43. Regrets at the end of winter
"It's so cold!"
"Yes! You should wear more out! A man who was almost thirty years old said to another man next to him.
The two of them walked side by side, as if they wanted to do something.
"Have you prepared the tools?"
"Ready, go to my house."
The man who asked the question first was tall, thin, and strong, and although he was nearly thirty years old, he could still see how handsome he was when he was young, and although his hair was a little messy and his clothes were a little torn, it still did not affect his attractive appearance.
The man invited to his house was not tall, but he was also very thin, and he had a hairstyle that was very far from modern times, so did he not want to cut his hair or did he not have the money to cut his hair?
The tall and handsome man said; "To be honest Zhao Yi, I don't really want to go to your house, and your daughter-in-law is going to complain about the two of us not doing our jobs again."
Zhao Yi lowered his head and looked at the tall man again; "Then what can I do, I came to your house to find you."
"Forget it, let's go."
"Lu Qingchen! You hooked up with Zhao Yi again! Zhao Yi's daughter-in-law began to shout as soon as she saw the two people entering the house.
The two of them wanted to sneak in and quickly ran out, but they didn't expect to be discovered.
Lu Qingchen scratched the back of his head; "Sister-in-law, you see this is not ......"
Without waiting for Lu Qingchen to finish speaking, Zhao Yi pulled Lu Qingchen out and talked to his wife; "Wife, I'll be back later!"
Two men managed to escape; "I really don't want to come to your house." Lu Qingchen said.
"Let's go, go to the river, I'm definitely bigger than you fishing today!" Zhao Yi said to Lu Qingchen.
When the two of them came to the river, they saw a white expanse in front of them, covered with snow, found a place, chiseled a piece of ice with a tool, and the two began to fish for life!
Talking about the heart, talking about the dream of the future, and then waiting for the fish to take the bait, for the two of them, this kind of life is already content, birth, old age, sickness and death, and they have never thought of leaving this town in this life.
Two people were sitting there leisurely, and suddenly a man ran over; "Oh no, no, something big!"
Except for Lu Qingchen's younger brother Lu Qingze, who else knows that these two people are here?
Lu Qingchen's eyes widened, and he was brought into a hurried expression by Lu Qingze; "Slow down, what's wrong?"
"Sister-in-law, sister-in-law." Lu Qingze gasped as he spoke.
"You mean, what's wrong with my daughter-in-law?"
"She may, she's going to give birth!"
Lu Qingchen was stunned for a moment, and suddenly came to his senses; "What are you waiting for? Let's go! ”
The three of them didn't even bother to take the tools, and ran home all the way at a sprint speed, quick, call an ambulance, hurry!
Lu Qingze took out a mobile phone owned by three people, dialed the hospital, and within a few minutes, the ambulance and Lu Qingchen arrived at his house together.
Lu Qingchen sat in the ambulance, looking at his wife Xiangying lying in front of him, how anxious and urgent his heart was.
While waiting, the ambulance arrived at the hospital, and the medical staff came down to pick up Xiangying and enter the delivery room.
An hour, two hours, three hours passed, and the three of them kept waiting to play in the delivery room, why waiting, waiting, just couldn't wait for news.
Another twenty minutes passed, and the nurse walked out, Lu Qingchen looked at the nurse with a very heavy expression, his heart beat faster, he shook his head in disbelief, but he still couldn't help asking; "How's it going?"
The nurse hesitated, but said it with a resolute heart; "I'm sorry, we tried our best, because the situation is too urgent, we can only get your opinion and make a choice, report big or keep small?" The nurse asked with regret.
Lu Qingze and Zhao Yi couldn't sit down next to them, and both of them were even more nervous.
"Isn't there a way to do both?" Lu Qingchen asked with hope and expectation.
The nurse bowed her head and said sorry; "I'm sorry."
"Qingchen, I finally got pregnant with this child, this time I can't waste my previous efforts, the doctor said I don't have a chance, but this child is a miracle for me, for me is my lifelong faith, so I hope that one day, if I am born, if something happens to me that day, you must protect the child, she is my hope!" This is what Xiangying said to Lu Qingchen while lying on the bed one day, and she was very serious when she said it.
"Make your decision!" Nurses are desperate for options.
Lu Qingchen was chilled all over his body and began to tremble, how could he still have the strength to clench his fists, he only hated his incompetence now, he failed to protect his wife, and he could only choose between the two.
"Child, or wife."
A lover who has liked him for nearly ten years, and a child who is about to be born.
"You must promise me!" This was the last thing Xiangying said to Lu Qingchen that day.
"Let's protect the baby." Lu Qingchen whispered this sentence and trembled again.
Zhao Yi and Lu Qingze, who were sitting on the side, lowered their heads and were silent.
