Day 114 (2) The last straw that crushed the camel
"Tang Yue, don't be discouraged, it's only the first batch of seeds that died, and there are still tomato seeds left on Kunlun Station." Mai Dong said, "You can continue to plant, and I believe that you will succeed in the end." โ
"yes...... It's going to work, I know. Tang Yue sat in a plastic greenhouse, leaning back against the isotope temperature difference generator, holding a frozen plant in his hand, "I know." โ
Although he said this, Tang Yue didn't look like he wanted to move at all, he just sat on the floor with a gloomy gaze.
Mai Dong is in a hurry, the most important thing to survive in a desperate situation is will, and sometimes it is the difference in one breath, which will determine whether you can survive out of the desperate situation in the end. Once a person loses the confidence to live and the belief in struggling to survive, then a person will quickly collapse, which is a collapse from the top to the bottom from the inside out, and there is nothing more dangerous than giving up on self-help.
Ever since the earth disappeared, Tang Yue has always been more optimistic than Mai Dong, drinking cold water every day and nibbling on hard biscuits that are hard to swallow, and telling Mai Dong jokes.
He and the old cat tried to create an atmosphere where human society still exists, and not to think about the Earth that disappeared 100 million kilometers away.
But now even the old cat is missing.
I can't talk about it.
Tomato seedlings were all frozen to death, perhaps the last straw that crushed the camel, Tang Yue's last self-rescue efforts failed, which wiped out the little bit of sharpness he had left, Tang Yue could of course continue to plant the remaining tomato seeds, but the final result may also continue to fail.
The result of failed tomato cultivation is scurvy.
As his condition worsens, he will bleed from the mucous membranes of the whole body, mouth ulcers and even ulceration, bone calcium loss, muscle atrophy and weakness, and finally paralyzed and incapacitated, waiting for death.
The result is predictable, and it is enough to drive someone into despair and drive them crazy.
So Tang Yue dug his grave early, as the last two human beings in the universe, he represents the vast number of male compatriots around the world, so he has to die with dignity and dignity, and it is really miserable and unimaginable to collapse in Kunlun Station and slowly rot.
Mai Dong has no way of knowing Tang Yue's true psychological state, but she herself now has mild depression, and it is not difficult to guess that this man's heart is under more pressure than her, and this pressure will increase with time. Although Tang Yue is very heartless when he appears in the video every day, no one knows what he is thinking when he looks at his bruised body outside the camera's field of vision.
Tang Yue silently held the corpses of Zhang Wuji, Yang Dingtian and the Wudang Seven Heroes.
He had just realized that these plants were as important as himself, and they had been killed by low temperatures, Tang Yue didn't understand which part of his plan had a loophole, was the heat provided by RTG and high-pressure sodium lamps insufficient? Or are the insulation measures not done well?
But he had exhausted all his means, everything he could use.
Still couldn't keep them.
Tang Yue exhausted all his energy, he was too tired.
"Mai Dong."
"Huh?"
"When I was on Earth, I never knew it would be so difficult to survive, the air was everywhere, fresh water was readily available, and food was thrown away while eating." Tang Yue raised his head and looked at the hatch of the airlock chamber, "We never have to struggle for survival, when did it start that survival no longer became the goal we fought for?" โ
"In nature, the birth, old age, sickness and death of any living individual are normal, and every life is struggling to survive, so there will naturally be individuals who fail, and in the face of these individuals who fail in competition, you should look a little more open and be calm, because they are also part of nature......
"Tang Yue, Tang Yue...... Don't talk about that, or I'll tell you a joke, right? Mai Dong stammered, "Once upon a time, there was a unicorn that ran away to the North Pole. โ
Tang Yue turned his head.
"And then it turns into ice cream!"
Tang Yue was stunned for a long time.
"No...... Isn't it funny? โ
"It's funny." Tang Yue nodded and said, "Hahahaha." โ
"Why don't I tell you another one? Once upon a time, when I was in college, there was a hide-and-seek club, and the club activity was to play hide and seek everywhere, but the head of that club has not been found until now. โ
Tang Yue was dumbfounded.
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Tang Yue's spirit was sluggish, and Mai Dong was anxious, but she didn't know what method to use to get him back up.
"And Mr. Cat! We've got to find Mr. Cat! So you have to try to survive, and if even you give up, then who's going to find it? Didn't you say that you want to see a cat when you live, and you want to see a dead cat when you die? โ
"yes, we have to find the old cat."
"So you have to hurry up and plant the remaining tomato seeds again, let them grow, bloom, and bear fruit, so that you can save yourself!"
"Yes, I need to hurry."
"Then hurry up and get moving! Time waits for no one! The faster you progress, the better, because your vitamin stores are limited and you can't put it off, did you hear what I said? โ
"Yes...... I had to act. โ
No matter what Mai Dong said, Tang Yue nodded and said yes, but Mai Dong just couldn't see him move, and the latter sat on the floor leaning on the RTG, his face numb.
This is the situation that worries Mai Dong the most, Tang Yue has fallen into deep self-doubt, he has lost his way in his purposeless life, and has lost the purpose and motivation to survive.
"Then you can move, Tang Yue, please move! If you start over, is it so difficult to sprout again, plant tomatoes again, and work harder? What problem can you solve by sitting here so depressed? Mai Dong's voice became higher and higher, and finally he was close to shouting, "You're still not a man, are you?" โ
"Of course it is." Tang Yue tilted his head, a little helpless, "I'm sitting here just because my legs are numb and I can't stand up for a while." โ
Mai Dong shrank his head: ...... Oh.
"You look at these tomato seedlings, I gave them everything I could, I even gave them all my clothes and blankets, but they still froze to death, I don't know why." Tang Yue pointed to the Wudang Seven Heroes in his hand, held them up and raised them high, "Do you really think there will be any difference in the result if you do it again?" โ
"Who can tell for sure what the end result will be without trying it once?" Mai Dong's eyes stared at Tang Yue burningly, this girl burst out of great power out of nowhere, "Do you remember what you told me at the beginning?" If you don't want to live anymore, then I'll think for you! โ
Tang Yue was stunned, then shook his head and smiled, and let out a long sigh.
He leaned on the table beside him and slowly straightened up and moved his legs.
"I just can't bear to let these poor little things go to death anymore......"