddenly became fierce.
On a hot day, the person who came was still wearing a tight hoodie, and the moment he saw his face, Yun Shan's pupils shrank suddenly.
It was a middle-aged man who had suffered severe burns on half of his face, leaving a pitted scar.
"Who are you!"
The man didn't answer, and took the syringe and went straight to Yun Shan's body.
Yun Shan knows who he is! The day she was reborn and came back, and the day she met Mo Zhuoyi in her previous life, she was injected with drugs and the person who sent her to Mo Zhuoyi's bed was him! The so-called "father" who has been hiding for twenty years.
The man was extremely quick and merciless, without any concern for the people living around him, as if he was not afraid that his atrocities would be discovered, and he was bent on piercing the syringe into Yun Shan.
This moment seems to coincide with the starting point of the tragedy of the previous life. Yun Shan was sad and angry, she fell to the ground in the fight between the two, she did not hesitate to pick up a stone and smash it, got up and ran in the direction of the surrounding people's houses.
But after all, he couldn't run away from this man, and when his hand just touched her clothes, Yun Shan was so frightened that she closed her eyes, and almost subconsciously shouted out the name, "Mo Zhuoyi!" ”
The pull behind him abruptly vanished, followed by the dull thud of fists falling flesh.
Yun Shan turned her head and saw Mo Zhuoyi's cold face, and smashed another punch on the man.
The man's eyes were full of hatred, he knew that he couldn't beat Mo Zhuoyi, and the syringe that was originally intended to be pierced on Yun Shan's body was instead pierced into Mo Zhuoyi's body.
Mo Zhuoyi smiled coldly, easily dodged, quickly snatched the syringe, and kicked the man. That loud sound, Yun Shan felt pain when she heard it.
Mo Zhuoyi stepped on the man's hand. The man couldn't stand up at all, glaring at Mo Zhuoyi fiercely, and his face full of scars looked more and more hideous and terrifying.
Mo Zhuoyi turned his wrist, and the syringe was inserted into the man's body.
Yun Shan approached, and Mo Zhuoyi's movement of pushing the syringe paused slightly. He instinctively wanted to restrain his violence.
Yun Shan looked at the other half of the man's unburned face, and could see that he was handsome when he was young. "Who the hell are you?" she asked. She didn't believe she would have such a ruthless father.
The man knew that he had been hiding for twenty years, and today he was caught by Mo Zhuoyi, and there was no hope of revenge. He was full of hatred and unwillingness, "Why don't you die, why is it my Yaya who died!" ”
His Yaya...... Deng Ya! Yun Shan's face changed slightly.
Mo Zhuoyi sneered, and the free hand held her slightly cool little hand, "Don't worry, this person is not my father-in-law." ”
Yun Shan reacted, her cheeks flushed slightly. She still remembered that she was angry with Mo Zhuoyi, pursing her lips and ignoring him.
Mo Zhuoyi snorted, and the liquid in the syringe slowly advanced into the man's body.
Yun Shan was shocked and wanted to stop Mo Zhuoyi, "What are you doing?" ”
Mo Zhuoyi was a little arrogant, "What are you afraid of?" ”
"I don't know what is in this, in case someone dies......"
"Lao Tzu is in the cell, so it won't bother you, okay?"
Yun Shan was a little angry, "Mo Zhuoyi! ”
Mo Zhuoyi bent the corners of his mouth, finally not teasing her, "Most of them are drugs, just like those that were checked out in your body before." ”
He narrowed his eyes, a hint of cruelty in his eyes. What this person plans to do to Yun Shan, it is not too much for him to return the same way at all, if he doesn't come with him today, it will be Yun Shan who will be injured. What's more, he observed the man's expression, and when he pierced it, the man was not too frightened, and he thought that the syringe was not a fatal thing.
The man lying on the ground had dilated pupils, and fainted after a while.
Mo Zhuoyi calmly called Zhang Weiyue, "According to the location I sent, now take someone up the mountain." ”
Yun Shan also squatted next to the man to observe, for fear that Mo Zhuoyi would really become a murderer.
Mo Zhuoyi also squatted beside her, raised his hand and gently pinched her chin, making her look at herself, "Shanshan." ”
"Huh?" I don't know if it's because of the run, Yun Shan's cheeks are ruddy, and she looks very good.
Mo Zhuoyi laughed wildly, "Why are you calling my name?" Aren't you afraid of me, hate me? ”
"You can't bother it, let it go."
"No, you answer first."