Lu Qingchen had tears in the corners of his eyes, he bit his lower lip, his eyes wandered, obviously he was still talking about ideals and life in the last second, why would he experience life and death in the next second!
It's been a long wait again, and I don't know how long it has passed.
The cry of a baby resounded throughout the delivery room, and even arrived in the outside world, as if it was shouting, as if it was calling, as if it was a newborn life shining at this moment.
A big man's eyes were full of tears, holding the child, suddenly a tear fell on the baby's face, he hugged affectionately, and hugged the child into his arms; "Don't cry, don't cry, Dad is here, I'll call you Luxiang in the future."
The nurse and the doctor comforted with a little regret; "She is a very good-looking girl, Lu Xiang will definitely place all her mother's visions in the future!"
Lu Qingchen walked over and looked at Xiangying who was lying on the bed without breathing, he hoped that she could talk to him, suddenly, it was snowing outside, and the sky became cold, at that moment, the sun was gone, and the snow was flying, full of silver, full of white.
The scenery in front of you is white, and the scenery outside is white.
But another light came, and he seemed to be hallucinating, as if he had heard something.
"Master, do you want this pregnant woman to say goodbye to this man, their ten years of love ended up like this, which makes me feel so uncomfortable."
A man dressed in black said; "Go ahead, pick her up later."
Suddenly, a light appeared, pouring into Lu Qingchen's eyes like an illusion, and he opened his mouth wide; "Ying'er, Ying'er, look, look at our children."
Xiangying said with a smile; "I saw it, you did a good job and agreed to my wish, you must take care of Xiang'er in the future, and we will see you in the next life."
Lu Qingchen hugged Xiangying tightly, blinked again, and instantly turned into nothingness, he was holding the air, and the snow outside was also falling as usual, it turned out that everything was an illusion, I thought it was real, and I was saying goodbye.
The real parting is always quiet, or simply a word, and we have never met since then.
Lu Qingchen cried for a long time, holding Xiangying's hand tightly, and there was still warmth.
"We started falling in love at the age of nineteen, we went through the ups and downs together, through the ups and downs, through the tiredness, through the loneliness, but we still have each other, you are my eternal weakness, and I will always love the person!"
I don't know why, maybe it's the non-stop snow outside, Lu Xiang keeps crying and crying, non-stop, maybe she keeps thinking, why don't I see my mother.
Zhao Yi and Lu Qingze still couldn't calm down, the people who existed like relatives, who didn't stay for a moment, were gone.
We have all been lost, maybe we have all panicked, but in the end, in this moment of uneasy world, as long as I can meet you, it is the happiest thing for me.
Time passed, and suddenly one day, Lu Xiang would ask; "Dad, why have I never seen Mom? Didn't you say she went far away? But I miss her so much! ”
Lu Qingchen squatted down and pinched Lu Xiang's little face; "Xiang'er, didn't Dad tell you? When you reach twenty, your mother will come back, and she misses you too, but she works far away, and their boss is very bad and won't let her come back. After Lu Qingchen said this, he held back the tears in his eyes, sobbed, and still said to the eight-year-old child in front of him with a smile.
"Alright then, then Daddy doesn't leave me."
This time it's a heartfelt laugh, maybe it's psychological comfort; "Pull the hook!"
Zhao Yi stood next to Lu Qingchen and asked; "So you're going to keep it hidden in this way?"
Whenever he mentioned the event, he would hesitate; "Let's take one step at a time, it's been eight years, and I've still missed her for eight years."
Zhao Yi sighed; "Time does not leave anyone!"
"Brother, how many times have I said it, isn't it good to take Xiang'er to the city to live, you have to be stubborn, let her live in such a small place, such a good-looking little girl, dressed in tatters every day, can that be good?" Lu Qingze said resentfully.
"How many times have I told you, Lu Xiang was born here and is alive here, unless she has the idea of going out and going to a big place to have a look, I will not waver!" Lu Qingchen said resolutely, without hesitation.
"Oh, stay at grandma's house obediently, don't run around!" Lu Qingchen gave Lu Xiang a piece of candy and told her to stay at her grandmother's house and not run around.
All the way to the north, up the mountain, all the way away, finally climbed through many obstacles, and came to the destination.
He placed a flower in front of the tombstone, it was a violet.
Xiang Ying's favorite flower before her death.
"It's been eight years, how are you doing? Are you okay? I'm very good, my daughter is also very good, I miss you very much, all the time, recently my daughter asked about you again, I lied to her and said that you went to work far away, I said that you will come back when my daughter is twenty years old, I really miss you, Xiang'er she grows bigger and bigger, the longer she grows more beautiful, like you. I don't want her to take half a step away from me. ”
"Recently...... How are you doing? Lu Qingchen's tears had slipped to the corners of his mouth, frowning, clenching his teeth, looking at the sun in the distance, it seemed that he was still alive.