The concubine's fortieth birthday is imminent, she was once chosen on the king's side, the six palaces have no color, she has been favored for more than 20 years, and gave birth to the prince of the East Palace and the princess Yunhua, and the mother of the country is just a difference in identity.

Concubine Li Shu is dead, and the world is speculating whether she will become the queen, and the East Palace inherits the unification with her son-in-law, which is even more justifiable.

Mrs. Xu planted a mountain of flowers for this birthday banquet, with lush branches and flowers.

She specially invited Yanya to be her assistant, and Yanya was overjoyed, she had such a good opportunity to learn from Mrs. Xu in person, and to be able to participate in such a flower arrangement, which was far beyond what she had imagined before.

These days, Yanya goes out early and returns late, and when she comes home, she still holds the flowers and branches and leaves, thinking about how to match, what angle, high and low distance is better, and often thinks of something in the middle of eating, and immediately leaves the rice bowl to get busy, and often the lights are still on in the middle of the night.

Although she was very tired, Yanya was very energetic, and everyone saw her forgetting to sleep and eat so much, although they felt sorry for her body, they were also happy for her. It's been a long time since she's been so excited about something.

Tan Yin still went to Li's house every two or three days. Although Mother Li is not good to her, and sometimes even a little salty, but fortunately, she is not repulsive.

Mother Li has never been enthusiastic about her, and Tan Yin naturally doesn't have so many expectations, as long as Li Zheng is still heart-to-heart with her, Mother Li will like her one day.

……

Just came back from Li's house this day, and Ding Xiang was looking for her in a hurry, saying that Yanya had a situation.

As soon as I entered Yanya's room, I found that she was sitting at the table, her whole person was like a wooden sculpture, her face was like ashes, lifeless, and she didn't even seem to be breathing.

Tan Yin was startled, how could this be, turned her head to look at Yan Min on the side, Yan Min shook her head slightly, her face turned white, and she handed her the letter in her hand trembling.

Tan Yin took the letter in her hand and hurriedly read it.

Yanya:

I didn't know how to say the next words, but I had to say them after many times.

You are a beautiful girl who grew up in the pampering of your family, but you are not arrogant or impatient, and you have a gentle and considerate personality. You are very talented, your flower arrangements are so beautiful, and your embroidery is a must. You've been good, but you're not confident in yourself.

I like and enjoy these two months together, I look forward to meeting you every time, I see you like snowballs so much, I see you smile so brightly at me, I once thought that we would have a good result, but God did not fulfill people's wishes.

You tried your best to love me, and you wish you could love me, and I could feel the effort, and I had hope, but I have to admit that you are grateful to me, you have trust, but I don't see a spark in your eyes.

You have a cold heart, and we all know why this heart is cold. Maybe I should have waited longer, worked harder to warm your cold heart for a long time, but I didn't have confidence in myself, I have never been a person who drips through stones, and finally retreated

I thought I could comfort you and save you, and I thought I was a hero like Ning Niang, but in fact, I was a coward.

I hurt a good girl, and I slashed her broken heart again, and I can't even imagine how deep such a deep mouth is, and how much blood will be shed.

But I know that if we continue like this, we will both be hurt even deeper, and we will have to stop the horse and break our arms to survive, although it is painful for a while, but there is still hope for the future.

I don't ask for your forgiveness, because it's hard for me to forgive myself, I don't have the shame to see you, I don't have the shame to participate, I'm going to travel again.

I only hope that you can forget me as a person and forget the harm I have brought you!

Good luck!

Gu Zijun

The fifth day of the sixth month of the year of Gengzi

Tan Yin's hand holding the letter paper trembled, blood rushed to her head, her tongue was numb, and the paper rattled. She didn't speak, turned around and ran out.

……

Only Zhao Xu was waiting for her in the courtyard, "Zhijun left yesterday, you came a step late, I have been waiting for you here." ”

Tan Yin suddenly chuckled, "Zhao Xu, this is as you wish!" ”

Zhao Xu looked at the girl in front of her, she hurried over, her eyes were shining, her face was blue, her lips were white, her cheeks twitched slightly because of anger, and her skirt was still stained with mud, like a small fireball about to explode, but there was a trace of fragility and helplessness.

Zhao Xu hurriedly stepped forward, held her shoulders with both hands and said, "Ayin, don't be angry, sit down and speak slowly." ”

Tan Yin was taken by him to sit at the table, poured a cup of tea and handed it to her, but she didn't answer.

"Ayin, you make me seem to be gloating." Zhao Xu looked at her.

"Hehe, it's not schadenfreude, it's a one-handed operation, I really admire you, Zhao Jinshi." Tan Yin sneered slightly.

"Ah Yin, of course, I went to persuade Zhijun, but Zhijun is not a three-year-old child, nor is he a Confucian who can only read sour books without the power of a chicken, do you think he can change his mind with just a few words from me?"

"The last time I saw him with Yanya, I knew about them, and after that, I paid attention to his behavior."

"Every time he comes back from your house, he is happy, but it is not the same as the frenzy of the man who is really in love, and this joy does not really go deep into the heart. He has been thinking about how to please Yanya, although he likes Yanya, but he is more pity and regards her as a responsibility. ”

Tan Yin listened to Zhao Xu's analysis, and snorted: "I didn't know that you also know so much about men's love thoughts, it seems that you don't even have a lover!" ”

"Are you ......" Zhao Xu's face flushed, and he said unnaturally: "I haven't eaten pork, and I haven't seen a pig run?" I have so many classmates...... Besides, I've known him for more than ten years, and who knows him better than me. ”

"You dare to say that it is not because you have too much influence on him, he only made a decision after listening to your words." Tan Yin sneered.