Yun Shan looked away, her face flushed, and she felt an indescribable shame. What do you want her to say? She didn't want to answer at all. Mo Zhuoyi, do you know what it means to stop in moderation?
Obviously, Mo Zhuoyi didn't understand. There was a smile between his eyebrows, "Shanshan, look at me." ”
Yun Shan lowered her head, ignoring him.
"Did you find me?"
"Mo Zhuoyi!" Yun Shan finally raised her eyes and glared at him coquettishly, "You don't have to ask, okay?" ”
The mountain breeze gently brushed the cheeks of the two of them, and the afterglow of the setting sun brought warmth.
Mo Zhuoyi's voice was smiling, with shallow gentleness, "Okay." ”
It's even weirder. Yun Shan's cheeks flushed, and she looked down at the grass at her feet, like a poor captive.
Mo Zhuoyi bent the corners of his mouth, turned his head and walked coldly to Deng Ya's grave. He casually kicked and ruined the flower field planted by the man.
Yun Shan hurriedly stood up and came over to stop her.
Mo Zhuo commented on her timid appearance, and finally restrained her feet. Speaking of which, the people in this tomb are his relatives, not Yun Shan's. But this stupid girl doesn't know anything, and she has paid too much for the woman here.
Mo Zhuoyi looked at the name on the tombstone with cold eyes, should I call you cousin? The only good thing you did was to send Yun Shan to me.
Zhang Weiyue had already obeyed orders at the bottom of the mountain, and as soon as he received the call, he hurriedly led someone to catch up. A few days ago, he was anxious to find out, but he couldn't find any trace of Yun Shan, which seemed to be very useless. Now that he finally has a big show of his mobile phone, as soon as he goes up, he will tie up the people on the ground and drag him down the mountain.
He felt good about himself, he was very lame, and he walked at the front of the crowd with his head held high. A group of people were so powerful that the villagers looked over and thought that some bad organization was coming to do bad things, and they were all a little uneasy.
Yun Shan was slightly embarrassed, clutching the corner of her clothes. Mo Zhuoyi took a few steps forward and kicked Zhang Weiyue's buttocks, and said lightly: "What are you doing blindly, walk well." ”
Zhang Weiyue touched his head in a daze, and instructed loudly, "Let's go, let's keep a low profile, don't let people see that we have kidnapped people." Yes, yes, take that path. ”
Mo Zhuoyi stopped and looked back at Yun Shan, who was walking at the end of the group.
The grass is verdant, and the cicadas in the forest are constantly chirping. Yun Shan walked slowly with his head down, and the moment he passed by Mo Zhuoyi's side, he smiled lightly and held her hand.
Mo Zhuoyi's hands were hot and warm, but Yun Shan's little hands were slightly cold, weak and boneless, and they felt like ice muscles and jade bones.
Mo Zhuoyi leaned into her ear and whispered, "I'm sorry, Shanshan, I'm sorry." ”
Yun Shan didn't expect him to apologize suddenly, and looked at him in surprise.
Mo Zhuoyi's eyes were precipitated with deep emotions that she couldn't understand, and he repeated again, "I'm sorry......"
Yun Shan blinked, "Why do you apologize?" ”
"Some time ago, I scared you, didn't I?" Mo Zhuoyi's voice was soft, as if he was afraid of disturbing her, "It's me who is not good, what Luo Shuxin said is not wrong, I am sick, and I have a disease that may not be cured for a lifetime." ”
Yun Shan's eyelashes trembled, and her eyes were clean and clear.
"But can you not be afraid, I'm just sick, you're by my side, I'll treat you well?" Mo Zhuoyi stared into her eyes, "I'm selfish and paranoid, maybe cruel and tyrannical, but I will change it." I change it slowly, if it doesn't work for a while, I'll use it for the rest of my life. I remember you said, if I don't scare you, if I don't push you, you'll try to like me, does that still count? I'm just sick, don't abandon me easily, okay? ”
He has always been wanton, and the same is true when the man who suddenly appears to subdue him, but when Zhang Weiyue leaves with people and the world quiets down, Yun Shan feels his fear, and her departure this time makes him afraid of loss.
Mo Zhuoyi used to say confidently, I'm not sick, what are you afraid of?
However, now he will discuss softly, I am just sick, I will try to heal the disease, don't abandon me easily, okay?
She remembered the end of the day of praise that she had told her children. In the end, Kuafu did not catch up, he was only about to hug the sun, and finally died of thirst halfway, but he still left his cane and turned into a peach forest.
In her dream, Mo Zhuoyi's ending in her previous life was much more tragic than that of Kua's father.