Chapter 37: Her Past (Memoirs)

When Zheng Jin returned to her residence, it was already late at night, but she was physically and mentally exhausted, but she couldn't sleep.

Lighting an oil lamp, she took out the Gu worm and stroked it gently, she looked at this Zi Gu, wanting to see the shadow of another person from it, and the memory buried in the deepest part of her heart slowly unsealed-

In the nine years before meeting that person, Zheng Jin never knew what "home" meant.

For as long as she can remember, she has been walking in narrow alleys all year round in rags and rags, holding a notched but clean clay pot. She has no parents and no name, she is not a beggar but she is not much better, she is not bad, she often meets one or two kind-hearted families and gives her some leftovers. She used to meet a kind person, and she was always very happy to stay in the neighborhood, but after a long time, even the kindest people would be impatient, so she gradually learned to observe words and feelings, and knew how to stop in moderation.

She has received too many cold eyes, and has received a lot of kind help, what she remembers most clearly is that a grandmother gave her two freshly steamed green vegetable bean dregs buns, the buns are still hot, steaming, she hurriedly lined the "clothes" to pick up, and she can feel the warmth through the rags. She had learned to be grateful and self-aware by then, and she knelt down and kowtowed twice before leaving.

"On this cold day, the little girl should stay and have a cup of hot tea." Grandma was sad and wanted to leave her for a hot meal, but the little girl stubbornly shook her head and left.

She couldn't remember how she came here when she was younger, she thought she would live like this in the future, but she just couldn't resist the aroma coming from the restaurant, and when she wanted to sneak into the restaurant lobby to find some food, she met him.

He was her master, though he never let himself be called that. And she called him her father-in-law.

"The little girl is cleaned up," he tugged at the rags on the little girl, "how old are you?" ”

"I don't know." The little girl looked at his square face, but she didn't recognize life at all, eating the nest head he stuffed, she asked back, "How old are you?" ”

"Me?" The man laughed, "I'm twenty-nine." ”

"Do you have a name?" The man continued to question her, and brought her another bowl of soup.

The little girl shook her head, and buried herself in the soup without replying.

"Would you like to be my family? I also have a son, who is only eight or nine years old, and he is always clamoring for an older brother or sister, and I went back this time to tell him that he would be very happy. ”

The little girl looked up at him, "Family"? Is it like Brother Wang and Aunt Wang who can sit at the same table and eat all the time? She looked at the man in front of her, his face did not have the pity of those who had given her before, and the little girl nodded, she wanted to have something to eat.

"Look at you, you're about ten years old...... Even if you're eleven years old. The man looked at her figure, "I'm too thin, but if I want to learn martial arts, I have to be eleven years old at the latest." ”

The little girl didn't understand him, and she drank the soup and heard him talk a lot.

"Jin'er is going to be happy!"

"When I come back from this trip, take Jin'er and you to learn martial arts together."

They made an agreement to wait for him to come home to pick up his son and then come back to her.

The little girl waited in the alleyway next to the restaurant every day. After three days of what he said, he did not wait for him, and after another three days, the little girl waited for a group of men with sallow faces and bad expressions. She was sold to work as a maid in a red, green and green building.

She still remembered the agreement with the man, she ran every day, was caught every day, was beaten hard every day with hunger, and later when she learned light skills, all she thought about was the fierce face of the bustard mother and the sticks that the guards dropped in turn.

Finally, one day, just when she felt like she was going to be killed, the man appeared.

She survived, and she was the only one in the entire building.

"Are you afraid of me?" The man asked her, and there was a lot of blood under their feet, and the little girl shook her head, knowing that the man was protecting her. Looking at the red ground, and then at the man's red eyes, she noticed an extra scar on his face.

"You don't have a brother anymore." The man said.

The man took her with him and left the town, and he bought a small thatched hut in one place. also named her Zheng Jin.

"You will follow your deceased wife's surname Zheng, and your single name will be a Jin'er, and you will call me my father-in-law."

The small thatched hut is their "home".

The man stayed in the thatched hut for a few days, drank heavily every day, and when he was rarely sober, he asked Zheng Jin to exercise and take a horse walk. What the man has lost, Xiao Zheng Jin doesn't know, she only knows that she has a father and a family.

For the next three years, every two or three months, the man would "come down" to see her. The man taught her to read and write, light internal strength, poison medicine, makeup and disguise, Zheng Jin was very diligent, and every time he came, her progress surprised him.

She wanted to behave well and make her father-in-law happy, but he became more and more depressed, more and more gloomy, and came less and less.

When Zheng Jin was fourteen years old, he never appeared again, leaving her only some poison, a Gu worm, and a note:

"Jin'er, I can't be so numb myself anymore, I have something I have to do, maybe a year and a half, maybe three or five years, maybe no return. You always want to go to the rivers and lakes, and now that you have achieved something, I will not stop you again, but remember, you must walk in the face of a man. I have nothing else to give you, but some poison that is not to be used lightly, lest it cause trouble; There is another Zi Gu, if there is a danger to your life, I can receive a message if you kill it, and the rivers and lakes will also rush to protect you with all their might. Wangjin'er is safe and secure, safe and secure, and cherished. ”

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In the dim candle flame, Zheng Jin gently touched the Gu worm in her palm, how fragile this insect was, as long as she pressed it a little harder, it would die. This is one of the few things he left for himself, how many times in the past three years has her life hung by a thread and she has not been willing to destroy it, but in countless nights of reminiscing about the past, she almost couldn't help but want to strangle this Gu worm to see if it was really as he said that she would rush with all her might. She wanted to see him, but Zheng Jin finally held back, if he made fun of Gu worms, he would be very disappointed in himself.

Zheng Jin carefully put away the Gu worms, blew out the candles, she sat alone in the quiet and dark room and tried to calm down, but once the box of the past was opened, the past appeared in front of her one by one, as if those days were yesterday.

"Master...... Where are you? ”

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PS: Yu Chen has something to say:

I wanted to introduce it briefly, but I felt that it might drag out the plot if I talked about it later, so I just finished it all at once.

I want to emphasize that this chapter is not Zheng Jin's miserable sales, she doesn't feel miserable at all, we Zheng Jin are cheerful and optimistic little suns!!

(Ahem, ahem, that...... Those who feel sorry for Xiao Zheng Jin can vote for recommendation! Crazy hint JPG)