Zhao Xu paused with his hand holding the teacup, and said: "I don't deny that there may be part of the reason, but Zhijun later told me that he has never felt Yanya's response, although Yanya also tried hard to fall in love with him, but he understood that she still didn't fall in love with him, and the love between men and women was sometimes decided after only a few times, so why did it take two months?" ”

Tan Yin was furious when she heard this, and stood up awkwardly: "Why do you think Yanya doesn't love Gu Zhijun?" Why are you so self-righteous, so fond of arranging other people's fates, and still triumphant here. ”

Looking at the angry girl in front of her, it seemed that the whole person was about to burn, Zhao Xu also hurriedly stood up and said, "Ayin, whether Yanya loves Gu Zhijun or not, can't you feel it at all in your heart?" ”

Tan Yin was stunned for a moment, and retorted without thinking: "Why doesn't she love it anymore, she gets along so well with him, how happy you saw her smile last time." ”

"Zhijun is cheerful and optimistic, and she is naturally likable, and Yanya is no exception, but do you think she really loves Zhijun? Is she worried about him, fanatical about him? I have known you for a long time, in my opinion, after Yanya was divorced by Xu Linhai, although she was not obvious on the surface, she felt inferior and self-pitiful in her heart, in fact, she has never come out. ”

"Although you are familiar with us, how many words have you said to Yanya? How much can you know about Yanya's heart? Guessing here for no reason. ”

Zhao Xu looked at her, raised his eyebrows, thought for a while, and finally said, "It's not just me, Yanting also thinks so." ”

"What are you talking about, big cousin!" Tan Yin's eyes widened, and her face was full of incredulity.

Zhao Xu nodded.

This...... What the hell is going on.

"After knowing this, I had a deep discussion with Yan Ting. Yanya is soft on the outside and rigid on the inside, and after she quit the marriage, she was ridiculed and ridiculed, saying that she was delusional and immeasurable, and she inevitably felt inferior in her heart. Yanting said that Xu Linhai went to look for Yanya several times later, but Yanya never pretended. ”

"Of course, she rejected Xu Linhai because she had strong self-esteem and was sorry for her before she hated him, but there was another reason that she was afraid, she was afraid that she was not worthy of him, and she was afraid that she would be 'divorced' for the second time." Zhao Xu analyzed.

Tan Yin felt that her brain was a little confused, and she felt that Zhao Xu's words today were beyond her understanding. "I don't understand what you're talking about."

"I said it last time, she actually just regarded Zhijun as a life-saving straw, and used him as a support to get rid of Xu Linhai, although she didn't realize it."

Tan Yin slowly calmed down, sat and pondered for a long time, Zhao Xu poured her a cup of tea, and she drank it all.

"Ayin, I will never stop you if you scold Zhijun, he also paid the price, he gave up this time, and the next time will be three years later. It's just that the two love is focused on pleasing each other, and a quick knife to cut through the mess may be good for both parties, if it becomes a resentful couple in the future, it will be a lifetime. ”

Looking at the upright and polite man in front of him, Tan Yin smiled and cried: "You see that you are always so upright, I think you are a little right in my head, but I ...... in my heart" As if there was something stalking, I couldn't breathe through, and I took a few deep breaths before I said, "Do you know how much this hurts Yanya, isn't this the second 'divorce'?" You are rubbing salt in her wounds. ”

Seeing her full of tears, crying and laughing, Zhao Xu felt like he was nailed when he heard this.

Tan Yin looked up at the sky, wiped her tears with her hand, coughed and said, "I'm leaving." After saying that, he walked away without looking back.

"Ayin, I'm ......"

She came and went quickly, Zhao Xu wanted to call her, but he couldn't say any more.

……

When Yan Ting came out of Yan Ya's room, he happened to meet Tan Yin who came back from outside.

Looking at her forcibly calm face, her hair was messy, and her eyes were red and swollen, "Yanya just fell asleep, you come with me." ”

Tan Yin followed Yan Ting to the outer courtyard.

"Have you seen Zhao Xu?"

Tan Yin nodded, "Big cousin, Zhao Xu said that he talked to you about the two of them, why didn't you tell us." ”

She suddenly thought of Yan Ting's hesitation several times, and suddenly asked, "Did you think that this would not work out from the beginning?" ”

"Naturally not, otherwise how could I agree to your proposal! Am I going to watch you fail! But then I observed...... But you guys are so happy, especially Yanya, I can't bear it, thinking that maybe I will fall in love for a long time, who would have thought that it would be solved like this. ”

She suddenly thought of Xu Linhai and even Yang Che, and felt more and more that she was like a joke.

"I'm sorry, big cousin, I shouldn't have said that, you want us well the most. Aren't a few of us stupid and think we're smart. Tan Yin smiled with tears in her eyes.

Seeing her like this, Yan Ting felt extremely sad in her heart, and handed over the handkerchief, "Ayin, you are my sister, and you are all good girls." ”

"Did Xu Linhai know about this for a long time, and did he wait for this matter to fail?"

Yan Ting sighed: "Looking back now, it should be, but can you blame him for this matter?" We can't be angry with others. ”

Tan Yin picked up a handkerchief and wiped her tears, snorted a few times, and choked up: "Then what to do now, Yanya is really scary like this." ”

Yan Ting smiled bitterly: "What should I do?" Let's take it one step at a time! ”

Seeing her haggard face, Yan Ting said: "Ah Yin, don't be in a hurry, it's useless for you to be anxious about this matter now, let's see Yan Ya's situation." You've been running back and forth to Li's house lately, and you have to pay attention to yourself. Li Zheng has been good lately, and he is good to you. ”

"He has been busy with the entry of the company recently, and I rarely see him, and I occasionally see him, and I leave in a hurry, so it's good to be busy during this time."

Yan Ting nodded, both of them understood that this matter was back to the beginning, but what should Yan Ya do?